LACY
My world instantly froze. I stood there with the expression of shock cemented on my face. I couldn't believe what I just heard but then again considering who said it I shouldn't have been so astonished. At the end of the day, I already knew the entire sham of a marriage was just some business deal but I didn't realize to what extent the deal carried forth.
I could feel my blood running cold and I knew my tanned skin now probably resembled a ghost, with its pale white color, rather than a human being. I felt calm but at the same time furious. It didn't take a genius to figure out why I was furious but I was also calm because I needed to hear a full explanation and not blow a gasket just by hearing one sentence.
I inhaled deeply, closed my eyes, and counted to ten in my head as I slowly let out a steady breath, allowing my eyes to flutter open once again. What was I expecting anyway? For him to tell me
LACYMy head ached. My body ached. My limbs ached. But most of all my heart ached. I didn't think my heart could ache anymore after I felt the pain of Lucifer leaving me but I was sadly mistaken because I felt a much deeper ache at my father's actions. My father's neglect, his deceit, and his discrepancies still had me in utter shock. They say that there were five steps to grieving and one of them being denial but I don't think that step could ever come because I knew full well what my father was capable of doing but I thought he drew the line at doing it to family.I guess I thought wrong!Last night, after I blurted out to Axel what his best friend had done, he stormed out of the bar and I could only assume he went to confront Brian. Whereas I decided to give up on my need to consume alcohol and headed home. By home I meant Macy's house since the house I grew up in didn't feel like home anymore.
LACYI didn't consider the fact that Lucifer would be here. It was stupid of me to forget the possibility of me running into him especially since Rose meant everything to him and I knew that. My mind had been so concentrated on telling Rose the good news that everything else just seemed so unimportant.There didn't seem to be enough oxygen in the room. With the lack of oxygen paired with my mouth running so dry as if I hadn't had anything to drink in months, a nauseous feeling settled in. My stomach began to twist in knots, turning and clenching, making me want to throw up the contents of my breakfast. I felt cold droplets of sweat trickle down my face.I wasn't scared of him. I knew he wouldn't physically hurt me but I couldn't take another one of his verbal beatings no matter how much I deserved it. I knew I hurt him but if he looked into my eyes he would see how much I was hurting as well. After one ent
LACY "Dear Lord, forgive me for I am about to sin," I muttered under my breath as multiple ways to eliminate both my father and Brian drifted into my head.Macy shot me a glare before pinching my thigh, "Pay attention and try not to disturb everyone else around you," Her voice was a low, harsh whisper that only I could hear.I rolled my eyes but decided to take her advice. I didn't want to be the first person to get kicked out of Sunday morning mass. With that being said, I couldn't stop the death glares that I kept shooting toward my father and Brian who sat a few rows in front of Macy's family and me.Macy kept drifting off to sleep during the service. She disappeared again last night with no hint of where she could be going. She also returned at four in the morning and spent nearly an hour in the shower. I didn't want to pry into her business but it was clear as daylight that something
LACYI didn't double over in shock. A wave of sadness never overcame me. My heart remained beating at a steady, continuous pace. Tears refused to well up in my eyes. My hands and jaw laid limply, as clenching them would be of no use.But in reality, having an emotional breakdown or shedding a few tears here and there was of no use. Hearing the words that so easily spilled out of his mouth didn't shock me. I anticipated it because it was the only logical thing that made sense.Of course, that didn't substantiate his rude, intolerable behavior toward me. It didn't substantiate the way he blew me off as if I were something out of a garbage heap my whole life. It didn't substantiate why he decided to practically sell me like a God damn online bride.The only emotion that coursed through my body was confusion. How could a man that wasn't my father have similar features to mine? Did that mean my
LACYPulling myself out of bed was hard to do considering the lack of sleep I attained. After talking to Macy and aunt Coral, I shunted off to bed in hopes of getting some sleep. All hope diminished when I realized that the sleep would never take me because there was just too much on my mind.I couldn't just stare at the ceiling the whole night so I decided to work on my project. I couldn't help but wonder what Lucifer would think if he knew I had been writing a novel about him. He would probably hate the idea especially since he was such a private person when it came to his personal endeavors but recently he had been full of surprises.This book felt like my own personal diary filled with all my emotions. Every encounter Lucifer and I ever shared had been jotted down, even some of my personal story had been jotted down because who could refuse the gossip of a millionaire's daughter all wrapped up in a pre
DYLANI tried to forget her. I tried to pretend as if she never existed but the more I tried not to think about her, the more she drifted into my mind. My life meant nothing if she weren't in it. A part of me seized to exit the moment I allowed myself to believe that Lacy Black never existed.I had no idea what possessed me to kiss her in front of the man she would be entering an alliance with but I knew the way she reacted would prove whether she wanted him to be in her life or not. A blind man could have seen how ecstatic I was when she didn't push me away.She weakened my heart when she showed such selfless love toward a girl who was nothing to her but a stranger. She treated Baby B as a little sister or just the way I did. It made me feel proud of her, she would make the perfect mother one day and I knew she would be the perfect mother to my children and not that fucking prick's seeds.
LACYThe week sped by. I didn't expect it to fly by as quick as it did because usually the week dragged on at a snail's pace but what they say proved to be true, time did fly when you were having fun. I just wished it hadn't meant only one more week of freedom for me. Only one more week before I probably made the biggest mistake of my entire existence.The past week consisted of Lucifer taking Rose to school every morning before heading to work and me picking her up after school. I made sure to get her to Malik's safely. I also made certain that she bathed, ate, and did her homework before sitting and watching all of her favorite movies.I was always relieved of my duties way too early when Lucifer's mother would come in to take care of her. I didn't trust her alone with Rose mainly because she was an ex-convict but Lucifer had told me to give her a chance. He had been working things out with the woman so
LACYI was grateful that Lucifer agreed to leave that suffocating place before we even entered. I also felt on top of the world knowing that I was the first and only girl he had ever taken out on a date. He radiated nervousness but he tried to put up a calm exterior. I wanted to reassure him that this date would go just fine but how could I reassure him of this if I wasn't certain myself."So, where are you taking me?" I couldn't help the curiosity that crept in. I did tell him that I would prefer a burger and fries but seeing the extent of his stress showing on his face, I figured he might just forget.He spared me a side glance before training his eyes back onto the road ahead, "Not somewhere as fancy as before but I think you might like it." A small smile overtook his face to which I found myself swooning over. It seemed as if he smiled unconsciously since he stared at the road, deep in thought.