As she made toast and fried bacon, the sweet aroma diffusing around the kitchen, she knew she'd be lucky if it even tasted like cardboard to her.
She wasn't even sure why she was doing this to herself.
Because this wasn't how she'd envisioned herself after the progress she'd made with the object of her every desires.
But the nagging reminder that she'd let that said object of desire and the pleasure that only him can bring her cloud her priorities was a high crashing.
She'd left Riley all alone too, to be in his arms.
That shouldn't count as much since the girl had slept through every minute of it like a log but it served to prove just how much she'd let pleasure mess with her responsibilities.
'But it had felt so good' her subconscious whined only serving to conflict her.
She let out a string of colorful curses as the heat from the pan she'd just picked up si
But she didn't.The days crawled by but she didn't come to to him, didn't offer him any explanation for her sudden change.There were no excuses, he got nothing. If anything, she was making a perfection of the art of avoiding him and it was frustrating as fuck. And so was giving her space and waiting for her to come to him at her own pace.This is the reason he didn't do commitment in the first place.Every time their eyes met, he could practically taste the palpable guilt swimming in them.But then she'd look away and block him out- again.Recently he's been hell to work with.He growled at everyone and got hellishly angry at everything and everyone.She was in his head and she was fucking it up.He'd come so close to firing a staff just yesterday over a trival issue.He was that close to the end of his patience rope.And he might have been able to compartmentalise the frustrated anger coursing through him if he was just dealing with Jojol and her sudden need to avoid him alone but
"Sometimes, you know, I just wish you can get her to stop hiding so much in mama's room and stop fussing over me, then maybe you two can get married and have those Alfies we talked about."She'd looked up at him with soulful brown eyes, giving him an innocent toothy grin."It gets lonely sometimes."He echoed her sentiments.It did get lonely for him too even though it was for different reasons for them and he'd wanted to grant her that wish so badly.Too bad you can't force someone to love you, too.He'd just let her adorable self lie in his arms, holding her until she gave in to the whims of sleep, sitting in his favorite window couch.His eyes involuntarily darted to her and she looked away from him almost immediately as their eyes met, as if she couldn't bear to be caught staring at him...Screw this stupid game they were playing.He was getting his damn answers now.She was messing his head up and if this is the end for them, he needed to hear her say the words- and why.He needed
Herman Parker was a certified pain in the ass.The man, for all the money he has, was as undecisive as a four year old thrown in a candy store with all her favorite candy and asked to pick only one.He suddenly wasn't sure what he wanted from the project he was proposing.And Jordan felt about seconds away from reconstructing his fucking face for him.The only good the man's presence in his damn office has caused him in the over an hour since he waltzed in here, was getting rid of pesky Fayre Carson.And right after they moved down to his usual conference room for client negotiations, the man had turned pretty useless to him.What's so difficult in deciding of you fucking want an ultra modern building complex that screams tech and money or something more mundane and holding a bit of history, or something in between?Anything the man chooses now would be fine i
The elevator ride back to the office was short but to Jojo it felt excruciatingly long.And she spent the whole time trying not to chicken out of her plan to take charge of her life and for once allow herself a chance at real happiness.She didn't want to remain that woman that Cal had accused her of being, she wanted to be different for this man that's stuck in this confining space with her.She turned slightly and quietly took him in.Looking at him like this made her thighs clamp and her body ache for him.He looked so tall, leaning against the wall of the climbing elevator like he had that one time at Morgan Inc. And damn, he looked yummy, incredibly hot and sinfully delicious.His eyes were shut close, hiding his beautifully green and very alluring orbs from her, but for one, it allowed her the liberty of feeding her starved body on the sheer sight of him.His nostrils were slightly flared, betraying the anger he was keeping tame inside him, and his sinfully red, pouty lips, with
"What are you sorry for, Jocelyn?" His voice was still flat and void of any emotions and that wasn't any help.Again, he'd called her Jocelyn, not Jojo and the effect of that unfamiliarity was like a sucker punch to her gut.What was she sorry for, he'd asked.She could come up with a hundred and one reasons, but the words only sat heavy on the tip of her tongue, refusing to go past her lips.Where was that deep grovelling speech she's been practising our and over again in her head ever since Fayre waltzed her way into this room today, hot on her relentless pursuit of Jordan.Right, it has deserted her now that she needed it most."You are not saying anything, Jocelyn."Again, that unfamiliar sound of her fullname.It hurt something inside her to hear him use it and it only hurt worse knowing that she'd been the reason he'd had to.It made the shame engulfing her even stronger and harder to bear because his pain was bare and raw in that word.She wished she could take it back, take th
