I love this life. I know it is cruel of me to confess it but I can't stop thinking about the fact that I have to go away from Dane whenyge gets better. That doesn't mean that I don't want him to be OK. I want what is best for him. I know he will walk soon since he had promised to attend the therapy sessions. It makes me smile what he did to me last night. He shows me heaven every time when we are together. But I would never forget last time. We made love like we had all the time in the world.I woke up early and saw my hubby was already up and went away. He is an early bird and one hardly forgets their routine. But I on the other hand wakes up really late and thankfully Fathima makes me coffee so I could chase away my Monday blues. But my husband hardly requires a coffee. He runs like a well oiled machine. I knew he was very keen on his morning runs. When he wakes up earlier than I could ever imagine. I knew he missed it. I hardly ever witnessed it happen. I only saw the proof of his
"Hey", I heard a voice from outside. I looked at the clock. He was an hour late. Normally our fights end within an hour and the make up sex would have started by now. But today I wasn't in the mood to give up. I want him to take my words seriously and jumping into the bed as soon as his head appeared in the door frame wouldn't send the right signal to him. Ignoring him would be deemed as too childish. So I gave him a look which should give him a warning to stay away or approach me with caution. But he didn't realise it or probably he doesn't even care. He wheeled towards me holding a plate."What is this?", I asked him."Fathima said you didn't eat anything and waited for me", he said with remorse."I wasn't hungry and I don't want any food right now", I told him with a frown."Well I cooked for you. So that you give me a chance to seek forgiveness for my callousness", he told me."Are you a good cook?", I asked doubtfully. I have never seen him wearing an apron. He made a decent coff
We were watching bachelor and spending quality time according to my husband. But in reality watching mindless TV is just a farce. We were waiting for the therapist to come home for his session which is going to be pretty regular in the future. He had promised it and intends to keep it hopefully. I know he is very much sceptical. But I wasn't not even for a moment. I know he is going to come out as a winner. He always had before. I knew there wasn't an award that he had been nominated to but did not win. It made me wonder was I unlucky to him.I remembered Ella making me sit out in the car because Heidi once lost a competition because of me. My father had agreed to that to my horror. I waited in the car in tears while Heidi performed and lost. So I got demoted from the car to my home permanently and I never got a chance to go out with them again. Not unless I was old enough to hold her bags and booze. Those disturbing dark days started peeking it's ugly head in my eyes. I should probab
I watch my husband juggling his work, therapy and love life all for me. I feel guilty. I'm no longer interested in going to work which I fought with Dane so I could go. But I still go it was a habit now. But I see hardly anything gets done. The new chairperson who also happens to be Heidi is hyperfocused on the promotion of her social media. It is very sad to see my hard work going down the drain. However, I couldn't do anything because I wasn't the chairperson anymore. I knew my husband would have let me have it back but dealing with a cranky sister was not worth it. Besides I'm no longer the woman who has the iron will. The accident that happened to my husband changed me. I'm now a shell of a person. Even Charlie complains about it. She said I was a recluse earlier but I made a small effort to change it back then. Now she says all I speak about is Dane. I sleep with his name on my lips. I agree with her. But I won't do anything to change it.The worst thing that I see is watching m
The news was so good that we couldn't help ourselves but we called our friends home. Fathima was in her glory times. It had been a while since she had any kind of party. She even allowed alcohol to be served to the guests. That should say something. We were waiting for everyone to come. He insisted that it was ridiculous to hold a party over nothing. But it wasn't anything and he too was excited about meeting everyone. Once they reached everyone hugged each other. They were so happy that it felt as though things were now back to normal. I didn't call Ella or Heidi since I knew that it would end in a disaster. I had called Charlie but she was going away with Janine so she declined."I hope you enjoyed the time we stayed away", said Jake. He had been constantly travelling. He was now attending all meetings. Dane says the responsibilities had changed him completely."We did. But don't ask for any details", said Dane with a sigh."Dane son I knew you would walk again. This only cements my
currentlyrentlyrentlyectly at?", I said in shock. Though I heard her correctly I simply couldn't believe that her affections fluctuated at the speed of lightning."I realised that he was my True love", she said with a sigh."But you said you can't accept him since he wasn't walking", I tried to remind her."That was before now I had seen him he looks far better. He is also very self-sufficient. I didn't see you once running for his aid", said Heidi."But Heidi that is because it is Dane and you know how stubborn he is. He hardly ever accepts help. Even if he is in dire need of it. That doesn't mean he is OK", I tried to talk some sense to her."That is not what you said earlier", she said suspiciously."I had promised you to leave him because of the threats Enzo had posed on his life. But now he is not walking and Enzo had quit his rampage. There is no need for me to worry. I can completely focus on his health and well-being", I told her."I knew that you will back out soon with ever
