I don’t know how long I have been out. The last thing I remember is saying bye to Lug. I knew my heart was slowing down and was going to stop soon. I could see the numbers on the monitor going down and I swear I could feel it as well. I was sure if the doctor would get here in time so I made sure grandda remembered our deal. He knew I didn’t want machines keeping me alive if there was no hope of me ever waking up. That is no way to live. And I wouldn’t truly be living. He promised me if the time came he would let me go. I also had to say goodbye to Lug just in case. I want him to have a good life even if I’m not here to share it with him. I want him to find love again. I needed to know he was going to be ok. I wanted him to know I would always be here for him.
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Lug Nut The day I got the call that Ailee was awake and asking for me after being unconscious for a week was an incredible feeling. When I walked into the room and saw her laughing I felt like the world just got brighter than it ever has before. To be able to sit and talk with Ailee. And to hear her say she was hungry was awesome. I watched each day eat little by little. I would help her walk around the room. It wasn’t far but Dr. Graves said it was very important for her muscles to get moving. A week after Ailee woke up Donavan came in. The first thing I noticed was he wasn’t dressed in his hazmat gear so that must mean something good. Add that with a smile on his face. And man did he make my day. They were moving Ailee out of the cleanroom. I jumped off the bed almost knocked Ailee off and hugged him. After that, I made a bigger fool of myself by
Ailee Being out of the hospital has been great. Don’t get me wrong, I was treated excellently by my doctors and all of the staff. I’m sure my grandda and guards had a lot to do with that since I was kept in the VIP wing. But I can’t stand hospitals. I have been in them enough to last several lifetimes. Getting home to my own space was relaxing. Lug has been by my side the entire time. The man has all but moved in completely. But you know what, I wouldn't have it any other way. I think he is just waiting for me to ask him to move in before he brings over the rest of his things. And I fully intend to do that tonight during the special date Lug has planned. He has been very secretive about what we are doing. He won’t even give me a hint. All he sai
Lug Nut After I made sure Ailee was upstairs I turned to Ace. We have seen plenty of violence in our lives. Hell, Merigold has regularly beat the shit out of the skanks. And it has never bothered any of us. I like knowing the ol’e ladies can defend themselves. Considering two have been attacked. But Ailee took it to a new level. She tortured Deb. I needed to make sure A e was good with what we saw. I can’t imagine it was easy watching his daughter inflict that kind of beat down. I see Finn, Callen, and Viper standing near Ace talking. Finn and Callen can answer any questions Ace and Viper may have. My job is to make sure Ace doesn’t use this as an excuse to walk away from Ailee. I place my hand on his shoulder “ You good, brother?”&nbs
Ailee I couldn’t believe Lug proposed. I had not expected it at all. I had hoped we would one day but I never thought it would be so soon. It makes sense I guess since I’m his ol’e lady. From what the other ol’e ladies told me it happens but being married isn’t a necessity. To say I was surprised was not even in the ballpark. More like shocked, stunned, and thrilled by just a few things going on in my head. And of course, I was going to say yes. I’m not crazy. This man has my, heart and soul. The is no walking away from that. He has seen me at my worst, best, and on my death bed and hasn’t walked away. That shows me more love and devotion than any words he could say. But you know me. I had to put my own twist on it. I look at the ring Lug ju
Ace I was sitting in a back booth at the diner waiting for Ailee to show up for our lunch. I didn’t pick this place, Ailee did. I would have met her anywhere she wanted to go but she insisted she was craving their loaded fries. And now that she can eat better there was no way I was going to try to change her mind. And I like it here so that is a plus. Actually the plus is that I’m having lunch with my daughter. I have spent time with her the past two months in and out of the hospital. There were always several people around. This time I get to have her all to myself. I know Callen will be with her as usual but I doubt he will sit with us. I noticed that Finn and Callen will always be close by but they give Ailee as much privacy as they can. I have been looking forward to this all week. That is the main reason I’m here ten minutes early. I coul
Lug Nut I was standing in the shower leaning my head against the wall . I had the massaging shower heads aimed at my neck to work the aches out of it. We had a big show coming up and Lilly was working us like crazy. I would never say anything to her because without her there is no way we would be as big as we are now. But moving all the equipment can make all your muscles hurt. I know Lilly must be feeling it as well because she works just as hard if not harder than the rest of us. I hope Tank is taking care of her. You are probably wondering why I haven’t asked Ailee to rub my neck. Don’t get me wrong she would if I asked. She has volunteered several times and she is good at it. But when she gets her hands on me it is never just a mas
