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Riding in Lust Good times
Carlos opened the door on my third knock. Not wanting to explain, I said it short and simple.“I didn’t want to sleep alone.”“So you want to sleep with me?” He asked. His voice was low and quiet, subtly dangerous.“I said I didn’t want to sleep alone, I didn’t mention sex.” My voice was low and shaky.“I didn’t mention sex either, you mentioned it first.” He pulled me into the room and locked the door behind me.I stood by the wall, resting all my weight on it while Carlos held my shoulder with his free hand. He turned to me when he was done.“You were saying?” He urged.“I’m back, I want to sleep here.” I tried to keep my voice from shaking, why was he playing hard to get?“What if I do not want you to? You didn’t want to see me earlier, what changed?”His hands on my shoulder moved to my neck as he spoke, caressing my skin as lightly as he spoke the words.I swallowed; his fingers traced the movement down my throat. “There were no stars,” I said honestly.His hands pa
Riding in Lust Luxury of Curiosity
Having maids at your beck and call was quite nice if you let yourself get used to it. Today, I decided not to be uneasy about being in a cage, at least, I got a very beautiful cage. Mind you, it had a nice view. I was already getting used to the mono-color of the room. It was nice.If it was my room, I could do something like it but with a brighter color, a happier color.I ordered wine and snacks to make myself comfortable on my balcony. The girl that always brought lunch for me, Emily, had now become familiar with me. When I had just come here, all we did was glare at each other, at least we now said hi to each other. Still, it came as a surprise to me that she offered to help me paint my nails.“Would you like me to help you polish your nails? You look quite beautiful today, I know you don’t use makeup but I have colors that would look perfect on your nails and blend with your skin.” Emily spoke shyly. She seemed like a good person.The offer surprised me but I didn’t mind painting
Riding in Lust Precious stones and spoons
Having had a gangster for a father and lived with Louis and Juan, I knew enough to recognize the home of a man in the outlaw. The Mafia didn’t have maids cleaning their gardens or a load of people who owed them their lives.They didn’t have a scarless body either. Mafia men didn’t have to hide under others to get revenge either. It just didn’t make sense.Yet it was strange.I wanted to know; I couldn’t bear not knowing. The faces of the men I saw reminded me of how I felt when I was with my father. They looked ready to take blood.I didn’t want Carlos putting his hands into business with people like that. What if something happened and he couldn’t do it on his own, would he go back to Louis for help?Things didn’t seem clear to me at this point. I started to feel the setback of not having a phone or any kind of internet access.Carlos had books. Maybe I will find a clue.The room was very wide, most of the room was in sight, and there was no shelf or desk. All I could see was a curta
Riding in Lust Arsenic
“Do you realize you made me promise to return a spoon?” A spoon.I didn’t even want it.“It is not just a spoon Rayna. It is a silver spoon. I don’t know why I must give you so badly, but my intuition is never wrong. I want you to keep it and use it. When the time is right, I’ll take it back.”Her words were spoken very seriously—such an old-fashioned woman. I decided to agree with her, my food was getting cold.“Okay, Ma. Thank you for this silver spoon.” I said to match her serious tone. The spoon felt different in my hands, I didn’t think I could eat with it.I put the spoon into my smoothie jug and went back to my rice, the drink seemed to be losing its chill so I decided to take a sip, besides, the rice was no longer hot.I used the spoon to stir the drink before taking a sip. The cup was almost at my lip when Coco screamed. I was so taken aback that my drink spilled over my clothes.“Coco!.”I followed her eyes to the spoon I had laid on the table.It had turned black.“Oh my Go
Riding in Lust Who he was.
“Who are you?” I repeated.He ignored my question but moved away from the hug, his hands traced down my hands and stopped at my wrists, he looked at me head to toe again and gave a deep sigh.“I’m glad you’re okay.” He said quietly, “You should take a rest. I have some things to do.”The menace in his voice made me shiver.“Where are you going?” I had a guess, I hoped I was wrong.“I need to know who was behind this, it seems like I have been slacking, my absence has done some things I must undo.”The presence and absence talk wasn’t what I wanted to hear. What was important to me now was what he intended to do with Emily, something told me he wouldn’t just fire her.“Emily would never hurt me,” I explained. It didn’t seem like he cared to hear…“When will you learn people aren’t always what they tell you they are, how long have you mown her, what do you know about her, what have you done for her that you think she wouldn’t kill you for the right price.” As he spoke he walked towards
Riding in Lust Choking
Carlos gave one of the guys in black a sign with his hands, the guy immediately went into the bar Emily was in. When he raised his hands to the rope, I thought he was going to lose her. Instead he tightened it, raising her hands higher. Her eyes opened immediately.She whimpered at the sight of him, she didn’t even have the strength to scream, she could relax her body as her hands were held high. She saw Carlos even before she saw me. The fear in her eyes multiplied by 10.When she saw me, she didn’t say a word, yet I could read the plea in her eyes.I turned to Carlos and met his eyes on me. He looked away. “You promised.”I did.I wasn’t sure my heart would be able to take this.The man Hooked something on her legs, it looked like an iron rod but it also seemed like a cuff. I didn’t know what it was, but as my eyes traced where it came from, I saw that it was connected to electricity.Wait! He wasn’t going to torture her, was he?I looked at Carlos but he wasn’t looking at me. I tur
Riding in Lust The things I want.