"Hey Babe", said Dane."I'm looking for that bug spray. Do you know where Fathima keeps it?", I asked him."Bugs can't do any more damage than this", he said with a casual look at his immobile legs."Be serious. Bugs can bite and it will hurt. I will ask Fathima myself", I said to him."Come here", he ordered me."Why?", I asked him."So I can give my wife something to miss while I'm away", he said."Don't try to pacify me. You are the one who suggested it. I didn't want to go out at all. Maybe you are bored of me", I confessed."Come and sit here", he said. He had already stopped the chair so it won't move with the extra weight."I could never be bored of you. But I also don't want to limit you. You need to live your life. There can't be two disabled people in a single house it is the norm", he said."There is not", I protested."But you are holding back yourself. I don't want you to do that", he said to me."I'm staying with you because it gives me more pleasure than going out and ge
"Isn't that your sister?", shouted Charlie in my ear."Yes", I said my voice barely a whisper."Wasn't she dating some rich banker?", asked Charlie."Yes but they have broken up", I told her."Well it didn't take that long", she said with a shrug and went back to dancing.But after I saw Heidi there I couldn't focus on dancing anymore. I was very concerned that she was dancing with a stranger who is trying to grind into her. Instead of laughing at him or twisting away, she was dancing like a possessed woman. The alarm bells started ringing in my ears.I was watching them like a hawk but she didn't seem to be interested in a conversation with the random guy and neither did he. They were both enveloped in each other. But they looked awkward while doing it. That told me that they were two strangers and the guy was probably talking her into getting out of there. I walked towards them bumping into sweaty bodies all the way. There were certain advantages to my height one of them is that I
Charlie hadn't said anything to Dane. If only she waited for him to talk. Charlie pretended to say the truth so that Heidi comes clean before Dane. She had done it but I knew she will pay the cost for it. Dane now knows everything. The Wedding won't happen now. I felt a little sorry for my sister after all she had lost Dane again."You didn't say the truth to me. I'm angry at you too", said Dane."I won't blame you. I should have told you about Enzo but I was afraid you won't take it seriously", I confessed."His people had shot me and you think I won't take it seriously? Ziva please be mature", said Dane."I'm sorry Dane", I said."You made us lose our precious three years of life. I missed my daughter's birth and her significant mile stones. It is not something that I can forgive", said Dane."You are right. I was a coward and everyone used that knowledge to influence me", I admitted."You are not a coward Ziva. I wish you were a little more selfish. You sacrificed us for my life. I
When I reached the venue I was immediately ushered into the groom's room. I went to see Dane working on the laptop. My daughter screamed and went to hug him. He took her and lifted above his shoulders. Who knew my serious daughter was a fun loving girl ?"I miss you daddy", she said."I miss you too bug", he said."Don't get married", she said bossily."Why?", he asked curiously."Because mommy cries", she said shocking me.He looked at me with a hint of smile. I was dumb struck."I wasn't", I said to him.She climbed down from her father and took her place next to me. I gave her a warning look."Don't lie", she said to me."I'm not lying", I said to her."You said that daddy", she was about to say everything but I put my hand on her mouth."That is enough", I warned her."There is still time confess your love or it will be too late", he said with a smirk."No. Our life is not a rom Com Dane. Everything is not black and white", I said to him."Fine your wish", he said.I took my daugh
I'm a stubborn creature where the need arises. I'm not going to backdown even if he says that he can't live without me. But I knew he won't say it. I had hurt him enough but still he says he can't marry Heidi. I can't go home till we reaches some sort of agreement."Dane. I'm not going back where it all started. I want an out", I said painfully. I had a fair idea on how much I was hurting him."Fine. I will get married but you have to be at the wedding. If you decide not to come at the last moment the wedding is off", said Dane."You can't say that. Please I won't go back not with Enzo there", I said to him."The wedding is going to happen here and tomorrow. Remember to be there else there is no wedding. I had booked a cab for you. It is not a good idea for me to join you", he said. I nodded my head. I was ready already.I have to be there at Dane's wedding to my sister. The fate couldn't be any more cruel. It hurt me like hell to adjust to the prospect that my husband is going to get
