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CHAPTER TEN – So fucking hard

Author: Tessa Lilly
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56
  Dimitri’s POV

  I leaned on her bedroom door and took a deep breath.

  This was going to be so fucking hard. I just wanted to hold her and comfort her. I wanted to tell her that she was mine. I wanted to make her mine.

  My mate was suffering and I couldn't tell her that she was mine. I fucking couldn't.

  Her tears were like knives to my heart. Her pain was burning my soul like fire.

  I wanted to take it all away. I wanted to make it stop. If I could, I would take her sadness and pain and endure it for her.

  It had only been about half an hour since I found out that she was mine and I already felt excruciating pain because I couldn't make her mine. Every moment felt like an eternity, as I counted the seconds and minutes until I would be able to tell her. My mind was racing with a million thoughts and scenarios, each one more hopeful and more painful than the last. I was hoping that she would somehow know sooner. I was afraid that she would leave before she found out who I was to h
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