I slipped my hands into his shirt, caressing his bare skin."Anything you want." he said, watching my hands as they touched him."Who are you?" I asked again as I released another button."I'm a man Rayna, stop playing with me." he said but made no move to stop me.I removed the last button and slipped my arms around him, hugging him through his shirt."Shouldn't you be afraid of me?" he asked me.Did he want me to be?"Should I be? do you want me to be?" I lifted my chin to rest on his chest as I looked up at him.His expression was hard and controlled, "what is wrong?""You, I thought you'd be mad at me." he answered."Because you killed someone in front of me? I was, but not anymore. She had tried to kill me first, although I want to scrap these off." I meant the polish Emily had applied to my nails."I think you should take a rest." Carlos said as he tried to peer my hands of him. But I locked them together behind his back."Why do you want to leave?" I put my head on his stomach.
Riding in Lust The things I want.
I slipped my hands into his shirt, caressing his bare skin."Anything you want." he said, watching my hands as they touched him."Who are you?" I asked again as I released another button."I'm a man Rayna, stop playing with me." he said but made no move to stop me.I removed the last button and slipped my arms around him, hugging him through his shirt."Shouldn't you be afraid of me?" he asked me.Did he want me to be?"Should I be? do you want me to be?" I lifted my chin to rest on his chest as I looked up at him.His expression was hard and controlled, "what is wrong?""You, I thought you'd be mad at me." he answered."Because you killed someone in front of me? I was, but not anymore. She had tried to kill me first, although I want to scrap these off." I meant the polish Emily had applied to my nails."I think you should take a rest." Carlos said as he tried to peer my hands of him. But I locked them together behind his back."Why do you want to leave?" I put my head on his stomach.
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Riding in Lust Our happy ever after
EpilogueRAYNAI smoothened my hands over my off-white dress. It had been a long and dramatic year but even through it all, this day had come.My wedding day.Because I was married once, I couldn’t wear a white gown so I decided to stay put with off-white instead of baby pink. I still wanted to feel like a bride.Planning for the wedding had been fun but I didn’t like how I didn’t get to see much of my new husband.Juan came in the door with a small smile on his face, he’s been smiling more lately, Surprisingly he was also good friends with the couple. Anna and Zane.They both had moved out after everything settled and were now staying in their own home. We tried convincing Anna to have an official wedding but she insisted the one she had was enough. She was married and satisfied.“You look pretty.” He said tentatively. I raised my brows at him, it was almost the first compliment I’d heard from him.“I just wanted to do this one more time.” He breathed, “Are you sure about this?”I sm
Riding in Lust Tears... of joy?
CARLOSIt would have been insensitive for me to ask Zane to check the car for the remains of his brother’s body so I managed to do it myself.Even as we raced down as we heard the explosion, there was nothing we could do other than to watch the car burn into crisps, they would have been dead even before we got there.We had to wait for the fire to be completely put out while Rayna was taken to the hospital, She had been given excess sleeping pills but they had been too strong for her body, and we could do nothing other than wait for her to sleep it off, it was torture watching her look so lifeless.Louis and Juan didn’t leave her side all day, I knew they would insist on taking her back to Mexico as soon as she was unconscious but at this point, I knew I would just have to live with whatever choice she made.Zade had disappeared as soon as Rayna was settled in the hospital, both of us were hesitant to return to the side, not ready to see or collect the bodies. Zade might not show his
Riding in Lust Devastating moments
CARLOS“None of your business, where is my money?” He barked.We stood approximately 10 feet apart. I tried to look at Coco who was behind him, she looked okay, not bruised or injured, but I had learned that wounds were beyond the physical, they were mental and emotional bruises too.I raised my hands to signal for Zade to come out of the car with the briefcase, which he did. I had a trick waiting for him in it.Zade came forth and handed the money to him, while he tried to open the box, Zade brought Coco over to us, Monday didn’t even try to stop him because he had sighted the many that had been neatly arranged in up the box, little did he know that there was a surprise awaiting him if he searched a little further.“Are you okay?” I asked, holding her face up and searching for any form of wound on her skin.Her lashes were already wet with tears as more threatened to escape. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t protect her. I told her to stay, but now he’d taken her away.”Even at this m
Riding in Lust Show time
