I won't be mated to a weakling

Alder's Pov 

For three years; I've been suspecting that Cassi was my mate, I'd been attracted to her and it was weird seeing that I don't get attracted to girls easily, her beauty was mid-tier so it isn't what made me feel attracted to her, I had waved it off initially thinking it was just my hormones and all but after the truth surfaced; I knew she was my mate.

I was angry, at the world, the moon goddess, myself, and Cassi, how can I be mated to a mere human? Was the goddess mocking me? I needed a strong Luna beside me seeing that I'd be the next alpha, being an alpha isn't an easy task neither is having a mate.

I have to someday lead my people to wars, make decisions and all that and the last thing I'd want is a burden on me, my Luna is supposed to be my side to love me, and care for me and the people, she would be a male alpha who if anything happens or the need arises would have to take my place, what's the use of a woman against supernaturals?

My mother is a good example, I've admired her bravery and battle prowess since I was a boy hence deciding to never marry a weakling, I'd remember the times when my mother would fight alongside my father and they'd be victorious, she won many wars and was undefeatable, it was an applaudable feat.

I want a woman just like my mom and I'd not settle for less, knowing that my people need more than a beautiful face and not a human Luna; I rejected Cassi, it was a tough decision but one I had to make, being a laughingstock wasn't in my plans.

For three years I have loathed Cassi. The times she was saved by others in the pack when the rogues attacked us, irks me knowing she has to be saved all the time. She could neither fight back nor worse; defend herself yet she was my mate? I'd be a laughingstock and never recover from it because she'd be tagged weak.

I dreaded the moment she'd discover we're mates and it happened anyways but I was quick to reject her, I'm relieved no one was around to see it happen else I won't hear the end of it, I'm the incoming alpha so the pack expecting their Luna would be normal but if they knew it was Cassi then the rumors about her being human would be disregarded and I'll have no choice than to accept her.

Why would I accept a weakling? It was disheartening, everyone gets their wolf early but she didn't and that was when the rumors and suspicions started, she couldn't fit in in other areas too, she was weak which is unusual as all werewolves are extraordinarily strong and she doesn't heal faster as we do, my suspicions were heightened.

Loving her wouldn't be hard if she were strong and fitted my criteria for a Luna but she fell short of them all, I had to endure her presence and all because I would be alpha and I needed to appear as polite and caring as ever so the people would love me genuinely, it was so hard having to pretend to be nice to her maybe that gave her the wrong ideas about me and I don't care.

I blessed the goddess that no one was around when I rejected her because they wouldn't believe that their well-mannered alpha-to-be could be that rude and ruthless and I didn't hold back when rudely rejecting and cutting her off, she disgusted me, the mate bond didn't work on me obviously, I hope she'd keep her mouth shut about it though.

I heaved a sigh of relief as I saw my friends approach me.

"Incoming Alpha." Josef hailed.

"You flatter me," I said with a smile.

"Look at that Caleb; that's the smile of an alpha," Tim said.

I was beaming with smiles and secretly enjoyed their accolades, this was the life I wanted and I was getting it.

"Did you hear the news, Alder?" Josef; my closest friend and the son of the pack's beta asked.

"What news?" I asked curiously.

"Not news to be exact though but then, I overheard my dad talking to yours that you'll be crowned alpha this weekend, I was so happy that I had to tell Tim and Caleb so we rushed down here to tell you," Josef announced.

I grinned widely, I was expecting the news anyways but I didn't know it would be this weekend, I was thrilled beyond words, my mind momentarily went to Cassi but I brushed it off, my dream was becoming a reality, I would get another mate once I'm alpha, it wouldn't be that hard to accomplish.

"So... You're going to be alpha this weekend, when I see you next week I'd have to refer to you as my alpha now?" Tim joked.

We all laughed.

"Of course, what do you expect?" I said pompously.

We all laughed once more, I did a little walk like my father would and they all bowed in mockery and it was wholesome.

"I guess your mate would be the incoming Luna. You must be excited." Caleb suddenly said.

I smiled nervously and chuckled, if only they knew I had seen and rejected my mate and I wondered how they'd react to it but I rested assured they'd never know, I contemplated telling Josef since he was the lowest to me but I decided to play it safe, one can never be too sure.

"That's true, haven't you found your mate yet?" Josef asked curiously.

"Nope, none worthy yet." I lied.

"That's weird," Caleb said.

"I thought you once said you were suspecting someone to be your mate, what happened to her? Have you checked it out?" Tim asked.

I laughed nervously and they looked at me weirdly. "No, I've checked it out, it's just an infatuation, I'm happy I'd finally be alpha and lead the people to a better place and create a secure future for us all, there's no rush in finding my mate right? I'd find her sooner or later, securing my birthright comes first, women second." I said, trying to shift their attention from the mate talk.

They nodded in agreement.

"That's true, I can't wait to see my friend become the alpha, your mate is thrilled and lucky, maybe we'd hold a party for all the rated females in the pack, you'd surely find her or worse; we'd throw an inter-pack party she'd attend," Josef said.

"Yes," I said dismissively.

We talked about my coronation and preparation for it, they were as excited as I am and I was grateful for that. I'd be in trouble if they ever find out I have a rejected mate or worse; my father would freak out.

A few days later, Cassi's parents came to the alpha's mansion. My heart skipped a beat when I first saw them; my thoughts ran wild; did they discover their daughter was my mate? My doubts were cleared when my father approached me.

"Son, we're going in search of Cassi, she's been reported missing for days now, I've organized a search party, will you come along?" He asked politely.

I was worried, why did she go missing? I wanted to reject the offer but I couldn't take the risk of her having to tell my father what transpired between us so I accepted the offer, we were ten in the number who went searching for her which included those who had a perfect sense of smell, they were given her handkerchief hence we began to trace her using her scent.

We were led out of the pack and we approached a cliff. I was disturbed seeing where her scent led us, did she? Of course not, she'd never commit suicide, was it my fault and influence?

"This is where the scent goes off my alpha, it appears she jumped down the cliff," Gerald announced.

My father was shocked, it was evident it was heartbreaking, and her parents would not be in a good mood, I peeped down the cliff and saw that no one could supposedly survive the fall, my whole system got disoriented, and she committed suicide.

"No… It couldn't be, was it my fault?" I murmured to myself.

I wasn't in my right senses, how will I cope with the guilt of killing someone? Was I the one who did that to her? The news was broken to her parents and her brother Jake; they were heartbroken, I couldn't bear to look at their faces, they despaired and I wondered if it was my fault.