Shaking hands, watering eyes, trembling lips, heavy breathing, squeezed heart and abnormal pulse rate. Everything was horrible while I'm walking out to nowhere. My mind was empty as I still tried to inject in my system what Celestine and Thunder have said. It was my first day going back in this country yet a lot of unbelievable things just happened.
I stopped right beside on a big Christmas tree and looked back, wondering why I left them. Then suddenly my heart jolted when a flashy man wearing his blue fitted polo tucked with his black jeans shaping his firm body and well defined muscles appeared in my sight. His sexy jaw clenched before he flashed his sweet smile which narrowed his fascinating blue eyes. I want to jump and ride on his back while screaming in gladness that he was really alive. But, there was still a part of me pushing that I was only dreaming for the abrupt change of information and part of me hated him for no exact reason. I moved closer at the big decoration to at least hide myself and took a peek at them.
Celestine and Thunder who were obviously having a quarrel both stunned when Blake called them. They were silent for a moment until Celestine recovered from shock and shifted the topic, dragging the both of them out. I heaved a sigh of relief knowing that Celestine was still on my side and did not broke my trust.
My heart leaped when a man shouted nearby. "Son! Come on!" He was calling the young man running along the halls which gave an idea that covers me into fear. With my shaking sweaty hands, I immediately dialled Elaine's number to secure my son, Ethan.
"Elaine! Pick up!" I mumbled hastily with my fast pounding chest. "Pick the phone up, Elaine!" An attendant stopped in front of me and stared. I guess I have called out that loudly.
"Any problem, Madam?" she asked.
I turned the power button of my phone off and shifted my sight at her. "Oh, yes. May I know where can I go faster on the swimming pool?" she pointed the area opposite to our direction. "Just walk straight there, Madam and turn left then you could see the swimming pool there," she replied.
"Thanks!" I quickly replied and ran to the direction she told me. I hope Ethan wasn't strolling around and just stayed his ass off on the pool.
A few moments have passed when I arrived at the pool area where pool beds amidst the blue water and sun lounges everywhere can be seen. There are a lot of people with their swim wear hanging out here that I could hardly see my child.
"Ethan, where are you?!" I whispered to myself while scanning the area. I don't know where to locate them in this wide venue.
"Yzabelle," I jolted when someone held my arm. "Hey, are you fine?" It was Elaine, who was asking.
"Where's Ethan?" I asked back, unease.
Before she could speak up, the wet Ethan with his swimming trunks popped up on my side. "Mom! Let's go swimming!" he squealed. I held his arm and dragged him out of the area cautiously.
"Where are we going, Mom?" he asked. I kneeled in front of him and wrapped him with the white towel Elaine was holding.
"We will eat first, okay?"
"But, I just ate earlier. Come, let's swim first."
"No, son. Continue swimming later. Let's go back to our room now," I insisted then carried his heavy weight by my arms.
He was complaining at first but chose to follow and understand me. Ethan was an obedient young man which I am proud of. He always understands and thinks maturely to the best that he can, though most of the time he was naughty and hard headed.
"Hey, Yzabelle. Is there any problem?" Elaine asked on my side, following my pace. "They are here," I whispered, making her forehead crease.
"Who?"
"Everyone. We've met earlier."
"Oh, so what's the catch? Why are you hiding when you now have the chance to reconcile with them?"
"I don't know," I replied to end the conversation. They don't and can't understand my situation right now.
When we arrived at our hotel room, I immediately ordered Elaine to wash and look after Ethan then I went straight to our bed room. I paced myself on the wide area back and forth while burying my fingernails to my hair, thinking about the scenario earlier. Blake can't see my son because he might get him to me. Ethan was my strength and my life, I don't know how to live without him and Barack on my side.
The door suddenly cracked open making me stop from my current position. Barack curiously looked at me with a bit of worry traced on his eyes. I swiftly ran and braced myself to him, letting my tears flow on his hard chest.
"What's wrong?" he asked while gently caressing my hair. I didn't utter a word as I was overthinking again and fright was eating me.
