When we finally found Lilly with the help of the Dragon King, she was not the Lilly we knew. She fully believed that Thomas was her mate and the doll she carried around was a living child.
Lilly was pulled into her subconscious along with her wolf, trying to make Lilly remember who she was.
Lilly somehow pulled Bastian into her subconscious using an ancient spell, and we thought we’d lose both of them.
It was Mum who finally took matters into her own hands. She paid Thomas a visit in his cell at Blood Fire Castle, where we’d been staying with the King and Queen of all Dragon shifters.
Mum pushed a whole heap of hell inside Thomas’s mind, which broke the illusion spell he had over Lilly.
However, Lilly didn’t return to her body, so Lorcan, my brother, took it upon himself to go and get her.
Lilly did return, her memories restored, yet Bastian and Lorcan did not.
It turns out that Bastian had been pull from Lilly’s mind and taken by a Goddess. Lian was the Goddess of all Phoenix shifters, and she wanted Bastian for herself.
The reason Lorcan hadn’t return is that he made a deal with the Moon Goddess and the Devil. If he helped them lock Lian away, Selene would grant Lorcan a body of his own one day.
That still hasn’t happened, yet Lorcan did his part, returning Bastian safely to Lilly.
It hasn’t been easy for Bastian and Lilly since all they went through. But they’re moving forward, slowly each day, and each day, I see a little more of the Lilly we once knew returning.
The first time I saw Harry’s ghost was an hour after he was killed. The rogue was captured, and I’d been torturing him. I killed him right before Lilly arrived home, then she took off. I took to my room, my heart aching for my sister.
Then I saw Harry standing in front of me, asking, ‘What’s wrong?’ Of course, the little boy didn’t know that he was dead, and it took weeks for me to make him believe it.
He only believed it once he finally realised that she could not see or hear him once Lilly arrived home. The poor kid cried and cried but refused to cross over. Harry swore that he’d never leave his mummy.
Harry’s death is still fresh in everyone’s mind due to the fact it’s only been five months. I wonder if that’s what’s wrong with Lilly right now. She’d want her little boy here for her wedding, and he will be, in spirit, at least.
I haven’t mentioned to Lilly that I can see and hear Harry. I didn’t think it would do any good, nor would it help her move on from what happened. However, the little boy doesn’t make it easy for me.
“Who are you talking to?”
I don’t answer Lilly; I don’t because I don’t know how to.
‘I can hear it,’ Harry’s curious smile as he makes his way over to Lilly has me narrowing my eyes. ‘Uncle Leander, can’t you hear it?’
“Hear what?”
“Leander, what’s going on? Who are you talking to?”
I wave my hand at Dad. I’ll tell him what he wants to know once I find out what’s wrong with Harry. “What can you hear, little man?”
‘The baby. I can hear Mummy’s new baby’s heart beating.’
“Harry, are you sure?”
He nods his little head at me.
“Harry?” My eyes snap to Lilly; more tears fall from her eyes. “You’re speaking with Harry?” I nod once. “He’s here? Where is he?” She asks desperately.
‘I’m here, Mummy.’
“He’s right in front of you.”
Lilly gasps and looks down, just as Harry places his hand protectively over her stomach. I know she senses it because she lays her hand, unknowingly, over Harry’s.
“He’s curious that he can hear your unborn baby’s heartbeat.”
Both Lilly and Bastian stare at each other in shock. I’m guessing because Lilly blocked us from sensing her pregnancy. Mum and Dad are dying to say something, but I sense Luther shake his hand, stopping them.
‘She’s sad because she feels guilty that I died, and now she’s going to have another baby.’
“Is that true?” I ask as if Lilly knows what I’m talking about.
“Is what true?” Bastian asks.
“Lilly, do you feel guilty because you’re pregnant? Do you feel as though you’re replacing Harry?”
I can’t help smiling as Harry leans his head against Lilly’s stomach. He giggles, and I imagine he’s hearing the baby’s heartbeat banging in his ears.
“Lilly?” Dad urges.
Lilly sighs and leans her head against Bastian’s for a moment.
