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Rachel staggered, a ringing started in her head, loud and annoying like the buzz of a bee. Her mind was in denial of what she just heard but looking at the solemn faces she knew she had heard right. Ben was…no she didn’t want to think it. It wasn’t possible. Surely she would have heard something. Ben was well-known as a producer so his death shouldn’t go unmentioned. Besides that, it just didn’t seem plausible to Rachel that her friend would be dead.“Miss Rivers you might want to sit down.”“I can’t,” she heard herself say but it didn’t sound like those words came from her. The ringing sound in her head would not stop. Mabel came out of the kitchen wondering what was happening. She was taken aback by the uniformed people in the living room but when she saw the ash pallor of Rachel’s skin that worry flew out the window and she hurried to her sister’s side.“What now?” Mabel asked Eileen with accusation in her eyes. “Haven’t my sister suffered enough already?”“We are sorry but we had
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It was a little while later Larry arrived. He had come bearing news about Ben’s death but seeing Rachel’s swollen eyes he knew she heard the news already. All he could do was wrap his arms around her, his mind going back to the last conversation he had with Ben, the man had mentioned leaving the studio even after the Allen Brothers offered him more shares of the network’s earnings. He couldn’t help but see the red light there.Dropping the takeout food and bottles of wine he had gotten on his way over, he leaned back and peered into Rachel’s tear-stained face. “You don’t think the Allen Brothers could have done this do you?”Rachel didn’t know what to think. “The GHIA seem to think Jacob might be responsible. I fail to see the connection between the Allen Brothers and Jacob. He didn’t even know them, he knew only what I said about them.”“Yet he knew Dana well enough to be cheating on you with her.”“That there was my fault, maybe. Look, Larry, I need time to grieve.”Larry released h
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“Where is the runt?! Where is my son?”Isaiah Kopano came out of his office to see what all the commotion was about. At the entrance of the orphanage where a hassled secretary, a dark-skinned woman with braided hair and a polyester gown was trying to calm the man shouting. It was a bearded man with shaggy hair and worn-out clothes.“What is going on here, Sarah?” Isaiah asked.Sarah turned grateful to find him there. “This man says he is looking for his son.”Isaiah cast a weary gaze at Johann standing there reeking of vomit and booze. He knew Johann very well, everyone in the Miners Village knew him because they had encountered him at one point or another in gutters and on the streets. “Your son?”“Don’t question me, bring him out.”“Well, who is your son?”“Nathaniel or whatever his name is.”Isaiah turned to Sarah who was watching the exchange, she was glad she didn’t have to deal with the smelly, rude, white man stained with grime.“He is talking about the boy who cleans.”Isaiah
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“Nate? Can you hear me?”His eyelids fluttered open. His eyes stung and water seeped from the edges.There was an excited gasp beside him. Suddenly soft hands were cradling his face. At first, he couldn’t see but when he blinked rapidly and the blur cleared he saw Rachel’s tear-streaked face. She was crying and laughing.“You are alive,” she laughed, kissing his face and hair and his nose and cheeks. He groaned. His skin burned and his chest felt tight. He remembered coughing up smoke and being dragged out of the fire. He remembered Mabel hanging limp in his hands. But what he worried about the most was Rachel’s safety. His hand, though heavy as lead, came up to cradle her face. She kissed his palm and cried.“Are you okay?” he croaked. “Are you hurt? The baby?"She shook her head violently. “No I am fine, we are fine. You saved me remember?”He remembered pushing her outside the burning house. He opened his mouth to speak again but could only cough some more. Rachel left his side to
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It wasn’t the first time in his life he told someone the story of his birth and everything he had been through, but it was the first time he told the story as it was without making himself the victim of circumstances. He told her facts, plain and simple and her face animated what she thought about his story. When he talked about the death of his mother she mourned for her and held him and when he talked about Fredrick selling him off her eyes showed her anger. When he talked about Tshepo, her eyes had widened in surprise. “You know that GHIA man?” she asked in astonishment. “He is like a brother to me.” “Yeah, I got that. You did kind of grow up together in a sense.” she was amused. “No wonder he was so concerned about me. He is very protective of you.” “Vera said the same thing,” he confessed, burying his fingers in the curls of her hair. He enjoyed the feel of her soft body pressed against his. Rachel rose on her elbow to reward him with a questioning glare. “Vera?” “Ah, I see
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Rachel was watching him as she spoke and she frowned.“I am ready to tell you everything you need to know. The only reason I could come clean earlier, even after it became obvious that I was falling hard again for another woman was because I was genuinely scared of another Vera situation. I truly was ready to come clean until I came into the study that day and saw that you already saw the videos and emails I kept.”“I was hurt, Nate.”“I know,” he pressed forward and reached for her hand. She wouldn’t let him hold her. He didn’t want to give up just yet. She had every right to be angry but he wanted her back and he was ready to brave through the thorns of her heart to win her back. “I am a bastard for what I did but if there’s one thing I must do right, it’s to make you happy all over again and I cannot forgive myself until I do that.”She bowed her head. “Forgiving you won’t be easy.”“I will keep trying until I die if that’s how long it would take.”She raised shimmering eyes to his
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SURRENDER TO YOUR HIDDEN DESIRES. Chapter 73 Seeking Help.
He needed help.He did. He stared at Vera’s head as she bowed her head crying into her hand to muffle her sobs, unable to move. For a long time he could only watch her and when he opened his mouth to speak his voice was a croak.“You really think I need help?”She sniffed and lifted her head to wipe at her eyes. “You do, Nate. I thought about it for a long time and realized I wasn’t fair to you when I left. Our marriage vows were for better or worse and I broke them, leaving you when I could have helped.”“Was I really that terrible?”“You are not a terrible person. What you do for those children in Gabore is more than enough proof of that. You give them hope, you make them smile again, and provide more than they can ever hope for. You are a good person but you do take people who care about you for granted. You perceive us as enemies. For a long time, I thought I could change you, I thought loving you and letting you have your way with me for your pleasure would convince you that I wa
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It surprised him how easily the media ate up Jacob’s lies. But Nate thought he shouldn’t be surprised at all. It wasn’t the first time the man lied on national television and he seemed so fearless about it too.Tshepo voiced what he was thinking. “If you are thinking Jacob Henderson has friends in high places you are not wrong. Arresting him will be difficult. I have dug through a lot of his messes in the past and that sex trade of his is far more complicated than you and I can ever think about. We are talking Jeffrey Epstein's type of business. He has senators, tycoons, governors even Monarchs in the palm of his hands. He is an underdog with much more power than the man on the seat.”“So you are saying you cannot put a stop to his evil?” Nate asked, annoyed that he already knew Tshepo’s answer.Tshepo shook his head. “Not until I know what his endgame is. There is a bigger picture here, I can’t tell you the details neither can I tell you about my suspicions but keeping you safe is th
