The day after my trip to the dispensary Merigold came by with Lug Nut to take me to lunch. Which was surprising, to say the least. I didn’t expect to see Lug Nut again. Not with my way over the top with my flirting with Lug Nut the previous day. It was completely out of character for me. But for some reason, I couldn’t help myself. It was like Lug Nut brought it out in me. Apart I didn’t even realize I had in me. I just know that I wanted to flirt with that man so I did. And you know what. It felt good too. I don’t often get a chance to feel like a woman for once. I always have to keep my ice queen mask on when I’m helping my grandda. Then I’m a patient to the doctors and nurses. I’m a princess to Callen and Finn. But to be attracted to a guy doesn’t happen often and never to this extent.
But I accepted the inv
Lug Nut I have spent every day with Ailee since I told her she was mine. I even showed up at the cancer center while she was getting chemo. It took a lot of convincing to get the guards to let me in but they finally let me through. To say she was surprised is an understatement. And she wasn’t the only one. Callen and Finn were surprised I was there as well. They even tried to tell me I didn’t need to sit with Ailee. That Callen and Finn were used to being there if I wanted to go. I just sat down beside Ailee while they hooked her up to the machine that would deliver the chemo medicine. I asked the nurse questions the whole time. I wanted to know everything I could about the process and what effects it could have. They told me that from beginning to end Ailee has to sit there for two hours while they pump what amounts to poison into her body.
AileeIt has been a few days since my visit from Viper, Brick, Tank, Axel, and Rowdy. And now I’m standing on Merigold’s front porch waiting for someone to open the door. We have been invited to our first family dinner. I was a bit nervous when Merigold first asked us to come over. She assured me that it was only a few of the guys and their old ladies. And that Ace wasn’t going to be there. It seemed important to her so I said yes. She told me it had been a tradition that started a few years ago for all the family to attend these dinners and now that included me as well as Callen and Finn. We even managed to give my guards a night off since I would be surrounded by club members. It took some convincing to get my grandda to agree but when I told him who would be there he finally agreed.When the guys came over to apologize and wanted to start over it made me less
Lug Nut Tonight was the night that Ailee, Callen and Finn were coming to Harry’s to watch our concert. I may have paid extra attention when I picked out my clothes. I took my time shaving and brushing out my hair. Made sure my kutte was cleaned up. And just to made sure to get a smile out of Ailee I had my hat. Normally I didn’t pay to those things but my girl was going to be watching and I wanted to make a good impression. Lilly is on stage with Neil checking her mic. We all have wireless mic now since we saw how much better is they were with all the moving around we did. And I was grateful for it. I had a surprise for Ailee and a special song just for her.We were all in place and it was time to start the show. Neil was up first with ‘Stone In Love’ by Journ
Lug Nut The past three months have been both the best and worst of my life. I have spent every minute with Ailee that I can. I’m in her bed every night. Sometimes we enjoy each other's bodies all night long. And man does my girl have a body.It is like every curve and groove were made just for me. Sometimes we would just cuddle up and talk about anything and everything. We would watch mindless tv. All that mattered was that I was by her side. That is some of the better. I’ll give you more later. I want to get the worst out of the way. I have been to every doctor's appointment and chemo session Ailee has had. I have learned how to keep my emotions off my face during these sessions. I don't want Ailee to see how much they bother me. It shouldn’t bother me. It is Ailee that has toxins pumped into her. It is Ailee that vomits after every session, not me. But it hurts to watch he
Lug NutWhen the guys all dressed in black except for the green arm band came into the back yard I knew it couldn’t be good. When all of ten of them knelt in front of Ailee calling her their queen I was shocked and impressed. I watched Ailee go from laid back to all business in less than a second. This is a side of Ailee I knew was there but I haven’t seen yet. Well I have seen the professional business side before but this was in a whole different category. She quickly took charge. Ailee wanted me to stay behind while she went out but I wasn’t having it. It wasn’t that I thought she wouldn’t be protected. With Callen and Finn, Ailee had twelve bodyguards. Protection was the problem. First, I wanted to see for myself that she was safe. Second, I wanted to see this side of her. I know Ailee was worried about watching her be the ice queen. I could see the slight fear in her eyes. I as
Lug Nut I was sitting beside Ailee in the truck, Finn on her other side, Callen was upfront. No one spoke a word. Finn grabbed Ailee’s hands and started wiping them off with antiseptic wipes he keeps on him. Ailee never moved while Finn worked on her hands. She just stared straight ahead but I don’t think she was seeing anything. She was deep in her own head. I want to comfort her or help her somehow but I don’t know where to start. Finn finishes her hands and sets them down on her lap. I’m watching every move he makes. I can tell he is moving by routine. So I don’t interfere. I'm so focused on Finn and Ailee that I don’t notice that we have returned to the condo. Callen gets out and opens the door allowing Finn out followed by Ailee. I follow and I notice Ailee’s movements are almost robotic in nature.
