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Saber's Journal Friday, August 26th 3:30 am
I had been sneaking to the kitchen early in the morning to grab enough food for the day. I didn’t want to see anyone, and I didn’t want to be social. I just wanted to be alone until he tells me I can leave. Creeping down the stairs, I made my way to the kitchen. Upon my arrival, I turned on the light and jumped. Sitting at one of the stools at the island was Aziel. His eyes were unfocused, and it appeared he hadn’t noticed that I had turned on the light. Ignoring him, I went about my business.“Are you going to keep avoiding me?” His words were slurred. Clearly someone decided to get into some alcohol tonight. Looking over, he was looking at me with a pleading look.“What is there to say, Aziel? You got someone else pregnant. You should be letting me go, I shouldn’t be here anyway.” I kind of plead with him in the hope that he would change his mind and just let me go. I could leave but I needed the ring, and he would be able to find me with the mark on my neck.“It’s not mine.”“What
Last Updated : 2024-10-29Saber's Journal Saturday, August 27th 8:30 am
I had managed to avoid Aziel all day yesterday, it was made easier by his need to also avoid me. Clearly, we weren’t going to talk about what took place in his office. Which was good because I couldn’t think of anything to explain what had occurred. Today, it was already different, it’s like wherever I went in the house or outside I was followed by a rather large shadow. I large shadow that refused to say anything. I was starting to become extremely annoyed.“Are you going to keep following me around all day? Could you at least say something?” I broke the silence between us while continuing to stare at the book I had been trying to read for the past ten minutes. Putting it down I turned and stared at him.“I didn’t think you would want to talk.” He huffed while looking at the book he was pretending to read. It appeared to be some form of romance. I wonder why he chose that one or was it just the first one he could manage to grab?“Well, if you’re going to act as my shadow, you might a
Last Updated : 2024-10-29Saber's Journal 12:00 pm
We had gotten to talking again about music and lost track of time while we were in the library. So, it took us a little bit of time to make it into the kitchen. When we finally arrived, we both didn’t know what to eat. Aziel decided to ask Kade to grab us a pizza since he was on the way to the pack house for business anyway.“What kind of pizza do you like?”“Do they have BBQ sauce?”“I think so.”“Can they do a BBQ, chicken, mushroom, and jalapeno pizza?” He gave me an odd look.“That sounds like something Kade would eat. Are you sure you’re not related in some weird way?” He raised his eyebrows at me and gave me a large smile.“Possibly. I’m sure we would make great siblings.”It wasn’t long until the front door opened and we could hear Kade singing as he entered. “Don’t you wish your girlfriend was hot like me? Don’t you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me? Don’t cha?” He came in popping his butt out, which was impressive with how he held the pizza from falling.“Encore! Encor
Last Updated : 2024-10-29Saber's Journal 2:20 pm
On my run, I came to the pond again in the clearing and decided to take a break. Dipping my feet into the pond, I thought about everything that had happened this morning. I just didn’t understand how he could go from wanting to give this a chance to not being sure if he wanted me to stay, all based on what their Elders had to say. Was the bond affecting me stronger than it was him? Should I try to get the ring and run soon? I had to come up with a plan. I don’t want to be stuck here if he doesn’t want me to be here and it doesn’t seem like he’s all that committed to keeping me around.I heard a rustling in the trees. Looking over I could see the blonde hair hitting the light first, followed by the body of a supermodel. I couldn’t catch a break today. Liv spotted me and walked towards me like she was on a mission.“I was hoping I would find you somewhere around here. How dare you take him from me? He was mine. I had him all to myself finally, then you showed up.” She sneered at me. “Wh
Last Updated : 2024-10-29Saber's Journal Saturday, September 3rd 11:00 pm
