With everything that happened, Kole sincerely understands how Sky felt. He sincerely does but his heart refuses to understand, refuses to accept that after many years they still can't be with each other, refuses to accept that after all the suffering they will still end up... suffering away from each other.Was it selfish to dream of Sky by his side now? Was it wrong of him to fight for Sky? Even if it was, he will still do it, he will dream, he will fight and he will be by his side no matter what."SKY HARREN! I know your hurt, that word would even be an understatement of what you feel right now. I know that you hate everything including me but remember this, I will not leave you and you cannot force me to do so. I don't have the right to say it's fine, everything will be okay cause it will not but I will face it with you, that painful past, the troubled present, and the uncertain future, I will face it with you and you cannot tell me otherwise."When he came last night, he was deter
It was already noon when Kole finished cooking but the person inside the bathroom was still in the bathroom, still sulking, sitting in the bathtub with his clothes on.knock! knock!"I'm going in." He pushed open the unlocked door painted white and just as he thought that person stayed in the same position as he left him."What happened to privacy?" Sky said in a tiny voice."I left it outside the door. Now, let me wash you."Sky was stunned, he quickly turns his head to face Kole who was smirking and reaching for the shower. "I hate your face. I'll do it.""Want me to wear a mask? hahaha... I can't change my face, okay?" while saying this he went into the bathtub still with clothes on. Kole was wearing a simple white shirt and faded denim pants."I said I'll do it!""Let me serve you.""You don't have to... I'm still angry.""Hahaha... my baby is still angry.""Kole! Do you think I'm joking?""No. I think your feelings are valid, but I need to do my part. I can't just leave because y
Winning Sky was like coaxing a feral cat, you'll get scratched, you'll be bitten, and worst the feral cat will treat you like a stranger... literally a stranger."Hey! Kole..." Sky called him in a rising tone.Kole who was busy tidying the living room turned his head upon hearing Sky's voice then without any warning a lip landed on his cheek. "I'll cook, how does fried rice with steamed dumplings sounds?" With a good and cheerful aura, Sky smiled brightly at Kole.Ah, cook? How can he stop this man from getting into the kitchen without hurting his ego? The last time he burned the egg, then a fish, then a chicken. Poor souls of the food may they rest in peace. They had a tough second death.There was also a time when Sky was heating water in a stove, that cat forgot about it, and... the poor water evaporates leaving the kettle alone all back under its butt."No need... I'll cook for you" Kole replied brimming with a smile but internally he was praying that Sky would agree, they can't b
The next day Sky and Kole visited his mother. It was a long ride from his house to his mother's house. Along the way, beautiful sceneries entertained them. A green rice paddy full of Whitehead birds, mountains full of ready-to-harvest corn, a pond with different colors of koi.The endless summer hydrangea covers the side of the road, their colors gave the road a romantic aura, harmony, and peace."Kole, will you live with me in the mountains? Let's build our house there and plant as many hydrangeas as we can..." Sky spoke while looking outside, feeling the breeze with his hand raised outside the window."Let's have a dog and name him happy ... we will play with him until he's annoyed with us." he let out a light laugh and continued, "at night we can do stargazing, our house should have a rooftop where we can lie down and face the heavens. I want them to see that I am contented and well-loved. They can never hurt me anymore."Kole was focused on driving, but his ears were all given to
After so many years, this was the first solo conversation Kole had with Sky's mom. It was hard for him but he couldn't care less. What was the point of dwelling in the past? He only wanted to move forward. "Auntie, will you give me your blessing?" Kole asks looking at Mrs. Harren with anticipation.Mrs. Harren stared back at him, her eyes full of question and worry. "He is a broken man; will you still take him?""Yes.""He is your brother's past lover; will you still take him?""Yes.""He may not give you the love that you deserve, but will you still take him?""Yes.""Do you truly love him?""Yes. I love him. From the first time I saw him until now, I love him."Mrs. Harren, as if defeated by a hundred soldiers, smiled at Kole. "Son, take care of my baby boy. Don't hurt him. Please love him and spoil him. I don't ask for much, I just want his happiness." Mrs. Harren's eyes sting, she could never fathom how deep Kole's love for his son was. It was a long time ago but his feelings nev
