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Chapter 17: Not even a memory
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Sky was listening intently to Kole's story pursing his lips once in a while. Every word that comes out from Kole was another memory remembered. The flow of memories was not clear and not everything can be remembered at once but thanks to Kole some of it came back. Something he thought was important.Learning that Kole was his past lover, he finally understood why he felt familiar, why he listens to him and opens his heart to Kole quickly, turns out they have a deeper connection than he could have imagined."I'm sorry," Sky spoke in a weak voice.Kole looked at him, lashes trembling, his tears flowing to his cheeks, "Don't be. It's not your fault. It's never your fault."He will never blame Sky because he knew he had a fair share of the incident. Everything could have been avoided if that incident did not happen. If only he did not dare to tell his parents about his sexuality. Some things were better kept hidden, at least that was what he learned from this experience. "You are precio
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All the pent-up emotion, the words unsaid and the longing was all let loose in that kiss. It wasn't easy for Kole to just leave Sky there, if he could he would hold on to him but he was his forgotten past and it would be taking advantage of a wounded heart.If he will start with Sky again it must be when he was better, guilt-free, and moved on from Kai. In the end, his protection, his care, and his goal to cure Sky cost him to lose him again.Kole drove to his clinic, it was already past the afternoon, with only one patient left for consultation. He was wearing black sunglasses to cover his eyes with visible traces of sobbing.Entering the clinic, he went straight to his office and sat at his table looking at the photo. Gazed fixed on it, his eyes sting again, "All I wanted was for you to be well instead I caused you much more pain."In the photo was the young Sky wearing an ocean blue sweater paired with denim shorts. The young Sky smiles brightly while holding a bouquet of gardenia
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How many untold secrets will be revealed if Kole pursues Sky? How many tears will Sky shed if he knows all those secrets? Was this love worth it at the expense of Sky's pain? No. It would be better to have a separate path and bury the secrets than be with him and be continuously tormented. "I should not have appeared in front of him again..." Kole hugs the photo frame and burst out crying. This was the first time that Yara saw him this heartbroken, this helpless. Kole was always trying to make everyone happy. Always tried to make everyone feel comfortable yet deep down in his heart he hid so much pain. "... I'm an idiot. I'm truly an idiot!" Yara can't bear to see her friend in such a state. She rises from her chair and went to hug Kole. "Kole, don't be so selfless. You have the right to be happy too." Yara's tears can't be controlled anymore. "Please, you sacrificed enough. Don't let him control you!" He wished it was that easy. He really does. "He isn't fully recovered yet. Can
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The first step towards change was awareness. The second step was acceptance. Sky had long been aware of his illusion of Kai. It was a big leap for him to step out of his comfort zone.He still had fear of leaving and walking outside but greater was his desire to give his remaining lifetime to someone who gave all his devotion to him and to do this he needed to brave himself and face reality.Was he going after Kole because of pity, gratitude, or conscience?It could be said that these three reasons were true but Sky knew deep down in his heart, there was still a small space that Kole occupied. A small space that now emerges and was understood after hearing the truth.After visiting Kai's grave, Sky went to the foot of the mountain, there was a small rundown hut beside the koi pond. The place was surrounded by rice paddy with yellow-colored rice husks, screaming for harvest.A man in his fifties sits in a shabby chair under the tall maidenhair tree. Its leaves are like a shape of a fan
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In a room where people unanimously maintain a conspiracy of silence, one word of truth sounds like a pistol shot, and Sky was shot multiple times.The memories didn't even give him time to breathe, treat his wounds, and process everything when a new scene flashed in front of him.There was an open sky, few buildings can be seen from where he was standing, few plants & a big tree in the middle. There was no one around except for the two-person sitting face-to-face in the cemented chair.The woman wearing lavish clothes was crying and the other woman looking at the ground while talking to her companion. Sky recognized the other woman, his mother. His eyes move to the woman in red and... it's Kole's mother.What were they doing here? What are they talking about that made Kole's mother cry? He moves closer to them to hear clearly but upon getting closer he heard someone sniffing behind the tree.He turned to look who it was and was shocked... it was him. He had been listening to them talk
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Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth because they don't want their illusions destroyed. Their hearts were too fragile to handle such heart-shattering revelation and no matter how strong the willpower of a person was, knowing that what you believed in your whole life was made up of lies, that person will crumble.He sacrificed but was played with instead. He sacrificed but ends up hurting him doubled. He sacrificed but..."I'm sorry Kole. I didn't know. Please, forgive me," Sky was sobbing, kneeling, and asking for forgiveness.This wasn't what Kole wanted to see. He came to apologize, he came to reconcile, he came to see him again and to properly tell him that he will pursue him, again. What was Sky talking about?It was already a big thing that Sky went out by himself, walking in the crowd despite his still-to-overcome fear."Sky, what are you talking about? What are you apologizing for?" Worries and pain were evident in Kole's voice and aura. He has a bad feeling about how
