I was finally done with the chores, and I was so exhausted, emotionally, and physically. This was a pain that I never imagined that I would go through in my life. I knew I had to be strong, and I was actually good at it since Cansil came back, but seeing Eros had made me so weak. It was so painful to note that I would never be loved by him.The more I acted like I didn’t care, the more the hurt dived deeper into my chest. With a sigh, I placed the cleaning tools where in the storage room, and grabbed my box. I was so grateful to the moon goddess that Eros had not able to return. I didn’t want to see him at all to avoid being hurt anymore.The pack house was so quiet, as I made my way out closing the door behind me. It was getting late, so I decided to quicken my pace. The weather was a bit chill this period, and I tried hard not to break under the intensity of it.I sighed as I followed the clear path, and tried hard to think of positive thought, even though my brain was making it dif
Should I go in there?I was standing in front of the porch, staring at the dark wood that served as our door. I didn’t want to go in. Honestly, I didn’t wish for mom and dad to see how weak I was. I just wanted to curl up in some place that was far away from here. That wasn’t going to be possible though, I knew it. It was simply wishful thinking. With a sigh, I made my way to the door, and rapped on it twice. I tried my best to clean my tears as I looked down on the floor.The door opened, mom tried to look at me, but I averted my gaze from them. It was a childish thing to do, but I didn’t care. She finally moved back into the house, when she noticed that I wasn’t looking up. I sighed inwardly as I made my way in.“Sira,” mom called, as she closed the door behind me.I swallowed the pain that I felt. There was so much that bothered me right now, and I wished that I could be able to handle it somehow, but I wasn’t able to do so. Everything felt so clustered and I couldn’t even tell a
Cansil was standing out of my house in the flesh. Now, it was beginning to make sense why mom and dad was acting they were just seeing me for the first time. In the history of my time here, I had never had friends. Neera had been the only one who hung out with me when we were still kids. But, now, I wished I had never pulled her close to me. She had joined the rest in making a mockery of me, and it was not something that I could easily forgive.I shook the memory away, and focused on Cansil’s grinning face. “I don’t get it,” I said calmly. “How are you here?”He shrugged. “I ran in my wolf form, and shifted when I got to your place. Unfortunately, your dad caught me butt naked,” he said with an inconspicuous wink.I gasped in shock. I turned back to the house, and noted that my parents were still staring at me. Ok, that was getting weird. Closing the door firmly behind, I walked over to Cansil who had pushed himself off the tree, and walking to meet me halfway.“How could you do that?
SIRAMy head was spinning and I was trying hard to think positive thoughts. But, whenever I looked at anyone, I felt that they were talking about me. The lecture had been a nightmare, and it had taken all I had not to sink into the floor. Why couldn’t they treat me normally for once? No, that was never going to happen. I should have known that at this point.I grabbed my bag tightly as I made my way out of there. I was beyond sad at this point, but I was hoping for some sort of miracle. I swallowed hard as I moved. The talk of my video was almost everywhere. Hopefully, Cansil didn’t wait up for me, which meant he wouldn’t hear what they were talking about me. I could only hope at this point. “Sira!”I sighed. This is what I got for wishing that he had not being around. I reluctantly turned around and saw that Cansil was grinning at me as he waved at me. Maybe, I was worried for nothing. It didn’t seem like he knew about the video.“Hi,” I managed as I slowly walked over to him. The
SIRA“Let’s go to the eatery,” Cansil said beside me.I sighed lightly as I walked with Cansil on the pathway after grabbing my back. I knew Eros was still looking at me from the garden doorway, and that made me more nervous. I couldn’t even pretend that he was not there because his scent was all over the place.“I should leave,” I whispered.“No, you wouldn’t,” Cansil said firmly, and I couldn’t help but look up at him. “I know you want to eat because you haven’t had something edible, so let me take care of you instead, ok?”I nodded. He was being too nice, but I wished he wouldn’t say that out loud because I didn’t want Eros to have a different idea of our friendship. I had no idea why I cared if that were to happen, but I did. I actually felt guilty which was weird because Eros had rejected our bond. Was it normal to feel this type of way after such an incident?I had no-one to ask because it wasn’t everyday that people rejected their mates. I sighed in frustration at all the feel
SIRAI was now in Er0s pack house, and was trying my best to focus on the task at hand. Cansil was lunging around the woods, waiting for me to return and I was grateful for that. He really took being my protector seriously.It was the first time that any of my mates had tried to be kind to me, and I was glad. I didn’t feel like I was so alone anymore, and I felt I could be a part of a pack and the bigger picture. Cansil was truly sent by the goddess to relieve me of my heartbreak.I sighed as I swept the area as calmly as I could. I was damn tired, and I wanted to crash in a bed, but I couldn’t do that too. Everything was so cray these days, and I would have to make sure that there was no speckle of dust in here, so I wouldn’t have to loose my job.In between the chores, I scented a unique scent. Was that Eros? With a gasp, I looked up and he was standing by the door, looking at me like he knew something that I didn’t. A sheen of sweat coated my brows which had nothing to do with my
