“Miss Bryant, if memory serves,” he said in a cool tone that was at complete odds with that dark savagery in his burnished gold gaze, “your contract states that you must give me two weeks following the tendering of your notice.”
It was Addison’s turn to blink.
“You’re not serious...”
“I may be an… ‘oversexed King Kong’, Miss Bryant…”
He bit out each word like a bullet she shouldn’t have been able to feel, and yet it hurt, it hurt like hell, and all the while the gold in his gaze seemed to sear into her, making her remember all the things she’d rather forget.
“But that has yet to impede my ability to read a contract. Two weeks, which, if I am not mistaken, includes the investor dinner in Milan we’ve spent months planning.”
“Why would you want that?”
Addison found she’d turned to face him without meaning to move, and her hands had become fists at her sides.
“Are you that evil? What kind of perversity is this?”
“Being my Executive Assistant, I’m surprised you haven’t already found the answer to that from my ex-lovers, with whom you are so close, apparently,” Andrey Romanoff threw at her, his voice a sardonic lash. “Didn’t you spend all of those hours of your wasted life placating them? I believe you said that…”
Andrey folded his arms over his chest, and Addison found herself noticing, as always, the sheer, lean perfection of his athletic form. It was part of what made him so lethal. So dizzyingly unmanageable.
Every inch of him was a finely honed weapon, and he was not averse to using whatever part of that weapon would best serve him. That was why she understood, he was standing over her like this, intimidating her with the fact of his height, the breadth of his shoulders, the inexorable force, and the power of his relentless masculinity.
Even in a bespoke suit that should have made him look like some kind of dandy, Andrey Romanoff looked capable of anything. There was that hint of wildness about him, that constant, underlying threat he wore proudly. Deliberately.
She didn’t want to see him as a man. She didn’t want to remember the heat of his hands against her skin, his mouth so demanding on hers. She would die before she gave him the satisfaction of seeing that he got to her now. Even if she still felt the burn of it… the searing fire.
“You know very well what they say,” Addison murmured, sounding almost entirely calm to her own ears… almost blasé. “Those who sleep with someone for the money earn every penny.”
He didn’t appear to react to that at all, and yet, Addison felt something hard and hot flare between them, almost making her step back, almost making her show him exactly how nervous he made her.
But she was done with that. With him. She refused to cower before him. And she was finished with quiet obedience, too. Look what it had got her.
“Take the rest of the day off,” he suggested then, a certain hoarseness in his voice.
That was the only hint of the fury she couldn’t quite see but had no doubt was close to liquefying them both. And perhaps the whole of the office building they stood in as well, if not the entire City of London besides.
“I strongly suggest you do something to curb your newfound urge toward candid commentary. I’ll see you tomorrow morning. Punctual, as usual, Miss Bryant.”
And it was suddenly as if a new sun dawned, bathing Addison in a bright, impossible light. Everything became stark and clear. He loomed there, not three feet away from her, taking up too much space, dark and impossible and faintly terrifying even when quiet and watchful.
And he would never stop… She understood that about him. Addison understood it the way she comprehended her own ability to breathe. His entire life was a testament to his inability to take no for an answer, to not accept what others told him if it wasn’t something he wanted to hear.
Andrey Romanoff, the mighty tycoon, the ruthless CEO, the ‘Russian Lucifer’, had never encountered a rule he didn’t break, a wall he couldn’t climb, a barrier he wouldn’t slap down simply because it dared to stand in his way.
He took. Always and without asking questions… That was what he did. At the most basic level, that was who Andrey Romanoff was. He’d taken from her and she hadn’t even known it until today, had she?
Some part of her, even now, wished she’d never opened that file drawer, never discovered how easily he’d derailed her career three years ago without her ever the wiser. But she had. Addison could see the whole rest of her life flash before her eyes in a sickening, infinitely depressing cascade of images.
If she agreed to his two weeks, she might as well die on the spot. Right here, right now… Because he would take possession of her life the way he’d done of her last five years, and there would be no end to it. Ever!
Addison knew perfectly well that she was the best Executive Assistant he’d ever had. That was the truth, no place for modesty… She’d had to be, because she’d needed the money he’d paid her and the cachet his name had afforded her when it came time to wrangle Lowell into the best drug-treatment clinics and programs in the States, for all the good it had done.
And she still believed it had all been worth it, no matter how little she had to show for it now, no matter how empty and battered she felt. Lowell had not died alone, on a lonely street corner in some desperate city neighborhood, never to be identified or mourned or missed. That was what mattered.
But Lowell had only been the first, original reason. Her pathetic feelings for Andrey had been the second, and far more appalling reason she’d made herself so indispensable to Andrey.
