It seems that I have made progress in relation to my faults, but what happens is completely the opposite, because I only take two steps and take several steps back because I know that I do not deserve this gram of happiness.
“I don't deserve you to be my partner, after several rejections and getting you pregnant, I don't deserve you to be my mate.” I whisper in pain.“Are you going to reject me again?” she asks with a cold look that prevents me from moving.“Rain…“If you're going to reject me, at least let my children not depend on me. Because this time... now that we've bonded... your rejection could kill me.” says Rain leaving.Her response leaves me stunned, because at no time have I thought about rejecting her. Because even with all that my father and I have done to her, I wouldn't dare turn her away a third time.I have learned from my mistakes and for that, I knelt down asking for forgiveness. My pQuietly, I hand over the plate of food that she immediately receives. Although she has asked me to leave, she has concentrated so much on the food that she has ignored that I have not left. So, I barely breathe, because, I don't want him to notice me.“It was just what I needed.” she says and I wipe her cheek gently.“I´m glad that the meal I made with your brothers and your father, you liked it.“Stop fraternizing with my family if you have chosen to leave.” he says Rain and I deny.“I don't want to leave, actually, I don't want to put pressure on you because we're a normal couple. That's why I made it clear to you that you can leave me, however, I will never stop choosing you.“What kind of crap are you talking about?” she asks with obvious annoyance.“At no time have I thought of rejecting you. I´ve done it for an idiot in the past, but, uh, your company has cured me of idiocy.&l
We no longer talk about all the mistakes of the past, but rather, we talk about the names that we should give to the babies and what their rooms will be. For hours, we don't think about all the things we did incorrectly, to think about the present.“I´m exhausted.” he says Rain after a while and I smile.“You've been through a lot, it's normal that you want to sleep. So, do it, I´ll keep an eye on the babies.” I tell her and she gets a little comfortable.“You'll be watching, won't you?“Of course I do. It's the least I can do for those little ones you tried so hard to bring into the world.” I answer.Rain gradually falls asleep, while I try to calm the children down and put them to sleep when they wake up. In silence, I observe the most important people in my life, grateful for having them in my life.“They must be good children, their mother and all of us went through a lot for them to be bor
The words come out naturally. It doesn't seem that it will be difficult for me to say them, but everyone present realizes that these are words of comfort that I give myself so as not to suffer so much. That's why they look at me with pity. Because that's what I cause now.Abruptly, I wipe my cheeks moistened by my tears, knowing that no matter how much I cry, things won't change. So, I focus on continuing with the decoration of the other babies and thus, not thinking so much about what I am missing.“Lake...” says one of the Evaniff.“Yes?“Are you aware that the Evaniff are your family now?“I wouldn't dare covet so much. Especially when I´m the son of a criminal who attacked everyone.” I answer.“You're already family. You've been one since before, but, we didn't accept you because we didn't know if you'd be the right person for Rain. Because although they were destined to be together, there are cruel fa
Although her words feel frivolous and distant, her look full of love and happiness, makes me doubt her coldness and celebrate that she is making my decision in the best viable way.“Rain...“Everything is looking beautiful.“Now we're going to assemble the cribs.” his mother reports.“I want to be a part of that. let's do this together.” says Rain smiling and everyone nods in agreement.Rain looks pretty excited to organize the baby things and even, I could say that she looks good despite having had a complex birth. The rest and eating helped him to look better and the wolf healing makes him able to walk better than he did when he went to the kitchen.“I am glad that you are better to the point of being like nothing, but, the best thing is that you rest, those little ones will be awake later and then, you will want to sleep.“I can't do it even if they wanted to, everyone is talking about what happene
Narra RainLake and I are concentrating on decorating as much as we can of the babies. Although being honest, what I do is say how I want things and he takes care of making them come true. So, I am just directing the arrangement that although we did it late, we are doing it correctly.Because I could either order someone to organize it for me or hire someone to decorate the babies' room, but then it would cease to be something valuable that we could share with anecdotes to the babies.On the other hand, now there is no problem that he is here or that his father or Mikhail, come to ruin this moment. Now that they are gone, I feel calmer, freer to be able to enjoy simple things, but, that have a great meaning.“Everything's ready.“For now. I will ask my brothers for help to transfer the cribs to my room, and then I leave the decoration of their rooms to your liking, Lake.” I say and he looks at me in a daze.“Will you really
