Xander’s POVWhat holds me back from getting close to her? I want her and she’s right next to me as my wife. I can have her presence, I can be with her anytime I want.“You need to be patient to achieve great things,” Ares advised as I stared at Sirena. She needs that time as well. She needs a lot of time to accept me.I’ve waited for all these years but when she’s next to me, I get impatient.We decided to spend some days at my parent's house the second night after our wedding as per Sirena’s wish. No one is around and the place is so calm. The rain is drizzling outside and I’m standing by the French window near the living room and looking outside. The day went as we went to the shrine and prayed to the old deities. We even took lunch with us and had a wonderful day. We talked and explained about our pack’s tradition which she’d forgotten.When she was Melody, she knew everything, even the things that I didn’t know. She’s such an adventurous freak. Climb all the seven hills near our p
Sirena’s POVHe sat next to me and I asked him one question that kept nudging me.“Xander, Raven said you did many things while I was in Shadow Pack. She said that you were protecting me, is that true?”“What else she said to you?”“Only this. I was so confused about marrying you. She told me that you’re a good person and I must marry you,”He smiles.“Did she convinced you to marry me?”“No, it was you. The way you assured me that everything is going to be fine, that convinced me. You’re good at that,”“Thank you,”“I’ve to thank you,” I said and kissed his cheek. This is the first time I initiated something on him. I guess the marking has starts to work. It’s bringing her close to me.“You must tell me what you did for me,”“Is that really important now?”“Yes,” I nod.“Those things must stay away. Past shouldn’t change how you feel about me. It shouldn’t be reason for you to love me and I want you to know me on your own,” he was persistent.“Come on. Do you think past won’t change m
Sirena’s POV“What do you mean?” I ask.“They didn’t let me reach out to you, even your father but I came to see you a lot of times. I’ve given my best to be your comfort. I clearly know that you’re unhappy. The only choice I had was to wait until you came out of the pack on your own or he ended up with Grace. I always wondered why you were with him?”I looked remorsefully at him and had tears.“I’ve asked this same question to myself so many times. I don’t know why I stayed there and tried my best to get his love. It’s because I loved him from all my heart so I always wanted to give him a chance. It had become a habit. I was good to the people who took me in their pack. They weren’t fully accepted me yet they didn’t treat me bad entirely. It’s all because I always thought I’ve chance with him and he never asked me to leave the pack,”I sighed, “There are so many things, and in confusion the years have passed on,”“He’s selfish, he wanted to have everything in his control. I’m glad tha
Xander’s POVA week has passed since my wedding. Life is going smoothly, I’ve started to continue my daily routine with Sirena beside me. It’s beautiful and this is something I wanted.It’s strange that I’m addressing her as Sirena when I’ve addressed her as Melo my whole life.I’m calling her Sirena because I don’t want to make her uncomfortable. But sometimes it’s the old things that come out naturally. When I called her Melo, she didn’t turn to look at me, there I understood in her mind there was not a single memory of Melody. How can that be possible? Even when I took her to the shrine, she didn’t feel any familiarity. She didn’t feel anything; she used to spend a lot of time there but didn’t remember a single moment. I think someone has possibly erased her memories.Even her wolf doesn’t feel anything.It’s strange, who must’ve done that or did Melody do that on her own? If it has gone on its own, it would be different, and got it back by now but seeing her symptoms, I doubt the o
Sirena’s POVAfter he cooked everything, we sat on the dinning table. We were silent for sometime and I looked at him. He’s slurping the pasta using the chopsticks. What a weird combination, pasta and chopsticks.I don’t want to ruin his moment so I continued eating.“How is it?”“It’s so delicious and you’re a good cook,” I said.“Thanks, I stopped cooking after my father died and I even stopped coming to this place often and stayed in the community hall or at my friend’s place,”“Why is that?” I ask.“Because I felt overwhelming to be in this place. My father’s memories and it’s so lonely to be here,”“I understand. It’s not easy to be in a house alone when you’d a lot of good memories growing up in this place,” I said.“I don’t have any good memories here. It’s my father’s place. That’s it. I don’t have any strong feelings for this place. Maybe my room is the only place that holds a special place in my mind. I have got a little connection there. I mostly preferred to stay out of thi
Sirena’s POVI was standing at the corner in confusion.“Better say this to Xander. He’ll tell you if he knows something about it,” Lulu advised.“Why?”“He must probably know,” Lulu said, “Don’t you think everyone here hides something from you and I think Xander hides something, I can feel it from seeing his eyes. They are all very concerned about you but at the same time, they hide something to protect you. Their stories don’t add up in some places or perhaps they were honest, the problem is on us entirely. We’ve been into some crazy stuff, remember what Xander said. Maybe that would’ve been the reason that had driven us out of this place.“Don’t you remember anything, Lulu? Our past?”“No, I couldn’t,”“Even when you’re with Ares?”“No, I don’t remember much but I feel like I’ve known him for a long time. Soon I’ll get all the memories back or else we can try the other ways,”“What ways?”“The dark ways, the ones that have written in the old books,”“That’s wrong. The only thing tha
