Chapter 6

Pixie

Today I have what we joke around and call a light day. I only practice my routines then I help out with Nixon’s hockey kids and work with my figure skating class. I love this part of my day. Watching all the little kids hit the ice. Today’ class is for kids from ages five to eight. They are too cute for words in their hockey uniforms or skating outfits. It makes me ache for one of my own sometimes. Well, a lot of times. I do want to have kids one day. Maybe in a year or two. But in order for that to happen I need a husband. Or at least a boyfriend. And not that good for nothing of a husband I have now. The one who still hasn’t signed the papers. It has been almost two weeks. What the hell is he waiting for? It takes two seconds for him to sign his name. 

But enough about that for now. I won’t let my mind go there. I have important little people to teach. I see Jax gliding over to me. “ Sabine, are we going to ask today?” he asks. I squat down so I can look in his eyes. “ That depends. Are you ready? I told you I would have your back but you still need to talk to your mom. If this is what you  truly want then you need to tell her. I will be with you the whole time if you want.” I told him. Class is about to wrap up and Jax has been wanting to talk to his mom for about a month now but is nervous. That is why I offer to help. “ Yes, I’m ready to tell my momma. You promise to be with me?” he asks.

I smile “ Yes, I promise. Class is just about over so get ready.” As I help the other kids I keep an eye out for Merigold. Jax isn’t the only one who needs to talk to her. Let’s just say I have time to think and I may have acted rashly on a few things. Like not letting Axel and Rowdy come to see the boys practice and games. I’m going to fix that today. The kids are at the wall going up on the seats to get their skates and wait for their parents. I see Merigold is helping Jace get out of his skates so I go over. I nod at Jax to let him know I’m ready when he is. I’m going to let Jax go first. 

“ Momma, there is something I need to tell you.” Jax says. Merigold looks up from helping Jace and sits down. “ What is it buddy?” she asks. Jax looks at me and I nod for him to continue. “ I don’t want to play hockey anymore.” he says. “ Ok. What do you want to do?” she asks. Jax smiles big, “ I want to skate like Sabine and Isacc.” “ You want to figure skate?” Merigold asks. I’m watching her like I have many parents in the past. Some freak out and have a shouting match when their boys want to figure skate. It isn’t a man’s sport, some have said. Real men play hockey. Blah, blah, blah. 

“ Yes. And I have been practicing. Sabine says I’m good. And I can be like her with lots of practice. Please momma.” he says with his hands together like he is praying she will say yes. Merigold looks at me “ Do you think he is good?” I smile. I like this response. “ He hasn’t been able to do much when he is at hockey but I have shown him a few things. Jax definitely has the skills to be a great skater.” I said. Merigold turns back to Jax “ If that is what you want to do then you can do it. But you have to practice just like with hockey.”

Jax jumps up and down clapping his hands. “ I will momma. I promise. I will practice all the time.” he almost shouts he is so happy. I love seeing the kids like this. “ Will daddies be ok with me not playing hockey anymore?” Jax asks. Merigold smiles, “ You daddies will be proud of you and support you no matter what you want to do.” And yes you heard right. Jace and Jax have two dads. 

Merigold looks at me and asks “ So what does he need to train with you?”  “ Jax needs to be here the same days. The only difference is I will be working with him instead of Nixon. Anna can help with costumes when the time comes. For practice he can wear sweatpants and a tee-shirt but they need to be kind of tight.” I said. Merigold nods. “ Come on boys, let's get home and tell your daddies the news.”  

“ Wait Merigold before you go. Could I have a word with just you?” I ask. It is time I own up to my  mistake. She sends the boys up to the stairs and comes over to the wall. “ Merigold, I would like to apologize. To you, Axel and Rowdy. In the heat of anger I made a few rash decisions that I shouldn’t have. And it was unprofessional of me. I shouldn’t have taken my anger out on you guys. And you shouldn’t be held responsible for someone else’s actions. Please tell Axel and Rowdy they may come watch any time.” I said. 

Merigold looks at me for a minute and I think she isn’t going to accept my apology. She has every right to. I was pretty nasty to her. “ In your shoes I would have probably done the same thing. My brother did you shitty. I won’t deny that. I never thought he would do something like that. So I accept your apology. And will pass it along to Axel and Rowdy. I mean you are my sister -in -law after all.” she laughs. “ Just for a short time. I’m sure Viper will sign the papers soon. And we can both move on.” I said. Even as I said it, a part of my heart hurts but I ignore it.

Merigold nods and walks up the steps. Suddenly she stops and turns her head to look over her shoulder at me. “ Sabine, I know it is not my place to say anything. I know what my brother did was wrong. Unforgivable even. But I’m curious why you married him?” she asks. I think back on my time with Viper. “ He was sweet, charming, and funny. He treated me as a woman. Not a champion or a sister or a friend. He saw me. For the person beneath all of that. He cared about me for just me. Even if it was just a little while, "I said. Then I laughed, “ And him having a killer body with tattoos may have helped a little.”

Merigold laughs “ I could have done without the last part. I don’t want to think of my brother having a killer body. The other parts though. I don’t get to see them often but I know they are there. Underneath the asshole part Viper is all those things. The reasons you married him are still there. And I bet he is willing to  show you again if you let him. Maybe don’t give up on your marriage just yet.  I’m not saying just up and forgive Viper. Make him grovel and earn it. Make him beg. He needs to. I’m saying I don’t think you would be this hurt if you didn’t still care. I’m sure you don’t want to admit it. I get it. Just think about it. Maybe don’t give up just yet.” Merigold said. She almost looked sad when she said it.

“ But even if you don’t want to be with Viper. You will still be family. If you ever need us we will be there.” she says before she walks away. I hate to admit it and I don’t want it. But her words are getting to me. Could Viper still have the qualities I fell for? Or was it all an act and the real Viper is the cheating asshole I saw? I hate all these thoughts going through my head. I need to focus on skating, not Viper. I need to hurry up and close that chapter of my life. Viper has too much power. The power to hurt me even more than he already has.