She then lifts and looks at us all. “Yes, it’s true. I don’t feel that I deserve this baby. With all of my abilities, I couldn’t protect Harry. He died, and a part of me died with him. I know I wasn’t his birth mother, but that didn’t mean anything because I loved him as though he came from my body.”
“The reason we kept the pregnancy from you,” Bastian picks up. “Is because Lilly is having doubts that she can be a mother.”
“Lilly, you’ll be a wonderful mother.”
Lilly gives Mum a slight smile.
“Is that why you blocked us from detecting the heartbeat or even sensing your pregnancy?” Lilly nods at Luther. “I can’t imagine how you’re feeling right now, Lilly. But you really believe that you wouldn’t be able to care for your child?”
“Harry didn’t die because of you,” Dad says with conviction.
I listen to everyone giving Lilly and Bastian advice while keeping my eyes on Harry. He’s humming while kissing Lilly’s stomach. I know that she can feel something because each time Harry plants a kiss or strokes her stomach, Lilly looks down and smiles.
‘Uncle Leander?’
“Yes, Harry?” Everyone stops talking at the mention of Harry’s name.
‘Will you tell Mummy and Daddy something for me?’ He lifts his little dark head to look at Lilly and Bastian.
“Of course, I will.”
‘Can you tell them that I love them more than anything in the whole world?’
I smile. I look at my sister and her mate. “Harry would like me to let his Mummy and Daddy know that he loves you both more than anything in the whole world.” I try not to chuckle as Harry made sure I repeated his words to the letter.
“Mummy and Daddy love you more than anything in the world too, buddy.” Bastian is the one to speak.
“Leander?” Lilly swallows hard while looking at me. “Can you. . .”
“Can I what?” My sister bites her lower lip, and I try not to sigh. I know what she wants, but she knows how much it takes out of me.
But can I deny her this one small thing when I’ve kept the truth to myself for months?
After everything Lilly and Bastian have been through since mating, I can give them this just once.
“If I do this for you, it can be only once. I know how addictive hearing a loved one can be, Lilly, so I need you to promise that you won’t. . .”
“I won’t,” She cuts me off with a smile. “I know what it does to you to use your ability. But I swear that neither Bastian nor I will ever ask again. I just need to hear Harry’s voice just once more. Please, Leander?”
I look at Bastian for confirmation.
He nods his head as if agreeing with what Lilly said.
I sigh and turn to look at my parents and Luther. “I wish I could bring you all in to hear Harry, but I can’t.”
“We understand.” Dad tips his head.
I can’t bring my parents and Luther in on this; dragging five other people with me is too much. Well, I mean, I can bring five people in with me, but I’d be bedridden for days afterwards, and I can’t afford for that to happen right now.
I’m a busy man, pack responsibilities, Royal duties, and so on.
Regardless of how much energy it drains from me this time, I want to do this for my sister and her mate; they deserve the chance to say goodbye properly.
I get out of my seat and take Lilly’s hand in my right and Bastian’s in my left. Bastain grabs Lilly’s other hand. The room becomes blurry, as my surroundings always do when I pull people into my gift.
“Say whatever you want to,” I tell Lilly and Bastain. “Harry can hear you, and you’ll hear him too. Right, buddy?”
‘Right,’ He giggles and Lilly gasps.
I can’t make anyone see the dead, but I can allow them to hear their words for a few moments.
“I miss you so much, Harry. I’m so sorry that I wasn’t there when you needed me.”
‘Don’t cry, Mummy. I don’t want you to feel guilty about what happened to me, nor about having a new baby. You will love him as much as you love me,’
“Every single day, little man.”
Harry giggles at Bastian’s words.
‘Mummy, Daddy, I want you to be happy again; I want you to smile. Please don’t cry anymore, I know you won’t forget me, and I will always be with you.
‘I will always be watching over the baby, and I will always, always love all three of you. I will even love every cub you have next.’ Harry laughs because Lilly and Bastain do.
For the first time since Harry died, I see a genuine smile on Lilly’s face. “Harry?”