“Sirena,” Raven screamed and hugged her as soon as she got down from the car. They both were so happy to see each other after ten long days even though they spoke on the phone every day.“How are you? How was your trip?”“It was great and we had a great time,” she smiled and Xander who’s standing next to me, hugged her gently.“Did you look after my sister well?”“Yes, ask her,”“I can see it in her face,” she said and they smiled. Raven and Sirena went aside to talk about the other things they hadn’t shared on the phone. The sister’s bond is the best thing that happened to her after coming here. There are a lot of good things happening in her life.“So, where’s your mate?”“He’ll be here for the wedding,” Raven said.“Wedding, we have decided to get married after a week. That’s what I wanted to tell you earlier,”“That’s great news and I’m so happy for you,” I said.“So, what about your in-laws? Are they good to you?”“They are good to me and I got a lot of new friends there. They are
“Did you see a ghost again?”“No,” Sirena nodded, not showing any apprehensive reaction on her face.“Then why do you worry so much?” Raven asks, “If ghosts are haunting you then better tell me. I know a shaman. She helped me find my mate and she’ll help you figure this out,”“Who’s that Shaman?”“Her name is Pricilla, she’s a true master. I’ll take you there, okay,”“Sure,”“If there’s anything, you can tell me. We will sort out,”“Nothing for now and do you hide anything from me, Raven?”“What are you asking? Be specific,”“Is there anything you know that I shouldn’t know?” Sirena asked.“If you shouldn’t know then it’s better if you stay out of it. But as far as I told you, I don’t think there are any more secrets. If you have any doubts, you can ask me. I’ll clear it,”“I want to know how I ended up in shadow pack. That’s so strange and I want to have all my memories back,”“Okay, I understand your frustration. But everything needs time. Wait patiently and eventually, you will get
When Xander entered the house the next morning, he went to the bedroom. He was startled to see the absence of Melody.When he heard the water running in the bathroom, he sighed in relief and waited for her to come out.So many thoughts ran wild in his head in a few minutes.Why is she awake at this time? Did she leave the house when I was away? If she has gone out, for what? To meet Alder?Sirena often wondered what was going on behind her back. Has she started to dig into the past? His heart raced in angst each moment to think about when his lies would all fall apart. Xander is afraid of all little things.Sometimes he thinks it’s better if she finds out everything. But, at the other times, he’s so afraid to hurt her.Truth always comes with trouble and living a lie is much easier, he had been doing that for many years. She came out and looked surprised to see her husband.“You came back?” she smiled.“Yes, did you sleep well?”“You woke up early today, what happened?” he questions.
Xander’s POVOn the day, Sirena decided to leave the pack. I lied to her that I wasn’t in the pack. The truth is I was here. I canceled my trip just to stop her from getting away. That time, her father wasn’t in the pack and nothing could stop her.I still vividly remember every word we spoke. I chased her when she was about to cross the border.“Melo, you can’t do this,” I held her hand firmly.“Leave my hand, Xander, or else I don’t know what I will do,” she yelled and I was so scared of her at that moment. Melody isn’t like Sirena. She was brave and never afraid to speak her mind. She never wanted a man, she’s happy with her own company and all men of my age were attracted to her witty charms. She’s brilliant, even now.“Leaving the pack doesn’t change anything,”“Why do you want me to stay here? For your selfish desires, I can’t die. If you’re really in love with me, then come with me. We can travel around the world, settle somewhere far away,”“You know, I can’t do that,” I said,
Xander’s POVI felt something was wrong that night when I left the house. I saw the look in her eyes, it felt like she was hiding something. That wasn’t my Sirena. That reminded me of Melody. Like she knows something about me but she’s waiting for the right moment to escape from me again. The fear inside me keeps my brain on fire. The past often comes in flashbacks before my eyes and I know that I’m not how I portrayed to Sirena. I’m not as good as she thinks. I married her because I wanted to be the Alpha. I deny it to others but that’s the reason I’m here.I loved Melody but that’s not only enough for her to stay with me. It all started like this, a ghost haunting, a terrible future that starts to appear in her dreams, and her obsession with her future becomes erratic.It’s a long story, about how I fell in love with Melody.From my childhood, she was with me. She was there when I lost my mother, she was there when I was lonely, and she was there when I had nothing by my side. She’