CARLOSMiguel Sinclair“He used to work for me, He was a big man, skilled, good with guns, knives, anything, I used to wonder where he came from but I appreciated his skills. That was why I put him to guard my daughter, she had just clocked 16, I couldn’t keep her locked in forever, she wanted to go out to make friends, so I needed someone to watch over her. He wasn’t the first I put to guard her but she hated it, she had hated them all before she met him. I could tell she liked him. It was fine with me, she was a kid, and this infatuation would die before long, but I began to feel wary when I noticed it wasn’t one-sided. It wasn’t her at all. It was him. He was obsessed with her.” He covered his face with both hands. I could feel his pain, the guilt, that It was all his fault, he brought Miguel into her life. I placed a hand on his shoulder because I knew he wasn’t alone, I had my share of faults too.“Now isn’t the time to point fingers and blame, we need to find him.” My voice came
Riding in Lust Surprise Visitor
CARLOSReinforcement wasn’t here yet, but calls had been made and strings had been pulled. I held the list of every active member of the cub for the past few years, I had gone through it twice but there was no familiar name or word, there was nothing fishy about the organization I had to admire whosoever was in charge, he did a very good job, he did well to pay necessary taxes and maintained order.The gambling club might rid people of their wealth, but it didn’t try to rob the government. If anything happened and they were taken to court, there would be nothing to use against them.I was getting frustrated, it was almost dawn, and all the leads we had led to dead ends. Blueblood was doing his best but no result seemed to be showing forth.“I’ll go through the names again, you should eat.” Zade took the papers from me, and I let him take them, I had gone through them over and over, and I could almost recite the names offhand, I stood up to brew myself a cup of coffee. Sleep wasn’t an
Riding in Lust The unexpected
RAYNAMonday came in with a smug smile on his face.“I’ve decided to treat you well since I’m getting a huge sum of money after this, it wouldn’t have been possible without you.” For some reason, I had the feeling he was talking to Coco and not me, which was strange considering he had both of us.“I’m about to get dinner, What would you like to eat?” He finished.Just to test my assumption, I spoke fast. “I would like a sandwich.” It was a safe choice, sandwiches were sealed in their pack, and I wouldn’t eat them if the seal was broken.“I wasn’t talking to you.” He shot back without even looking at me, his eyes were all for Coco.I remembered when he had said earlier that one of us was for exchange, I knew at that moment that he had no plans of sending me back, no matter how this turned out. But why?“We would both like a sandwich,” Coco said, I could tell the attention he was giving her was freaking her out.He smiled at her, “If you insist.” He turned and left smiling.“Something i
Riding in Lust Reinforcemt
CARLOSIt’s been six hours and there were no traces of Coco and Rayna’s whereabouts. It was an easy guess that this was Monday in action but he was yet to contact me, and it was not an exaggeration that I was freaking out.Monday was normally dumb but I couldn’t shake off the feeling that he was up to something this time around. I had expected him to give up on the whole inheritance thing a long time ago. Ordinarily, the guy lacked tenacity, but when he kept coming back, I couldn’t shake off the feeling that someone was behind him. He was getting advice and help from someone and the fact that the person was yet to show face meant there was more to come.I hated not knowing what I was dealing with, especially now that the two most important women in my life were in their care.It was also unnerving that both of them had been taken, they could have taken one and left the other, but no. he took both of them.I had a sick feeling that I could have to make a choice, that I might be able to
Riding in Lust Humor in danger
Monday, I collected the keys from Coco and switched seats with her while I was held down and taped in the mouth by a man I didn’t recognize.They tied both mine and Coco’s hands after collecting our phones. Coco’s mouth was left free while mine was taped.Where was he taking us? I looked at Coco, but she was still and calm, she probably trusted Carlos to come to save her, but he didn’t even know where we were. They might have not even gotten home yet.“You might be wondering why or where I’m taking you. Where I’m taking you doesn’t matter, but what matters is why I am taking you.” Monday began rattling, very dumb man. I could guess what he wanted.“I intend to make an exchange—a woman for a woman. Kavinsky gets to take one of you if he gives me Anna, I haven’t decided what to do with the second person but I’m first excited about who Carlos is going to choose. His wife or his mother.“I’m not his mother,” Coco said quietly. It was the first thing she said since the ride began.“You’re
Riding in Lust Drama begins
There was no serious talk after that, we drove, we sang, we laughed, but most importantly, I called her mother, and she called me daughter.The birthday we delivered cookies for was for a very beautiful 6-year-old. Her mother seemed very nice and invited us to the party, Coco was sad she had brought no presents, but we stayed, nevertheless.It was the evening before left.The house was quiet when we got home, I didn’t see Carlos, but I couldn’t help but wonder where he was, he didn’t text me all day neither I he.“Rayna?” Coco called.“Yes?”“Can you spend the night in my room? Just tonight?” She asked in a small voice. I had been hoping to talk to Carlos tonight, but it would have to wait.“Sure.”We ate the cookie we had kept aside for Carlos together and talked. Coco had a big heart, but as much happiness she had in her, there was so much pain too and she had no one to tell.“Are you still in love with him?” I asked later that night, I wondered how she must have coped all these yea
