The apartment was empty when I arrived and I went straight inside my room to cry my heart out. What was I even thinking? I tried to kiss Zach and he rejected me. He must think I'm a fucking whore for throwing myself at him at the slightest inconvenience. I hated Jayden and I hated myself for being in a situation like this. This is why I never do serious relationships. It's a pain in the ass.I ignored the calls and messages from him and switched off my phone before crying myself to sleep until a loud knock on the front door woke me up with a jerk and I looked up at the clock hanging on the wall in front of me. It was 1.45 am.I was pretty sure that it wasn't Beth. She usually stays at Mason's place if it gets late and she has her own set of keys as well. I got up from my bed and looked at myself in the mirror. My face and eyes were all red and puffy from the crying and I quickly wiped the smudged mascara from the corners of my eyes. "What if it's him?" I whispered to myself and wa
"Zach!" I almost shouted in suprise as I had no idea why he was here given how awkward things were last night. If anything, I'm the one who should apologise for trying to kiss him at the slightest inconvenience like a whore."Listen about last night..." He started to talk and looked down, scratching the back of his head."I know, Zach. I'm really so sorry. I wasn't thinking straight and I was sad." I finished it for him as I didn't want to relive the moment through him again. I had damaged my reputation in the most horrible way possible and it was hard to make things right now. "No. God, no! You don't have to apologise for anything. I just didn't want you to think that I.." He stopped talking all of a sudden and went still, looking behind me and that's when I realised Jayden was right there. "What's going on here?" I heard his deep voice as he came and stood beside me, half naked with his pants hanging loosely around his waist and his arm wrapped around my shoulders. Fucking hell!
When you are in love, nothing matters to you except that person. Not even the red flags because you convince yourself it won't happen again but it will happen again and you will always end up being wrong. It happened to me as well.I knew Jayden had a temper when I told him about Zach but I convinced myself that his reaction was acceptable given the fact I hurt him but what I didn't know was that, it wasn't a one time thing.Things were pretty normal since the past week. Jayden and I have become inseperable, we were offically dating but it was not established in the media as he wanted to settle things with Mallory's dad first and it would also look bad for his reputation to jump into another realationship immediately. His words. I loved spending every single moment with him. The passion between us was fucking unreal and we were hardly able to keep our hands off each other. I stayed with him most of the nights and Beth didn't mind it as she was staying with Mason as well. As for Zac
By the time we reached the club, it was packed and I wondered how Anna alone was managing the bar. After our little argument with my clothes, I was pretty upset throughout the whole car ride but Jayden somehow convinced me and got me in a good mood.We made out in his car before entering the club. That's how, my inner self mocked at me.I walked inside with Jayden by my side and he had his arm around my waist in a protective manner. I looked over at the bar and found Anna and Zach handling the crowd. I noticed Anna trying to flirt with him but Zach was hardly paying her By attention. Just when I was about to look away, our eyes locked with each other and I sucked in a deep breath.Fuck!He ran his eyes all over my body and his eyes lingered for a bit longer than usual at my waist where Jayden's hand was present. It's been so long since we spoke to each other and I missed him. I could see from the way he was looking at me that he missed me as well. But the question was, did he miss me
I was the first one to walk out of the booth, controlling my tears before anyone could react and I knew I couldn't go home as I had to work the next shift so I chose the only place where I would be alone in this whole building. The terrace. I was greeted by the cold wind as soon as I stepped walked inside the terrace and hugged myself with my arms, feeling cold, sad, alone and heartbroken. I walked further towards the right to find a decent spot on the concrete floor where I could sit down. I could see the entire city from where I was sitting. I always come here whenever I feel low because the view of the whole city makes me think that my problems are so small compared to it. I felt fresh tears flowing down my cheeks without my knowledge and I squeezed my eyes shut.I realised at that moment that I was more angry at myself than Jayden for being so weak, for being so ignorant of his actions and also for loving him even when he treated me like shit. I knew I deserved better and I dese
I stayed in bed for three days without showering or eating. I was just breathing, merely existing and I was out of tears from all the crying and had no more energy in my body to produce anymore tears. My phone was still switched off and I heard a few knocks on my door every now and then but I completed shut myself from the world and remained in my bedroom, trying to forget about everything that happened in the last two months.I wanted to forget meeting Jayden.I wanted to forget sleeping with him.I wanted to forget that stupid mascarede night that changed my whole life. I wanted my body to forget him and my heart to stop missing him. He might have been an asshole who treated me like shit but I did fall in love with him and knowing that he probably doesn't feel that way was so damn painful. I could feel the pain all over my body and wished there was some kind of off button. Maybe I should see my mom. She was a selfish bitch but I actually missed the warmth I received from her whe
Two Weeks Later,Nobody told me the timeline of how long it takes to fix a broken heart but I was okay. Even though, I was barely holding it all together, I took it one day at a time and it's now been two weeks since I broke up with Jayden. I quit my job and hardly spoke with anyone. Beth understood me and gave me the space I needed. Last time when she checked on me, she told me that they were no longer doing business with Jayden. She also told me one other thing that fucked me up real good. "Yes, Hazel. I've always known. Zach has been in love with you since forever and I'm honestly surprised that it took you so long to figure it out.""Why didn't you tell me?" I asked, crying my heart out to her but all she said was that Zach had made her promise not to tell me about it. I wasn't mentally prepared for any of this and I hated the fact that I broke his heart just like how Jayden broke mine and the funny thing was, I liked him and I could have given him a chance instead of Jayden. N
"No way! I thought my brother would have jumped at the chance to be with you." Beth squealed in shock and surprise as I told her everything that happened the other day with Zach. We were chilling at her house on the couch, well Mason's house technically and it felt so good to finally let it all out and ask her what she feels about this whole situation. I wasn't sure if I was ready for another relationship and even if I was, I was scared to give Zach a chance no matter how much I was attracted to him. I was scared to feel that type of pain again. "Yeah, I'm not sure what to do, Beth. Zach is so good and I can't believe he is not even trying to move on. Why would he like me? I'm a fucking mess." I groaned, covering my face between my hands and she let out a huge sigh and wrapped an arm around my shoulders, hugging me sideways."You are not a mess, Hazel. You just made a wrong choice and now you can finally see that the right one was just around the corner all this time," she explained