She’d taken pride in her ability to serve him so well. It left a bitter taste in her mouth today, but it was true. She was that much of a masochist, and she’d have to live with that.
If she stayed even one day more, any chance she had left to reclaim her life, to do something for herself, to live, to crawl out of this terrible hole she’d lowered herself into all on her own, would disappear into the big black smoke-filled vortex that was Andrey Romanoff.
He would buy more things and sell others, make millions and destroy lives at a whim, hers included. And she would carry on catering to him, jumping to do his bidding and smoothing the path before him, anticipating his every need and losing herself, bit by bit and inch by inch, until she was nothing more than a pleasant-looking, serene-voiced husk.
A robot under his command… Slave to feelings he would never, could never return, despite small glimmers to the contrary in far-off cities on complicated evenings never spoken of aloud when they were done.
Worse, she would want to do all of it. She would want to be whatever she could be for him, just so long as she could stay near him. Just as she had since that night In Cadiz, she’d seen such a different side of him.
Addison would cling to anything, wouldn’t she? She would even pretend she didn’t know that he’d crushed her dreams of advancement with a single, brutal email. She was, she knew, exactly that pathetic. Exactly that stupid. Hadn’t she proved it every single day of these past three years?
“No,” she said.
It was, of course, a word he rarely heard. His black eyebrows lowered. His hard gold eyes shone with amazement. That impossibly lush mouth, the one that made his parade of lovers fantasize that there could be some softness to him, only to discover too late that it was no more than a mirage, flattened ominously.
“What do you mean, no?”
The lilt of his native Russian cadence made the words sound almost… musical, but Addison knew that the thicker his accent, the more trouble she was in… And the closer that volcanic temper of his was to eruption.
She should have turned on her heel and run for safety. She should have heeded the knot in her belly and the heat that moved over her skin, the panic that flooded through her.
“I understand that you might not be familiar with the word,” Addison continued, sounding perhaps more empowered, more sure of herself than was wise. Or true.
“It indicates disagreement. Refusal. Both concepts you have difficulty with, I know that very well. But that is, I am happy to say, no longer my problem.”
“It will become your problem,” Andrey told her, a note she’d never heard before in his voice.
His gaze narrowed further, into two outraged slits of gold, as if he’d never actually seen her until this moment. Something about that particular way he looked at her made her feel lightheaded.
“I will…”
“You will do what? Go ahead, Mr. Romanoff, and take me to court,” Addison countered, interrupting him again with a careless wave of her hand that, she could see, visibly infuriated him. “What do you think you’ll win?”
For the first time in as long as she’d known him, Andrey Romanoff was rendered speechless. The silence was taut and breathless between them, and, still, was somehow as loud as a siren. It seemed to hum. And Andrey simply stared at Addison, thunderstruck, an expression she had never seen before on his ruthless face. Good! That was a first…
“What are you going to do, Mr. Romanoff? Will you take my flat from me?” she continued, warming to the topic.
Emboldened, perhaps, by his unprecedented silence. By the chaos inside of her, that was all his fault.
“It’s only a leased bedsit. You’re welcome to take it. I’ll write you a check right now, if you like, for the entire contents of my current account. Is that what it will take for me to walk away?”
She laughed and could hear it bouncing back at her from the glass wall, the tidy expanse of her desk, even the polished floor that made even the outer office seem glossy and that much more intimidating to the unwary.
“I’ve already given you five long years of my life… sir. I’m not giving you two more weeks. The hell with everything! I’m not giving you another second... I’d rather die.”
