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30. Devastated
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2021-03-21 02:46:53Celia's POV
Ever felt like you board a train unconsciously and travelled with strangers? You are crossing rivers, running into tunnels, forests, but you don't know where you are going until you find a spot and felt, "Oh, That's my destination. I have to depart now. " That's what my life has become now.
It is like I am travelling without a destination and at some point,I spot the place where I live in. I've been going to hospital and then exploring unknown places. Sometimes,I even forgot the way to reach "home" that I am seeking Google's help. My credit card was much used at gas filling stations than at any other places.
When I reach home,I don't find him. I am living by myself like a bat in a haunted house. He would go out before I even wake up and comes back after I was asleep. Sometimes,I would hear his footsteps outside my room. Deep down, I want him to or at least I expect him
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