SIRAEros pulled me against his body and then in one move, I was slammed across the nearby wall so fast that my head spun. I couldn’t even think properly at think properly at all. My tears was wild as it rolled down my eyes. “How dare you talk to me that way?” He snapped.I panted. “I was only saying the truth. You don’t treat me right, so you don’t have the right to talk about my friend. Cansil is a good man, and he has proven it at so many points that he has my best interest at hand. He is the kindest human ever, and that is something that can never be changed. I can’t say the same for you,” I muttered.I shook in fear as he glared right at me. I shouldn’t have said that, but I couldn’t seem to shut up. I was simply spitting out all of my though, and that was foolhardy. Oh, Moon Goddess! I had to get a grip on reality. I was really loosing it. Eros face loomed closer to me. “You’re misstepping,” he said calmly.I closed my eyes in pain of those words. “You did it first,” I cried
SIRAI have been sulking for a couple of minutes. I didn’t get it at all. Why couldn’t I do things the way I wanted for once? Ugh! I rolled on my small bed till I fell down on my butt. Ouch! It was not as though I had so many friends, so they had to restrict me.No-one visited me at all.I was literally a loner.I had no-one.Then, why couldn’t I have Cansil as my friend? I could remember how dad looked at me the first time Cansil had come over. It was as though he couldn’t quite believe that a male friend had come to visit me at all.Was it because Cansil was a male, and not a female, so he found it hard to actually believe a word that I said? It was so annoying that this kept on repeating itself. My father should really get past his sexist thoughts and realise I wasn’t happy. I had informed them about this very fact the last time, but they had not done anything about it.A knock…Now, what do they want? I walked over to the door, and sprang it open. Mom stood at the other side of t
SIRADriving down there was the hardest thing ever for me at this moment, I hated the guilt that filled me as his scent filled that call, it was there every where it was infinitely him. How I was suffocated in hisspace in a way I couldn’t find unpleasant.I drove with caution and speed, already my phone was ringing and looking at it, it was him.I tore my gaze from the phone, I didn't want the situation where he would show up and ruin thing's.My hand fit the wheel, as I sat in the driver’s seat with an unpretentious confidence and courag, I was driving crazily, I drove above the speed limit as if to maintain the façade that I was really scared.The wind pulsed through me and the music it played in my ears was melancholic.It reminded me of the soft sound of fabric hitting the floor in death, or the sound Of teeth on the nape of ma neck, the tug of my hair and strangle.What ever way it came to my mind, the wind reminded me of death.My pulse drifted between my heart as I felt i
SIRAAt first when he talked about seeing me the previous night my heart had skipped, for some funny reason I knew that Cansil coming here could spell trouble for the little bit of peace that was around.Mu heart still felt heavy, in a way I couldn't change the fact that I had been trailed here just last night.That bit of darkness was still around me unwilling to depart, it was as though enveloping everything that had for do with my soul at that moment.While all of this is going on, he came in with another bad newsWhat?It was hard to believe what had just happened under our own noses, my finger's were literally trembling.It meant no one was saved, I was starting to think this had to do with both Davina and Neara, but at the moment I know that bringing that up would disrupt anything that was going on at the moment.I could not think about what to do about the whole situation, I was confused about what to do and how we were going to go about it."Are you sure of what you are sayi
EROSThe next two weeks were all about Sira and me. We spent every moment ofevery day together. I was letting her in slowly into my life In a way I never thought possible.At that moment she was no longer Sira the maid, she was more precious to me than even that, She practically moved into my room at first I thought I was mean to her by taking her phone, so as the days proceeded I handed it back to herShe was over.every night and I loved it. I knew it was still very important for me to connect with her as I could picture myself starting a family already—She was carrying my child anyways.At that moment , I felt everything was perfect. It suddenly seemed like all I had to do was trust her, it seemed like the missing piece, perhaps if I had dropped my pride at the beginning, it would have been so easy for me to deal with.And yes, her mother came in once in a while. Suddenly it looked like I was standing right at the end of the tunnel with the light all shining down right at my fac
