There is no race tonight. No contest. Neither of the pieces are extraordinarily demanding. They are not easy, of course, but nor are any of them beyond the skill of any reasonably proficient musician. Despite this, I can feel weariness tugging at me by the end. Or perhaps because of it, and not in spite of it. An audience can fill you with its energy and carry you along if they are caught up in the performance. If they are merely observers, the performers carry all the weight.
The rave reviews for the previous night will not have affected audience numbers. The tickets will have been sold days or weeks ago. It may have set the audience expectations, however. We set the bar very high with that little tiff. Ironic that anger and misery should produce a result greater than that of accord and peace.
“I think I’d rather be playing your piece,”
I’m not sure whether Sarah will welcome me at her place. She seemed to have forgiven me for Jade, just a little bit. To understand better, anyway. I’m hoping I can tell her all about the parcel, and the magical tracker, and how I’ve let my friends go off with it without having me there to help. I’m hoping she can tell me I’m an idiot for not getting their numbers, and soothe my worries that they’re all in terrible danger.I don’t know exactly what I expect, but I do not expect to be shoved up against the wall and… oh. Oh!&*&%@$$*#£$!$%£#@%^**&%^%&**&*!!!I might have blacked out there for a moment. All my blood has run south. I think Sarah just sucked my brains out through my cock. There was something I was worried about, but I can&rsq
I’m not completely sure that I am awake. I feel loved, as if I am wrapped up in a soft, warm, fluffy blanket of tenderness. Awareness dawns slowly, one sense at a time. The enveloping sensation of adoration and intimacy. The scent of pine resin and fresh snow mingled with jasmine and cotton sheets. The faint sounds of traffic and distant aircraft filtering through the window. The puffs of warm breath against the back of my neck. The gentle trail of fingertips across my ribs and waist.I finally open my eyes.The light in the room is dim and blue-tinged. My curtains are thick but not perfectly light-proof. Yawning, I flop over a little, my shoulder pressing back into my bed-mate’s chest and my head rolling onto his shoulder in a cloud of unruly hair. “Morning.”
I step out of the door, and all the worries of the day before come crashing back. I have to tell myself not to run. I’m walking a lot faster than usual. The first thing I will do when I see my friends, I promise myself, is to get their numbers. I did remember to get Sarah’s, finally. I think she was as embarrassed as I was that neither of us thought of it sooner. The subway… the tube, I must get used to calling it that… seems to take way longer than usual. The final walk to the college has gained an extra few miles. Maybe I should have gone to Shelley’s first. I could have left earlier. I’ve probably put Gabriella in danger, not just Reese, Shelley and Tala. I’ve only just started as Alpha and I’m making mistakes already. I’m saved from worrying myself into a total mess because they’re all there hanging about near the front steps. My… it’s getting harder not
The flat seems empty once Aiden has gone. I am starting to resent our other commitments. His college, his job, my orchestra. Our conversations are snatched moments of time that we end up… not wasting, never that, but spending on our physical connection rather than that of our minds. There is so much we have yet to learn about each other, and I cannot help but feel there will be many more misunderstandings and arguments until we have a chance to learn each other inside as well as out. An innate sense of what we are each feeling is less useful than one might guess. I have the entire morning stretching ahead of me. I pull on joggers and trainers and go for a run, then spend an hour practicing scales and arpeggios, which, to the disgust of many a learner, you never get to leave behind. I keep Eddie ready to use and get out the manuscript sheets with my Rhapsody. I have a whole orchestral version to work on, a
Nothing horrible happens on the way to the drive thru. Well. Nothing worse than the usual London traffic. We get extra, because of Ella, and we’re going to have to work out what to do about her. The way things are at the moment probably isn’t even legal. I’m kind of out of good ideas, because trying to ask Ella for straight answers isn’t going to work, but maybe the others can come up with something. The others have met Ella already, of course. There’s no need to work out how much to explain to them in the cab. We stop on the corner of Shelley’s place, and watch the cab drive off before we go any further. I know I’m on edge, alert for another ambush like that in the park. The others don’t seem so bothered. Maybe they’re right. Maybe the threat is over now that Whitfield is gone. On the other hand, maybe Sutcliffe and Ewing will want revenge.
I can see how hard this is for Tala. I know how hard Sarah has found sone things. She’s had longer than Tala to come to terms with everything, and she’s still struggling. I know what I can do to make it easier for Tala now. “You don’t have to say yes right this instant. You can think about it as long as you want. And I’d like to stay friends even if you say no. Just, there’s stuff we might not be able to talk about with you, if you’re not Pack. And, you won’t have the same protection.” I see Tala glance at Shelley, and shake my head. “I have that agreement, with a vampire. He’s called Aloysius Cavendish-” I catch Reese moving, out of the corner of my eye, as if they jumped or flinched. “-and he’s the second of the Vampire Prince. Uh, not sure what the Prince is Prince of…”
Aiden wraps me into his arms. I feel his emotions shift from satisfaction and worry to something both worried and more predatory. “Won a battle, maybe, not the war,” he tells me comfortingly, and I wonder if he is already plotting the next move. “Not if their goal is Blackmarsh.” He falls silent. I draw back enough to look into his face, and his expression is distant. He focuses on me again after a long minute. “Let’s talk,” he says. “I have things to explain.” We snuggle on the sofa. I want the strength and reassurance of him against me, holding me. I could face this alone, if I had to. I need to remind myself of that. I don’t need to face it alone. “I asked my friends from college to join my Pack,” Aiden says when we are settled. “Most of them said yes, and the only one w
I’m doing this for Sarah, but I’m putting her in more danger. Or maybe, making some things less dangerous for her in one way but more dangerous in another. The protection from Cavendish has never been enough to keep her safe from vampires as a whole. She’s proved she has power to face them herself, with the help of Blackmarsh. I’m so twisted up about this. Partly because I don’t really know the true value of any of it. Sarah seems to think that having a vampire controlling their next door neighbours is a threat to the whole country. Why there, instead of the places owned by the British royal family? Does’t Blackmarsh have other neighbours anyway? There’s the coast on the West side of them. A bit more than one side, the coastline cuts in on the South side. East of Blackmarsh is wild moorland. Why wasn’t that under threat too? Trying to answer that, I found the