Andrey stared at his Executive Assistant as if he’d never seen her before. There was something about the way she tilted that perfect, pretty oval of her face, the way her usually calm gray eyes sparkled with the force of her temper… And something about that mouth of hers. He couldn’t seem to look away from it. Unbidden, a memory teased through his head, of her hand on his cheek, her gray eyes warm and something like affectionate, her lips… but no. There was no need to revisit that insanity. He’d worked much too hard to strike it from his consciousness. It was one regrettable evening in five smooth, issue-free years. Why think of it at all?“I would rather draw my last breath here and now,” she said again as if she was under the misapprehension that he had not heard her the first time.“That can always be arranged, Miss Bryant
By the time the helicopter touched down on the helipad on the foredeck of the gently moving luxury yacht, Addison had worked herself into what she could only call a state. She climbed out of the sleek little machine only when she realized she had no other choice, that the pilot was shutting it down and preparing to stay on board the great yacht himself. Even if she wasn’t glad to be there, Addison didn’t wish to spend who knew how long sitting in a helicopter simply to prove a point. She was quite certain that Andrey would leave her there. On some level, Addison was bitterly aware she really should have expected he’d pull a stunt like this… a brazen abduction. Simply because he could. So, in spite of the fact that she wanted to put a thousand worlds between them, she found herself f
She found him in one of the yacht’s many salons, a sleek celebration of marble and glass down an ostentatious spiral stair that was as gloriously luxe as everything else on this floating castle he’d won in a late-night card game from an old Russian oligarch.‘It was easy to take,’ he’d said with a small shrug when she’d asked why he’d wanted another yacht to add to his collection. ‘So, I took it.’ Andrey sat now in the sunken seating area with one of his many… anonymous companions melting all over him, all plumped-up breasts and sheaves of wheat-blond hair cascading here and there. He had discarded his jacket somewhere and now looked deliciously rumpled, white shirt open at the collar and his olive skin seeming to gleam. T
He could smell the faintest hint of something sweet… soap or perfume, he couldn’t tell. But desire curled through him, kicking up flames. He remembered burying his face in her neck, and the need to do it again, now, howled through him, shocking in its intensity. And Andrey didn’t know if he admired her or wanted to throttle her when she didn’t move so much as an inch. When she showed no regard at all for her own safety. When, instead, Addison all but bristled in further defiance. Andrey had the strangest feeling - he wouldn’t call it a premonition - that this woman might very well be the death of him. He shook it off, annoyed at himself and the kind of superstitious silliness he thought he’d left behind in his unhappy childhood.“Why are you so concerned wit
She had actually thrown herself off the side of the damned boat. Andrey stood at the rail and scowled down at her as she surfaced in the water below and started swimming for the far-off shore, fighting to keep his temper under control. Fighting to shove all of that need and lust back where it belonged, shut down and locked away in the deepest recesses of his memory. How had this happened? Again? And yet, he was all too aware there was no one to blame but himself. Which only made things worse.“Is that Addie?” The voice that came from slightly behind him was shocked.“‘Addie’?” Andrey echoed icily. He didn’t want to know she had a casual nickname. He didn’t want to think of her
The engine roared to life, drowning out whatever she might have said next. Addison stopped swimming then and trod water, watching in consternation and no little annoyance as the small craft looped around her, leaving her to bob helplessly in a converging circle of its wake. Addison got a slap of seawater in the face and had to scrub at her eyes to clear them. When she opened them again, the engine had gone quiet once more and the boat was much too close. Again! Which in turn meant that he was much too close. How could she be in the middle of the sea and still feel so trapped? So hemmed in?“You look like a raccoon, Miss Bryant,” he said in his blunt, rude way. As if he was personally offended by it.“Oh,” she
There was a brief, intense sort of moment, and then Andrey leaned over, slid his hands beneath her arms, and hoisted her up and out of the water as if she weighed no more than a child. Water sluiced from her wet clothes as Addison’s feet came down against the slippery bottom of the small boat, and she was suddenly aware of too many things. The sodden fabric of her skirt, ten times heavier than it should have been, wrapped much too tightly around her hips and thighs. The slick wetness of her blouse as it flattened against her skin in the sea breeze. The heavy tangle of her wet hair, tumbling this way and that in a disastrous mess. All of which made her feel much too cold, and, oddly, something very much like vulnerable. But then she looked up, and the air seemed to empty out of her lungs. And she didn&
Instead, Addison had let her hair dry naturally as she’d taken her time dressing, and now it hung in dark waves down her back. She’d found a pair of white denim jeans in one closet, much snugger than she liked, which was only to be expected given the gazelle-like proportions of most of his usual female guests, and a lovely palazzo top in a vibrant blue-and-white pattern in another, which was loose and flowy and balanced out the jeans. She had tossed on a slate-gray wrap to guard against the sea air now that evening was upon them and the temperature had dropped and had left her feet and her face entirely bare. Miss Bryant disappeared leaving her place to Addison. She looked like… herself. At last. Yet Andrey stared at her as if she were a ghost.“Is this another version of thr
