Goof Five hours. Five long hours is how long Silvy has been in labor. For the first three hours, I had to watch my girl in pain and the was nothing I could do about it but hold her hand. As she headed into hour four the pain was too much and Silvy got an epidural. I held her as the doctor put a needle in her back. We had gone over it in birthing class and I knew it was one of Silvy’s wishes but it wasn’t easy to watch. I chose to lean my head down by Silvy’s ear and whisper words of encouragement instead. When the doctor was done Silvy was able to get some rest. DR. Ross our obstetrician said Silvy was going to need her strength for the next part. The delivery itself. When Silvy fell asleep Gena came in and told me the waiting room was filling up. Tony watched over Silvy while I went out there to give an update. When I got out there Meathead was waiting with Viper, Lilly, Tank, and Axel. I gave them a quick overview of what was going on so far which was pretty much waiting for the
Silvy Most would say that giving birth was the hard part. They are wrong . It was going to happen afterwards that is going to be the hard part. Goof and I have to figure out if we can parent together and make our relationship work. It is still in the beginning stages and when you add a new baby to the mix. Everything could go to hell and I could loose Goof and be a single parent. That was the original plan anyway. So it will be alright. I could do that. I still have everything in place for that to happen. But the lose of Goof and little Anthony’s, Ant for short, father. I will deal with that tomorrow. Right now I just want to hold my son again. Gena hasn’t brought him back yet. Mary helped me change out of my gown to a clean one after making sure all the birth fluids were cleaned off me i’m still pretty numb from the epidural.. Dad stepped outside while this was happening. I had just laid back down when Goof and my dad walked in. Goof came and sat beside me. “ Everyone says to cong
GoofAnthony has been home for two weeks now. I have never been so tired in my life. Silvy is taking on the majority of the work. For the first week Silvy was the only one feeding Ant because she refused to pump her milk. She said it was her job to feed the baby. I sat down with her and explained that I wanted to feed him too so I could bond with my son like she gets to. Silvy started pumping the next day. Silvy still only lets me feed him during the day. She does all the night time feedings. I have woken up several times to an empty bed only to find Silvy in the nursery rocking Ant both fast asleep. I put them both back to bed. I have asked why Silvy doesn't wake me up to help for the night time. You know what she told me? She told me since I still had club business and the dispensary to worry about she wanted to make sure I got plenty of sleep. So I started getting up with her until she agreed to let me handle a shift at night. That was all she was willing to gave. Yes, I still wor
Goof Our Anthony is two months old now. He stays up more and is more alert. Silvy and I have settled in to a working routine. And we are happy. Or I was. I love my son and my girl Silvy. I love them with everything in me. But today I need a break. Ant cried all day yesterday. No matter what Silvy did she couldn’t get him to stop for more than ten minutes. I tried myself but nothing worked. We both took turns through the night rocking him, trying to get him to eat, patting his back, Silvy even gas Ant gas medicine to try to help. Nothing worked. We were both exhausted. Silvy stayed downstairs in the living room so I could get some rest. I could still hear Ant through the night even if when I covered my ears with a pillow.I was only able to get a couple hours of sleep. When I woke up this morning I could hear Ant’s muffled cries though the closed door. What was wrong with that kid? I got up and checked the time. I had to be at the club in an hour for church. Fuck. I went to the bathr
Goof I’m at the club house in the afternoon relaxing with my brothers. I was having a beer, playing pool and catching up. It has been a day and a half since I left Silvy’s house. I have slept most of the time I was gone if I wasn’t working. Man, I needed it. I feel so much better and I’m not at risk of falling asleep at work. I was at the table talking with Rowdy waiting for my turn at the pool table when Lilly an Tank walked in. They made a bee line for me. Tank helped Lilly sit down before going to the bar to get them a drink. Once he had their drinks and was seated Lilly asked “ Goof, is Ant any better today?” “ What are you talking about?” I asked her. Did Silvy tell her that Ant has been crying for days? They are close friends. “ Oh, is it Silvy that is sick?” Tank asked. “ Huh?” I questioned. I have no clue what they are talking about. They look at each other then back to me. “ We saw Silvy with Ant at the emergency room yesterday so we thought one of them might be sick.” Lil
Goof When I heard Silvy’s voice coming the living room I felt two things. Thrilled that she was willing to talk to me and concern that I may have woken her up. I’ll make the sleep up to her I vow to myself. Even if I have to stay up with Ant for two days so Silvy I will do it. I will deal with that later. I need to talk to Silvy, beg and get her to take me back. Lilly was right when she said that Silvy didn’t need me. I needed her. I know there is a list of men as long as my arm that would love to take my place. They are just waiting for me to screw up. I can name five off the top of my head. Dez, Lilly’s drummer, for one and I’m sure Lilly would help them hook up. Casper has shown interest. Two doctors at the hospital and a male nurse. I’m sure if I looked into it there are more guys. Silvy having a baby with me will not be a problem for any guy that knows and wants Silvy. They would gladly step and to be a dad to Anthony. It is up to me to make sure that doesn’t happen. In place
GoofWhen Silvy held Ant she was looking at me. She said the words that made it possible for me to breath normally again. “ Daddy is home.” Some of the best words I have ever heard. Gena walked in with a bottle for Ant handing it to me. “Figured it was you turn.” Gena said then walked away. I had forgotten she was here until now. My entire being was focused on Silvy. I got up from the floor and got on the couch to sit next to Silvy. I was so close I could have sat on her lap but didn’t. Silvy carefully handed Ant over to me so I could feed him. As soon as he was in my arms I held him to my chest as tight as I could with out hurting him. “ Yeah buddy, daddy is home. And he is going to stay that way.” I told him. It felt so good to have him back in my arms. The only thing better would be if I had an arm around Silvy as well. How was I so stupid to let this go? Never again. When Ant started to fuss I knew it was time to give him his bottle. I pulled him from my chest and cradled him so
GoofSilvy said yes. I was getting my girl. Finally. I wrap my arms around my family careful not to squish Ant and hold them. Just for a minute. You are probably wondering why my brothers and sister are coming over to congratulate us. It is because asking her to marry me wasn’t the only surprise I have for Silvy. I let go of my family and stand up since I am still on my knees. I sat beside them on the bench and place my arm around Silvy’s shoulder. I see the ol’e ladies coming from behind Silvy with smiles on there faces. “ Babe, could you wrap Ant up and give him to someone.” I said. I told her someone because there is always a pair of arms waiting to hold any of the Reckless kids and Ant is no exception. Silvy looks confused but fixes Ant’s blanket. As soon as it is done Gretchen comes forward. “ It is my turn to hold the sweet boy.” she said taking Ant from Silvy. Merigold steps forward with a white tee-shirt box. I know my brother, prospects, Tony, Gena and Xavier are watching. J