‘I was supposed to only have a loving relationship with my boyfriend, being the only person, I choose in my life, but, now... What am I going to do? Why did you have to be so fertile, Rain? I was supposed to be unlikely to get pregnant if he didn't have his orgasm inside of me! And now I'm pregnant and abandoned’ I tell myself mentally
I run away from her house and beg for everything to be a fucking nightmare, but, almost getting run over, it makes my senses stay alert and notice that no matter how terrible I'm going through it now, it's my reality.‘Maybe it's just a mistake. Maybe I'm part of that remaining percent where the test fails. So, the best thing is to take a blood pregnancy test. But, then they would find out that I am a werewolf and logically, I would inform my pack that there is a new baby on the way.’ I tell myself mentally.“This can't be happening to me.” I whisper fearfully.” No, maybe it's good. Humans say that a baby comes with his blessing under his arm. 'No, no matter how much I say it, it wouldn't sound better. You're in big trouble, Rain. For being lustful and very fertile, you are in serious trouble.’ I tell myself mentally.Knowing that I should not show my pain, I walk trying to look calm, so that my pride is not hurt anymore, but, the memories play against me, because the man I love was kissed and touched by another woman, who was his fiancée and I... he called me his lover.If he was interested in breaking my heart and destroying my pride, he did it perfectly, although my stupid mind still thinks it's a mistake. Without realizing it, I arrived at the university precisely in the workshop where he was always when I was looking for him. So, I smile feeling pathetic.“Why did you come here, silly? Do you want your classmates to see how pathetic you are?” I ask in a voice thread.“Rain...” says Lake and just hearing his voice, makes the displeasure invade me.“Don't you dare say my name, Lake. I don't want you to mention me with your dirty mouth.” I say observing scratches on his neck, like purple marks on this one.“Are you Scottish, Rain? Only the people there are the ones I've seen with such red hair” says the woman I saw a few hours ago on the kitchen island where he made me his weeks ago.So, the displeasure invades me when I know that I was used and she seems to feel good about my suffering, as if she is used to deceptions and seeing how Lake breaks the hearts of the fools who like me have fallen for her charm.“I'm not allowing you to mention my name either, bitch.” I say angrily.“Look, stupid...” says that woman and Lake grabs her by the arm to stop her.“Don't call him that, Rain. Respect her.” Says Lake, looking at the woman he was making out with, and then looking at me coldly.I can't understand what's happening, but I feel like life is falling apart and that's why I must calm my heart so I can take a deep breath, because I need a big breath, so I don't go crazy.I have not recovered from the humiliation in his house, to endure another, but, my legs do not allow me to move. It's like they're clinging to the ground, waiting for the impacts to end up ending my life.‘You can't scream for someone who really doesn't deserve the slightest alteration.’ I remember holding on to a pride that I don't know if I can brag about.“What did you say?“You must be respectful to... my fiancée.” Lake says and I smile.“You don't know how happy it makes me to hear that, Lake. You've taken a weight off my shoulders.” I say with pain.The worry of how I would react to having been with him having ‘my fiancé' disappears completely, as does any opportunity to face my pregnancy together. So, I swallow hard and stay being a masochist, because I can't move and besides that, I need a lot more to forget it, because my heart although it hurts, loves it. Therefore, I drink hard and continue with my conversation.“It's all over and you don't know how glad I am about it, Lake. I hope I never see you again in my fucking life. Right now, there is no longer a you and me, much less the possibility of an we.” I mean, to then leave the workshop and take a taxi outside the university.“Where should I take you, miss?“To a place where I can be alone and have a beautiful view. I need to think.” I tell the taxi driver and he nods, to then drive away from the university where I doubt he will return.'My memories with him will prevent me from staying even for a second.’ I tell myself mentally as I wipe away my tears. "Lake came to destroy me. He came to end it all.’Lake, my loving ex-boyfriend, seems to have stayed in Rome, because the man she left behind, does not show the slightest intention of affection towards me. ‘He's not even chasing me.' I tell myself mentally.I sigh deeply and with sadness, I watch as the houses pass quickly by my window. I don't cry, I refuse to cry in a car, like the silly woman who was cheated on and only after getting pregnant noticed it. So, with determination, I stare at nothing, trying to distract myself from my problem so as not to cry, I can't keep crying.Quickly, under the window glass, so that the breeze hits my face and it is not my pregnancy out of wedlock with an unfaithful human, which invades my mind.The taxi stops, I pay the fare and walk over the bridge that I only saw when I was driving past it. Although there are a lot of cars passing on the road, the pedestrian part is lonely, besides, the view of the place from here, is too nice.