May the years ahead be filled with love and joy.... ting... ting... ting Every lover's dream was to wear that white wedding dress tailored to make them the most gorgeous one walking down the aisle. With the music playing along while you took each step toward your future. People looking and smiling, wishing you happiness and love. Your most loved person waiting at the altar, crying out of joy because his one and only dream was soon to be fulfilled. The only heart you had was throbbing loudly, tears falling from your eyes but your lips still curved up because you knew you would be one with the right person who loved you unconditionally. All pain, struggle, and tears in the past wear replaced and erased by the word I do. Holding your soon-to-be husband's hand, trembling and sweating, gave you enough warmth to believe that true love exists. "I, Sky Harren, take you, Kole Terven, to be my wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse..." We have bee
The car sped up, the traffic lights turning red and green constantly as if teasing the newlywed couple who was on their way to make their body one. The hand holding the wheel gripped tighter and the free leg was shaking non-stop not hiding the fact that he was impatient. "Tsk!" Sky was just observing his now husband. Amused and entertained by what he was seeing. "Hmm, so slow..." he added fuel to the fire. He wanted him to be more impatient so he could pound on him rougher and harder when they reach the hotel. "... why is there traffic now? It was not even here yesterday," he complained like a child but it was still amusing for Sky. With a great idea on his mind, Sky's hand slowly crawled into Kole's thigh, kneading it, pinching and rubbing, "haa... Sky," his words were passing through his teeth. Sky's hand climbed a little higher touching the side of his crotch. "Stop, haa... stop," he grabbed his hand to stop it but another hand landed directly in between his legs. The hand rub
"Get away, you're heavy." It was a rainy morning despite the forecast saying it would have a sunny day today, the sky decided to shower the dried earth. The pitter-patter of rain on the window glass, the swaying of the leaves along the mild blow of the wind, and the scent of wet soil made one's to feel cozy and snuggle in bed. That was no different from the now-married couple, living at the foot of the mountain. Every day was peaceful and harmonious. The surrounding scenery gave them a sense of safety and a warm feeling. Except for Kole making Sky exhausted whenever he sees a chance, their life as a married couple can be considered blissful. "Urgh, your leg is so heavy," whined Sky with only his head popping out of the thick blanket, "tsk! You!" With the other person not listening Sky took it upon himself to turn around and lay his body on top of Kole like how an octopus held something he thought was valuable. "Huh! Now, you can't put your legs on me, hmp!" burying his head on Kol
Time pass by quickly and it was already their ten years wedding anniversary. Kole had been thinking of a better anniversary gift this time, something that could topple the other gifts that he had given his husband. He spent the entire month thinking about it but none crossed his mind. He was roaming around the mall, entering all stores until he bumped into a familiar face, "Kai?!" his twin brother. "Oh. What are you doing here?" said Kai without much surprise. "Looking for a gift," he replied. Kole was already comfortable mentioning Sky whenever he was with Kai. His brother had stopped his therapy session with him five years ago when the General miraculously accepts his pursuit. From then on, Kai was well behaved than ever. "What a coincidence, me too. It's my honey's birthday next week," In truth, Kai also spent a lot of time thinking of what gift to give. At the same time, he was planning to propose to his General on his birthday. "Why not buy a ring if you want to propose?
It took Kai a week to recover and Erviz stayed with him all these days without neglecting his duty. It could be said that he was a stay-in Nanny for Kai, a friend, a confidant, and someone Kai persistently flirts with. Erviz was so used to it that it seems like a lullaby to him. Five years passed and Kai was still chasing Erviz, never getting a chance to bed the man. Up to this day, Erviz listened to Kai whenever the other needed it. Kai consistently pursues him, giving him flowers, and gifts and picking him up at work. If General Erviz Mason was feared by all in the department before now, nobody even dared to talk behind his back. They were more afraid of Kai's deathly gaze than the General's quick fist! "Yo! Honey," it was already midnight but Kai still picks up Erviz in his work not minding his own fatigue. "Hungry? I bought you a congee," inside the car was an insulated box where the said congee was kept to stay warm. "En," he responded. He was exhausted from today's meeting.
