The Guilt

Ellie

Guilt like a fierce monster was creeping in and now more than ever I need to tell Adrian. I love him and it is the least I could do for him. He deserves to know the truth. I know it will hurt him but then I will not have to carry this huge guilt, this huge monster that keeps reminding me of how undeserving of him I am.

I really want to collect myself and tell him but that would mean risking losing him. I cannot lose him. I love him. That would mean hurting him. I do not want to hurt him but one day the truth will find its way out. I want to tell him, I really do but can I deal with the consequences that come with it?

Sage Enterprises almost died because of me but at least I have helped all I can to bring it back up. I cannot seriously justify my actions right now. I am a bad person. I do not deserve Adrian. I cannot continue lying to him.

I slowly drive into our driveway and sit in the car, numb, motionless for a good 20 minutes before getting into the house. The caregiver had