SIRASeeing no one I hastened my step, I could literally feel the sound coming from my heart as it was heavy with a thundering sound.“Who is there?” I breathed.I directed a sarcastic gaze at the dark part of the wood.As the hour minute ticked I could hear it in my heart, I took steps back cautious that I wasn't alone.The words I was going to say were pierced in my chest. I knew it had to be something out there or someone… It hurts all the same, the manner at which my heart was beating.A frustrated sound traveled up my throat, but I kept it locked in. It was better to be quiet than having any emotions at the moment. I avoided the gaze into the dark, though it burned me deep in my soul.The Pressure in me burst into tingles and flame. My veins burned up like a line of fire willing to ignite shooting flames of light behind my eyes.A shudder fluttered through my body as anxiety poured through my bloodstream, before a languid heat spread.As I calm down, I realized my leg wa
SIRA POV.I stood still, obviously shocked, this was obviously what I dreaded the most.I really don’t like Eros and Cansil meeting each other, because it doesn’t end well.“So this is it Sira?” He asked me with a very annoyed glare which managed to send chills down my spine.“You should mind the way you speak to her,” Cansil stepped in and that was when Eros faced him with an irritated look.“And who invited you?” Eros demanded with rage written all over his face.“You can’t just speak to Sira anyhow in my presence and expect me to keep quiet,” Cansil said without an ounce of fear, and Eros glared at him angrily.When all these was happening, I just kept mute and watched them bicker.I stared at Eros deeply, and I managed to figure out that he was very jealous.His face showed how bitter he felt at that moment when he saw I and Cansil together.He quickly turned to look at me, and his stares that moment felt like......It felt like he was suspecting me and was also beginning to doubt
SIRA Bright Light struck my eyes followed by a loud honk. I shut my eyes due to the immense pain I felt and by the time I opened it, I noticed a man staring at me.Soon, I guessed it was the cab I ordered. I wanted to give him a scolding of his life but not while I was standing on the walkway by the roadside so I took my seat and told him my destination.As soon as the car took off, I began lamenting.“Do you want to get me blind?” I spoke authoritatively.The next thing that followed was an immediate and reckless halting of the car. He stepped on the break not caring if I was going to bang my head against the seat.“Now you want to end my life?” I uttered, angrily this time.He turned to face me as he soon gave a reply, “I did what I did so you’d notice I already came to pick you up sooner if your eyes weren’t glued to your phone and so I had no other choice than to flash my car lights at you.”After saying this, he rudely just turned on the engine and continued driving without even
EROS POVThere was a yummy chicken Marsala placed before me. The aroma of the food was capable of sweeping you off your feet, but I wasn’t happy.In fact, I didn’t have any appetite to eat as I felt disappointed earlier today.“Why didn’t she want to see me?” I couldn’t help but ask myself as I remembered what happened exactly today.“She watched me leave, which is very unlike her?” I couldn’t help but ask myself in surprise.“Was Cansil there with her, and that was why she probably didn’t want to see me?” I couldn’t help but ask myself, as different thoughts rummaged in my head.I kept on stirring the food before me, without making an attempt to eat it.“Your highness,” The new maid walked in, with a light smile on her face.I hissed lightly and shook my head, prepared to ignore her until she made the next statement.“Your highness, A lady is here to see you,” She said with a light smile, as I quickly turned to stare at her.“Who?” I couldn’t help but ask“She said her name was Sira?
SIRAI was in my room, going through some certain things on my phone when I suddenly began to feel nauseous.Quickly, I rushed into the restroom to throw up, which I eventually did and it managed to get me confused.“What’s going on?” I couldn’t help but ask myself as I walked out of the bathroom slowly.I sat on a vacant chair as different thoughts ran through my head.I just couldn’t help but think that moment.Slowly, I got up and went straight to my closet, picking a blue baggy jeans and a red crop top.Different thoughts ran through my head, but I decided to go to the hospital so I could confirm if I was okay or not.“Why exactly am I suddenly feeling nauseous?” I couldn’t help but ask myself with a crumpled look.I shrugged and quickly dressed up, before I picked up my bag.Briskly, I walked out of my apartment and flagged down a cab as I headed straight to the hospital.The drive was just about ten minutes or so, but I didn’t know when I got to the hospital.On getting there, I
SIRAGrrr…My alarm clock rang, thereby interrupting my blissful sleep.I turned the clock off then tried to go back to sleep, but it was to no avail.I was fed up because I still wanted to sleep more.With a sour expression, I groped my way to my bathroom then did my morning routine as quickly as I could.On my return to my room, I decided to check my messages before going about my chores.“Sira” mom yelled just when I was about to click on a message from Karen.“Ma'am” I yelled in returnI was tempted to open her message but because I didn't want to scroll through thirty messages when I returned, I tossed my phone on my bed then walked towards the door.We were supposed to hang out yesterday, but because of Eros, I had canceled our meeting.I was certain she had flooded my phone with the pictures she and the girls took at the girl's night out that was held the previous day.I was about to walk into the living room when I bumped into mom, who was on her way to fetch me.“When are you