ㅤ TRIGGER WARNING — SUICIDE ATTEMPT ㅤ Back at the resort, Eleonor assured her friend that she would be fine. But in the silence of the room, she detached herself inside her mind. She reaches out to the balcony, looking up at the starry night sky. Do stars feel like this? Do stars feel lonely even though they're surrounded by so many others? Eleonor realizes how small she is, how unstable she is, and how insignificant her existence has been. She sighs and leans against the fence, watching the calm sea waves meet the dark sky on the horizon. How long has she been there? Ten minutes? An hour? She can't tell. Time seems to be moving at a slow pace. The moon doesn't seem to want to go away, and the sun doesn't seem to want to rise. And what if it doesn't? Would it make any difference? Eleonor tries to find a reason to wait for the dawn, but she can't find one. What's to look forward to, anyway? Her family doesn't give a damn about her. Her ex-boyfriend cheated on her with her own sist
Morning came, even though the night seemed to last forever. Eleonor couldn't sleep for a single minute. The wave of intense emotions caused terrible insomnia. The employee who helped the girls by using the spare key to open the door called for a medical team, which treated Lisette and Eleonor's injuries. The result was bandages on her feet, legs, hands, and neck. Lisette also got bandages on her legs and hand because she held the glass shard tightly.After Lisette fell asleep, Eleonor found Giovanni's pack of cigarettes, which were in the same drawer as the gun. She never cared for nicotine, but she would be grateful for any comfort she could find. Sitting on the balcony, she drags for the first time. When the smoke reaches her lungs, she coughs. But she drags again and again… until she gets a little used to the sensation and the quietness that dampens her nerves.She tilts her head back, feeling pain in her neck cut. With the adrenaline levels low and her body
Eleonor is finally leaving Mexico. Even though it's a beautiful country with lovely people, a lot has happened in the days she has been staying at the most luxurious resort in Cancun. She got close to and then distanced herself from Giovanni. She arrived giving her heart away and now is leaving with its pieces lost among the white sand. But it's better this way. Break down, rebuild up, and move on.But the problem with moving on with some pieces missing, is that eventually one tries to fill these empty spaces with anything that can fit.“Are you sure you want to go with me?” Eleonor asks Lisette, who's looking at the landscape slowly passing by the car window.“Seriously?” She looks at her friend. “I've always wanted to see America!”Eleonor gives a weak smile, then looks down at her own hands. Bandaged. The memories of that night are still a bit hazy. She only remembers the intention. The willingness to feel and
Giovanni has been sitting on the sofa in his room for at least two hours, in complete silence. Suddenly, everything seems so empty. Even now, he can still inhale her perfume and shampoo. The bedsheets still smell like her. And he couldn't help but smell the pillows to ease the lump in his throat. He would be lying if he said he didn't think about getting on a plane and going after her, leaving all his commitments behind to get back the one thing he once loved so desperately that he almost suffocated. But his duty as Corvi Neri's leader — and his honor as a Reviello always came before his identity as Giovanni… before his role as a husband. That's why he drowned himself in a whole bottle of scotch and a whole pack of cigarettes. Because drowning his demons has always been the easiest way to deal with them. On this day, especially, they seem to be persistent. Giovanni tilts his head back completely, staring at the room's ceiling that seems to spin around him. Then he closes his eyes, a
Three weeks have passed since Eleonor came back to America. Even though her life has been terrible here, the feeling of returning after two years in foreign lands is refreshing. But the best part is staying away from Giovanni. Even though she's staying in his villa, there's no sign of him, just like the villa in Florence. The lack of memories of Giovanni has facilitated her healing process, which is still far from being over. The physical wounds she infringed that night have already healed, but the soul's pieces she lost still bleed.She does feel a strange sense of nostalgia in her nerves, though.Since then, she has not had any contact with Emily or the Evans. She went straight to Giovanni's villa and didn't let anyone know of her arrival in the town, even though it was possible the news would reach them one way or another. But the fact remains that she's not ready to deal with her family yet, or face her cheater-sister, who's very active in society, especially now that her father h
It's Eleonor's first time in a place like this. She didn't even know that something like this existed in her hometown, Denver. That's because even getting a little close to there could cause bad rumors about the Evans family. Since her goal is to ruin the reputation built up by both Giovanni and her family, this place is perfect.From the outside, it appears to be a normal establishment, like any other nightclub in the busy downtown. But the truth is that it hides the perversity of its customers behind closed doors. INFINITY is a club for people with the kinkiest tastes, who are looking to preserve their identity with secrecy and masks. However, when Eleonor, Asher, and Lisette enter the place, they realize that the use of masks is optional and that the possibilities are endless.Eleonor has been given a cat mask made of leather straps, the same color as her dress. The mask highlights her green eyes that glow dangerously with curiosity and eagerness for revenge. Inside, the room is mo
A few hours and Jeanne MoDis later, Eleonor was already feeling the drunkenness approaching, making her more cheerful and unimpeded. She's no longer shy, and even her laughter is louder than usual. As Lisette drinks one drink after another, she feels the same way. But Asher's expression is getting stiffer. He definitely doesn't understand what's the purpose of that place, and how people could turn pain, something so familiar to him, into pleasure.When a group of girls in leather lingerie and chain collars climbs onto a round stage, he feels a chill like a bad sign. He looks at Lisette and Eleonor, who are staring in fascination at the sensual movements the girls are making, as well all the other customers. They were wearing so small clothing that it looked like the brothels shows where he was obliged to go in Giovanni's place. In general, he appreciates this. Perhaps he would appreciate it on another occasion, at another place. But the problem is that Eleonor seems really wrapped on
Dom guides Eleonor down a long corridor with several private rooms, beyond the curtain. He says each of these rooms is a dungeon where BDSM practitioners could play. The one they're heading to is like an ordinary room. In a way, this brings greater peace of mind to Eleonor, who never thought she would experience anything so kinky.And just as the man said, the room is simple… except for the sex toys on the table in the center of the room. The lighting is red and bright, and there's a camera positioned in front of the bed. There are different kinds of whips, dildos, and ropes, handcuffs, ball gags… and other things that she has not been able to identify. That… is completely out of her reality! Even though the alcohol has increased her courage, a shiver runs through her body, and she rethinks her attitudes of the last three weeks… realizing that maybe she's making a big mistake again. She could say the safe word before the play even begins, right? She could still back out, right? …But