Hi everyone, first of all if you’re reading this, thank you so much for being here and I hope you’ve been enjoying the ups and downs so far. Now for a life update: Some things came up so I might not be able to update as promised this weekend and maybe the next. I will try my best to keep writing though. Really sorry about this. As much as I love Leia and Viktor’s journey rn, I’m going through some stuff and I can’t focus enough to write :(( I promise to be back real soon for you all. Thank you. x
— Leia Steele — One second I can feel the ground underneath my feet, and the next there is nothing and gravity is pulling me down, and down, and down. At one point, I concluded that I was going to die because how often do you see a thin and frail woman survive jumping out of a window? Not a lot, that’s for sure. But a second later I feel my knees on the ground and my hands are touching the grass as well. Grass! I’m touching nature after months of being locked up inside! But I don’t have the time to revel on that amazing fact because I am in a life or death situation. “What the hell did I say about running, Leia Steele?!” The shout came from above me and I don’t need to look up to know who it came from. It’s him, and he sounds way angrier than earlier. The panic in me worsens and this time, that feeling of resilience or the strength that was brewing within me was no longer there. Shit, I think I’ve just gotten myself in a far worse situation. I am so utterly screwed beyond reco
— Leia Steele — Contrary to what he said earlier, this is definitely not his bedroom and we had gone back to somewhere else. I’m sitting uncomfortably on probably the most comfortable chair I’ve ever sat on in my life. The irony doesn’t go past me, but I can’t help it. I feel like a duck sitting on a lake with hunters all around me, but the thing is, I am trapped. There is nowhere else to go. At least not anywhere that won’t get me shot. Or in this case, whatever the Dark Alpha plans to do to me if I disobey him… again. He is the hunter and I am but a sitting duck. “The chair isn’t going to swallow you whole, you know? You can sit down properly and not just have half your ass on it.” He said to me with a half smirk. Asshole, I think to myself. But at the same time, why do my cheeks suddenly feel warm? Was it the thought of him looking at where my ass is? Ugh, stop thinking about it! “Suit yourself. I’m not the one getting butt cramps later on.” His smirk goes wider and s
— Leia Steele — His grin grows wider and I am seconds from palpating out of nervousness on my seat. Scratch that, maybe I already am. He lays back down and takes his glass up to his lip and even with the glass blocking most of his mouth, I can tell he is still grinning. When the moonlight from the window hits him, I feel both dread and something else in the pit of my stomach. My eyes can’t help but take him in as he drinks. The sleeves of his shirt rolls up a little higher, exposing more of the black ink that covers both his arms and hands. The rings that can’t possibly be real silver on his fingers shimmer from the light as he downs his glass of liquor. There is something about this man that I have never felt nor experienced with anybody else in this Pack. He is haunting, but at the same time, soothing. I can’t explain it, but looking at him both terrifies me yet invigorates me, too. I can’t look at him without having a crisis, but it’s even harder to look away from him. He is
— Viktor Morgenstar — “Let her go.” I told my Gamma, and most of the time, as he should, he immediately does whatever it is I order him to do or else. This time though, I can sense that he’s not too keen on doing such. The anger seeping from him, from the hand that is tightening more and more on Leia’s neck is obvious from a mile away. “Tell me, you stupid slut! What the fuck have you done with the Alpha?!” He shouts at her again and she visibly winces. Seeing her in such a position makes me feel two things. One, it makes me want to beat the living shit out of Cane because who the hell does he think he is hurting her? Hurting what is mine? Two, and I can’t understand it either but I know it’s there, but god fucking damn it, I have never been more turned on in my life watching her face turn redder by the second, the lack of oxygen getting to her, while her eyes grow even more and more desperate. I knew I had some sadism in me, but this might just be on a whole other level that Le
— Leia Steele —If anybody had told me that one day I would be lying down on a bed that was so comfortable I would think I was dreaming, I would have just laughed at their face and went back to scrubbing toilets and floors.But here I was doing exactly that, and after rolling around it and feeling the softness of the sheets and pillows all around me, it just seemed too real to be a figment of my imagination. This, whatever it is, is really, really happening. For most of my life I’ve wondered what it would be like to sleep on something more comfortable than a thin blanket or the cold hard floor, but now that I’m here, now that I’m on a real bed…I can’t for the life of me go to sleep. I’ve been twisting and turning on this giant bed for what seems like hours now and no matter how hard I try, my brain just can’t seem to shut all my thoughts off so that I could rest. Everything is in complete overdrive and I hate it. I hate this. I hate the Dark Alpha. I hate that I am somehow relat