‘If only watching this would fix my problems it would be perfect.’ I tell myself mentally.With the breeze hitting my face hard, I slowly feel my tears leaving my eyes, to give the clarity to my vision that had been clouded by these.Feeling a lot of pain, I let out all the crying I have inside, while the pain gets stronger. I can't find a way out of everything that happens to me and my problems triple with my pregnancy.‘If I wasn't pregnant, it would just be a courtship that ended in failure, but, now... I have her son in my womb. I'm pregnant by a cheating human who played with me.' I tell myself mentally.“What are you going to do now, Rain?” I ask myself in a voice thread, while my phone rings insistently.I smile bitterly, because I wanted it to be Lake telling me that it wasn't him or that maybe, he has a twin brother who pretended to be him. Any credible excuse, I wouldn't question it, but, it's not him. The ringtone tells me that he is my father and therefore, I hesitate to answer. With so many things that have happened to me in less than ten hours, I don't have the energy to talk to my father. The music stops playing and I pick up my phone to look at the dark screen.‘If you don't answer, I'll send for you right now.’ It says a message that lights up my screen.I take a deep sigh and when he calls me again, I answer him knowing that I can't hide for that long.“Father…“A week.” says my father and I take a deep breath.“What are you talking about now, Father?“You're getting married in a week, Rain. The wedding will be in Russia. So, go home right now, there they are waiting for you to leave and before you say that your classes…“All right, Father, I'll do as you order.” I say hanging up the call.The best thing is to leave. I don't want to meet a man who humiliated me so much again. I can't see my running mates and even less, I'll put up with being asked about him. I can't do it.“The best thing is to leave and forget... forget it.” I whisper in pain, taking my hand to my belly.I am aware that it is not a good idea to talk about marrying a stranger, when I am pregnant with someone else, but, I cannot object with my father, when I will soon give him a shocking news.'Maybe if I talk to my fiancé about my affair, he will cancel the marriage without so much scandal.' I tell myself mentally.Knowing that I don't have much time to cry without others noticing, I release all the pain I have, although when I return home, I feel that new pain grows like a flower that grows with magic, so the pressure in my chest becomes as or stronger than before.I sigh deeply and remind myself that he doesn't deserve me to cry for him, but, it hurts too much to pretend that it doesn't hurt and therefore, I bite my lips and implore to have the wisdom to face what from now on, it will be my turn to live.My phone rings insistently and it's Shania, knowing that she must be calling me to tell me the news of my marriage, I don't answer her and with disappointment, I get out of the taxi
I get out of the car knowing that there is no way to convince the butler otherwise, so, I get on the plane where Shania sticks to me like an animal that if it gets loose from me, it will die, so, I sigh deeply, before Shania's penetrating gaze.“Stop, please.” I ask when Shania sits in front of me, just to annoy me.“I need you to tell me what's going on, because I doubt you'll be so calm when you're done with your great love, Lake.“He is not my great love, as I have told you, he was someone I loved intensely in the world where only humans are seen, now, I must return to my pack, where I am the mafia heir and strongest werewolf of my clan.>> So, I can't be distracted by a past love that was meant to end. Since I came here, I knew that at some point this day would come, so why am I going to stress about something that I knew would happen eventually?” I ask in a cold voice.“Rain, you're scaring me. All these weeks that Lake was not in the country, you were sad and incredibly stressed
During the whole trip, I spend time thinking about everything I need to do to evade my mother. Although alphas have an amazing sense of smell, I can fool my father by telling him that my scent is a side effect of drinking potions to keep me being a wolf inactive. But, my mother wouldn't believe it, because she knows what a pregnant woman's body looks like. So, from her and from any woman who has had children, I had to stay away. Only then, I could keep my pregnancy a secret."What a mess you've got yourself in, Rain.’ I tell myself mentally, as we are getting so close to my homeland, that they are already announcing that we are going to land.I immediately turn pale and my body becomes rigid, because I know that as soon as I get off the plane, the real tension will begin, now I must keep childless men and women, close to me, so as not to be betrayed by my own body.“I must make it clear to you, that you will not be able to take any more potions to suppress your wolf version, miss. He
