~Xyana~
"You have to answer me," Clifton says, climbing on the bed and pinning my arms above my head while his frame towers above me. "Your wolf called me an Abomination, didn't she?" "I'm going to scream." I let out the only words that came to my mind. "And you think that would stop me? Was it your wolf, Xyana?" He presses on. "Gaston says to follow my cue and not to overwhelm me," I tell him instead. "It looks like your presence..." "I'm not playing this game with you." He growls, cutting me short. He lowers his body and whispers in my ear. "You are my fucking mate. I have the right to know." My heart skips a beat as I feel his breath in my ear, making me mewl softly. "And you, mine," I say, panting inaudibly. "You believe so?" I nod. "So as your mate, can you listen to me by letting me go?" I try another approach. He chuckles, "nice try, Baby. In case you have no idea, it's going to take a while before my brothers finds us. So, I have all the time in the world." Alarm bells ring in my head. "Clif, get off me right now!" I try another way, yet it turns out futile. "Can't do that, Baby." His grey eyes capture my gaze instantly, taking my breath away as I struggle to get my brain to function properly. He traces his lips straight from my neck to my shoulders. 'Goddamnit!' "Answer me." I do everything in my power to disguise my panting while overwhelming sparks travel through my skin. "Clifton!" "Yes, Baby." He chuckles, biting into my neck, suctioning and blowing gentle air on the spot. Then he let out a soft growl as he positioned himself between my legs. The sparks erupting on my skin are the only thing that stops me from going 'pleasure-mad' as he caresses my stomach and my sides gently. My body burns up beneath him. While he puts his hands next to my sides, he licks my skin from between my breasts to my throat, making me shiver. He chuckles as he nibbles at my jaw, and I moan lowly. “Who called me an Abomination, Baby? You either tell me or I'll be forced to stop, even though I don't want to. Tell me, right now." I feel his command wash over me; my will feels bent like I'm meant to do nothing but please and obey Clifton. 'What's happening?' Before I could gather my thoughts, the words were flying out of my mouth. "My wolf Juno. She called you an Abomination." I tell him. His eyeballs flashed through a shade of grey to black. At this point, I'm not sure if his eyeball colors actually fluctuated or I'm too aroused not to be able to differentiate between real and hallucinations. Clifton shuts his eyes briefly, and when he opens them, they're back to grey. But worry has replaced his arrogant expression. He kisses me and finally stands up. I sat up immediately, silently mourning the loss of his hands, lips, and hand. He looks at me with total reverence. Then he asks, "why?" I can feel Juno stir as she readies herself to listen to my reply. She doesn't care about me. But she knows an honest answer to that question has the tendency to ruin me. And, of course, it seems that's what she really wants... She squeals, smiling joyously. She's not exactly doing these things in literal terms. But I'm anthropomorphizing her emotions. You know, like when you have a spirit being living inside you, and you get to feel things because they're either practically doing them or they're thinking of such actions. I can hear the banging against the door as I believe Declan and Dion have finally caught up with us, but who knows when they will actually be able to bring down the door? “You're going to speak to me, Xyana. I command you to! Why would your wolf refer to me as an Abomination?" Again, his command washes over me and I'm pressured to offer him an answer. "Because..." I whisper, and he comes closer to hear me better. “She... She thinks I killed my mother and anyone attracted to me is an Abomination." 'Except Alpha Kedar, of course,' but I don't tell him that. Juno had grown quiet after my mother's death. She deserted me completely. I never got to shift again because she refused to be present until the day I claimed Alpha Kedar as my mate and that was the first time I ever shifted after the death of my mother, four years ago. Clifton's body goes rigid for a few seconds. I look away, pushing my gaze to the door that I have no doubt will come down soon from the intensity of the heavy pounding Declan and Dion are subjecting it to. As if stung by an insect, Clifton jumps up, cussing. He walks around and stands in front of me, blocking off my view, “You and your wolf are the same. She's always with