He assisted me to sit on the sofa near us then lifted my chin to meet his pair of Dark Hazel eyes. "What's wrong, Yzabelle?" he asked once again then wiped the escaped droplets of tears from my eyes.
"I've seen a ghost." A loud guffaw echoed around the room as if he heard the best joke ever. "Alright, that was funny yet cute of yours, Mi Amore," he continued between his laughs until his face turned red.
I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms over my chest. "I'm serious, Barack," I deadpanned.
He took a deep breath to at least calm himself and prevent himself from laughing. "Alright, where have you seen the ghost?"
"At the lobby." He nodded seriously and interestingly.
"Do you want to transfer to another hotel to stay? A hotel where you couldn't see some ghosts. Maybe a lot of lost spirits were here, just strolling around."
"I hope that it was just a spirit that I saw," I mumbled.
He fixed his seat and stared at me. "Are we being serious here?" he asked.
"I told you, I'm serious! I've seen a ghost from my past! They are here… alive!" I snapped making his eyes form into circles.
After the long discussion I had with Barack yesterday, he finally convinced me to talk with Celestine as he wants us to reconcile and invite them to our planned wedding. I did a self debate and weighed the situation but Elaine and Barack's idea prevailed. I missed Celestine so much. I miss them, I miss my family. Perhaps and hopefully, it's the right time to catch up with them.
The sun was already shining so bright outside which made my son so excited. He slept very early last night so that he would wake up early also. I am now dressing up my black jeans and white fitted long sleeve shirt which I paired with my gladiator sandals. I nervously smiled in front of the full length mirror then swiftly tied my hair in a messy bun when someone knocked on the door.I raced my foot on the doorway, twisted the steel knob and pulled the door open. Celestine's new figure with her floral dress welcomed me."Good morning, come in." I invited her.She stepped her foot in while scanning our place. "Where's your fiancé?" she asked as soon as I pushed the door close."He was out. Business meeting," I replied while picking up the toys which Ethan scattered on the floor earlier."I thought I'm going to meet him now," she mumbled disappoi
There was a deafening silence that covered the corners of the house. Mom and Dad were still both speechless while watching Ethan on their front. I don't know what exactly they are feeling right now as I can't see any trace of emotion on their faces other than their widened eyes and parted lips."Ma'am the—"The seemingly frozen time suddenly took back on its track when Charie spoke and stopped awkwardly when she realised the situation. I shot Charie a face and she replied a sorry smile. When I looked back, all eyes are already directed to me."Hey?!" I greeted in a hoarse tone, fidgeting my hands in nervousness. My parents who still hadn't recovered under shock were surprised by my presence."Mom, are we lost? Seems like they don't recognise us," Ethan innocently said with a pout.I extended my arm to invite my son who immediately hopped from my mom'
After our heart to heart talks, we ate our lunch together as a family with our little Ethan. Mom and Dad were having fun talking and playing with my bubbly son that they wanted him to stay at home for the rest of the night. Unfortunately, I can't agree with them since I'm not used of having Ethan nowhere to be seen before I close my eyes at night. While my parents attention are all directed to Ethan, Celestine and I had a story telling of what happened between her and Thunder which was so hilarious. To be fair on her side, I told her about how we met Barack, how I worked and eventually become his fiancée.It was a light feeling that finally the burden inside my heart was now set free. I was so delighted that my mission has been unlocked already. But, as much as I wanted to stay for long, I can't. Barack called me earlier and invited for a family dinner date which I can't say no. Besides, I am also so excited to tell him the good news.&
"Oh, c'mon Barack, I'm sorry. Please forgive me now." I leaned my head on his shoulder and lifted a view at him with a pout.It's already almost an hour but still we haven't settled this little argument of keeping him wait and rejected him on our date. After the incident on the park, we headed straight back in the hotel and talked to my son about what he had done that might lead him to danger. However, he defensed that the man who helped him was good and gave him a toy as a remembrance.Barack meet my eyes sternly. "Why haven't you called me at least?" he asked again and again. The only thing I hated about him was that he can't understand and consider my explanations most of the time and got mad when his offer or meetings were declined without prior notice."I waited there with my business partner. You don't know how much time we wasted to him," he continued, nagging.I stood
The familiar manly scent that travels to my nostrils which drugged my entire system. The way he talks. His baritone voice. His endearment to me. His stand. His acts. His everything. Surely, the living ghost of my past. Our world stopped on the corner of this hall. Loud drums and music adopts our silence. It was only him and me along with our racing heartbeats. Until his glittering fascinating blue eyes which used to be my favorite spot, locked to mine."I'm not, Amber. I'm not. I'm alive and breathing here across you. I survived for you. I fought life and death for you. I gambled everything… All for you." His voice cracked and in an instant my tears streamed down to my face.The hate and fear that lurked in me for a long time suddenly vanished away, exchanged by longing and sorrow. I missed him so much. Time and distance separated us but my traitor heart still recognised him. Still wants him and still adoring him.