With my father's comment, I completely tense up, so, I just wait for the blow that seems not to come. So, with a deep sigh, I turn to face my father.“Sergey, don't you think Rain smells strange?” my father asks his eldest son.“I don't think so, Father. I don't know what you're talking about.” Sergey says with confusion.“It's probably because I haven't had a bath in days.” I'm lying and that makes them both back off.“What did you say?” my father asks with displeasure.“I've had a lot of things to do at university, so I haven't had time to take a proper bath.” I say shyly.“Oh, damn, Rain, go take a good bath.” says my father covering his nose and I run to the second floor where my room is.As soon as I enter my room, I take a deep breath and let myself fall on the floor, and then hide in the space between my legs and my chest.‘I'm in serious trouble.’ I tell myself mentally.The worry of everything that is going to happen from now on, makes me cry with helplessness, because I will
One week laterI run out of the house, before my mother or someone from the family prevents me, after two days being here, the effects of the potion have been disappearing little by little.But, only until last night, I have been able to maintain my transformation into a she-wolf for at least an hour. So, holding on to my wolf version, I leave leaving marks in the snow that the bodyguards will surely follow.I have not yet started with the personalized classes to be a good wife and the worst thing is that the wedding is so close that I can already hear the bells announcing my admission to a wedding that I do not think will take place.“Why is it so difficult to meet with my fiancé?” I wonder, moving quickly through my family's property.“Miss, please don't leave. Mr. Evaniff will scold us for it.” says one of the guards who refuses to open the large bars that divide my family's private property, with the rest of the land.Knowing that this door will not be opened to me, I run fast and
I return to the family property, with my tail in the middle of my paws, showing that I am still in trouble as before and the worst thing is that I have not been able to think of a better solution. I haven't been braving enough to tell my secret to my family and let alone the pack.Now, I just follow my father's orders, while I beg that no one will realize my secret. Of my great secret that I will not be able to hide forever. Therefore, I am not opposed to most things, I need to be a little obedient, so that when I drop the bomb, they will not be so cruel to me.“Father, is all this necessary? I am not only married to those you want, but nothing that belongs to that wedding is related to me. I don't feel comfortable with anything they're doing.My father stops and sits on the side of the road, so, I sit next to him with concern, because he looks too serious to ignore."Have you discovered my secret?’ I ask myself mentally.“Rain, I did not marry for love with your mother, my father, he
Knowing that with a single visit we cannot be sure if he is a kind person, I try to persuade my father, to talk to the so busy and committed to his job alpha.Because no matter how much I think about it, the quickest way out of all this is to get married as my father had planned and make the world believe that my baby is my fiancé’s, even though he and I know that it is not so.“It's not long until I get married, but I would like to at least get to know him by photos or hear his voice. As you have said, being compatible does not ensure that I have a triumphant marriage.>> So, it would be nice if he and I talk about our interests and affinities before we get married. To know better, how to behave and if we have something in common to talk about.” I say and my father smiles at me.“They'll have a lifetime to talk. Besides, you also have things to take care of, so, you won't have time either, dear. You must prepare to be his wife.>> Also, to lead the pack and finish your studies, you h
I step back a little to the point that my ass hits the edge of the fountain that is at the entrance of our house and that is why, I become human, wishing that as a human, my scent is not noticeable.With shyness, I approach my mother holding the air in my lungs, trusting that that will be enough so that the thing that betrays me that I am pregnant and that I do not know what exactly it is, does not appear.My mother kisses me three times as we usually do and hugs me tightly, while the men of my family watch us smiling. My mother was always surrounded by men, until ten years after having her twin sons, she had me.I am the baby, even at twenty-five, I am the baby of the house, so it is normal that with me she extends her embrace more. But, this is not the time to do it, it is not an innovative idea to do what I normally do because…“Rain...” says my mother walking away with confusion as she analyzes every part of my face.“Yes, Mother?” I ask trying to get a little away from her, but,