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61. Baby
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2021-05-21 03:03:24Celia's POV
I never thought I would be the girl who would be excited to receive an extraordinary proposal, waiting for roses, candles and whatever boring things they would keep for the date. I am on cloud nine since I saw him at shop. He bought me a godamnn ring. He is going to propose me. I remember how he asked me to marry him saying that is what a hero does after a long speech. He is too particular when it comes to these things, I wonder, if he would ask me to marry him in a language I don't know saying that he didn't like that in English. He is surely that kind of person.Chirping like a bird, jumping like a kid, grinning like an idiot, I reached our home. I am immediately dissappointed when all I find is our usual home with silence and with absolutely nothing that relates to surprise. You are being cheesy, Celia. Just because he bought the ring today, doesn't mean he would propose
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