It was seven in the morning when Erviz woke up in the same position they were in when they slept only that Kai was embracing him now and he was wrapped in his arms. Slowly, he lifted Kai's arm and slip out making the man groan, "Shh, sleep." He went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. Today, he needed to go to the base to report but what will he report? That he had slept in the same bed with the enemy? He toasted some bread, fry an egg and reheat the coffee that was left unattended. Thirty minutes later, Kai came out of the room with drowsy eyes and like a magnet, sticking close to Erviz landing a kiss on his lips, "Morning, wifey." His body slumped on the General with his hands on the waist. "For the nth time, I'm not your wife," he said while busy preparing the food on the table. "En, understood... wifey." They had breakfast and Erviz had taken a bath after some struggle to keep Kai outside the bathroom. When he came out, Kai was nowhere to be found except for a simple note l
He lost hope to convince Kai that he was not gay, that he was not into men and will never have sex with men. But the stubborn man was pestering him and kissing him as he pleases. He had thought of ways to attack Kai but he knew he will be killed in the end with how many men were hiding outside. Yes. Hiding. It will be inconvenient for them to surround the house visible to all the neighbors so the men were dispersed in the shadow. "God! You're so... sigh, Kai, what is it that you really want?" Kai stopped what he was doing and for a minute there was silence between them. He felt the hidden emotion in Kai's silence, he might be wrong but he saw sadness in those eyes, fear, and hatred. Why was he sad? Why was he afraid? Who does he hate? These were questions that he wanted to ask but felt that it was not right after all. He was an outsider and was an enemy even. Will he be swayed if he knew this man's hidden thoughts and real self? He does not know. He would never know. Kai step bac
It was already ten minutes since the cars stopped in the middle of the road. All men had their heads bowed down for the same amount of time waiting for Erviz to say that he will reconsider. Whoever their boss has a liking to, they consider them instant family. If the boss said he will kill himself because the lady boss does not want to have sex with him then it was solid proof that their boss was head over heels for Erviz. Inside the car was silent with Kai still holding him by the waist. Erviz had no plan to retaliate, after all, this is the yakuza surrounding him. Dying because of a sex-deprived yakuza boss was something he wanted to avoid. "... can't you tell your men to stop bowing?" he whispered making sure only Kai heard it. Kai responded with a bite on his forefinger and licked it after, "I can't. I'm using them to pressure you," he admitted shamelessly. He does not know what goes on through the mind of this man and he can shamelessly and confidently admit that he was usin
It was not even an hour passed that Erviz punched him for the kiss and now he was asking for sex. Erviz scowled hearing what he said, "Are you pent up? Is sex all you have in that mind of yours?"But Kai answered him through his action. His hand slipped down until it reaches the slit and went to touch his butt. His lips kissed Erviz's neck leaving marks in each part his lips landed. "Have sex with me, hmm? You want me to beg you, sexy?"It was only with Erviz that he begged, it was his way of chasing that warmth that he felt and was feeling now. He was aware of his action; he was aware of his stupid move. He was not acting like a leader of the group right now but as Kai himself. Kai had this fear in his heart for the first time again after losing his brother and Sky, he was afraid that if he let go... he will never feel this warmth again. "Sexy, stay with me." The hand that reaches in between the cheeks of Erviz's butt was suddenly pinched to stop, "I'm not a whore," he said. "I'
It was not a minute after the punch that another thunder clapped. Along with the sound was the simultaneous raising of guns toward Erviz. Hurting the head of the group was equivalent to hurting all the members of the group, insulting them, and announcing war with them. The members' priority was to keep their heads safe and, in this case, it was Kai. Kai's lips bleed on the same side where Erviz's lips were wounded. The strong punch was not enough to move Kai's body but it did move his face to turn sideward. "Dare to hurt me? Brave, aren't we?!" His eyes were glaring red. His tongue sticks out to lick the blood that drips from his swollen lips and with a step forward he held Erviz's jaw clenching it hard but there was no panic or fear in the eyes of the other man. Instead, he stared back as if taunting the glaring Kai like he was hoping for some action. "Do you know what will happen to you if I let those men click the trigger?" He was sending a threat that was neither a threat. It
It was already late in the night but the city just started to get lively and noisy. Cars that were seen on the roads were so fancy they could blind one's eyes. Young people and other party people were out wearing their best outfits for the night. "Where are we going?" asked Erviz as he fixed his messy hair. Kai was sitting with him at the back of the car, his legs crossed over each other looking outside as if lost in thoughts. For a second there was complete silence. Erviz stopped brushing his hair and looked at Kai with questioning eyes. "Hey!" it was neither a shout nor a loud voice. It was neutral, so neutral that you can sense that the person speaking was not nervous at all. "... you're not planning to abduct me, right?" Kai's eyes were still fixed outside but this time he answered, "Calm down. I don't plan on killing someone tonight.""Oh. Then thanks." he blurted out and return to fixing his hair. After ten minutes, they arrived at a secluded area with only one building er
Tonight, he wanted to be with his brother again. Lately, he had been feeling a little empty inside. It has been two years since he had not talked to his brother and just three months ago, his adoptive father, who had died of old age, left him hundreds of people he needed to lead. It was already known inside the group that Kai will be the next in line, the child honed and treated as a real son by their deceased boss. No one objected, everyone saw how Kai was capable of leading the group. Even the business was prospering when he handled it. But each one also knew how lifeless their leader was. Looking at the side mirror, Kai saw Kole and Sky embracing each other. He had once embraced Sky; he had once felt that warmth but longing for it now was not something he deserved. He understood that it was his fault and because of a wrong decision pushed by his own demon. "Go to the club," he said in passing. Anywhere noisy was better than being alone in a big house. Though there were his un