Dumb Girl Wolf

“What fucking right do you have to barge into my life at this moment, after all these years!” I scowled, holding back the tears that threatened to make me look weak.

But no! I won't give in to any more tears and never will I look miserable in front of anyone anymore, not even to this white flawless wolf staring at me while she breathes faintly. So faintly that her eyes were so dimmed. Her eyes looked just like mine– weak and hopeless.

“At least allow me to do some introduction first” she mumbled, sadness evident in her voice.

Nevertheless, sad or not. I'm never giving room to anyone in my heart again. Be it a wolf, love, or anything else. Gone be it! I'm tired of being miserable, trampled on over and over again only for others to mock.

“And why should I? Introduction my foot!” I spat.

“You can't deny me, Elena” she said.

I scoffed, laughter clouding over my belly despite the sorrow in me. “Who do you think you are?”

Just because she's some wolf granted to me by the Moon Goddess doesn't mean she has power over me. Not even when she's never been in my life for over eighteen years now. I can and will deny her till she's out of my life to any goddamn place she came from!

“I'm you, Elena and you are me” she said, her eyes blinked as they stared at me.

Her words sparkled a tingling sensation through my feet. Repeatedly, I found her words ringing in my ears. ‘She is me and I'm her?’ I know but yet it felt so strange.

“I’m sorry you've been alone all these while, but I'm here now” she said, her voice felt so smoothing to the depth of my heart.

As if a magical touch, the tears I tried holding in. The tears I promised myself never to let out of my eyes again, came streaming down my face in a rush. Who the hell is she to make me feel so softened?

“Why now? Why today? Why!” My voice crackled as it struggled out of my throat.

Silence engulfed the room as I expected her voice; at least, I demanded an answer. She needs to let me know the reason why I'm all alone all these while– for a whole eighteen years. While others have exceptionally practiced numerous skills with the help of their wolf. But I, miserable, looked down on, living the life of an ordinary bastard girl who can't even shield her wolf for the protection of herself.

“I think we should take up the formal introduction,” she smiled. “Like everyone else, so we can be like every other wolf”

“I'm Crystal, your guardian wolf sent by the Moon Goddess” she added.

“I'm Elena” I replied faintly, as that's the only thing that came to my head as an introduction about me.

I know,” she said.

I snorted. Why bother saying we should introduce ourselves when she already knew who I was?

“I know everything about you, but you know a little or perhaps nothing about me,” she added. Her voice dripped with arrogance.

Suddenly, hate sparkled through my heart, and it tightened against the idea of welcoming her. “Why are you just here then? I thought you forever wanted to sleep till I became prey for any roaming rogues or, better still, killed by the spearing arrows shots at the training field… Or are you here to mock me?”

“I'm here now so can't we just be good?” She mumbled, tiredness clouding over her face.

“I demand an answer, Miss Guardian Wolf,” I snapped almost immediately. “Where were you all these while?!”

She thinks she can just appear now and then feel so welcome. No way! Where is she all these years while I struggled to keep my head safe away from getting pierced by the swinging arrows at the training field when others simply shifted into their wolves, smashing every arrow at the floor with just their palm?

“Remember I said I'm you, and you are me; that's the reason,” she mumbled.

Is she kidding me? That's all she got to say!

“Enough of feeding me the craps! I've had enough of your shit words. Okay?” I yelled, clenching my fist tightly from erupting the anger in me. “Yes, I'm you and you are me, so?”

“Does that apply to everyone else, that their wolf keep themselves away from them? No! It seems you're just so wicked that you found joy in watching me being trampled on, isn't it?” my voice continued to reach its peak of anger.

“No Elena! You're getting it all wrong. No wonder you're so dumb,” she half yelled, and immediately, she shrugged down her shoulder, as if raising her voice just made her lose a pant of blood.

“What? How dare you say I'm dumb!” I fired at her arrogance.

I see she's just here to annoy me.

“I’m sorry, Elena. But you are dumb, we both know that, and I guess everyone also knows,” she retorted.

“Because you're me again?” I asked, already guessing what follows, that she knows almost everything about me.

“Yes,” she replied with a soft groan. I guess she's cheerful, I admitted to her words of us being one self.

“I'm here now. To be with you always, to help you get away from being looked down on, and to help you look less dumb”.

“In what way?” I asked, my apprehension softening as she continued to soften my anger against her.

“By being with you. By being in you”

I furrowed my brow at her simple response. “That's all?”

“Then what else?” she asked.

Exactly! What else should I expect from an arrogant wolf that appeared out of nowhere and yet called me dumb. I agree I'm dumb, yes, it's not new. If I'm dumb then let's see what she can do if she isn't also dumb.

“Are you saying you're here for me now?” I asked, demanding an assurance from her.

“Yes of course. So, let's be good as a friend, as a sister, and as one self”

Fool. I wanted to spat but I held it in.

“Okay, I accept you, Crystal; let's be good together,” I smiled, happy to have someone, “and never you dare leave me.”

Little will she know, I'm just about to test her and see if she's also not dumb as she called me.

“It's now till death do us part, Elena. Don't you worry, we'll surely work on your dumbness”

Gosh! Not her arrogance again.

I forced a smile as her voice sent a warmness down my spine. The thought of having a wolf like every other werewolf smeared a cheerful smirk onto my lips. I also have a wolf? I can't wait to show everyone, the school, the pack elders, and especially my father, my transformation into this beautiful wolf. No more would I be looked down on as a wolfless girl.

However, my happiness was crushed down to my feet when her voice echoed into my ears.

“Don't be so happy Elena, I'm just a weak wolf that you can only communicate with”