you. When it comes to you, your Wolf shouldn't think. She should know. So, it's either she knows you did it or not. Now, which is it, Xyana?” My body starts trembling. Juno is still waiting, a mocking smirk on her face. She knows I won't say it. I won't share a secret I've kept buried for the better part of my life. A secret that would destroy me if It gets to the wrong person. I'm acting like I really want to speak to Clifton while praying so hard that the door comes down as fast as possible. Clifton takes hold of my wrist. He brings it to his lips and nipped it gently in between his teeth. The sensation I instantly feel is overpowering. I feel like I'm floating in a hollow alley and consciousness is slipping away from me. I try to speak again, but my voice dies in my throat as a sharp, agonizing pain hits me out of the blue. Darkness starts to claim me. I'm no longer floating; I'm being pulled into a thick, smoky, and very dark haze. I barely sensed Clifton pulling me into his arms. “Fuck.” His grip on me tightens. "Baby, look at me, stay with me. Goddess, what have I done? Stay with me, Babe.” I hear his faint pleas, but I can't hold on; everything is turning black. A very loud shatter in the room told me that my other mates had finally broken down the door. But I'm not conscious for long. I finally give in to the darkness just when I hear Dion's voice; "You self-absorbed bastard!"~Declan~All my life I've longed for my mate. The one-woman created to be my everything. Love has never meant a thing to me until the day I set my eyes on Xyana.I thought my heart would explode. Everything about her is perfect and I decided while she was still recovering that there is nothing I won't do to protect and keep her safe.My joy was in excess because I'd found my mate. Not until Diony said she was his mate, and Clif said the same. I've never been mad at the Moon goddess like I was that day.But after taking my time to think about it, I realized I was neither ready nor willing to give her up. My Wolf Lucas was smitten as I was and nothing in this world would have made him agree to rejecting our mate.Even when he couldn't reach Xyana's Wolf, he didn't give up. We've been waiting for this all our lives, and at that point, I was willing to accept my brothers being with my mate as long as I got to be with her, too.As long as she doesn't reject me, and she lets me do right by
~Xyana~The constant low beeping of the monitor is the first thing I hear when I open my eyes. I jerk up, finding a familiar figure holding his hand out to me. “Xyana," he offers a bright smile. "It's great to have you join us. You remember me, don't you?"I nod. I do remember him. He's the same Doctor who took care of me when I first arrived in the pack. I clear my throat, my voice sounding raspy when I speak. “What happened to me, where am I?”“You are in the hospital. Your mate brought you in because we thought it best to have you here in case you needed more intensive care." He explains with a smile. "Apparently, you had a wrist injury, and your Wolf wasn’t having such a good day either. So... we've done a few checks. If it's okay, I would call in the Alpha.”I nod, "please, do." He goes to open the door that is hidden by a wall curtain. Once Alpha Gaston steps in, I'm instantly overwhelmed by his scent. This is something I've never experienced before. My nerves instantly go c
~Xyana~ 'PIG,' 'FAT,' and 'UGLY' have become names I'm now accustomed to. I used to think I was beautiful until recently. All thanks to our Alpha's rumored mate, Oksana. Ever since she started deriving pleasure in dehumanizing and abusing me because she thinks I'm too fat for her liking, my life got enveloped in an endless stream of never-ending chores. She'll call me 'Pig' over and over again and I'll always answer her with a 'yes ma'am.' She makes sure I don't get to enjoy a moment of rest during the day. I work at the farms, at the pack daycare, the kitchen, I scrub the floors; I literally do everything. Yet she's never satisfied. ** Mrs. Sal, the pack's Matron, had assigned my best friend, Jiya, and me to clean the Alpha's living room earlier today. As we are focused on our assigned task, I suddenly feel the hairs on my neck prickle. A dull pull follows, drawing me towards the large private balcony outside the room where rumor has it that the Alpha plunges his stic