I keep looking at my mother, feeling like a fool for informing her of something she shouldn't have said. At least now, that I´ve mentioned my support for him to leave for Rome. But, I can't fix what I said anymore.“Rain...” says my mother, to then close her eyes and sigh deeply.“Mother…“The only thing I´m glad about everything that has happened is that nothing would make me lose my sanity like I did when I found out about your pregnancy. Besides, I know you're not marked because then, we'd all know, however, I can't help but feel... worried about the silly thing you might do.“Mother, it's not a big deal.“We allowed you to study outside the country and you ended up with six babies in your womb from a human who was not human, if not, an alpha enemy of the family. Tell me if my worries are an exaggeration, Rain.‘If he puts it that way, he's right. So, the best thing is that I don't co
The next dayEverything has changed a lot, because the house that was silent, has been filled with a lot of crying, because the little ones seem to be so strong that they seem to have extraordinary abilities to be opera singers.That is why I have made the decision to fix their rooms with soundproof walls in order to make them sleep more because even if it is only one who cries, he wakes up the others by the force with which he cries.“Rain, since it's a lot of dust, we'll start working once you leave for Rome.” says my brother Nikolay.“Although it would be preferable if we didn't go.” says Sergey taking the suitcase where the children's things are.“If you don't want to go, you can stay, brother.” I mean right away.“Of course I won't stay. The last thing I want is to stay here and think about all the catastrophic events that could happen to them.” Sergey says with annoyance.With my family, everyth
The plane lands and Lake does not allow us to get off, but immediately enters the plane to kiss each of the babies, and later, hug me. The need for affection was noticeable and I´m not going to deny it to him.“Thank you very much for coming.” says Lake and I stroke his back.“It's my obligation to do it, but, I did it because I want to. we want to accompany you at this time.“It is so shameless of me to expect you for my father's funeral, but…“Relax, let's not think about what he did to me, let's send him off as your father and not for what he did. We'll be calmer that way, don't you think?“Okay, let's do that.” says Lake moving a little away from me.Lake takes the child I have and carries him to hold my hand. The contact is quite intimate, but, I let him do it, since, he is too sensitive about the loss of his father. He didn't speak, but you could tell he was affected, his scent said it and tha
One year laterI smile with a bouquet in my hands watching one of the men I love the most waiting for the woman he loves. Sergey, he looks so beautiful in his suit as a boyfriend that I could cry right now like a fool.Sergey, receives his fiancée to start the wedding ceremony, while I enjoy every moment as much as possible, because my children who already walk, run, climb and do everything they shouldn't do if they don't want me to die of frustration, barely keep calm.That's why I didn't want them to come, but Sergey wanted Annie to wear the rings and his brothers to be the ones to throw some stars along the way that light up only when the bride walks on them.The ceremony is beautiful, but, no more than all the happiness I have had in all these months. The Evaniff family has climbed a new step to happiness, with Nikolay with his two babies, Sergey getting married and Lake and I as a normal marriage.Although we have not taken the sexual step, we co
Lake explains everything he did while I was sleeping and I was surprised by how skillful he was in making the decisions that only an experienced leader would make, that's why I thought it was my father who had helped me.“Was it very daring of me to get into the conflicts of your pack, Rain?” asks Lake worried.“No, it's just that…“Everything seemed urgent, that's why they couldn't expect you to react and since we couldn't communicate with your father or your brothers... it was complicated.“Who gave you the authority for the wolves to obey?” my father asks.“I gave the suggestions in front of Mrs. Evaniff and she asked if my ideas would be useful. As it seemed good to them, his wife authorized it.” Lake says and my father sighs deeply.“In the future, order the wolves to look for me. Right now you can't take suppressants or get full properly. So, it's best if I take care of the pack's busine
For hours, the two of us take care of the children, where we talk about everything Lake has researched to help Jheremias deal with his healing. But, the only thing that can help us for sure is to breastfeed him so that he can deal with his own healing.So, with all the love in the world, I take it to be the first one I breastfeed while I do the breast pump does its thing with my free breast. Lake, is in charge of entertaining the babies and even releases pheromones to make them feel a comfortable environment.What I see, makes me feel happy, because although I didn't ask him to stay, it was what I wanted and not because I couldn't live without him, but because raising a little one without the company and support of his father is more difficult than spending my first months of pregnancy without him.Because, although he can't breastfeed the little ones, he can help me keep them calm or take care of them if they need anything else. That's why, although there are no nann