AileeI woke up the next morning still on Lug nuts chest there's no place I would rather be. But it is time to start my day work calls and so does my medication. I gently slide off of Lug, careful not to wake him. I go to the bathroom to do my normal routine finishing with brushing my hair. I go to my dresser and grab some lounge clothes, sweatpants, and a t-shirt. I turn when I hear Lug stir around and wait to see if he's going to get up. The sheet has fallen to his hips showing off his bare chest. I can see the marks from my teeth and nails all down his chest. I suppose I should feel bad about them but I can’t find it in myself to worry. I like seeing them on him. Like my personal brand claiming him as mine. I admire my work for a minute, noticing that Lug isn’t waking. I get dressed quickly thinking about going to make us some breakfast. Or at least Lug. I’m still on a limited diet which sucks. But I’m hoping that will change soon. I have fait
2 Weeks Later Lug Nut After Ailee asked me to go to the gala I enlisted Anna’s help to find a tux that would be suitable to wear yet have a little of me with it. Ailee liked me as the cowboy/biker. Not some stuck up rich snob. So that is what she is going to get just in a tux. I’m getting ready at the clubhouse so Anna can help me if I need it. Ailee and Finn are picking me up on the way. You might be wondering why I just didn’t get dressed with Ailee. Simple as cheesy as it sounds Ailee said since she asked me out on a date she wanted to pick me up like one. And there is a part of me that wants to surprise Ailee. I even got Finn to tell me what color her dress was so I could get her a necklace to go with it. I’m not super rich like Ailee or Cormac are. Not that you would know it by the wa
Ailee It has been a little over two years since I walked into the Reckless Renegades clubhouse looking for my father. In my wildest dreams could I have thought of all the changes in my life that have happened since that day. I am cancer free. I have my da in my life. I have gained more family members than I know what to do with but wouldn’t trade for anything in this world. I have an incredible, sexy as hell husband. We have two wonderful kids and are talking about adding a third. The O’Sullivan family is going strong. Grandda married Anna in a small ceremony after Lug and I got back from our honeymoon. I haven’t seen him that happy in a long time. Recently he has started training Lug and me to take over. He says he wants to retire to spend time with Anna and his great grandkids while he is still young enough to enjoy them. The O’Sullivan trafficking organization is unfortunately going strong. I say unfortunately because that means sex trafficking is still going strong as well. The
Lug Nut Our trip to Ireland was incredible. It started on the private plane Cormac chartered for us. The plane was huge and we had it all to ourselves except for the pilot and stewardess. And she pretty much left us alone. I think she was a little frightened of Ailee so she stayed away as much as possible. Both the pilot and stewardess addressed her as queen so they knew who she was. The plane was so large each seat and there were only eight was the size of an oversized recliner. And you could lay them back to a twin size bed to take a nap if you wanted to. It had a small kitchen with a mini stove, microwave and mini fridge. The part I liked the most was the full bathroom and bedroom. The pilot told us it would take at least ten hours to get to Dublin so I knew I was going to use that time wisely. While Ailee was talking to the pilot I asked the stewardess to make some snacks and bring some bottles of water to the room for us. Turns out Cormac had hooked us up and had champagne, str
Ailee After we got to the reception the first thing we did was pose for pictures. I wanted a bunch with everyone. My ma loved taking pictures. She said it helped preserve memories. So we could look back and remember our times together. I thought it was silly but we had fun so I never said anything. After she was gone those pictures became more important so I carried on taking pictures. And this is just another day I want to be able to look back on. I want to remember my grandda smiling and laughing with the club and members of our group. I want to remember Katrina giggling and playing with her cousins. I want to remember the kids running around like maniacs on a sugar high. I want to look back and remember the look of pure love in Tank’s eyes as he dances with Lilly. All those memories are a once in a lifetime shot so I have two photographers for the reception capturing as much as possible. I was talking with Gretchen when the D.J came over the mic “ Ladies and gentlemen please w
Lug Nut I’m in place at the front of the church with my best man Axel and groomsmen Rowdy and Tank. I can’t stop myself from looking around and thinking about the phone call I got earlier. I can’t believe Ailee was worried I wouldn’t show. Wild horses couldn’t stop me from coming today. I will admit a small part of me was worried Ailee would show. I kept thinking she would figure out that she was marrying down while I was marrying up. The church was decorated tastefully. The pews had fall leaves and ribbons on the end. There was an archway that I was standing under covered in leaves and the ribbons were the club colors. I wouldn’t think they would go together but they did. It was sweet that Ailee tried to include part of my life in the ceremony. But I should have expected anything less from her. I look out at our guests and see Ailee’s side is packed and overflowing to the side for my family. There are even people standing around the back and side. Some are guests, some are guards