~Xyana~ I stumble behind Gamma Reeder, shame oozing through me with every step. My mind is still reeling from Alpha Kedar’s words, the disgust in his voice, the name-calling, and the humiliation that burns deeper than the wounds Oksana physically inflicted on me. My wolf "Juno," whimpers in my head, confused and heartbroken. 'He's ours,' she repeats weakly, but I can feel her spirit gradually dying down as if she too is beginning to accept the harsh reality. The pack members whisper as I pass, their eyes filled with cruel amusement. I catch glimpses of mocking smirks, and knowing looks exchanged between them. They revel in my humiliation, every single one of them. "Pathetic," someone scoffs. "How can this fat thing try to fight a real wolf?" Another voice says. "She attacked our soon-to-be Luna." I hear someone else accuse me from the crowd. I clench my teeth, swallowing the lump in my throat. I will not cry in front of them. I refuse to give them that satisfaction. We
~Gaston~The pain I'm feeling is excruciating; my head is spinning uncontrollably as my chauffeur, Killian, keeps driving farther away from the source of my pain."Pull over," I tell Killian.The car hitches to a stop almost immediately and he stares at me through the rearview mirror, his face lined with worry.I groan into my palms painfully as my veins go through bouts of painful constrictions. "What can I do, Alpha?" Killian asks."Turn the car around," I tell him, "and drive until I ask you to stop."He nods and kicks the car into gear, pulling it into reverse. We started heading back to the same route we were coming from. A few minutes into the ride, the maddening pain starts to fade gradually, getting replaced by an unbearable intense pull that is almost pulling me out of the car."Killian, stop the car." I groan. The car halts instantly. I push outside, staggering towards the nearby woods; the exact direction of the unbearable pull. I don't have the time to tell Killian what
~Xyana~Slowly, consciousness comes to me in painful waves. My body feels heavy like it’s been weighed down by thick rocks, and my mind is foggy, struggling to piece together the last thing I remember. My eyelids feel like they’re glued shut by an external force, causing me to force it open. The first thing I see is a high, vaulted ceiling made of dark wood. I try to sit up, but a sharp pain shoots through my ribs, forcing me back down. A gentle hand presses against my shoulder, and I turn to see a man with kind eyes and a stethoscope around his neck. A doctor, I presume.“You have to take it easy,” he says softly. “Your body is still recovering. What's your name?""Xyana." I reply."You're welcome to Gurreo-Valley pack, Xyana. Do you recall how you got here?"I'm at the Gurreo-Valley pack. Goddess! Is this fair or worse than the Crimson pack? In reply to the doctor's question, I shake my head. "What do you remember?" He asks me.I shake my head again. "Nothing, I don't remember an
~Xyana~Two days later, I wake up feeling better than I did a couple of days ago. The memory of my first day here is still fresh in my mind.'Is any of this really happening or is this just the Moon goddess trying to play tricks on me?'Alpha Kedar denied me almost a week ago and now I have three men fighting over me. The only word to describe any of this is 'surreal.''You think you're special now?' Juno laughs at me, 'keep being stupid.'"Whatever did I do to you, Juno? I'm not the reason Alpha Kedar refused to acknowledge us. He just didn't want to."'He told you why.' Juno insists."He said I'm worthless, and I'm not!" I yell. "It's okay if he chooses Oksana as his real mate. But I'm not worthless, neither am I spineless."'But you're an Elephant, a Pig, fat...' "Don't say those words to me, please." I plead with my wolf.She snorts and starts sinking back inside, 'suit yourself, Pig.'I shut my eyes as the pain of her words hit me. She's waiting, watching, hoping that I'll count
~Xyana~"I can't feel my mates," I say out loud, the distress in my voice, evident as I pace the room I'm assigned to.Breakfast was hectic and I don't even blame any of my mates if they're upset. If the Moon goddess deemed it fit to give me second chance mates, that only means she understands perfectly that right now, I'm so alone with no one in the world to turn to.But I'm failing them; I'm failing my mates; I'm failing the Moon goddess, and it's all because of Juno, my wolf, who has refused to do her job."How long do you plan on shutting out our mates, Juno?" I ask her. She yawns and stretches out a bit, acting unconcerned. "Juno?"'As long as I wish.' she snaps."You're pushing them away. Their wolves are trying to connect with you and you're shutting them out."'So? What should I do with that information?.'"But you're a part of me for crying out loud. We ought to be working together, hand in hand." I try to make her see things from my own perspective.'The Moon goddess forbid