Three days laterNarra RainMy body hurts completely, but, especially, my waist. Dazed, I wake up in bed where breakfast is on the side. Immediately, I look for my children, but, I calm down a little by remembering where I am and where my babies should be.Wanting to go to the bathroom, I enter wishing that the freezing water would calm my tense body. But, as soon as I enter, the memories of how she was pleased, flood my mind feeling completely ashamed because although she fulfilled her promise not to have sex with me, she did give me a lot of oral sex and touches that could be classified as completely satisfying.“What crazy thing did you do?” I ask myself to place my hand on my forehead, understanding that it was complete madness to accept that Lake entered.The memories are so vivid, there's no way I could blame anyone other than myself, because it was me who basically, abused Lake. Although I have to justify myself a little because of my peri
I try to get away from her, my mind tells me to do it, but, my lips are in a fight for who kisses better. That's why the rhythm is wild and passionate, in such a way that we both moan while she clings to my body and I cling to the reason that tells me to leave.This is my moment to flee, because I have the door behind me, but, it is not possible, because my body, as before, does not obey me. But, I celebrate when she pushes me, breaking our kiss.However, what she does is kneel down and without telling me, she invades her mouth with my cock, immediately, I let out a moan while my pheromones come out of my body with such force that they look like rockets going out to light up the sky.But, this time, these rockets that expel my pheromones, what they do is cloud my mind and throw my reason away, because now desire dominated my entire body, to the point that I held Rain's hair so that it wouldn't bother him while he gave me pleasure.‘Is this where my commitme
I start to move my hands around her body, wishing that my touch and my pheromones, help her find pleasure, without me entering her body. Because, although I am the one who desires that the most, I must respect his desire not to get intimate with me.“Lake, please... I need more.” he says Rain and I swallow hard.“It's okay...” I whisper placing my hands on her clothes, to strip her of it.Although I do it slowly, she enjoys it because just as I feel an electric shock with the light touch of her skin, she seems to feel something more than just a shock. That's why she stops asking me to give her satisfaction, because so far, skin-to-skin contact is working.But, when she's already completely naked, we both need more. Our bodies ask us for more than just delicious touches that in my case, makes me remember everything we lived on our anniversary night in the United States.That is the reason that makes me approach her majesty and inhale h
I take a deep breath and count one by one to the two hundredth without being interrupted by Rain, so, I imagine he has calmed down just rubbing with me. In addition, he has begun to soften his grip to the point that he takes his hands away from my body.‘So, his hormones are already calming down.’ I tell myself mentally taking a step away from her.But, the only thing I manage is to have the prudent distance for her to bury her teeth in the side of my ass. Immediately, I emit a cry of pain, while my pheromones are expelled from my body, by the surprise and the pain I feel.“Rain, why did you do that?!” I ask upset.“You didn't want to give me your pheromones, I had to take desperate measures.” she says smiling.“Now I´m the one who's desperate.” I say rubbing the affected part that although it is healed, it still hurts.“You're cruel, Rain. This is not done.” I say indignant.&
Although I didn't do it with the intention of making things impossible for Rain, I´m ruining everything again. Despite promising not to make things complicated for Rain, I´m making everything complicated again.‘It sounds like you have an amazing ability to make life difficult for your wife, Lake.’ I tell myself mentally.“You've got to be kidding me.“I´m really sorry, I got distracted with the Jheremias situation and now I can't move. Your hormones have completely paralyzed me.“Then call one of your men to take you outside.” says Rain and I hit my head on the wall, because that's not possible.“They wouldn't let them in because you're like that, that's why I asked them to go away.” I say and that makes Rain curse.“Why are you doing this to me, Lake?! Is this your way of speeding things up?!!“I won't touch you, Rain.” I say for sure.But, what I´
His words stay in my mind repeating over and over again, gradually increasing my happiness at the same time that my eyesight is clouded by the accumulated tears that show how excited I am to hear something like this.“Doctor, is everything really okay with them?” I ask in a voice thread.“At least with this little one I perceive some visible damage. However, I am going to find out about it in all babies so that I can be sure about it.” says the doctor.“Oh, Moon goddess, you have heard our prayers.” says Mrs. Evaniff very gratefully.“It seems that this overflow of energy that they have, is just a sign that everything has improved for them.“So, although they have been sleeping less a few days ago, the complete improvement has happened since yesterday, since, it has been the day when they have been moving more as they do now.The doctor nods as he continues with the examination of each of the babies. Howev