After escaping on that bloody bar, I immediately head straight to our hotel room and hastily locked the door. Elaine was confused about my look and moves especially when she noticed that Barack was not with me going back there. I explained everything to her which made her gawk. I am starting to get paranoid again.
"So what are you doing here?" My eyebrows scrunch in confusion when Celestine croaked out."Uh— because… It's still my house and my room?" I replied. Thunder on her side chuckled while she rolled her eyes for the nth time."Whatever. I am starting to think and feel that you want to sort things out with Blake.""Wait, what?!" I screeched."Isn't it?" she asked with a playful grin."Hell, no!" I immediately replied, defensively.She fixed her seat then crossed her arms over her swollen abdomen. "Oh, so why are you here?" she repeated the question once again.I groaned in irritation. "Because it's my house!" I said before I shot them a cold stare and continued with exasperation. "Wait, do you want me to leave now? Did I disturb the both of you here in MY room?"
When someone says ‘adulting’, it means backpains. Earlier when I woke up, my lower back was seriously aching. I didn’t know how did it happen because I was just watching movies the whole time yesterday and it seems like so impossible that a couple of minutes while carrying my son was the main cause.I was stretching my body in front of the mirror when Barack disturbed me. “Mi Amore, you all right?” he asked then gave me his morning kiss. He knotted his hands around my waist and looked at me through the mirror’s reflection.“I’m having a backpain.” I held his hand. “But I’m all right. Your comfort eases the pain,” I said with a sincere smile.He kissed my shoulder and lifted his Dark Hazel eyes. “What did you do yesterday? I mean, have you played? Worked? Or carried heavy loads? That might be the cause,” he worriedly inqu
The bumper to bumper traffic tested my patience a lot. The usual fifteen to twenty minutes ride became almost an hour and a half because of rush hours and road interruptions. I texted my son’s phone immediately when we arrived at the condominium, waiting in the lobby. I decided to wait him here to avoid long chats with Blake and waste time as Barack was waiting us in the hotel. A minute after I sent the message, my phone beeped.“Come here upstairs, mom. I am still playing with dude,” it says. I smirked and typed my response. “Don’t use your scheme on me, Blake. My son doesn’t know how to read and type. Bring him here because your extended time is up.”Ethan doesn’t know how to read properly at his young age. He prioritized his play but he thinks very mature than a usual five-year-old kid. The only reason why I put phone on his bag was that for emergency and he can ask someone to read my
Amber’s POV“Hey, Amber!” We got startled when Thunder greeted from our back. Celestine and I were staying here at the living room, planning for a movie marathon while I was patiently waiting until it’s time to pick up my son. Mom and Dad were not around, it was so boring that I have to listen Celestine’s blabbers for the whole time.Thunder gave a short kiss on my cheeks before he sat on Celestine’s side and kissed her baby bump. What a sweet scene that I haven’t experienced during my pregnancy. “Amber, are you the only one who got here? Where’s Ethan?” he asked, shifting glances from Celestines swollen stomach to me.“He’s with Blake,” I replied casually that made his eyes grew in circles.“Did I hear that right?” He tapped Celestine for confirmation which she only answered with a single nod.