~Xyana~The constant low beeping of the monitor is the first thing I hear when I open my eyes. I jerk up, finding a familiar figure holding his hand out to me. “Xyana," he offers a bright smile. "It's great to have you join us. You remember me, don't you?"I nod. I do remember him. He's the same Doctor who took care of me when I first arrived in the pack. I clear my throat, my voice sounding raspy when I speak. “What happened to me, where am I?”“You are in the hospital. Your mate brought you in because we thought it best to have you here in case you needed more intensive care." He explains with a smile. "Apparently, you had a wrist injury, and your Wolf wasn’t having such a good day either. So... we've done a few checks. If it's okay, I would call in the Alpha.”I nod, "please, do." He goes to open the door that is hidden by a wall curtain. Once Alpha Gaston steps in, I'm instantly overwhelmed by his scent. This is something I've never experienced before. My nerves instantly go c
~Declan~All my life I've longed for my mate. The one-woman created to be my everything. Love has never meant a thing to me until the day I set my eyes on Xyana.I thought my heart would explode. Everything about her is perfect and I decided while she was still recovering that there is nothing I won't do to protect and keep her safe.My joy was in excess because I'd found my mate. Not until Diony said she was his mate, and Clif said the same. I've never been mad at the Moon goddess like I was that day.But after taking my time to think about it, I realized I was neither ready nor willing to give her up. My Wolf Lucas was smitten as I was and nothing in this world would have made him agree to rejecting our mate.Even when he couldn't reach Xyana's Wolf, he didn't give up. We've been waiting for this all our lives, and at that point, I was willing to accept my brothers being with my mate as long as I got to be with her, too.As long as she doesn't reject me, and she lets me do right by
~Xyana~"You have to answer me," Clifton says, climbing on the bed and pinning my arms above my head while his frame towers above me. "Your wolf called me an Abomination, didn't she?""I'm going to scream." I let out the only words that came to my mind."And you think that would stop me? Was it your wolf, Xyana?" He presses on."Gaston says to follow my cue and not to overwhelm me," I tell him instead. "It looks like your presence..." "I'm not playing this game with you." He growls, cutting me short. He lowers his body and whispers in my ear. "You are my fucking mate. I have the right to know."My heart skips a beat as I feel his breath in my ear, making me mewl softly. "And you, mine," I say, panting inaudibly."You believe so?" I nod. "So as your mate, can you listen to me by letting me go?" I try another approach.He chuckles, "nice try, Baby. In case you have no idea, it's going to take a while before my brothers finds us. So, I have all the time in the world."Alarm bells ring
~Xyana~"You're winning," Oona says grumpily. I wasn't so eager to play chess with a pup her age, but her Nanny reassured me that Oona always plays and is good."She's good at the game," Declan says from the door. "She truly is," I reply to him. I may be winning the game, but Oona isn't making it easy for me either. He walks into Oona's game room and takes a seat, all smiles. "I've been meaning to spend quality time with you, Pretty. But the pack is preparing for the annual mating ceremony which happens yearly for us. So, we're working harder on getting more warrior recruits to toughen security." He explains."An annual mating ceremony? When will that be?""You would be surprised, because it's still a few months away. About three months and a couple of days.""And the warriors are already taking their training seriously?" I ask him."Yeah. Can't remember that stuff they say about powerful preparation." He winks at me as Oona packs up the chess board.She walks past me with the boa