Jojo knew what she was asking for when she said that and she meant it.His eyes were darker than she's ever seen them yet and he looked every bit like a man who could deliver it as rough as it could get.A small niggling fear pushed at the back of her mind, what if he really hurts her?She's never had rough sex with anyone except that day on her desk, but this man made her want to try it.She's thought about it as he towered over her and the idea of having him bring hrs to the height of her pleasure with a perfect blend of pain and pleasure made her the core of her womanhood drip wet for him.She trusted him and she needed this as much as he did.She pressed herself into him again, trying her best to grind him into a needy frenzy.It was working, but he held her hard to stop the torturing movement."Don't push it, bab
Her legs were jelly like and wobbled when he let her drop on them and she was glad when he held her and pressed her into him."Talk to me next time." He said and it wasn't a question. He was telling her."Okay." She whispered in response, safe in the protective circle of his strong arms.He kissed her hair and held her against him a little longer before he left her.He dressed her back up until she had every piece of clothing back in place, everything except her ripped panties, and looked less ravaged.She watched him dress, her eyes appreciating the muscles that were so defined and sculpted and begged to be explored."If you keep looking at me like that, we won't get any work done." He growled.She blushed hard at his words and her sassy subconscious was down that road with her too instead of offering her a super sassy comeback.
Dinner with uncle Ferdie came around so fast.And Jojo was stuck deciding what to wear.Her fashion sense sucks and for the life of her she couldn't decide what looked good.she wanted to look good enough tonight hoping to leave the impression that she was still keeping her family afloat with uncle Ferdie.The man could get a little meddling if he thinks anything was so much as a little wrong.He was controlling like that.She stood at the foot of her bed, in her towel, considering the three options she's set out.You can never go wrong with a floral print, right?That's a black dress! Her subconscious snapped.Whatever.The other was a........maybe red, or was that pink, casual dinner dress.And finally, there was the one she was banking her hopes on.That snug fitting, off the off the shoulder gown that Jordan had left her the morning after that first night she'd spent here.She was really considering wearing it tonight.If only she hadn't been so stubborn and rejecting Jordan's ever
Hailey stood in front of the whole family, her seven year old palms sweaty. She'd spent the whole night reciting this all over again, so it shouldn't be a big deal, yeah? "It's okay, baby, it's just us." Jojo whispered from her seat, her very pregnant belly making her movement strenuous. Yeah, just them. Well, here goes nothing. "Uhhmm, this is my family tree....." She started a little shyly, pointing to the treelike structure balanced on the table next to her, stuck full of pictures. Her voice was so small, but it carried around the room. "I made it myself, well, mummy helped.....a lot. And I'm taking it to school for show and tell on Monday." She could see her daddy giving her an encouraging thumbs up and it put the light into her eyes and confidence in her voice. "From the top, this is Granny Meghan and Grandpa Tommy who I didn't get to meet and they gave birth to my mommy and Riley. Too bad they died b
If JoJo had thought her life was a mess, the truth she'd just discovered crashed if past the grounds, it shattered every truth she's ever known and believed. Uncle Fer....... Fucking Ferdinand! That monster. He'd been the architect of a her pain and problem but he'd always crawled back to blow on them and make it seem like he'd cared. And to find out that he'd been her sperm donor, it killed her to believe it. Jordan was as struck as she was from what they'd read. She ached for her mother too, who'd had to live with all these for years, having no one to be by her side while she played sick and lost in a bid to protect her girls. It must have been hard, being in bed all year round, reliving the nightmares of both events and hating herself for being so weak. She swore she'd be stronger, for herself and Riley and they'd bring the man to Justice, for her mom. But I like her mom, she had Jordan by her side in these t
Jocelyn,Been so long I said your name, guess this might be last you'd hear me call you by your name.So many years have passed and sometimes I lie here, in bed and regret the decisions I made in the past.But I'll always hope you realise it was all for the best, I did what I did to keep you and your sister alive and out of the clutches of the devil, Ferdinand.The man is a devil that shouldn't have found his way into our lives, but he did and till date, we are all still suffering in the wake of all his evil deeds.Tommy, your father, bless his soul, was a good man, the best ever.I met them both while in college and yeah, Ferdinand asked to court me first, but my heart had been longing for another and I'd turned him down.Turns out that was a sin he couldn't forgive.