— Leia Steele —I hug the life sized body pillow closer and tighter, inhaling deeply as my body sinks into the comfort of it all. It couldn’t get any better than this, could it? This was the best dream I have ever had in a long, long time. Soft and silky sheets. One hundred percent pure cotton filled in the pillows. I could stay here forever. It was like being on the best vacation of your life, but the problem is that though you never want it to end, you know it has to at some point. You know that you have to go home and face reality.I let out a deep exhale, followed by a loud grumble before rubbing my eyes open. While I was expecting to be greeted by a musky smell or three other girls huddled around me from lack of space, imagine my shock when I blinked open my eyes and was instead looking at a perfectly neat room. No dirty walls. No putrid smells. No other girls whining about the awful sleep they had. I’m also wearing the softest black robe. “What... the… hell…” I mumbled in d
— Leia Steele —Surprisingly, even to me, I don’t come out of the Dark Alpha’s room twenty minutes after Beta Calypso told me to.Mainly because I realized I needed to take a shower first and look as presentable as I could, but also because I was nervous as hell just thinking about meeting the same people who used to boss me around. “Are the clothes okay for you?” Beta Calypso asks after we step out of the room and I fidget nervously behind him.“I— uh, yes, it’s— n— nice…” I answer as I look down at the dress he handed to me after I finished showering.The thing is, it’s more than nice. I don’t know where he got this from but I don’t think there is an adjective possible to describe the most beautiful piece of clothing I’ve ever had an opportunity to wear.It’s a gorgeous green colored off the shoulder corset bodice dress that cuts off a couple of inches above my knee with a puffy skirt. I feel uncomfortable in it mostly because it’s too pretty, but also because I’m showing more skin
— Leia Steele —My hair is dragged from behind me and I’m dropped to the floor within seconds after I heard the loud screech. When I looked up, an angry pair of bright gray eyes were staring down at me, accompanied by two pairs of blues at her side. “Yeah, you ugly whore!” The two other girls agreed whole-heartedly before crossing their arms in front of their chests. For the love of the Moon Goddess, what is up with everyone getting mad at me for being with the Dark Alpha? It’s not like I even asked for this! He’s the one who’s dragging me to be with him! If anybody should be the target of their anger, it should be him! But I guess it wouldn’t make sense because nobody would dare to get mad at Viktor Morgenstar. Speaking of, where the hell is that guy anyway? “Knock it off, Amethyst.” I heard Beta Calypso say with a less than amused tone. Amethyst… That was her name. Why did it sound so familiar? The girl called Amethyst replied with venom in her tone. “Fuck off, Cal. Typical
— Zane Frost — I hadn’t heard that voice for a while now and it did sound like it could have gotten a bit deeper than before, but I could still distinguish it. Sure enough, when the door swung open, he was all smiles standing in the hallway. Boy, I was not expecting him to have gotten even bigger than he was already before and did he grow a little stubble, too? “I’m back! Surprise!” Skye looked at us beaming excitedly. “Oh, Zane’s here, too! Great! I thought I was going to arrive tomorrow morning, but the journey ended up being a little faster than I thought so— wait a second…” He paused and that’s when I know he finally realized that it wasn’t just me that was also there. “Who… is she?” He blinked at her intrigued. “Well, this is definitely one homecoming I didn’t see coming…” I said with a soft chuckle to lighten up the mood but that didn’t really help. River let out a sigh before confessing to his brother. “This is Eva… my mate.” “Holy. Shit.” Skye reacted in
— Zane Frost — Preparations had been going on for a couple of weeks now. Everybody was excited for Skye’s sudden announcement that he was coming back earlier than usual. Even if I hounded him for more information, that boy was like a vault and he didn’t open up, not even to Leia who was itching to know what had made him suddenly want to come back. “What do you think he meant by ‘big news’?” Leia asked as we were in the kitchen, gathering ingredients to make all the dishes we knew everybody, especially Skye, would love. Usually we would leave the Pack chefs in charge of this, but since Leia was having this phase where she wanted to cook anything and everything, I wanted to be there and help her out. “I don’t know. Anything is possible with that guy.” I honestly answered with a shoulder shrug as I passed her the sifted flour she asked for. We were making various baked goods, but first one on the list was skolebrød, which was a bun filled with a gooey and delicious vanilla c
— Viktor Morgenstar — Before I jumped into that water, I thought it was the only way to preserve what little I had left in my life. In my mind, it was better to die than to live another day without Leia and our baby. I believed I was as good as dead. Until I got washed away onto land and I took another breath. It was hard to explain exactly what that felt like, but what was worse was having to watch the only love you have ever known get pulled away by somebody else and the baby you desperately wanted cared for men you had no idea of. My Dark Shadow screamed and screamed for me to get them back and though every part of me wanted the same as well, I knew that I no longer deserved them. For the first time in my life, I realized that what I wanted isn’t something that I am always supposed to have. After I knew that Leia and the baby were safe, I knew what I had to do. I had to leave and somehow, in some way, I had to become better. Not just for the family that I lost,
