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REMORSE

Author: JOSSY
last update Last Updated: 2024-08-12 17:52:50

“I am sorry.” Ray utters. The words rolled so softly and with a sweet echo that stroked the walls of my heart, beseeching me for forgiveness.

Sorry? He said that countless times when he was making love to me. That was his starting style, and I didn’t know if his thrusts carried the same meaning. Or maybe they did; that is why I enjoyed it so much.

“Like I said, I didn’t know how to face the situation. I did not have a better way to push you away. I was an idiot. I am sorry. Can you please listen to me? Even just this once?” He pleads again, closing the gap that existed between us in an attempt to hug my hands. I thrust myself away, creating another distance between us.

His merable eyes will not bewitch me today. His desperation will not throw me into this. I was also desperate and miserable when he let me go without even caring where I was going. He knew I had no home to go back to. He knew my stepfamily never wanted me. Yet, despite all that, he watched me leave for nowhere. He didn’
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