Ailee The wedding date is set and plans are being made. I can’t believe in six months time I will be Mrs. Travis Leblanc. I can’t wait. We are getting married in the fall. My favorite time of year. I love to see the leaves change. If it wasn’t for me agreeing to my grandda’s wishes for me to have a traditional Irish ceremony I would have married Lug the day after he proposed. I’m ready to be his in every way. And I know ma would have wanted too. Grandda and da hired a wedding planner to help with the arrangements so I don’t have to stress much. She takes my ideas and transforms them for me. Lug and I just have to show up for certain things like tastings and fittings when she tells us. I like it. I did make it known I wanted some
Lug Nut Watching Ailee get marked was a dream come true. Just one more step to making her all mine. The last thing is getting my ring on her finger. And that isn’t very far off. Six months isn’t long compared to the lifetime we are going to spend together. I’m not paying attention to Mick. The guy working on my tattoo. He has done some of my work before so I’m not worried. My eyes are glued to Tank and Ailee. Not that I don’t trust him. I trust the man with my life and my girl. I just like seeing Ailee’s tattoo come to life. Merigold has customized all the tattoos for the ol’e ladies but this one Ailee put in her thoughts as well. Most ol’e ladies have the tattoo on their back or chest. Not my girl. She had Merigold make a gauntlet that starts from her wrist and goes about six inches up and wraps around her arm.
Ailee It has been a little over two years since I walked into the Reckless Renegades clubhouse looking for my father. In my wildest dreams could I have thought of all the changes in my life that have happened since that day. I am cancer free. I have my da in my life. I have gained more family members than I know what to do with but wouldn’t trade for anything in this world. I have an incredible, sexy as hell husband. We have two wonderful kids and are talking about adding a third. The O’Sullivan family is going strong. Grandda married Anna in a small ceremony after Lug and I got back from our honeymoon. I haven’t seen him that happy in a long time. Recently he has started training Lug and me to take over. He says he wants to retire to spend time with Anna and his great grandkids while he is still young enough to enjoy them. The O’Sullivan trafficking organization is unfortunately going strong. I say unfortunately because that means sex trafficking is still going strong as well. The
Lug Nut Our trip to Ireland was incredible. It started on the private plane Cormac chartered for us. The plane was huge and we had it all to ourselves except for the pilot and stewardess. And she pretty much left us alone. I think she was a little frightened of Ailee so she stayed away as much as possible. Both the pilot and stewardess addressed her as queen so they knew who she was. The plane was so large each seat and there were only eight was the size of an oversized recliner. And you could lay them back to a twin size bed to take a nap if you wanted to. It had a small kitchen with a mini stove, microwave and mini fridge. The part I liked the most was the full bathroom and bedroom. The pilot told us it would take at least ten hours to get to Dublin so I knew I was going to use that time wisely. While Ailee was talking to the pilot I asked the stewardess to make some snacks and bring some bottles of water to the room for us. Turns out Cormac had hooked us up and had champagne, str
Ailee After we got to the reception the first thing we did was pose for pictures. I wanted a bunch with everyone. My ma loved taking pictures. She said it helped preserve memories. So we could look back and remember our times together. I thought it was silly but we had fun so I never said anything. After she was gone those pictures became more important so I carried on taking pictures. And this is just another day I want to be able to look back on. I want to remember my grandda smiling and laughing with the club and members of our group. I want to remember Katrina giggling and playing with her cousins. I want to remember the kids running around like maniacs on a sugar high. I want to look back and remember the look of pure love in Tank’s eyes as he dances with Lilly. All those memories are a once in a lifetime shot so I have two photographers for the reception capturing as much as possible. I was talking with Gretchen when the D.J came over the mic “ Ladies and gentlemen please w
Lug Nut I’m in place at the front of the church with my best man Axel and groomsmen Rowdy and Tank. I can’t stop myself from looking around and thinking about the phone call I got earlier. I can’t believe Ailee was worried I wouldn’t show. Wild horses couldn’t stop me from coming today. I will admit a small part of me was worried Ailee would show. I kept thinking she would figure out that she was marrying down while I was marrying up. The church was decorated tastefully. The pews had fall leaves and ribbons on the end. There was an archway that I was standing under covered in leaves and the ribbons were the club colors. I wouldn’t think they would go together but they did. It was sweet that Ailee tried to include part of my life in the ceremony. But I should have expected anything less from her. I look out at our guests and see Ailee’s side is packed and overflowing to the side for my family. There are even people standing around the back and side. Some are guests, some are guards
