It was already nine. I had eaten only a little and drank no water at all. Being in this protective suit is making me sweaty and uncomfortable. I knew Jake didn't approve of me starving basically. He even offered to do it. But I politely declined. It is not that I don't trust him. It is just that I only believe in myself. It sounds like something that a control freak would say but trust me when I say this. I knew I had only limited time with Dane. Doctors told me that he is showing a large amount of improvement. It filled me with joy. But it also made me sad and nervous I soon had to leave.I take catnaps sometimes during the day. I get out of the protective gear at night and eat and drink as little as possible. Sometimes the nurse that confessed the truth to me stays while I visit the washroom. Other times Jake keeps watching Dane. Enzo is relentless I knew. He was only waiting for a lapse on our part and soon he would tear into our protective sphere. His parents visit sometimes and
"What is it Heidi?", I asked trying not to sound irritated."Why are you ignoring my texts?", she asked me straight forward."I wasn't. It is just that I have to be in a suit and be with Dane all the time", I tried. It is so hard to text when you are wearing a full body plastic gear. Plus she didn't say anything that is remotely encouraging in her texts."I wanted to know how Dane is doing?", she asked."Better", I said my voice clipped."So when is he going to wake up? Are you sure he will wake up some day?", she asked."Heidi how can you talk like that? He is going to be OK. He has been shot in the back. He needs time to recover", I told her."Are you sure about that? Maybe you don't want him to wake up because then you promised me that you will leave", said Heidi."What kind of a logic is that?", I asked my anger flared."Are you teaching me logic?", she asked me annoyed."No. I'm doing everything in my capacity to help Dane and so are the doctors. You need to be patient", I advice
I closed the door after me. I didn't check whether Jake had left or not. I wanted some privacy while speaking with Dane. I wanted to do what Virginia suggested that I do. What if it works? What if Dane is listening to everything happening here. He is only unable to react. What of he misses our conversations and fights? I missed everything we had together. It is only the memory of those heavenly nights that is helping me to lead my life forward. I wished that Dane missed those just like me."Dane. I know you are tired of just lying there and you are listening to me. I miss you too. I want you to fight so you can come back to me. Please listen to me Dane", I said and tears fell through my eyes like river.I touched his hands they were cold and chalky. I didn't know whether he could feel those touches? I was wearing the protective suit to protect him from the infection. There wasn't any reactions from Dane but I wasn't allowed to feel dejected. I needed to help him find the ground. He is
Finally a doctor came and he went directly to check on Dane. I held my breath. I thought he would say that my husband is now cured and he will talk to me soon but he just sighed and turned to me. He finally decided to speak to me the only person who could talk to him. The nurse wasn't still here I wonder why? Usually they came in tow with doctor. I really wished that junior doctor I met came as well."Madam. Forgive me for asking again. Are you really sure that he squeezed your hand?", he asked me."I'm hundred percent sure he did it", I told him. I wanted to congratulate myself for not yelling at him though."Sometimes people who stay with such patients would tell us these things. But most of the time it won't be True. I'm not saying that you are lying. Most of the time it is just an imagination of your own mind", said doctor."I didn't imagine it. I know it happened. I felt him do it. Please believe me", I begged him."So what were you doing while he did the squeeze?", he asked w
"What do you want?", asked Heidi. Her voice husky from sleep."I called you multiple times. Why didn't you pick up the phone?", I asked her."Because I need my beauty sleep", she shot back. I wanted to roll my eyes."You said you would be in touch", I said."I'm in touch just not for your whims", she said absently."Are you kidding me? I'm calling you to tell you a very important news about Dane. But you didn't pick up. Do you even care for Dane?", I asked her."What is it? Did he wake up from the coma?", she asked me. I flinched when she said that word. I try not to think of that word. It is very absolute. I like to refer his condition as sleep."He squeezed my hand", I said to her."So? Is it that important? It is not like he woke up and spoke", she scoffed at me."I'm taking care of him full time. It is a very big deal for me. I'm sorry I disturbed your sleep. You can go back to your slumber. I won't call again", I said outraged."Ziva calm down no need to sound so angry. I'm happy
I heard a shouting match from outside. I sighed Heidi is here finally. I quickly went outside to see both Jake and Heidi fighting with each other. The nurse was looking at them in a mixture of admiration and fear. I'm sure she would never have seen her like this. I checked to see whether anyone was recording if they are then all this would become a different level of drama. First thing to do was to put an end to this screaming match. They are disturbing the other patients in the hospital. I'm surprised no security has come to stop. Probably because Jake owns this place."Hey stop it", I told them."She is here again. I will ask the security to throw her out again", said Jake."Who are you to throw me out? I have come here for Dane", she said with a hiss."Dane don't need you. He has got a wife. Don't think there is a chance for you now that he is in coma", said Jake. I winced when I heard him say that word. I try not to think of my husband's condition as coma. It sounds very absolute.
She left soon. I sat with Dane. I was very silent. I didn't know what to say to Dane. He was getting paler and paler. I knew it was a sign to worry. I heard that the longer it would take a person to wake up after a trauma the less is the chance of them waking up again.I heard a knock and opened it. There was Jake he brought two coffees. He was very composed."Get out of this and have this coffee Ziva. By the way where is Heidi ?", he asked me."Heidi left", I said."Well that was quick. For someone who fought that much you would think that she will stay at least an hour", he said with a smirk."She had work. She couldn't afford to miss it", I said."OK. If I agree with you will you come out and have the coffee?", he asked me."Yes", I said."Fine. I admit that Heidi is the hottest influencer who can't afford to miss a single party for a guy she claimed that she loves", he said.I would have laughed if Dane was not in the hospital. Because Jake was right. I'm trying to support a perso
I sat with him this time I was holding a Bible that Linda left. I started to read it to him. He was still sleeping. His face was chalky. Once I finished a chapter I put it away. I held his hands for many times and at one point I even thought I would go mad. So I stopped doing a week has passed after that. Heidi didn't visit for a single day. I fear she has lost her interest in Dane. Now a days I stopped getting messages from her asking me to leave Dane. Even Ella has started to re invent herself herself by launching her own social media and gained a few followers courtesy of her daughter.I heard from Charlie that Heidi was seeing some hot shot banker. This could be her reason for the less and less interest in Dane. Jake and his parents were the only ones who were religiously coming. I had to send back Jake because he was constantly travelling and working but still coming and staying the night. It wasn't good for his health.It seems me and Dane is living in a bio bubble. Charlie came