Chapter 4: Renee

To say I wasn't going to cry would be a lie because I totally am but not sad tears. Oh, no I am so mad I am shaking. Why the make me go through this a second time. He thinks the same as everyone else does. It's not the truth but still, it stings. I busy myself as he stands there in silence, his rejection hanging in the air like a dark cloud. Thankfully, before he can utter those dreaded words, the kitchen becomes a flurry of movement.

 

I briefly see someone start to drag Jace out of the kitchen and a small spark of hope ignites in me. Maybe, just maybe, I can make it through the rest of the night without completely falling apart. No, I refuse to even think that. So, I stomp that shit down. But then, the energy in the room shifts and a powerful growl cut through the noise. Everyone, including myself, freezes in fear.

 

"Don't look, don't look," I try to mentally kick myself back into gear, but fail miserably when I feel him standing behind me. Before I can even figure out what is happening, I am lifted up as if I weigh nothing and thrown over a hard shoulder. I can't help it; I squeal in shock.

 

"My food!" I protest, trying to wriggle out of his grasp. He tightens his hold on me and swats my butt, causing me to yelp in surprise. "What the fuck is wrong with you!"

 

"Hold still," he commands, turning back to the chaos in the kitchen. "One of you, stay and take out whatever might be cooking. The rest of you, take what you have." He pauses, his eyes scanning the room. "Michael," he barks, addressing a guy who was standing nearby.

 

"Yes, alpha," Michael responds, his voice shaking but not really in fear.

 

"Tell anyone who complains that they can wait, while I take care of something with my mate." The room is filled with stunned silence, everyone frozen in shock at the mention of his mate.

 

"Now!" he barks again, and suddenly everyone is moving, scrambling to obey his command. I wince, hating the alpha's bark that always rubs me and my wolf the wrong way.

 

He continues to carry me outside, and it's only when I hear the door shut behind us that I realize we are in the alley behind the venue. The loud music from the main road vibrates in the air, adding to the intensity of the moment. He sets me down on my feet and I sway a little, still getting used to the sudden change in position. I look up at him and up and up, realizing just how tall he is compared to my 5'2'' frame. When our eyes meet, he speaks.

 

"I don't know what happened before, but I'm not giving up the one person who is made for me. Wolfless or not," he says, his voice firm and determined. He steps closer, pushing me up against the wall with his hot, hard body. I shudder, unable to resist the pull towards him. Maybe I even moan. Who cares. I care that's who. I push against him hard as I can. Borrowing from my wolf a little bit I get him to move.

 

"You are certainly not weak, that I know for a fact," he says, staring deep into my eyes. And then, he's kissing me again, his lips claiming mine in a passionate and possessive kiss.

 

Holy moley, Jace is intense. His hands are everywhere, exploring every curve of my body with a hunger that sends shivers down my spine. I can barely keep up with him, my mind struggling to process the overwhelming sensations while my wolf, Jasmine, purrs with pleasure. Yes, actually freaking purrs. "Bitch, do you not remember the last one? He was like this at first too until we didn't put out." That shuts her up. Because it's true. When we didn't give in, he backed off and we got rejected.

 

It's hard to believe that Jace is said what he does, and now, with his lips pressed against mine and his hands roaming over my skin, he's a completely showing me how much he doesn't care. And if I was as naive as I used to be, I might believe it. This isn't my first rodeo and happy ever after is just in Disney movie

 

As his stubble grazes against my chin, my body responds, craving more of his touch. I'm grateful for the suppressants I take, keeping my wolf's pheromones in check. Otherwise, I would be slick with desire and the scent of my arousal would be overwhelming. Now I I feel the wetness gathering I know they are working otherwise well there would be no saving my clothes.

 

Jasmine and I are a special kind of wolf. We are different and the rarest of the rare. Thats why we need to make sure our mate is worthy of us.

 

I can feel his desire for me through our bond, a connection that only rare for nonmarked couples. And it only intensifies the passion between us.

 

His hands slide under my shirt, tracing the lines of my body with a possessive touch. I can't help but whimper as his fingers trail over my waist, lingering over the little bit of pudge I have there. I can't help but be self-conscious about it, I bake and cook and enjoy my creations and haven't trained since I left my old pack. Even if I can feel that Jace, feels I'm beautiful and desired. He doesn't seem like the type to be with someone like me. Shit waits why do I even care? I don't so I push him back again. Regaining control over myself and my wolfs desire. Nope this is not happening.

 

He's so confident and sure of what he wants, while I'm still struggling to accept that he could never want someone like me. And there is the small fact I have never done this, been touched like this. And I do not want to go down that road with him.

 

Extending both my hands I keep pushing him with everything I had until we are both off the wall and in the middle of the alley way.

 

"You're perfect," he whispers trying to kiss me again, but I dip my head and step back. "And I can't hold back anymore."

 

"Well thanks I guess, but I am far from perfect, and you need to back the fuck up." I tell him dropping my arms and stepping about six feet back. Watching the look of confusion cross his face. "Look just because we got this bond does not mean you get to paw at me. I am not going to just drop my pants and say Yes Alpha." I steal my shoulder waiting for the strike that normally follows speaking to an alpha that way.

 

"Paw at you?" He asks. "You're my mate I was not pawing at you!" He tries to come for again I put my hand up stopping him.

 

"Nope you stay right there. No reason to come closer." He stops his mouth opening and closing a few times.

 

"What the fuck is going on right now?"