Blake’s Point of View Amber had been my life since we’ve met. She was my childhood best friend and my first love. I even proposed to her when we were seven at their wide garden where we usually play. However, a day after, I heard that she and her sister got into accident. That was also the last time that I saw her lovely face. Starting that day, I always get worried, hurt and anxious when I hadn’t saw her for days. I always make a time to peek on their wide metal gate to see if she was already home but years passed by, no Amber-- no Aly, showed up. I became a shit during my freshmen years. Alcohols, cigarettes, gangs and gang wars have been part of my life but never girls. I didn’t cling with women not until my dad let me transfer a school. Few days of my stay was quite boring as I tried to avoid fights for some reasons making some shit of men conclude that I am a fucking gay. Thankfully, I was gifted with masculine body and
I couldn’t explain the extreme gladness that covered me when I saw how happy Ethan was after seeing the sleepy face of Blake. He immediately ran to him and encircled his arms on Blake’s feet. Unable to process the situation, he made a facepalm and blink a few times before he realized that it was all real then he lifted my son and caged him on his arms.“Dude, it’s almost noon and you just woke up? Don’t you have any work to do like my Dada?” Ethan asked. Blake smirked and patted his head. “I have loads of things to do but I prioritized cleaning the place last night because I assumed that my Son will be here soon.” He met Ethan’s eyes. “I didn’t expect it to be an early visit,” he continued with a half-smile.We were visited by an awkward silence for a while before Blake broke it. “Can you please slap me?” he ordered which made our forehead scrunch
It's already late in the evening when I decided to check on my son before I go to bed. Earlier today, when we arrived at the hotel, the three of us talked that no one would tell anything to Barack. We will just let the moment pass and after this, we will forget everything. I mean, I'm not being dishonest to my fiance but I just wanted to be at peace. It's better that he would know nothing about us— Blake, Ethan and I.I reached the cold steel door knob as soon as I found my son's room and twisted it open. What welcomed me was a young man happily playing with his new toys. A smile suddenly made its way to my lips while stepping my foot towards his direction."Still up? Aren't you getting tired for the whole day?" I asked before plopping myself on his bed.He turned his head to meet me. "I love these toys, mom! Dude really is a nice guy because he brought everything that we like! And t
There are times in my life when I thought Blake was dead, I wished that one day he would meet my son or at least Ethan would meet him. I imagine how lovely it would be to watch them together like a divided fruit having the same looks. I am always wondering how it looks like seeing Blake carrying his son in his arms while swaying and humming until he gets into a deep sleep. I am curious on how they would behave with each other and how they would bond together. All of those thoughts came across my mind, I admit. But, now when it's going near from reality, I'm taking it back.I'm not happy. It's not a good idea. It's a fvcking bullish!t and the start of a battle."Hey, why are you fighting here in front of other people? In front of your son? Seriously, can't you settle it privately and maturely?" Celestine suddenly croaked out.I shot her a cold stare. I want to blame her for what happened but I can't. She
The announcement was like a que of a marathon where Ethan was our finish line. I suppose Blake was heading to the same place I am going to but I wish not. However, he wasn't stupid of not to think and be curious of a lost kiddo with as name as his. I heaved a deep breath and tried to erase the thoughts running on my mind. I was one floor away to my son's location with
My heartbeat once again lost on its track as soon as I heard Elaine's worried voice. I tried to keep calm and pulled some strength by looking at Celestine who was seriously staring at me, yet it didn't work."Don't tell me such kind of jokes. Not a good catch to me," I warned."I'm not kidding, Yzabelle! I just left him for a while outside the ladies room but when I came back, he was already nowhere to be seen.""I'm coming now. Locate him right away!" I replied in great frustrations before I ended the call.I was about to run when Celestine grabbed my arm. "Where are you going?" she inquired. "Emergency," I answered, short. Her eyebrows scrunched. "What emergency?""Ethan was lost. My baby was lost, I need to find him!" This time, I wasn't able to keep my nerves in comfort and started breaking down. The mall is wide and there are a lot of people inside. I am af