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I am sorry to say though that I am pushing back updates to May.If you have read my past author’s notes, I’ve been talking about going through some personal stuff hence why I’ve had difficulties on updating.The thing is, I’ve been battling with very emotional and depressing episodes, and it’s really taken a toll on me. Most of the time I can’t do anything and no words come out when I try to write.This is the first story I’ve truly struggled to finish because as much as I want to, I mentally and physically can’t. I would rather give you guys good chapters than rushed and unsatisfactory ones.I hope you guys understand and as I promised before, this story will still be finished. Please keep Leia and Zane in your libraries and they promise to be back on May with better and more consistent updates.In the meantime, please take care, and reminder to check on your loved ones, but most importantly, yourself.May you have a wonderful April and see you again soon. ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡— Leia Steele — I can feel him drifting away. I can feel the connection I had with him… changing, as if we were a piece of a rubber band that was getting stretched further and further apart. It made me feel safer, more comfortable, and the more days passed, the more I began to forget him, to forget that part of my past. But once in a while, something terrifying comes up in my head, and I think that the rubber band is going to pull us back together… and then I’ll be stuck with him for the rest of my life. A door knock abruptly pulled me out of my thoughts. “Leia? Are you busy? Can I come in?” I immediately recognized the voice as Keira’s. Quickly, I composed myself to look as presentable as possible. With my fingers, I brushed my hair tidily, and with my hands, I straightened my clothes which weren’t really much, just a hoodie and jeans. “Yeah, no, I’m not busy. Come in.” I shouted to her on the other side. Not a second later, Keira comes in, and like always, she
— Zane Frost — “I don’t know, man. Is there something wrong with me? Do you think I messed up? Why is she avoiding me all of a sudden?” I glanced backwards to see Skye holding up a branch and then proceeded to throw a small rock at him. “Yo! Are you even listening to me, man?” He snapped his head to me and raised his branch. “I’m sorry, but this branch was starting to look more interesting than your love problems.” I hissed at him and he roared in laughter. “I’m kidding, I’m kidding. Chill, bro. I was listening, and yeah, you’re deep in that hole.” I raised a brow at him. “What hole? Huh? I didn’t talk about any holes.” I knew this kid wasn’t listening to me. Why did I think talking to him about mate problems would be a good idea again? It’s almost like talking to River about these things and he may be Alpha, but that man is just as clueless with mates as his younger brother. I wouldn’t be surprised if Skye even had more knowledge in some way, but clearly that is no
— Leia Steele — I’m rushing out of the food hall, one hand over my mouth, and the other in my stomach. Oh god, oh god, oh god, don’t let it come out yet! Please! I need to keep it in! “Sorry, sorry!” I briefly apologized to the people I accidentally bump into on the way to the closest comfort room. I shouldn’t have eaten more of the pasta. Maybe the cheese upset my stomach, but damn it looked so good, and it’s not like I’ve had any symptoms these past few weeks so I thought I was safe. I very clearly thought wrong. My eyes light up in hope the second I see the comfort room and dash towards it, not even caring about anything else, I empty the contents of my stomach all over the toilet bowl. By the time I was done, it felt like my mouth was nothing but acid. I felt disgusting because of that and the fact that I was sprawled on the floor in my new yellow dress that was given to me as a gift by Wynter. It was a flowy backless dress with different shades of spring flowers
— Zane Frost — “We’ve tripled patrol and doubled time duties for everyone. So far no one’s been asking questions as to why, but I don’t think that’s going to last long.” Aspen shared while we were all in River’s office. He had called another meeting to discuss the current matter in hand as it was still unsettling, but so far, there wasn’t really much progress to help us all be at ease. I can sense River’s anxiousness and eagerness to get this over with, to figure out where and who this threat is coming from. It was something new, in a way that most of our threats came to our surprise, not threatened, which made it all even more frustrating in our case because it added to the pressure. “Telling others will only cause more damage than good. They don’t need to know anything.” River told Aspen with that tone he only uses when he was absolutely not going to back down on what he wanted. Aspen then glanced towards me, his eyes giving me a hidden message that said, ‘Say something,
— Leia Steele — The clock couldn’t go any slower… or faster, I wasn’t really sure which way I wanted it to go. Did I want to meet Zane already or did I want to prolong my confession to him? It was all so confusing, and one that was obviously taking a toll on me as Skye pokes me at the side for the tenth time since we’ve been in the same room together. “You’re somewhere on another planet again, L.” He commented, his light blue eyes staring straight at me like he’s trying to figure me out, trying to figure out why I’ve been so lost in my own thoughts. Oh, you know, just thinking about how I’m going to tell my mate that I’m pregnant with somebody else’s child, as well as the fact that I killed many innocent people because of my thirst for blood then, including my own mother. Did I mention I may or may not have another attack again and your entire Pack might die because of that darkness inside of me? Yeah, great. Totally normal, right? You’ll still accept me as your mate?