“He’s still here, right in front of you, smiling.”
Lilly nods her head and then looks in the direction of Harry. “I wish I could give you one more hug. I also wish you were here with Daddy and me so we could tell you every day how much we love you. This baby is not replacing you in any way, Harry; no one ever could. I’ll tell your little brother or sister all about you,”
‘Brother,’ Harry giggles as if he knows something no one else does.
I simply smile and wink at him.
“Remember that Daddy loves you, Harry. I will always keep you in my heart, safe and sound.”
Harry’s smile is so genuine and happy that I’m smiling with him. Hearing Bastian’s words has Harry hugging himself as though he were hugging his father.
“I love you, baby boy. I love you so much.” Harry leans up and presses a ghostly kiss to Lilly’s cheek. She gasps and touches said cheek with her fingertips before looking at Bastian. He smiles and leans in to kiss her.
‘I love you both,’ Harry whispers before I have to break the connection. I can’t hold it much longer, I can feel my energy waning, and I can’t let that happen right now.
Talk soon turns back to Lilly and Bastian’s wedding. Lilly seems much happier, and that makes the rest of us relax.
Harry left the room to go and play, so he told me. I have no idea what small ghosts do to entertain themselves, but whatever makes him happy.
A voice suddenly fills my head. I don’t know-how, and I don’t know why, but I hear it loud and clear. ‘Help me...’
My eyes flash grey, every sense in my body on high alert. Sara is calling me; I’d know her voice anywhere, my mate.
“Leander, what’s wrong?”
“Sara.” Is the only answer I give my father before moving at the speed of light. I have to get to Sara. I don’t know what’s wrong, but I know something isn’t right with my mate.
‘Save her,’ Valerius whispers inside my head.
‘You know that I will.’
Why couldn’t I drown like a normal person?Okay, I realise I’m not a normal person, not human anyway. But I at least thought I’d be able to drown in peace.I’d been under the water less than a minute before I was being pulled out of the lake. I was dropped onto the grass and allowed to catch my breath before I noticed a man. I looked up at him through my lashes and instantly knew he didn’t mean well.He sneered at me, his vile smirk showing his yellowish teeth. He looked unkempt, and his beard was very long. I had no idea how old the man could be, but his bare chest said around mid-twenties, his haggard face said fortyish.I won’t lie; I was terrified, just looking at him.The man in front of me wants me to go with him, but there is no way I’m doing that. From
“I think you need to explain what the hell that was!” I snap at Bastian as soon as I’m through the parlour door.After Sara passed out in my arms, I rushed her back to the mansion. I took her to my room, where Toby checked Sara over. He told me that Sara was perfectly healthy, apart from exhaustion.Toby said to let Sara sleep as long as she needed, then I’d get my chance to find out why she told her parents about our kind. I’ll also be able to tell Sara all the information she lacks when it comes to shifters.Once Toby left the room, I ran a warm bath, stripped Sara, and bathed her, all while she slept.It was hard not to notice how beautiful and toned her body is, though I tried not to stare. But Goddess knows I’m just
Yesterday was a lot to take in. I barely had time to process any of it. After Leander told me a few things that better helped me understand, I fell asleep.When I woke this morning, Leander was gone. I remember him climbing into bed with me and wrapping me up in his arms. I remember his chest pressed against my back and how I couldn’t force myself to mind.I slept peacefully, my previous nightmare forgotten. Well, not forgotten exactly, but I didn’t dwell on it as I usually would.The nightmare I had is the same one I have had for years. I didn’t understand it at all, and I still struggle with it, if I’m honest.It’s always the same thing that I see, a faceless woman leading me out of the woods. Her arm around my waist as she
I have to admit that the fresh air out in the yard is lovely. I’m a little nervous about making my way into the forest where I was almost attacked, but needs must. I can’t go about my life with nothing to call mine. My bag doesn’t hold much, but what’s inside is mine, and I want it.I hum to myself as I walk, ignoring the fact that I have nowhere to go. I’m not sure what I’m going to do from here on in, but I do know that I’ve got cramps.Great, just what I don’t need, my damn period.‘You had your period two weeks ago, Sara.’‘Maybe it’s anxiety then?