It had been a week since my fight with Liv and everything being relieved to me. Liv had been quiet, and I learned from Kade that Aziel had threatened her life if she ever came near me again. Aziel and I had been growing closer, but there was still everything from the past week that we hadn’t talked about. It was like the elephant in the room every time we saw each other. Kade and I would hang out when Aziel had “things to do”. I wasn’t sure what those things were because he refused to talk with me about anything substantial. So, Kade and I hung out. Since the day with Liv, I was always with one of them. I could even hear them moving around in the hallway after I went to bed.We were watching Underworld and talking about how Lycans looked nothing like that when they were around and how different the vampires acted in the movie than in real life, when in stumbled Aziel. He smelt like a bar threw up on him. I looked at Kade with questioning eyes. He looked at me then quickly looked away
Last Updated : 2024-10-29Saber's Journal Sunday, September 4th 12:01 am
I nearly dropped his phone when he spoke behind me. Turning to look at him, he looked steadier on his feet and didn’t appear to be as drunk.“Weren’t you just so drunk you were falling over?”“Wolf metabolism. It’s amazing, no?” He gave me a look like I should know this, but my metabolism was no where what his apparently is. So that means when he was drunk that one night not so long ago, he wasn’t as drunk as I thought he was.“Well, mine doesn’t work that way.” Handing him back his phone, I went to the fridge and pulled out some sliced cheese and butter. “Want a grilled cheese?”“Sure. It would definitely help soak up the rest of the alcohol.”“Oh, you’re not getting off that easily.”“What do you mean?”“We’re going to play a shot game.” Moving to the oven I started a burner and put a pan on it. “It’s time for you to be honest with me.”“I have been honest with you.” Looking over my shoulder I stared at him. “Well, as close as I can be to honest.”I got the bread down and spread a t
Last Updated : 2024-10-29Saber's Journal Sunday, September 4th 4:30 am
We both continued to look at Kade till he cleared his throat again. I was still sitting on Aziel and that became even more apparent as he shifted uncomfortably underneath me. Quickly I moved to get off and started to fall. Two arms caught me around the waist and heaved me back up. And I was back to straddling Aziel. “How do we keep finding ourselves like this?” I giggled. Wait, giggled? I was starting to sound like some love-struck schoolgirl.“It doesn’t bother me any, please sit on me whenever the mood strikes you.” He gave me a dashing smirk that made me want to kiss him again. Hearing another throat clearing, I moved slowly this time to get off of him. I couldn’t look Kade in the eyes.“Now that that’s over. Why don’t we all go to bed and act like none of this ever happened in the morning?” Kade clutched his robe around himself dramatically and left the living room.“So, um…”“Yeah. Ready to go to bed?” We couldn’t make eye contact; this was so awkward.“Like together? Or I got to
Last Updated : 2024-10-29Saber's Journal 10:15 pm
I collapsed onto Aziel’s bed. It had been hours of shopping with Kade. And I had little to show for it. Kade, on the other hand, had more bags than we could fit into the trunk of the car. We ended up stacking them in the back seat of his car. It was pure insanity that someone could need that many clothes. Then, after it was all over, I decided to move into Aziel’s room. Which took me even more time, even with the little I did have, because his room was such a neat freak disaster, and I didn’t know how to fit into it. At one point, I just gave up and threw my stuff into the corner of his closet.Hearing the door open, I looked up as Aziel entered. He gave me an assessing look.“Went shopping with Kade?” There was a laugh in his voice. Pushing my head into the bed, I screamed. “Never going to do that again, huh?”Looking up at him, I was on the verge of tears. “How does one person need that many clothes? Where does he put them all? How do you have that many clothing stores in such a sma
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Saber's Journal 11:57 am