— Leia Steele — I have heard and read about countless experiences, many good, many bad, about the newborn stage, but nothing, absolutely nothing can compare to when you are experiencing it yourself. Luckily for me, the phrase ‘it takes a village’ is definitely in effect with the White Howlers. There hasn’t been a minute that I’ve been completely alone with Lux and I couldn’t ask for anything else. Whether it’s Keira offering to help me breastfeed since I was obviously new in all of this and my body was still somewhat recovering thus producing less than ideal, or Skye and the other boys more than happily entertaining him during tummy time with all sorts of antics, or even the usually stoic Alpha Titus excitedly playing with Lux and Zora, his and Keira’s baby girl, everybody has been an absolute gem every single day. But of course, only one person has truly never left my side, and that is— “Zane Frost!” I heard a very passionate squeal on the other side of the door where
— Leia Steele — I woke up feeling somewhat… amazing, which is a completely baffling thing because as far as I can recall, I just fell off a cliff and dove into water while I was bleeding to death. How the hell does it feel like my body is completely healed? Or the fact that I even woke up because I could have sworn I thought I wasn’t going to make it out of there alive? Or wait… I sat up from the bed and frantically began to look around and take in my surroundings, trying to figure out where I was. Maybe I am dead?! “I can see from the very astounded expression on your face right now that you think you’ve somehow woken up in another space or timeline.” I turned to where the sound came from and saw a beaming familiar face. “Skye!” I couldn’t help but squeal his name out of pure happiness to see him, and he looks good at that. “Hey, tough one. Glad to see you’re doing good. No pain, right?” He asked as he walked over to sit on the chair next to me. I noticed tha
(Two Years Later) — Zane Frost — I am seated at the edge of the lake. The very spot I always find myself in whenever I go here. I don’t know why, but my body just somewhat gravitates to this place every single time without fail. Even now when seeing the sight of water still triggers a memory in me, I still stay here. My eyes closed as I laid down on the grass. Winter has gone, exchanged for Spring, and all the snow has melted, replaced with flowers of different colors that had bloomed a new life. A new life, it repeated in my head. That is what Spring is; the beginning of something new. Perhaps everyone, every single person in this world has had a moment that has split their life into two. When you look back at your days, there is something that changed you, some specific time that you know was cataclysmic to your entire existence. A moment that creates what happened before and what happened after. It shades your memories in a different perspective just as it shi
— Leia Steele — “AAAAAAHHHHHH!” I screamed and screamed until it felt like my lungs were going to give out at any second. It was hard to focus on anything aside from the crippling pain that was coming from my belly but transmitting all throughout my entire body. Viktor had quickly pulled me out of the room where the coronation was happening and when I thought he was rushing me to the Pack’s infirmary, he turned a different way that I had no idea where it was leading to. “AAAAAAHHHHHH!” More screams come out of me and I swear it feels like somebody is ripping my belly open. The sound of commotion seems like it’s following us. Left and right I hear people screeching as well as things being destroyed to the ground as the earth itself shook. “Wh— what’s… h— happening…” I managed to get the words out of me as I squirmed in pain as Viktor carried me in his arms tightly. In my mind, I wished somebody else was holding onto me, but my body was a betrayer, lavishing in the
— Zane Frost — I feel like absolute shit. Maybe that in itself is even an understatement because from my head to my toes, it’s like I’m being pushed onto the ground by twenty six-wheelers trucks. That is excluding the fact that my head feels like I’ve been pushed out of a plane and I’m currently twirling around and around fifty thousand feet up in the air. Holy shit. What the fuck is going on? “Zane? Zane! You’re awake?! Guys, he’s awake!” I heard a familiar voice shout out and I flinched in pain almost immediately. There was a loud echo in my ears and I thought my head was going to burst. “Shit, sorry,” the voice mumbled an apology. “Wr du hl m ei…” I tried to speak, but I doubt the letters that came out of my mouth could even form a single understandable word. My suspicions were proven correct when the person next to me burst out into a fit of laughter. If I had the energy to smack them, I would have done it, but alas, aside from being able to move my lips
— Zane Frost — Chaos. Madness. Death. It was left and right. It was almost impossible to escape, but I kept pushing. I told myself that I had to. I knew I had to for her, for Leia, for Keira, for everybody in my Pack and Alpha Titus’. This was all our fight and we had to end this today. No matter what. As soon as anyone tried to come after me, I fought to kill. I don’t think about anything else, but to get the upper hand. The very first time you hesitate, there’s no coming back from that. I see the bloodthirst in their eyes and in the way they growl. These wolves are different. Whilst the White Howlers and Blazing Wolves were trained to mostly defend themselves from the enemies, these ones were trained to do no defending, only killing, like they were all raised to be killing machines. It was unlike anything I’ve ever seen before, but I had to keep up with them if I had to get to Leia. When I saw her get dragged into that house out of nowhere, it was like a switch