Here I am, again watching Sara sleep.I had no idea the heat and rut would hit so hard and so soon. I left the house yesterday for a couple of hours. I wanted to pick up some things for Sara. I wanted her to have some new clothes, toiletries, and all those little things women like, such as makeup and perfume.Of course, I could have sent any number of servents to pick them up, but I wanted to do it myself. I wanted to do something nice for my mate.I’d managed to borrow something from Lilly for Sara to wear if she woke up before I returned. I left the bathroom door open so Sara could find it easily, and I told Anna to make sure Sara ate breakfast.I was gone longer than I thought I’d be, and by the time I was halfway home, the rut hit. I knew before Luther mind-linked with me that Sara would be feeling it; we’re ma
I’ve had sex more times in five days than most have in six months. Leander and I had sex all over his room. We had sex in the bathroom, in his closet, against the window, in his chair, on the desk – you get the gist.Around making love all over the place, Leander explained everything there was for me to know about Zidiah and his family.I had no idea shifters could have magical powers!Leander told me about how his mum and dad met and how his mother is half-vampire. When Leander said that, the french fry I was eating fell out of my mouth in shock.Vampires don’t exist!Thinking about it, why wouldn’t vampires exist?Werewolves do, and o
“How old are you, Sara?” Mum asks with a smile.Sara swallows the sausage she was chewing and answers Mum, “I’m eighteen, Your Majesty.”“No,” Mum shakes her head while chuckling. “Darling, you don’t need to use formal titles here. You’re my son’s mate. That makes you family, just like Bastian.”I note the nervous smile on Sara’s face.From the moment we walking into the dining room, Sara hasn’t spoken more than a handful of words to anyone.I know being surrounded by people you don’t know can be daunting. But most will interact regardless of how nervous they might be.Not that I would force Sara to talk when it’s clear she’s scared. Though I think it has more to do wit
I had to get out of there; I felt as though I was suffocating.I understand that Bastian is desperate for me to know who I am, but he scared me.Doesn’t he understand that I don’t know who I am?Bastain is a stranger to me, yet he couldn’t stop himself from yelling that he knows I’m his sister.My head was all over the place, and I just needed some peace. So when Leander jumped to his feet, I ran from the room. I did not want to stay and listen to any more of their conversation.Leander mind-linked me, but I was in no mood to talk. I need time alone to think about everything going on in my life right now.I took a walk around the grounds. I love nature and seeing how beautiful the surrounding gardens are had me smiling.
Two Months Later.“Sara, will you please calm down.”She’s all over the place, looking nervous when she has nothing to be nervous about.“I’m sorry,”I chuckle at my mate as she finally sits down.Sara has just spent the past half an hour explaining to my parents how she wants to take Jenna back to Greenrock with us.I was a little sceptical at first; I mean, Jenna is Luther’s mate. It doesn’t matter that he still hasn’t accepted the girl or even told anyone that she is his mate. Taking her away from him could have terrible consequences.However, Sara made a valid point.