After drinking all her pleasure in, after tasting her essence, an extremely satisfied Andrey smiled his way back up the line of her body, trailing kisses all along the way. When he reached her mouth, he kissed her long and deep and hard. Her hands, shaking with the aftershocks of her orgasm, came up to frame his face, caressing the slight stubble on his jaw. Andrey groaned at the gentle touch, feeling his own skin ripple, the muscles beneath constricting in anticipation of what would come next. Trailing his fingers over her hip and between her legs, he found her opening, slick with a mix of moisture from his mouth and her own feminine juices. Centering himself, Andrey pushed inside. Slowly. An inch. He gave a silent but heartfelt groan. Then another. His nostrils flared as he tried to school his breathing. In, out. In, out. And
For what felt like a long time, whole ages, perhaps centuries, Addison could only stare at him, stricken, too deeply shaken even to weep. She felt cracked open by his words. “And you do, Andrey?” she asked eventually, in a belligerent tone, though her voice quaked. “You know what love is?” Andrey’s eyes were brilliant. Dark and gold and molten fire, burning her alive. He reached over and took her hands in his, and Addison should’ve jerked away. But instead, she exulted in the feel of his skin against hers after all this time. It pumped through her like heat, as though there was no part of her that wasn’t his no matter what she told herself. Or told him. “Let me tell you what I know, Addison,” he said to her, his voice low, intense, urgent. “All I know is I want you so badly that my body literally hurts. I want you in ways that I don’t understand and I
He tracked her back to a part of London that was a world away from his three-story penthouse at the top of an old Victorian warehouse perched at the edge of the Thames. ‘This is what she prefers to a life with me,’ Andrey told himself as he caught the door from one of her neighbors and climbed the narrow, grimy stairs to her second-floor flat. ‘This dingy little place and the dim little life that comes with it.’ Andrey was so angry with her, he thought it might actually burn off the top of his head. He pounded on her door, not even pretending to be polite.“Open this damn door, Addison! I know you’re in there,” he growled. “I saw you enter this building five minutes ago.” He heard
Andrey looked as though he wanted to take her apart with his teeth. Addison fought to control herself… Control her pounding heart, her galloping pulse, that heaviness in her stomach that couldn’t decide if it was desire or anxiety. Or some combination of both.“If you would like to beg, don’t let me stop you,” Andrey bit out after a long moment, though his midnight amber eyes gleamed. “You can begin on your knees.” Addison remembered that day in Bora Bora with picture-perfect clarity. She remembered crawling to him across the polished wood floor, smiling up at him from between his strong legs. Wanting him more than her next breath. She still did. Heat flashed over her, and Addison was afraid she turned bright red. His eyes were narrow and hot, and she knew b
She laughed hearing him saying the word ‘clay’ referring at himself. He was anything but.“Metal that might, under certain circumstances, be welded, perhaps,” she’d said. “Never clay.”“I bow to your superior knowledge,” he’d said, swirling his sherry in his glass, his gaze oddly intent on hers. Addison had felt herself flush with heat and had felt out of control. Reckless. Yet it had felt right, even so. Righter than she could remember anything else feeling, maybe ever. He’d leaned close, then murmured close to her ear.“What would I do without you, Addison?” That was the first time, in three years, he’d ever said her name… and the last until Bora Bora
Andrey had forgotten all about it, until now. Had she been warning him? Had she known that she would get into his blood like this, poisoning him from the inside out, making him a stranger to himself? He frowned out the window now, through the rain lashing across the glass. For the first time in almost twenty years, he wondered if it was worth it, this great empire he’d built and on which he focused to the exclusion of all else. Lately, he wondered if, given the chance, he would trade it in. If he would take her instead. Not that Addison had offered him any such choice. His intercom buzzed loudly behind him. He didn’t move. He didn’t know, anymore, if he was furious or if he was simply the wreckage of the man he’d been. And he didn’t like it, either way.
‘If this is what it was like to love somebody,’ Andrey thought some weeks after he’d returned from Bora Bora and Addison had left him on the tarmac without a backward glance, ‘then I was absolutely right to push it away for my entire adult life.’ ‘When I decide to sabotage you,’ Addison had told him once, ‘there will be nothing the least bit passive about it.’ Andrey couldn’t help but wonder if this was what she’d meant. This… aching, annoying sense of loss, that colored everything a dull gray. ‘I hate it.’ He glared at one of his many vice presidents acros
Perversely, it only made him want her more. He’d told Addison that she was the only person he’d ever had any kind of close relationship with, and the stark truth of that haunted him. She was the only person alive that he had EVER trusted. He had allowed her unparalleled access to all parts of his life. To him. No employee had ever been so entrenched in his personal life before and Andrey had certainly never allowed one of his women anywhere near his business. Only Addison bridged those worlds. Only Addison. And his time with her was almost up. Giving in to an urge he hardly understood, as if it might ease the sudden heaviness in his chest, Andrey reached over and took her hand. Addison’s eyes flew to his, but he concentrated on the slide of her fingers against his. The way they fitted toge
The moment she said that Addison just hated herself. So deeply and so comprehensively it made her feel ill. She slid the wineglass back onto the table and wrapped her arms around her middle, certain she needed help to keep herself together. Andrey didn’t look away. He simply sat much too still and much too close across the table, watching her fall apart.“I’m so sorry,” he began after a moment, his voice calm.“No,” Addison interrupted him, her words feeling thick in her mouth. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said it like that. How would you know? It’s just… It happened rather recently and I’ve still not managed to figure out how to talk about it. About him…”“How recent?” Andrey frowned then.