I waited for a while after Sirius left, my hand absentmindedly touching my swollen lips and his words running through my mind over and over again. Elise, the next time I am on my knees for you, you will be madly in love, begging for me to love you.I shuddered at the words. Did I want Sirius on his
“I have to dress as a queen but I’m a mistress. How ironic.” I roll my eyes, but Sirius growls again. My eyes flash into the darkYou are not allowed to contact Alston.”I shoot up, “Sirius! You can’t just-”“If I find any contact between you and Alston, I will kill him on sight.”A chill runs down
I swallow hard, trying to steady my racing heart. “What do you want, Rudy?”He chuckles softly, his breath warm against my ear. “My offer to bear Sirius’s child still stands.” He walks around me, sliding onto the chair next to me.“Sirius does not seem interested,” I counter, shifting my body away f
As he walks away, Rudy takes a step towards me. “Elise, we still have a chance.”I shake my head, tears welling up in my eyes. “No, Rudy. This isn’t the way.”He sighs, frustration clear in his expression. “Then what will you do?”I look at the ground, feeling the weight of the situation pressing do
I smooth Alston’s dirty blonde hair, whispering my sorries into the curls. I try not to shutter while I am in his embrace but I fail spectacularly. I can’t keep my voice steady, or my body from trembling as I pull him into my chest as if the tighter I hold him the more real he is. The more alive he
I step back, my hands still gripping the bars. “He needs help, Sirius. If you have any shred of decency left, you’ll give him what he needs.”Sirius’s smile widens, and he walks closer, peering into the cell. “And why should I do that?” he asks, his tone mocking. “What’s in it for me?”I swallow har
Sirius takes a step closer, his eyes zeroing in on Alston’s beaten form, but I step slightly in front of him. “Fear is respect, Alston. It keeps people in line. Something you’d understand if you weren’t so naive.”“Fear breeds contempt, Sirius,” Alston replies, his voice mocking despite the pain. “I
Laying in Alston’s arms, sobbing uncontrollably, a flood of regret and guilt washes over me. “H-how could he be so cruel?”Alston slowly pulls the pins out of my updo and massages my scalp in that way, that makes me calm down, but this time it doesn’t work so easily and he whispers my name, “Elise,
I run before my mind can catch up, my legs carrying me through the dimly lit corridors. My breath is ragged, and my heart pounds in my chest like a drum. The echo of Sirius’s chilling threat rings in my ears, spurring me to move faster:I will cut your tongue out and make you swallow it back along w
I leave Alston’s cell, with him screaming and the rattle of his chains leaving me with a heavy heart, each step feeling like I'm walking through quicksand. The air feels colder, sharper, as if it knows the weight of what I've just done. I pause at the edge of the staircase, taking a deep breath to s
He thumb stops mid caress and I can feel his gaze running over me in confusion and judgement, “Obessed? Um…no.”I feel like I am freezing, like he just said the best and worst that I have ever heard. I take a deep breath, trying to gather my thoughts. “Alston, I’ve been thinking a lot about us, and
I stand at the stairs that lead to Alston’s prison cell, because Sirius said if I tell Alston the truth then he can be let free. I don’t know why but when he said that it felt like I could be set free, or caged because at this point I don’t know the difference.Sirius said he was obsessed with me. I
“Because it’s not that simple!” I cry, the tears streaming down my face. “I’m trying to do the right thing, but it’s tearing me apart. I don’t want to hurt anyone, but I don’t know how to fix this.”Sirius’s hands ball into fists at his sides, his anger barely contained. “You’re wrong; it’s simple,”
Sirius draws small circles along my spine, my head laying on his chest as his other hand lazily crawls up my inner thigh sinfully close to my center before drawing back down. His breath flutters over my face in soothing waves, and I move in closer, my curves matching the firm outline of his body per
Sirius responds immediately, his lips meeting mine with a hunger that ignites a fire within me. Without warning, Sirius closes the distance between us, his hands gripping my waist firmly as he lifts me onto the polished surface of the dining table.The cold marble against my back sends a shiver thro
Sirius looks at me with a blazing fire in his eyes, tension ever growing in the click of his jaw, but I do not waver in my gaze. I stand tall with my arms folded and my eyes narrowed in on his clicking jaw. “Elise, sit down.”“No,” I snap, my hip poking out to the side, but I suck my inner cheek bet
Eight years earlierSirius stood at the edge of the old park, the twilight sky casting long shadows across the cracked pavement.He kicked a pebble, watching it skip across the ground before glancing at his watch. Claudia had asked him to meet her here, and he couldn't shake the feeling of unease tha