Looking down I can see my babies head coming out. Mother had called for a midwife. And it happened soon after. Aziel was taking it like a boss, still holding my hand through it all. Once the baby was out the midwife, Claire turned to him. “Alpha, would you like to do the honors?” She had already clamped the cord off.He looked green as he gave a mumbled “yes”. And cut the cord. I never thought to ask him if he was okay with this part of birth.“Momma, we need skin time.” Came Claire’s voice. I opened my arms up to the baby. She laid the baby on my chest. “Are you ready for the sex?” Aziel and I looked at her with bated breath. “Alpha and Luna, you have a healthy… (This pause wasn’t needed) girl!”I looked at Aziel first, would he hate me for giving him a daughter. All he did was rub her head lightly with a “Perfect” on his lips. I smiled at him and looked down at our little girl.“What should we name her?”“What names did you have picked out?”Side-eyeing him, I couldn’t remember but
Saber's Journal 5 am
The pain was steadily increasing as the time passed. But it still felt like I was a way out from getting this baby out of me. Aziel had called about an hour ago and said they landed, but I know it takes an hour to get from Dallas to us. They should be here any time now and I couldn’t wait to see Aziel’s face. Another hard contraction hit me, and I pulled my legs up to my chest, or at least what would be my chest if not for my stomach being in the way. Mother looked at me with concern. I think she was worried that this wasn’t moving as fast as she hoped, but it had only been four hours.We heard a loud knock from the front door. “I’ll be right back.” Mother said with a look at me. Walking out into the hallway, she cracked the door. I could hear her light footsteps fading away until they got to the front door. I heard her open in and a laugh.Kade’s voice reached me, his excited tone giving away how happy he was to be here. “Yeah. He’s been like that for a while now. Can’t figure out wh
Saber's Journal 6:45 pm
I blocked the link. I don’t want him to know that I know about Liv. My heart and head are in turmoil. I feel like I can’t breathe as I hang up the phone without saying a word. He already moved on. It’s the only thought I can focus on. He already moved on. He didn’t really love me.Vix trying to talk to me but I push her out. I robotically turn to the door and walk out into the hallway. Moving slowly, I walk into the kitchen. Mother looks up from her book, putting it down she moves over to me, without saying a word, she wraps her arms around me. I can’t hold bad the tears anymore. The dam breaks in my mind and all the emotions come flooding out. Mother doesn’t ask any question; she just holds me as I fall apart.After what feels like forever of crying, I run out of tears. Looking into her vibrant green eyes, I see tears for the first time in a long time. “Want to tell me what happened?”Taking in a shaky breath, I tell her about how I called and Liv answering.“How do you know there wa
Saber's Journal Tuesday, October 11th 4:30 pm
It had been a month since I came back. Nothing had changed within the Skulk. I had given my mother the ring and left her presence. I couldn’t find it in me to look her in the eyes. She knows what she has done to me. What I have given up for my people.Sighing, I look down at the pregnancy test. It had been over a month, and I still hadn’t had my period. Thinking back, I should have been smarter about this. I should have been on birth control, but who thinks they’ll meet their mate on a covert mission? Two lines slowly form on the test, and I feel the tears in my eyes. I can’t believe this is happening. Grabbing another test out of the box, I turn to the toilet. Just five more. Just five more then, I’ll be sure. There will be no debating it at that point.Looking down at the six pregnancy tests, I crumple into tears. Does the Goddess hate me for giving up my mate? For leaving? Should I go back?There’s a knock on the door. Wiping my eyes, I throw the tests into the trashcan. Wiping my
Saber's Journal 12:13 pm
I had finally shifted bac when Vix got tired of running. Looking around, I found myself in the clearing with the pond. Walking over to it, I sat down on the edge letting my feet dangle in the water. I had no care for my naked state sitting there out in the open. The wind through the trees felt nice and I couldn’t hold back my raging thoughts anymore.I needed to get the ring. If only to stop the war that would happen. I war, I was afraid, my people wouldn’t win. But I had fallen in love with him. I wanted to be here now. Could I betray him like this? For the Skulk, I know I have to. Signing, I looked up at the clouds that were rolling in. It was going to be a nasty storm that hits. Hearing a branch break, I look behind me. Looking back, I see Dezz, Aziel’s wolf walking in through the trees, in a blink of the eye. There is Aziel, looking at me with concern in his eyes.Taking a deep breath, I stand. He looks as me like he’s asking for permission. Slightly nodding my head, he moves towa