It has been so much fun getting to know everyone.Leander and I have made the round, and Mum and Dad have introduced us to literally everyone. Some of the elder members of the pack wanted to know if Leander had anyone in mind for Beta.We could keep Chris as Beta, but it would all depend on whether or not he can keep up with Leander’s demands.Leander won’t keep Chris just because he was Beta for Bastian. There will be tests of all kinds, both physical and mental, that any candidate will have to take.Leander and I want the best for our pack, and we’ll make sure they get it, no matter what.Leander and I are on the dancefloor in each other arms. We’re smiling at each other as we move slowly, and I can feel how in love we are. It’s all-consuming, and I have never felt this
“I’m so nervous, Leander.”Leander smiles and entwines his fingers with mine.I have to say that he looks incredibly handsome in his grey suit with his dark hair gelled back. I dressed to match in a grey cocktail dress, with silver heels. I fashioned my hair in a French twist and kept my makeup light.“It’ll be all right, sweetheart. You’ll relax as soon as we walk into the ballroom and start speaking.”Leander has no clue that I won’t relax until we’re back in our room.Our room?That sounds so weird when this used to be Bastian’s room. Leander said that we could decorate before we officially moved in, and I agreed because we needed to put our own stamp on the place.It’s
After letting Bastian and my father know that I’d take Alphaship of Greenrock, Sara and I left the mansion this morning. The past couple of days, Sara has seemed much more at ease about things. It’s strange to me because I thought she’d still be worrying about what happened with Chan and Yanlin. Sara also called a meeting to explain to our families her decision about Jill and Paul. Sara doesn’t want them executed but to be locked up for the rest of their lives. Not once will they touch each other, and forever will they yearn to be together. Sara had worried about what her parents would think. But Faye smiled and told Sara that she was proud of her and that she had nothing to worry about. With everything squared away, my father expressed that taking over Greenrock wouldn’t happen overnight.
I breathe in the fresh air and smile.I came outside for a walk after waking up from a nightmare. Everything that happened yesterday kept playing like a record on repeat inside my head.I didn’t wake up screaming or anything, but I was shaking. I couldn’t fall back to sleep, and Leander was snoring softly. So, I left him in bed and came out for a while.I figured I could clear my head, and maybe that would sort me out.The trouble is that I don’t know if I’ll ever forget what Chan did to me. I know that he’s dead, but I would have liked to talk to him and find out the truth for myself.Yanlin is locked up, but I’m still a little worried that she’ll somehow get out. I’m not scared of the woman, but it does bother me that she’s so obsessed with Leand
A gagging and gasping sound has Sara pulling away from me. “Mum!”“Stay back!” Faye yells. She’s in full-on banshee right now, and I know how dangerous getting close to a banshee can be.Everyone is on tenterhooks, watching as Faye fights the effects of the Esian.I hold Sara against me as we watch the Esian cover Faye’s entire body. She throws her head back and screams the scream of a banshee in pain, knocking everyone but Sara to the floor.“Mama?”“Sara,” I groan her name while clasping my ear.Fuck me; these banshees sure can bring a man to his knees.Sara ignores me and walks closer to her mother. She takes Faye’s hands in her own, and I watch Sara take her banshee for
“Hold him!” I scream at Luther.My brother growls in the guy’s face while Bastian rips the mask from his face.“Chan?” Lilly says with narrow eyes. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?”Chan doesn’t answer, and I don’t give a shit right now.I crouch down next to Sara and push her hair away from her face. That bastard hit her, and the bruises send me murderous!I want to kill him, but Sara is more important to me right now.The room fills with people, but I have no mind for anything other than Sara.“Baby, can you hear me?”Sara doesn’t move, nor does she make a noise to let me know that she can hear me.
“I can’t believe how cute you were.”I playfully poke my tongue out at Bastian.He and our parents are sitting on the sofa, Mum in between Dad and Bastian as they look through the photo album I brought.“I’m sorry, there aren’t many. Jill and Paul weren’t big on photographs.”Mum shakes her head. “This is perfect. We get to see you grow up through these pictures, and I couldn’t have asked for more.”They’ve seen me as a small child, my first Christmas without them, my first lost tooth, and so much more.My family missed out on all of those precious moments. I can’t get them back, but the photographs seem to be helping ease the pain somewhat.“You look so m
This cannot be happening!Leander was supposed to fall at my feet, not fight me on whether the damn baby is his or not. For Goddess Selene’s sake! I have done everything to make the Dalgaard’s believe me, yet Leander fights me on the truth?Okay, saying I was twenty-four weeks pregnant made them doubt me. But the fact remains that I am twenty-four weeks, and there is nothing I can do to change that!A friend of mine, a witch, said that I need the blood bonding of a Dalgaard to save mine and my baby’s life. There is only one Dalgaard I would bond blood with, and that’s Leander.All my life, I have loved Leander Dalgaard. I had finally made him mine; then he cast me aside as though I were nothing to him!Now, he’s got a mate?I could just scr