Ailee I can’t believe this day is finally here. I’m getting married to my Lug. I’m going to be Mrs. Travis O’Sullivan-LeBlanc. I can’t help but giggle to myself. Last night was rough. Lug and I spent our first night away from each other since the night I went into the hospital over eight months ago. Grandda didn’t have a problem with us living together but he did say that we should spend the night before the wedding apart. You know the whole the groom can’t see the bride before the wedding thing. I wasn’t a fan of the suggestion but Lug thought we should go with grandda’s wishes. So I sucked it up for one night. Lug went to the clubhouse and Katrina and I stayed at the condo. I tossed and turned all night, not used to sleeping alone. So I got Katrina and brought her into bed with me so I could sleep. I know you aren’t supposed to do that but I was very cautious. The ol’e ladies came over early this morning to help me gather everything I needed to go to the church. Anna was meeting us
Lug Nut In two weeks I’m marrying the love of my life and I can’t wait. Part of me wishes we had just eloped and got it over with. I’m so ready to have Ailee carry my last name. But I know this ceremony is important to her and her family. And the wedding plans haven’t been that big of a deal. The wedding planned took care of most everything. I was worried what planning this wedding would do to Ailee. I didn’t want her stressing out. Or turning into a bridezilla horror story. But I should have had more faith in my girl. She was never going to turn into a bitch. But I’ll fill you in on the wedding when it gets here. Today is another important day. More for Ailee than me. I’m at the club with Katrina. Ailee is at the doctor for her six month check up. I wanted to go with her but Cormac, Callen and Finn were going. Anna and I agreed to stay with Katrina. I was at the house waiting for Ailee but I was going crazy just sitting there. I know Anna wasn’t doing much better. So when Merigold
Ailee Three weeks have passed since wee Katrina came into our lives. It has taken some adjusting and juggling schedules but we have made it work. With tons of help of course. We now have an extra bodyguard when we leave the house. Thanks to grandda, Mitch’s sole job is to protect Katrina when we go out. We are mafia. We have many enemies. Especially when we shut down a trafficking ring. So we are always careful. Lucky so far I haven’t been called on to the ice queen. I dread coming back to Katrina after doing that. I know Lug would take care of her while I come back to myself. I just don’t want her to see me like that. Not for a while at least. I won’t be able to keep it from her forever. But until she is much older I want to shield it from her. More changes is that Lug and I have had to be careful about making out wherever we want. We still kiss and hug in front of Katrina. She loves it. She giggles every time Lug kisses me and makes kisses faces so we have to give her kisses too
Lug Nut Ailee and Anna sat on the floor playing with Katrina. Cormac and I were sitting on the couch talking about what room we were going to change into a nursery. “ Anna, do you think it is too late to find a dress for Katrina for the wedding? Something that matches the flower girls.” Ailee asked. It was sweet that Ailee was trying to include Katrina. We could have dressed her up and had someone hold Katrina during the ceremony but that wasn’t enough for Ailee. She was trying to include as many family members as possible. She had Jace and Jax as mini ushers to be helped by Finn and Callen. Ford is too young to help out. Kadance, Kassidy and Alana as flower girls. Bastian is the ring bearer. Merigold, Lilly, Speed and Gretchen are bridesmaids. She has most of the club included in one way or another. Ailee hasn’t said it outright but I know she is doing most of it for me. She wants the wedding to be equal parts for both of us. I personally don’t care as long as at the end of the day
Ailee After breakfast we all went to the living room to chat. More Like Lug and I were talking grandda and Anna were focused on playing with Katrina. I was watching Katrina not that I would ever be worried about her with grandda. He helped raise me into the woman I am today so I know Katrina is in good hands. I’m also paying attention to the way Anna and grandda are behaving with each other. The easy Anna was snuggled up against Cormac’s side. Her head on his shoulder as they played with Katrina. The sweet smiles grandda keeps giving Anna. I know I saw something when I woke up in the cleanroom months ago but they avoided the question. Everything got busy after that and since I didn’t see them together I have forgotten what I had seen. But not anymore. I want answers this time. And I’m going to get them. “ Are you finally going to tell me what is going on with you two? Or do I need to investigate myself?” I asked. It is clear they are interested in each other. I think it is wond