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2024-10-29 19:42:56I couldn’t sleep. It was nagging at me that she could just send me away like this. All I’ve ever known is this skulk. All I’ve ever done is train to take it over and to be the best leader for everyone. My magic is strong, but I don’t know how I’ll fair in the world without back up.
Vix, why would she do this to us? How does she think we’re going to manage alone? I ask my fox in a panic.
You’re worrying too much. You have me and I’m all you’ll ever need. I could practically see her rolling her eyes at me.
But what if something goes wrong and we get captured?
By those mangy mutts? We’ll be fine, Saber. Go to sleep. We have a busy day today preparing for the upcoming journey. I could feel her curling up and getting comfortable in the back of my mind. She also slammed down the barrier between us for good measure. Apparently, she needs her beauty sleep more than she needs to help me work through this.
I fluffed my pillow and tried to get comfortable. Falling into a fitful sleep, I still had the nagging feeling that something was going to go wrong or change.
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