— Leia Steele — Zane was hesitant at first, for like a millisecond, but then he raised his hand to cup my face and his lips went deeper, his kiss ached for more. More of me. It was like nothing I have ever experienced before. This wasn’t like how I kissed Viktor. This was better in ways I can’t even fully describe. The warmth of his fingertips almost melted me to the ground. My heart was beating faster than it has ever done. His lips were warm and velvety soft that my entire face to my body was heating up. This was the feeling of electricity coursing through my veins. This was like being brought back to life after living like the dead. I have never felt so alive. He was taking my breath away, just as I was taking his. It felt like a dream, like a fantasy, like something that couldn’t possibly be happening, but it was. It really was. He was kissing me. My mate, my true mate. The one the Moon Goddess had made to be my other half. In a world with billions of people, this
— Zane Frost — She’s kissing me. Holy sweet mother of Goddess, Leia Steele, my mate, is kissing me?! I’m processing all of it whilst at the same time taking it all in and wishing time would suddenly freeze or at the very best, slow down, so I could savor it all. Savor the way she feels against my lips — soft and warm, the way she tastes — sweet with a hint of the røkelaks (smoked salmon) she had for dinner earlier, the way this whole thing is making me feel — like I’ve just died and gone to heaven. When I invited her to this spot I’ve often gone to when I needed some time alone or just to think, I was not expecting it would end up like this, but I am in no way complaining at all. It feels like a dream, like a very hyper realistic one. I can’t believe that just a couple of hours ago I thought I would have to let her go, that I would lose my mate for both our sake. Now I was kissing her like I’ve never kissed anyone before and my heart is beating like a drum in my chest,
(TW: VIOLENCE) — Leia Steele — I can’t see anything. I know my eyes are open, but no matter how many times I blink, I only see the color of the darkest black in front of me. All of a sudden, I heard a rustling sound come from my left and I quickly turned my head to it. I must have moved too fast as I felt my blood rushed to the top of my head way faster than it should and I got dizzy out of nowhere. I also felt a throbbing ache at the back of my skull. “Who— who’s there? Hello?” I asked cautiously whilst gently feeling my head for any blood or bumps. Luckily, there was only a slightly small bump, but no signs of blood. When nobody answered and I was sure I was still alone, I let out a deep sigh of relief, but then remembered that I still had no idea where I was and how the hell I even got here in the first place. For a few seconds, I can’t exactly remember what happened. I’m still a little dizzy and somewhat out of it, but then my mind starts to get clearer and the real
— Zane Frost — I hadn’t heard that voice for a while now and it did sound like it could have gotten a bit deeper than before, but I could still distinguish it. Sure enough, when the door swung open, he was all smiles standing in the hallway. Boy, I was not expecting him to have gotten even bigger than he was already before and did he grow a little stubble, too? “I’m back! Surprise!” Skye looked at us beaming excitedly. “Oh, Zane’s here, too! Great! I thought I was going to arrive tomorrow morning, but the journey ended up being a little faster than I thought so— wait a second…” He paused and that’s when I know he finally realized that it wasn’t just me that was also there. “Who… is she?” He blinked at her intrigued. “Well, this is definitely one homecoming I didn’t see coming…” I said with a soft chuckle to lighten up the mood but that didn’t really help. River let out a sigh before confessing to his brother. “This is Eva… my mate.” “Holy. Shit.” Skye reacted in
— Zane Frost — Preparations had been going on for a couple of weeks now. Everybody was excited for Skye’s sudden announcement that he was coming back earlier than usual. Even if I hounded him for more information, that boy was like a vault and he didn’t open up, not even to Leia who was itching to know what had made him suddenly want to come back. “What do you think he meant by ‘big news’?” Leia asked as we were in the kitchen, gathering ingredients to make all the dishes we knew everybody, especially Skye, would love. Usually we would leave the Pack chefs in charge of this, but since Leia was having this phase where she wanted to cook anything and everything, I wanted to be there and help her out. “I don’t know. Anything is possible with that guy.” I honestly answered with a shoulder shrug as I passed her the sifted flour she asked for. We were making various baked goods, but first one on the list was skolebrød, which was a bun filled with a gooey and delicious vanilla c
— Viktor Morgenstar — Before I jumped into that water, I thought it was the only way to preserve what little I had left in my life. In my mind, it was better to die than to live another day without Leia and our baby. I believed I was as good as dead. Until I got washed away onto land and I took another breath. It was hard to explain exactly what that felt like, but what was worse was having to watch the only love you have ever known get pulled away by somebody else and the baby you desperately wanted cared for men you had no idea of. My Dark Shadow screamed and screamed for me to get them back and though every part of me wanted the same as well, I knew that I no longer deserved them. For the first time in my life, I realized that what I wanted isn’t something that I am always supposed to have. After I knew that Leia and the baby were safe, I knew what I had to do. I had to leave and somehow, in some way, I had to become better. Not just for the family that I lost,