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Sky lovingly listened to Kole's heartbeat and was startled when he heard the other talking in his sleep, "No... stop. Stop it! Kai stop it!"Kole's body trembled, his forehead starting to soak in sweat, his hands grip on Sky's shoulder tightly, murmuring over and over a name, Kai. His heart pained hearing the name of his deceased husband, Kole woke up still gripping tightly on Sky."Are you okay?" Sky who was startled quickly sits and holds Kole's hand, his voice panicking. Hearing Sky's voice, he calmed down a bit.Soaked in sweat, Kole instinctively pulled Sky into an embrace, his vision blurry after waking from that bad dream. He's been panting, his chest moving up and down, and holding tightly the thin man in his arms."Kole..." Sky said softly."I'm fine... I'm fine," said Kole. He's not fine, the rim of his eyes reddened as he thinks back on his dream. That was a scene from a long time ago, so long but still vivid in his memory."What did you dream about Kai?" Sky asks still in
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It's not enough for heaven to just slap him, and spit on him, they step on him until he lost all the will to live, the will to see the light again. Knowing you love your enemy, knowing you married your enemy, slept with him, cry for him, live your life for him now... the heavens wanted to knock out all the life in him.Remarkable. What the heavens laid out for him deserves a standing ovation, and applause from all the bystanders who only watched him trampled so low and left him so pathetic."Kai... he is... alive," Kole's lips trembled while dropping the bomb. This secret only he and Yara knew, not even his family.Sky who was embracing him pushed him away and look Kole in disbelief trying to digest what he just said."You're... joking, right?" he doesn't understand what he was feeling right now. It's like someone was pouring a bucket of ice on him and under his feet an unquenchable fire trying to eat him alive."I don't understand. I saw... I saw him getting buried. I saw that car ex
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It was seven in the morning when Erviz woke up in the same position they were in when they slept only that Kai was embracing him now and he was wrapped in his arms. Slowly, he lifted Kai's arm and slip out making the man groan, "Shh, sleep." He went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. Today, he needed to go to the base to report but what will he report? That he had slept in the same bed with the enemy? He toasted some bread, fry an egg and reheat the coffee that was left unattended. Thirty minutes later, Kai came out of the room with drowsy eyes and like a magnet, sticking close to Erviz landing a kiss on his lips, "Morning, wifey." His body slumped on the General with his hands on the waist. "For the nth time, I'm not your wife," he said while busy preparing the food on the table. "En, understood... wifey." They had breakfast and Erviz had taken a bath after some struggle to keep Kai outside the bathroom. When he came out, Kai was nowhere to be found except for a simple note l
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It was already ten minutes since the cars stopped in the middle of the road. All men had their heads bowed down for the same amount of time waiting for Erviz to say that he will reconsider. Whoever their boss has a liking to, they consider them instant family. If the boss said he will kill himself because the lady boss does not want to have sex with him then it was solid proof that their boss was head over heels for Erviz. Inside the car was silent with Kai still holding him by the waist. Erviz had no plan to retaliate, after all, this is the yakuza surrounding him. Dying because of a sex-deprived yakuza boss was something he wanted to avoid. "... can't you tell your men to stop bowing?" he whispered making sure only Kai heard it. Kai responded with a bite on his forefinger and licked it after, "I can't. I'm using them to pressure you," he admitted shamelessly. He does not know what goes on through the mind of this man and he can shamelessly and confidently admit that he was usin
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It was not even an hour passed that Erviz punched him for the kiss and now he was asking for sex. Erviz scowled hearing what he said, "Are you pent up? Is sex all you have in that mind of yours?"But Kai answered him through his action. His hand slipped down until it reaches the slit and went to touch his butt. His lips kissed Erviz's neck leaving marks in each part his lips landed. "Have sex with me, hmm? You want me to beg you, sexy?"It was only with Erviz that he begged, it was his way of chasing that warmth that he felt and was feeling now. He was aware of his action; he was aware of his stupid move. He was not acting like a leader of the group right now but as Kai himself. Kai had this fear in his heart for the first time again after losing his brother and Sky, he was afraid that if he let go... he will never feel this warmth again. "Sexy, stay with me." The hand that reaches in between the cheeks of Erviz's butt was suddenly pinched to stop, "I'm not a whore," he said. "I'
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It was not a minute after the punch that another thunder clapped. Along with the sound was the simultaneous raising of guns toward Erviz. Hurting the head of the group was equivalent to hurting all the members of the group, insulting them, and announcing war with them. The members' priority was to keep their heads safe and, in this case, it was Kai. Kai's lips bleed on the same side where Erviz's lips were wounded. The strong punch was not enough to move Kai's body but it did move his face to turn sideward. "Dare to hurt me? Brave, aren't we?!" His eyes were glaring red. His tongue sticks out to lick the blood that drips from his swollen lips and with a step forward he held Erviz's jaw clenching it hard but there was no panic or fear in the eyes of the other man. Instead, he stared back as if taunting the glaring Kai like he was hoping for some action. "Do you know what will happen to you if I let those men click the trigger?" He was sending a threat that was neither a threat. It
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Tonight, he wanted to be with his brother again. Lately, he had been feeling a little empty inside. It has been two years since he had not talked to his brother and just three months ago, his adoptive father, who had died of old age, left him hundreds of people he needed to lead. It was already known inside the group that Kai will be the next in line, the child honed and treated as a real son by their deceased boss. No one objected, everyone saw how Kai was capable of leading the group. Even the business was prospering when he handled it. But each one also knew how lifeless their leader was. Looking at the side mirror, Kai saw Kole and Sky embracing each other. He had once embraced Sky; he had once felt that warmth but longing for it now was not something he deserved. He understood that it was his fault and because of a wrong decision pushed by his own demon. "Go to the club," he said in passing. Anywhere noisy was better than being alone in a big house. Though there were his un