"No, that can't be." Jojo muttered in disgust as she watched the video playing out before her.There's no way this is true, no way it's him.It'd kill her to believe it was and see just how blind she's been all these years, to find out that her mom had been right all along......God, no.But her denial didn't bring any desired difference to what she'd seen, it didn't wipe the memory or make the video a prank.This had been the night she'd lost her father, this had been where his body had been found, there's no mistaking it, she'd never forgotten.It took Jordan rubbing down her back and asking her in a concerned voice to breathe, to realise she'd been holding her breath.Maybe if she holds it in long enough, she'd realise that all this is just a dream home wrong.Or maybe it wasn't and she was just in a hopeless denial."Please Jordan, tell me it's not him, tell me that's not Uncle Ferdie, I'll believe you."She sob
After Riley was fed and out with her very own little family, Alfie and puppy, JoJo got to work searching for that little box.It was one thing to loose her mother so unexpectedly, but to loose the last trace of evidence and her only hope to bringing whoever had been behind her decade old pain to justice?No fucking way!She turned the room they'd been in inside out in her search, but it was nowhere to be found.She was already halfway done with fixing it back up when it did occur to her that she'd last seen the box while lying in that bed with Jordan.It made a lot of sense to think that he had gone missing from the room at the same time her box had and that easily translates to it possibly being in his possession.It kinda pissed her to have him butting into her family issues without her permission, even without the confirmation that he had.Stupid, yeah, but it did embarrassment to have all her linens in his hands without any contro
JoJo woke before Riley did, there'd been nightmares that didn't let her hold onto the oblivion for too long. She was glad Riley wasn't subjected to the same fate though that didn't hold for long. Tiny feet and big, soulful brown eyes found her sooner than she'd have liked, clouded with visible confusion and fear. "Come here, baby girl." She called to her from where she stood at the door. It did just occur to her why the room looked emptier than she last remembered it. Jordan had been with her before she'd succumbed to the luring hands of sleep. "Come." Her voice was much softer, pleading and beckoning, she didn't want force her, that could be more harmful than it'd be good. The younger girl finally gave in, and came into the room, crawling into JoJo's laps. She held her, stroking her hair, the quietness that was hanging around the house making her nauseous. Maybe it's always been this quiet with
The twist got bigger the deeper he dug and the plot hole wider.There'd been a lot going on with Tom Collen and Ferdinand and the more he discovered, the clearer it got and the more his theory on Tom's murder held.The files on the card were too many to peruse at one go so he abandoned it for the line card he'd inserted to read.At first there seemed to be nothing of interest in it until he stumbled upon a video record.It looked to be from a security camera recording from long ago.He sat in his chair, watching it and wishing he didn't have to.It made it worse that this was what he'd have to show JoJo, the horror she'd have to see.If only he could save her this, the pain and the nightmare.She didn't deserve it, not do soon, not with everything she was dealing with.He dialed Brad instead, requesting for immediate audience.They've become an investigative team of their own after all,bent on riding the world of
She finally fell asleep, right in Jordan's arms, drained from all the tears she'd cried and all the grief she'd let herself become buried under.He understood her pain, he'd seen it, experienced it and it was nothing to joke about.And he'd give anything in a heartbeat to take it away from her, to see her face light up with one of those her beautiful smiles that always made his day.These times have been the hardest and this crown looks too heavy for the head wearing it.But one thing he was sure of was that he was going no where, he'd be her, by her side until it gets better and even then, there'd be no force strong enough to remove him from her life.He loves her more than he'd ever imagined he could love anyone, his baby girl, his JoJo.She looked calmed while she slept, a tad bit relaxed, better than she'd been when she'd been up and grieving.He leaned down, pressing his lips to her forehead in a gentle, tender kiss.Her g
Meghan's passing was a blow nobody expected, and everyone was taking it hard around the house, especially JoJo.She'd never expected this day to come so soon and now that it did, it did hit hard.She'd been do lost, but Jordan had been there every step of the way, taking charge and getting the body to the morgue.At least that's where she believes they went.She'd let herself get sucked into shadowing Riley and crying her soul out.Riley was asleep now, having cried herself to it, and now JoJo had time on her hands to mourn.She had the watch she'd recently just retrieved, fiddling with it and wondering what she's supposed to do with the damn thing without Meghan to give her a guide.The door to the room came open and Jordan stood at the door.She wasn't expecting him to be back so soon.She could see the pity swimming in his eyes even before he took steps closer in her direction.He was careful not to wake