Alder’s POVShe looks beautiful, the woman I wished to spend the rest of my life with. She was in front of me but I couldn’t do anything to keep her with me. I don’t deserve her yet I wanted her so badly.My heart aches, and I don’t know what to say to convince her.I want her to understand me and I have this irresistible urge to keep her with me. I even have this thought to abduct her but… that would ruin everything. Once she found out about Xander, she would eventually return to me. I’m the only person she will look for when she needs help. I have to give her that assurance.“How did you speculate that Xander schemed all this? You don't even know us,” she asks me.This is the time to tell the big truth.“I know everything about you and Xander before you even came to my pack,”“You know that I was in a relationship with Xander?”“Yes, I saw you both one time when I sneaked into your pack. From the moment I landed my eyes on you, I knew that you were my mate but before I could come an
“Turn around and ask him,” Killian said.Sirena looked surprised to hear that and she turned to see the man after a long time. It actually feels like ages.“How are you, Sirena?” he asks with a smile on his face. Even though she doesn’t get a chance to meet him often, she hears about him from others. And one such thing she heard recently is that he’s going to get married by the end of this year.She doesn’t feel sad or happy for him. It bothered her a little. She wishes not to meet him again and make herself uncomfortable and confused. She wants to forget him as if he doesn’t exist. However, he finds a way to come after her.If Xander finds out all this, she’s going to be in trouble. She didn’t greet Xander and showed her discomfort on her face.“You’ve put me in trouble,” she said to Killian.“I told you, you’re already in trouble, Sirena,” he reminded her and she looked at Alder wondering whether she should talk to him.“Hi, Alder,” she greeted him.“I’ll meet you later,” Killian tr
Sirena took a step back and she started to get that anxiety again. The sudden doubt had created a havoc in her feelings.“You’re confusing me and this is hard to believe,” she said.“I’m not. I’m putting some sense in you,”“Okay, what else? Are you saying that he tried to kill me?”“Maybe, I don’t know what happened between you and him on the day you vanished?”“Xander wasn’t in the pack when I ran away,”“No, he was here and he knows what happened to you,” he said and Sirena didn’t know what to say. The way it feels unacceptable made her realize how much she trusted Xander.She can’t even think about it that he could’ve lied to her. Maybe that’s why he was so upset when she tried to know the truth. He’s so afraid that I will find out everything.Lulu didn’t ask her to stop nor told her that this all could be a lie. They weren't speculation, they felt like the truth.Understanding that she’s breaking, Killian added more details to his claim.“He married you, clearly with the intentio
After Xander left for the night watch, Sirena got ready to leave, she didn’t tell anything to Xander as she promised him that she wouldn’t do anything to find out about the past. If she told his about this, he would’ve stopped her by his sweet talk. It’s better if she keeps things away from Xander like Lulu said.Surprisingly Lulu asked her to go and meet Killian. Her approval has made Sirena feel less guilty about this.When situations lead to one straight way, then there’s nothing wrong with going on it. She looked around the house, making sure that no one is watching her. There’s this feeling that she’s going to get caught. When she does something with extra caution, it always ends as a blunder. For her safety, she tucked a knife in her sleeves.After meeting Priscilla, she didn’t feel any ghost presence beside her. The house is so silent that she feels like it could almost engulf her.She locked the door behind her and walked towards the southern borders. She took Xander’s shawl f
“Stop kissing me or else I can’t leave you,” Xander complained, sweetly.“Don’t leave me then,”“Are you serious?”“Yes, I’m damn serious,” he smiled and pulls her closer and they fell on the bed. He started to kiss all over her face and she giggled to feel the itch of his mustache and beard.He pauses only when she stops him. She looked into his eyes and she admired him at that moment.“I love you, Xander,”Those words came from the depths of her heart. It’s the only thing on her mind.“I love you more,” he said. She didn’t tell him anything else. She wants this moment to last forever because she doesn’t know whether she’ll feel this way again, and this is more special to her.“Wish I had never met Alder and wasted my time. You should’ve come to me earlier,” he smiles.“You wouldn’t have taken my hand and wouldn’t have agreed to take my hand if all those things didn’t happen. You married me because you had no choice,” he said.Sirena thought for a moment, what he said was the truth.
Xander comes in when she is in her thoughts.“Hey, have you finished?”“Yes, it’s over,” she said and looked at him with a smile on her face.“Good, let’s go and get a cup of coffee,” he said and reached out his hand.She went to grab it with great enthusiasm.“Are you alright?” he asks.“Yes, I am,” she showed him her big smile to convince him. They went to the cafeteria. Not crowded and a few people greeted Xander.They settled down after ordering a cappuccino.“Hey, what’s going on?”“What?” she shrugged as if she had no clue.“I can feel that you’re confused and sad inside. Remember that you’re my mate now,” he reminded her, “I can sense everything that you’re going through,”He held her hand as a moral support and she almost fell for it.She smiled.“Don’t you dare tell him the truth,” Lulu warned her.“It’s just… you know the things that’s happening lately worry me a little. But I’m fine,” she reassured him.“Okay. I’m thinking we must go on a trip next week. Your father will be