Ailee I can’t believe this day is finally here. I’m getting married to my Lug. I’m going to be Mrs. Travis O’Sullivan-LeBlanc. I can’t help but giggle to myself. Last night was rough. Lug and I spent our first night away from each other since the night I went into the hospital over eight months ago. Grandda didn’t have a problem with us living together but he did say that we should spend the night before the wedding apart. You know the whole the groom can’t see the bride before the wedding thing. I wasn’t a fan of the suggestion but Lug thought we should go with grandda’s wishes. So I sucked it up for one night. Lug went to the clubhouse and Katrina and I stayed at the condo. I tossed and turned all night, not used to sleeping alone. So I got Katrina and brought her into bed with me so I could sleep. I know you aren’t supposed to do that but I was very cautious. The ol’e ladies came over early this morning to help me gather everything I needed to go to the church. Anna was meeting us
Lug Nut In two weeks I’m marrying the love of my life and I can’t wait. Part of me wishes we had just eloped and got it over with. I’m so ready to have Ailee carry my last name. But I know this ceremony is important to her and her family. And the wedding plans haven’t been that big of a deal. The wedding planned took care of most everything. I was worried what planning this wedding would do to Ailee. I didn’t want her stressing out. Or turning into a bridezilla horror story. But I should have had more faith in my girl. She was never going to turn into a bitch. But I’ll fill you in on the wedding when it gets here. Today is another important day. More for Ailee than me. I’m at the club with Katrina. Ailee is at the doctor for her six month check up. I wanted to go with her but Cormac, Callen and Finn were going. Anna and I agreed to stay with Katrina. I was at the house waiting for Ailee but I was going crazy just sitting there. I know Anna wasn’t doing much better. So when Merigold
Ailee Three weeks have passed since wee Katrina came into our lives. It has taken some adjusting and juggling schedules but we have made it work. With tons of help of course. We now have an extra bodyguard when we leave the house. Thanks to grandda, Mitch’s sole job is to protect Katrina when we go out. We are mafia. We have many enemies. Especially when we shut down a trafficking ring. So we are always careful. Lucky so far I haven’t been called on to the ice queen. I dread coming back to Katrina after doing that. I know Lug would take care of her while I come back to myself. I just don’t want her to see me like that. Not for a while at least. I won’t be able to keep it from her forever. But until she is much older I want to shield it from her. More changes is that Lug and I have had to be careful about making out wherever we want. We still kiss and hug in front of Katrina. She loves it. She giggles every time Lug kisses me and makes kisses faces so we have to give her kisses too
Lug Nut Ailee and Anna sat on the floor playing with Katrina. Cormac and I were sitting on the couch talking about what room we were going to change into a nursery. “ Anna, do you think it is too late to find a dress for Katrina for the wedding? Something that matches the flower girls.” Ailee asked. It was sweet that Ailee was trying to include Katrina. We could have dressed her up and had someone hold Katrina during the ceremony but that wasn’t enough for Ailee. She was trying to include as many family members as possible. She had Jace and Jax as mini ushers to be helped by Finn and Callen. Ford is too young to help out. Kadance, Kassidy and Alana as flower girls. Bastian is the ring bearer. Merigold, Lilly, Speed and Gretchen are bridesmaids. She has most of the club included in one way or another. Ailee hasn’t said it outright but I know she is doing most of it for me. She wants the wedding to be equal parts for both of us. I personally don’t care as long as at the end of the day
Ailee After breakfast we all went to the living room to chat. More Like Lug and I were talking grandda and Anna were focused on playing with Katrina. I was watching Katrina not that I would ever be worried about her with grandda. He helped raise me into the woman I am today so I know Katrina is in good hands. I’m also paying attention to the way Anna and grandda are behaving with each other. The easy Anna was snuggled up against Cormac’s side. Her head on his shoulder as they played with Katrina. The sweet smiles grandda keeps giving Anna. I know I saw something when I woke up in the cleanroom months ago but they avoided the question. Everything got busy after that and since I didn’t see them together I have forgotten what I had seen. But not anymore. I want answers this time. And I’m going to get them. “ Are you finally going to tell me what is going on with you two? Or do I need to investigate myself?” I asked. It is clear they are interested in each other. I think it is wond