KRISTINA'S POV"Oh, I just got excited about something." The movie's paused in front of us and the credits are rolling, but neither of us have noticed them. I've already watched two episodes by this point so it doesn't really matter. I'm not too tired anymore, anyway. "Do you know where our new neighbors came from?" I ask Nathan casually. It feels weird asking about it so suddenly. Like I've been avoiding it since it happened yesterday. Or maybe this is just how it feels when you're with someone after having been away for months. "They live in the apartment directly across from ours now." "No idea," Nathan replies, shrugging. His fingers trace patterns on my bare knee. "We'll have to ask when next we go out there." "Okay, that sounds good," I agree, smiling to myself. I close my eyes again to continue watching the movie, but the words are meaningless to me now. All I can think of is that Nathan and I spent the afternoon together. I had been dreaming about it ever since my dream
KRISTINA'S POV"Nathan…" He lets out a small sigh and I hear rustling sounds on the other side of the line. "Look, Kristina, I just need some time." He pauses, as if to collect himself. When he continues, his voice cracks slightly. "Just give me some time and we'll talk when I feel ready." What does he mean by that? We don't always have a lot of time together, so this isn't unusual for us. But still, I don't like it. I think back to when we first moved in with our respective lives, back when things weren't perfect between us. I was constantly having to rush away or go somewhere else. Now that we're finally together in the same hospital, we're actually seeing each other every day… I miss him. The thought of being apart from him hurts too much to be considered healthy. So many thoughts race through my mind at once. And suddenly I have an idea. A stupid one, yes. I know Nathan likes to joke around and tease people when he feels down, but I can tell how sad he is right now and I hate
KRISTINA'S POV He sounded exhausted and I hated the sound of that; it's like he's forcing himself not to worry and instead trying to hide the fact that he cares about me. Something told me that wasn't exactly true. I didn't like it one bit. It felt like lying, pretending he wasn't worried about something when we both knew deep down he was. I decided that I wanted to talk to him about it. I needed to. Whatever this was, it was eating away at both of us and I didn't know who it was hurting the most. But it had to be someone, right? Because otherwise it would drive one of us crazy. "Nathan, please tell me what's going on!" The desperation I heard in my own voice surprised me. I didn't mean to sound so desperate, though. But it happened all the same. And the way he flinched at my loud outburst brought me some satisfaction. When he remained silent I continued in a quiet tone. "Huh? What do you mean, Kristina?""Please?" I didn't want to use the tone that made everyone avoid me. Even
KRISTINA'S POVMy eyes were stinging from unshed tears, but I refused to let them fall. I couldn't cry in front of Nathan and he had already proven he was capable of breaking my heart so why should I risk anything more than necessary? "I really do," Nathan said softly. "But you might find some other guy that makes you happy." "I'd rather choose you than anyone else." I replied. I looked up at him. His face was completely sincere, and there was an intensity in his eyes that I rarely saw directed towards me. It made me feel warm inside to see how much he wanted me. How much he loved me... but how little he knew about himself. It hurt to realize that maybe I didn't need him like I thought I did after all. Not anymore. "You don't need to choose me. You can make your own decisions, just as you've done all your life. I don't care who you choose to be with because no matter who you date, no matter who loves you, I'll still want you." He cupped my cheek and smiled gently. The words sent
KRISTINA'S POV"This is bullsh*t." My voice rose an octave higher at the end of my sentence, the words coming out in an angry whisper. Why did Nathan insist on doing this? I hated feeling embarrassed about my body or being told I had a "pretty face". That's all it was pretty… a pretty face… nothing more, but here we were, getting flustered and upset because I had a small pimple under my lip, instead of being able to kiss anyone. I felt humiliated. "Why are we acting like this?" I asked, my face growing redder with frustration by the second. "Is this some kind of sick joke to you?" Nathan's green eyes flashed angrily. "Who do you take me for?" he asked angrily. "I don't have any problem seeing you with pimples all over your face. It doesn't bother me in the least." I stared at him with wide eyes. Had he just confessed to having a crush on me? That wasn't possible. There must be some kind of mistake. This was just another of Nathan's tricks. I was reading too far into things. We we
KRISTINA'S POVAs we reached our destination, I began struggling against the straps of my grocery bag containing Nathan's snacks. My arms were feeling heavy and weak, and I was beginning to wonder if I had made the right decision after all. I knew Nathan wouldn't allow me to carry anything myself–not that it mattered. I just couldn't bring myself to ask him to give me a piggyback ride the whole way. But I was starting to doubt whether this was a good idea. What if I slipped, or lost my balance and fell? Would it look that bad? I wasn't sure, but I doubted I could stand upright if I ended up falling. I was just thankful I was wearing shorts today, so at least I wasn't embarrassed to show my butt. Nathan chuckled lightly, watching me struggle. "Let me help you with that." "Thanks."I glanced at him nervously but held out my arms anyway. He quickly unclasped the straps, and handed my bag to me, taking both my arms in return and carefully lifting me up onto his shoulders. "You'll be
KRISTINA'S POVDespite my happiness, it was suddenly replaced by fear. Just right about when I was living a peaceful life together with Nathan and my children, I suddenly received an order from Laurence to return to the Crimson Snow Pack, maybe because Alpha Laurence was agitated by how Alliyah flirted with his beta, Carl, even though they were already married for several years. Laurence eventually evicted Carl from his position as the pack's beta, leading him to head over the Black Fangs Pack together with Alliyah.Now, I had no idea what happened after that. I just know it was very upsetting to me and made me more depressed than ever. My mind kept replaying scenes of the events that took place before I found out that Laurence impregnated me. I can remember so clearly everything that happened and now, it seems impossible to forget. Everything. That's why, everytime something happens or anyone mentions that we don't have much time left, all of us start thinking, what am I doing here?
KRISTINA'S POVWhat's worse, the man with the black mask was staring at me. His eyes didn't show any emotion, like those of an animal observing its prey. He looked like he wanted to eat me alive. I felt terrified. One of his accomplices whispered something into his ear, and then the leader spoke, "Don't get cocky about this, Amore. I want your boss dead for what he did to our little friend here. You should have thought about that before you decided to attack him. Your mistake is not being fast enough for our dear old friend, Lexie." He turned around and walked away without looking back at me. As he left the room, he took a small device out of his pocket and pressed on it. A moment later, two figures came through the door. One wore red clothes and was holding two guns aimed right at my head. Another, wearing gray military attire, held an assault rifle, like how I used to carry mine. I recognized both of these guards because their faces are always plastered in news footage, especiall