Saber's Journal Tuesday, September 6th 5:00am
I felt warm, but not overly warm. There is something hard, but comfortable underneath me. I feel like I’m floating on a cloud. But I came crashing back to earth when I realize I don’t have any clothes on. Shooting up out of bed, I run to the bathroom. Breathing heavily. Memories come back to me, and I turn a deep shade of red. Looking at myself in the mirror, I don’t look any different, but I feel so strange. Walking over to the shower I turn it on and hop in. The cold water feels good on my skin after a night of burning. Hearing a knock at the door, I turn to look at it and watch as Aziel walks in. Turning back to the water, I locate the shampoo and lather up my hair. Hearing the shower door open, I turn back around to look at Aziel. “Good morning.” “Good morning.” I turn up the heat to the shower and rinse my hair out. Moving out of the way, I grab a wash rag, wet it, and get the body wash. As I lather that up into a fine foam, I move around Aziel to stand next to the wall so he c
Saber's Journal 8:30 am
Running along the trails, we took a break in the cleaning with the pond. Taking my shoes off, I dipped my feet into the water to cool them down. “Are you going to get in too?” I looked over at Aziel, he was just in a pair of shorts and shoes. He looked like a Greek God who just stepped off Mount Olympus. Smiling at me, he kicked is shoes off and steps into the pond.“Are you ready to help me with all the preparations?” He glances over at me with an intense look in his cold blue eyes. I wonder for a second what would happen if I said no and backed out of helping.“Yes. It’ll be nice to see more of this little town and not just the shopping centers.” I put on a face remembering the pain from yesterday. Aziel chuckles next to me.“Did he really traumatize you that much?”“I was what I imagine being in purgatory would be like.” Suddenly, there was a wave of heat throughout my body starting at my toes. Grabbing onto Aziels arm, I steadied myself. As fast as it came it was gone a second lat
Saber's Journal Monday, September 5th 7:30 am
When I had finally convinced myself to come out of the bathroom the previous night. I had found Aziel already asleep in bed. I had tried to nudge him awake, but I was unsuccessful. Instead, I curled up into the bed next to him. Waking up in the morning was tough. I was so warm and comfortable sheltered in his arms. Moving around I started to wake up a little more. A muffled groan met my movement, and something was hard against my hip. Realizing what it was, I jumped out of bed and fell on the floor. Laughter met my sudden departure. Leaning over the bed Aziel looked down at me.“Comfortable?” He laughed.Getting up slowly, I rubbed my sore bottom. “That’s one way to wake up in the morning.” Looking down at him on the bed, I could see the offensive bulge in his boxers. “Put that thing away before you hurt someone.”Looking down at himself, he started to laugh harder. “It’s not like I can help it!”“Mhm. Sure, you can’t.” I rolled my eyes at him and went to the closet to get some differ
Saber's Journal 10:15 pm
I collapsed onto Aziel’s bed. It had been hours of shopping with Kade. And I had little to show for it. Kade, on the other hand, had more bags than we could fit into the trunk of the car. We ended up stacking them in the back seat of his car. It was pure insanity that someone could need that many clothes. Then, after it was all over, I decided to move into Aziel’s room. Which took me even more time, even with the little I did have, because his room was such a neat freak disaster, and I didn’t know how to fit into it. At one point, I just gave up and threw my stuff into the corner of his closet.Hearing the door open, I looked up as Aziel entered. He gave me an assessing look.“Went shopping with Kade?” There was a laugh in his voice. Pushing my head into the bed, I screamed. “Never going to do that again, huh?”Looking up at him, I was on the verge of tears. “How does one person need that many clothes? Where does he put them all? How do you have that many clothing stores in such a sma