~Xyana~"I can't feel my mates," I say out loud, the distress in my voice, evident as I pace the room I'm assigned to.Breakfast was hectic and I don't even blame any of my mates if they're upset. If the Moon goddess deemed it fit to give me second chance mates, that only means she understands perfectly that right now, I'm so alone with no one in the world to turn to.But I'm failing them; I'm failing my mates; I'm failing the Moon goddess, and it's all because of Juno, my wolf, who has refused to do her job."How long do you plan on shutting out our mates, Juno?" I ask her. She yawns and stretches out a bit, acting unconcerned. "Juno?"'As long as I wish.' she snaps."You're pushing them away. Their wolves are trying to connect with you and you're shutting them out."'So? What should I do with that information?.'"But you're a part of me for crying out loud. We ought to be working together, hand in hand." I try to make her see things from my own perspective.'The Moon goddess forbid
~Xyana~Two days later, I wake up feeling better than I did a couple of days ago. The memory of my first day here is still fresh in my mind.'Is any of this really happening or is this just the Moon goddess trying to play tricks on me?'Alpha Kedar denied me almost a week ago and now I have three men fighting over me. The only word to describe any of this is 'surreal.''You think you're special now?' Juno laughs at me, 'keep being stupid.'"Whatever did I do to you, Juno? I'm not the reason Alpha Kedar refused to acknowledge us. He just didn't want to."'He told you why.' Juno insists."He said I'm worthless, and I'm not!" I yell. "It's okay if he chooses Oksana as his real mate. But I'm not worthless, neither am I spineless."'But you're an Elephant, a Pig, fat...' "Don't say those words to me, please." I plead with my wolf.She snorts and starts sinking back inside, 'suit yourself, Pig.'I shut my eyes as the pain of her words hit me. She's waiting, watching, hoping that I'll count
~Xyana~Slowly, consciousness comes to me in painful waves. My body feels heavy like it’s been weighed down by thick rocks, and my mind is foggy, struggling to piece together the last thing I remember. My eyelids feel like they’re glued shut by an external force, causing me to force it open. The first thing I see is a high, vaulted ceiling made of dark wood. I try to sit up, but a sharp pain shoots through my ribs, forcing me back down. A gentle hand presses against my shoulder, and I turn to see a man with kind eyes and a stethoscope around his neck. A doctor, I presume.“You have to take it easy,” he says softly. “Your body is still recovering. What's your name?""Xyana." I reply."You're welcome to Gurreo-Valley pack, Xyana. Do you recall how you got here?"I'm at the Gurreo-Valley pack. Goddess! Is this fair or worse than the Crimson pack? In reply to the doctor's question, I shake my head. "What do you remember?" He asks me.I shake my head again. "Nothing, I don't remember an
~Gaston~The pain I'm feeling is excruciating; my head is spinning uncontrollably as my chauffeur, Killian, keeps driving farther away from the source of my pain."Pull over," I tell Killian.The car hitches to a stop almost immediately and he stares at me through the rearview mirror, his face lined with worry.I groan into my palms painfully as my veins go through bouts of painful constrictions. "What can I do, Alpha?" Killian asks."Turn the car around," I tell him, "and drive until I ask you to stop."He nods and kicks the car into gear, pulling it into reverse. We started heading back to the same route we were coming from. A few minutes into the ride, the maddening pain starts to fade gradually, getting replaced by an unbearable intense pull that is almost pulling me out of the car."Killian, stop the car." I groan. The car halts instantly. I push outside, staggering towards the nearby woods; the exact direction of the unbearable pull. I don't have the time to tell Killian what
~Xyana~ I stumble behind Gamma Reeder, shame oozing through me with every step. My mind is still reeling from Alpha Kedar’s words, the disgust in his voice, the name-calling, and the humiliation that burns deeper than the wounds Oksana physically inflicted on me. My wolf "Juno," whimpers in my head, confused and heartbroken. 'He's ours,' she repeats weakly, but I can feel her spirit gradually dying down as if she too is beginning to accept the harsh reality. The pack members whisper as I pass, their eyes filled with cruel amusement. I catch glimpses of mocking smirks, and knowing looks exchanged between them. They revel in my humiliation, every single one of them. "Pathetic," someone scoffs. "How can this fat thing try to fight a real wolf?" Another voice says. "She attacked our soon-to-be Luna." I hear someone else accuse me from the crowd. I clench my teeth, swallowing the lump in my throat. I will not cry in front of them. I refuse to give them that satisfaction. We