The thing about mistake is that we don't have a desire to undo it constantly but I didn't feel that way. Sleeping with Dane might be a bad choice on my part but I never regret a second that I spent with him. I would do it all over again if given another chance. But I shall remain silent. My thoughts never should come out of my head. It must stay there safe and silent. Even after I insulted Dane he being a gentleman had gone to fetch me fresh clothes. I stay there waiting for him to get the clothes. He must have ordered it through the hotel. But it still hadn't come. So he had gone there to check what happened to my dress. He might have fired somebody too if the hotel was his.I heard a knock and Dane came through. I stayed there very still. All my instincts said to go towards him. My emotions were over the top plus the amazing sex we had destroyed any small amount of self-control I used to have."Here is your dress", he said putting it on the bed."Can you give me some privacy?", I as
"I'm sorry for hurting you. I want us both to move on for the sake of Angel. You are also getting married to my sister. Let us end this please. What do you want in return for it?", I asked him."I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you. Then I will forget you and move on", he said."Fine. I have a condition too. I want you to give me back every kiss I gave you as well. So that we can settle the score", he said."Done", he said. I was the one who charged at him he bent down the kiss me. We kissed each other like there was no tomorrow. His tongue duelling with mine. I gasped when he bit my lips hard enough that it hurt. I bit him too drawing blood. He chuckled when he heard me growl. You better stop provoking me. I said in my mind.His hands cupping my boobs. I moaned when his hands tore my expensive dress. I didn't bother to put aside the tattered dress. It lied crumpled on the ground. I stood there in my undergarments. He removed a single boob from the constraints of my bra. H
"You can't let go of me right? You wanted to play me even after leaving me. I just played you back", he said with tight eyes."It wasn't any game Heidi loves you. She asked my help I gave it to her. I have no other interest in you", I said to him."Is that so? Then why are you on a date with me? How does it help your sister?", he asked me crossing his arms."I'm doing what I'm told. You said you will leave me alone after this date", I reminded him."I said and you listened. Things are that easy for you? Our life together didn't matter to you isn't that right? You couldn't endure a life with a handicap so you left me. But still you are here they are right what goes around comes around", he said."Why do you ask me to this date? Is it to torture me?", I asked him."No. I'm on this date to say you goodbye. You might have meddled with my life a lot. But after today you won't do anything like that ever again. I wanted to destroy you initially but then I realised that you are also mother of
"And what do you think?", I asked him."I know my feelings never died for you", he said thoughtfully."You are only saying this to punish me", I said."Why would I want to punish you?", he asked me."Because I left you three years ago", I said."It is correct that you left me. I don't think I can ever forgive you for that. But that doesn't mean that I had lost my feelings for you", he said."I think you want to bed me that is why you are talking about the feelings all of a sudden", I said."I would always want to bed you. I'm attracted to you physically and mentally. I will always want sex from you. Even when we are both a hundred years old", he said."I don't want you", I shot back at him."I realised that three long years ago. But that hadn't deterred me from wanting you like a Madan", said he."You shouldn't say such stupid things. I have used you in the past and disregarded you as it suited me", I lied to him."I got that. It still hurts. I thought you were in love with me", he sa
"You look beautiful", said Charlie carrying my daughter on her hip."Thanks", I murmured putting on the necklace.My open-sleeve dress had so many boob's that I was sure Dane would drool. I knew the game that I was playing is a dangerous one for both parties. It was like fighting with a sword that has no pommel. It can cut both."Is this some kind of a reminder for him? To have an idea of what he missed?", she asked me."I'm only getting ready for the date as he asked me to. That is all there it is. A single date where we will behave like it was the first time I'm seeing him walking", I said."You mean like while you were married to him", she said."Yes for a single date. But there won't be anything beyond that. He is going to get married soon to my sister. She had already told me that it is OK. Dane said that this date night is all he is asking in return for leaving me alone. I have nothing more to ask for from Dane and he will only get what he asked", I said."That is going to be to
I have decided to give him what he want. I know it will be a lie to confess that it is something that he only he wants. I want that too. A date that we missed three years ago. I couldn't help but imagine what would have happened if I hadn't met Enzo that day. I want to see him walk towards me for the first time again. He would have been romantic and flirty with me all night. We would have ended that night early each of us eager to go home. So that we could celebrate together at night.I was very nervous. Something inside my mind warned me from going through with Dane's idea. It is not only a worst idea but the after math of the said date would be incomprehensible. I won't be able to forget and move on while he ends this fantasy of date. I would be left with broken pieces of my heart.I called Charlie for clarity. I doubt she has anything new to supply. I already know consequences of my decision even though it doesn't make a difference to me.She picked on the first ring. She had alrea