— Leia Steele — I have heard and read about countless experiences, many good, many bad, about the newborn stage, but nothing, absolutely nothing can compare to when you are experiencing it yourself. Luckily for me, the phrase ‘it takes a village’ is definitely in effect with the White Howlers. There hasn’t been a minute that I’ve been completely alone with Lux and I couldn’t ask for anything else. Whether it’s Keira offering to help me breastfeed since I was obviously new in all of this and my body was still somewhat recovering thus producing less than ideal, or Skye and the other boys more than happily entertaining him during tummy time with all sorts of antics, or even the usually stoic Alpha Titus excitedly playing with Lux and Zora, his and Keira’s baby girl, everybody has been an absolute gem every single day. But of course, only one person has truly never left my side, and that is— “Zane Frost!” I heard a very passionate squeal on the other side of the door where
— Leia Steele — I woke up feeling somewhat… amazing, which is a completely baffling thing because as far as I can recall, I just fell off a cliff and dove into water while I was bleeding to death. How the hell does it feel like my body is completely healed? Or the fact that I even woke up because I could have sworn I thought I wasn’t going to make it out of there alive? Or wait… I sat up from the bed and frantically began to look around and take in my surroundings, trying to figure out where I was. Maybe I am dead?! “I can see from the very astounded expression on your face right now that you think you’ve somehow woken up in another space or timeline.” I turned to where the sound came from and saw a beaming familiar face. “Skye!” I couldn’t help but squeal his name out of pure happiness to see him, and he looks good at that. “Hey, tough one. Glad to see you’re doing good. No pain, right?” He asked as he walked over to sit on the chair next to me. I noticed tha
(Two Years Later) — Zane Frost — I am seated at the edge of the lake. The very spot I always find myself in whenever I go here. I don’t know why, but my body just somewhat gravitates to this place every single time without fail. Even now when seeing the sight of water still triggers a memory in me, I still stay here. My eyes closed as I laid down on the grass. Winter has gone, exchanged for Spring, and all the snow has melted, replaced with flowers of different colors that had bloomed a new life. A new life, it repeated in my head. That is what Spring is; the beginning of something new. Perhaps everyone, every single person in this world has had a moment that has split their life into two. When you look back at your days, there is something that changed you, some specific time that you know was cataclysmic to your entire existence. A moment that creates what happened before and what happened after. It shades your memories in a different perspective just as it shi
— Leia Steele — “AAAAAAHHHHHH!” I screamed and screamed until it felt like my lungs were going to give out at any second. It was hard to focus on anything aside from the crippling pain that was coming from my belly but transmitting all throughout my entire body. Viktor had quickly pulled me out of the room where the coronation was happening and when I thought he was rushing me to the Pack’s infirmary, he turned a different way that I had no idea where it was leading to. “AAAAAAHHHHHH!” More screams come out of me and I swear it feels like somebody is ripping my belly open. The sound of commotion seems like it’s following us. Left and right I hear people screeching as well as things being destroyed to the ground as the earth itself shook. “Wh— what’s… h— happening…” I managed to get the words out of me as I squirmed in pain as Viktor carried me in his arms tightly. In my mind, I wished somebody else was holding onto me, but my body was a betrayer, lavishing in the
— Zane Frost — I feel like absolute shit. Maybe that in itself is even an understatement because from my head to my toes, it’s like I’m being pushed onto the ground by twenty six-wheelers trucks. That is excluding the fact that my head feels like I’ve been pushed out of a plane and I’m currently twirling around and around fifty thousand feet up in the air. Holy shit. What the fuck is going on? “Zane? Zane! You’re awake?! Guys, he’s awake!” I heard a familiar voice shout out and I flinched in pain almost immediately. There was a loud echo in my ears and I thought my head was going to burst. “Shit, sorry,” the voice mumbled an apology. “Wr du hl m ei…” I tried to speak, but I doubt the letters that came out of my mouth could even form a single understandable word. My suspicions were proven correct when the person next to me burst out into a fit of laughter. If I had the energy to smack them, I would have done it, but alas, aside from being able to move my lips
— Zane Frost — Chaos. Madness. Death. It was left and right. It was almost impossible to escape, but I kept pushing. I told myself that I had to. I knew I had to for her, for Leia, for Keira, for everybody in my Pack and Alpha Titus’. This was all our fight and we had to end this today. No matter what. As soon as anyone tried to come after me, I fought to kill. I don’t think about anything else, but to get the upper hand. The very first time you hesitate, there’s no coming back from that. I see the bloodthirst in their eyes and in the way they growl. These wolves are different. Whilst the White Howlers and Blazing Wolves were trained to mostly defend themselves from the enemies, these ones were trained to do no defending, only killing, like they were all raised to be killing machines. It was unlike anything I’ve ever seen before, but I had to keep up with them if I had to get to Leia. When I saw her get dragged into that house out of nowhere, it was like a switch