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79. Has always been me
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2021-06-24 20:41:55Celia’s POV
“I understand why you always go to Sasha. I don’t understand why not me?”
“I want all of you. Not just your body, but everything that says you. I want you to talk to me, get angry on me, shout at me, fight me and at the end of the day, I want you in my arms feeling secured so that I'll be at ease. I want to be your reality, doc. If something doesn't happen in my favour, I'll make it happen in my favour. Because that favour involves only one thing. It's you being with me. And your brother is right. You deserve the best. I won't just let you go to the best. I'll try every second to be that damn best. Tell me if you'll be with me. If you don't accept, I can still give you divorce. Like you said, I'm the Alexander fucking King. But that will never stop me from pursuing you. I await your answer."
"If you do this, I can't leave."
"Things changed, Celia. I don't think I can survive for a longer time without talkin
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