Chapter 4

Chapter 4

 Seeing her walk away from me broke my soul a little. I wanted to run to her and beg her to forgive me again, but I know it wouldn't do any good. “I’m sorry,” I said as I turned around and went to my room. 

 All of the sudden I was tired and I wanted to close my eyes. Maybe this was a dream and I would walk up and everything would be months before Derek’s drugging. I knew that was something that wasn't going to happen and I was going to have to deal with all of this.

 I was worried for my mother because she was going to have to work extra hard to make sure we don’t get kicked out of there, and I was going to have to work hard and make sure this wasn't going to be anything more than what it is.

 I was worried he was going to spread all kinds of things at school, but I knew doing that was going to make him look stupid and he even might be a disrespected Alpha because he was choosing to abandon his family.

 I knew I would have to go to school tomorrow and I was going to see Derek since we shared some of our classes, I wasn't sure if I could control myself and not go and ask him or beg for him to take me back and help me raise our baby.

 When I noticed the sun coming up, I knew it was close to time to have to go and face the world. Pulling myself out of my bed, I decided to take a long shower. My body hurt, and my boobs were getting sore.

 I wasn't sure how far along I was, but I knew I was going to have to find a doctor that wasn't a pack doctor otherwise everyone was going to find out the truth. I knew my mom was going to have to help me with that, I knew giving her some time to process everything was the best thing I can do.

 When my bedroom door opened my mom popped her head in, she didn’t say anything for the longest time. I felt like she was going to be mad at me forever.

 “You don’t have to go and face them,” she said walking over to me. “I know this is going to be hard on us, but I think we will be fine in the end,” she said touching my face. “Yes I am still mad at you, but you are my daughter and I don’t want to see you fail, you are too smart for that.”

 “Yeah try telling me that again,” I said rolling my eyes. “I know he did this on purpose, but I don’t know why he is rejecting me already. If he did this on purpose then he wants a child?” I said with tears forming in my eyes. “I just don’t understand what happened.”

 “I do, you were careless, letting him control the things you’ve done,” she said shaking her head. “I knew he was bad news but I was hoping you found someone that was going to take care of you. Yeah, you have your mate out there.”

 “But we thought he was going to be it.” I sighed. “I know now that isnt possible because he told me he was going to shame me if I said anything about this to anyone.”

 “Well he is going to have to set up and be a father, you two won't be together but that is something that happens a lot more often than you think.”

 “But if he is my mate and doesn’t want anything to do with me, then he isnt going to want anything to do with his child,” I said touching my stomach for the first time, I felt normal but I knew there was a baby in there.

 “Well we have to do one thing at a time, we have to get through today. Tomorrow we’ll talk about tonight,” she said getting up. “Like I said before you don’t have to go to school if you want to take a few days off to figure out what you are going to do.”

 “What do you mean? Abortion?”

 “No,” she said shaking her head. “What you’re going to tell the Alpha about his son and his rejecting his child,” she said before leaving me in my room.

 She was right, I was going to have to figure this out. I was afraid the Alpha was going to tell us to leave because of this, but there was going to be a point where I am going to have to tell him and let him know about his douchebag son.

 Getting out of bed, I quickly took a shower and got myself ready. Part of me wanted to go to school with the way I felt but it wasn't going to make things any better. I was going to have to figure this out as the days go by. I knew having a baby as a werewolf was going to be here sooner than the human baby would but that didn’t change anything.

 I was going to be ready one way or another and Derek was going to be served a dose of his own medicine. I hoped things worked out and he came back to me and wanted me to be in his life, but with the way he looked at me yesterday I doubt anything was going to happen like that.

 Grabbing my bag I knew the walk was going to do me some good. I would get to school a little early and everything else would fall into place. I hoped Derek was in a better mood and wanted to talk to me about this, I hated not having him.

 I think it hurt me more than I wanted it to but I guess I was just going to have to deal with this alone and well I will raise a baby and if I have to leave the pack then I guess that was what was going to happen.

 Walking downstairs, my mom was in the kitchen on the phone with someone. I didn’t bother to say goodbye to her, I grabbed a banana and headed out the door. I knew getting to school was going to be quick but with the rain, it was going to suck.

 Part of me wanted to ask for a ride, but I wanted to be alone for now. I knew I was going to be alone a lot so I might as well start now. I knew I was going to keep my baby and figure out how to support myself, I wasn't going to need a mate or a man to help me.