DYLAN
"Baby B, this is for you," I told the little six year old as I handed her a stuffed baby bop toy.
Baby B was the little girl I stayed with at the foster home the state dumped me in at the age of twelve. The day I turned eighteen I had to leave her all alone with those fucked up monsters.
She was a pale skinned six year old with rosy cheeks. She missed two front teeth and every time she smiled she showed off her dimples that were indented in her cheeks. Her eyes, pure blue and sad. Sad from losing both her parents and now sad from losing me.
I called her Baby B because she loved Baby Bop from Barney. I always found those dinosaurs the most creepiest shit I'd ever seen but if it made her happy then it made me happy.
"Big brother, promise me you will visit," Baby B asked as a tear escaped her innocent eyes.
I swallowed hard and nodded, trying to seem convincing. I knew these people wouldn't allow me to visit the only person I had ever actually cared about, the only person I thought I could truly love.
"I promise, Rose," I hooked my pinky finger with hers, "and you have to promise to always keep Baby Bop with you."
She kissed my cheek and said, "Promise!"
Then the monsters dragged her away from me. I screamed. I shouted. I wanted to take her with me. But I couldn't.
I woke up drenched in sweat. It wasn't the first time I dreamt of Rose, Baby B. I hadn't seen her in three years. They never allowed me near her. I missed her. Fuck, I missed that kid. She always seemed to brighten up the most fucked up of days.
My phone indicated that it was still early in the morning. One in the morning to be exact. I groaned as I got out of bed and headed to the kitchen for a glass of water.
I tried to be as quiet as I possibly could. After all, I did share an apartment with someone else who attended college with me. I wouldn't refer to him as a friend because I didn't have much of those but he wasn't too bad. He was tolerable, to say the least. He never minded my business and I never minded his and I liked it that way. I liked being alone, by myself. Probably because I was so accustomed to it.
I made my way back to bed, tossing and turning for a bit before finding a comfortable position while I let sleep cloud my mind, blocking every thought I had.
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"Fuck!" I groaned, grabbing the pillow to sandwich my head in between the pillow and the mattress.
The sun shone brightly through the open curtains in my room. I shut my eyelids tightly trying to ignore its harsh rays but to no avail.
"Wake up dick! You know Malik will skin you alive if you are late again," Conner said calmly but his words were laced with warning. He accompanied his calm words with a brutal pounding on my bedroom door that was sure to break the door if he continued.
I groaned as I got out of bed and opened my room door. Conner, my ever so lovely roommate, was a morning person. Whilst I couldn't wait to start sipping on my first cup off coffee for the day. However, I knew he was right and Malik would surely fire me for coming to work late yet again. I seemed to always turn up late whenever I had the morning shift because of my lack of sleep. My body knew I needed eight hours of sleep but my brain decided that three would be more sufficient.
After my morning ritual of bathroom duties were conducted I got dressed into my plain black shirt, pants, and boots and then tied a black apron around my waist. Malik was a stickler for wearing the stupid apron because it was part of the uniform. The uniform looked just fine without the ugly apron though, but I needed the job so I wore it nonetheless.
Okay, so maybe I was a bit embarrassed about the apron even though there was no reason for me to be.
I usually walked to work but if I was really late I would hail a cab, however, that also depended on when my shifts were. Sometimes, like today, I was forced to miss morning classes because I really needed the job to keep up with my share of the rent.
Good thing for me that my entire college tuition was paid for by a basketball scholarship.
With my time being spent on working, studying, and still practicing with the team, I had no God damn time for myself. I had no fucking time to go see the little girl I made a promise to and that ate me up inside everyday. Not only did I have no time but when I did somehow find an opening to see her I couldn't because they would keep me away. They moved her out of the foster home she shared with me to only God knows where and they refused to tell me.
I couldn't help but wonder how much she must have changed over the years, how tall she must have grown. Her two missing teeth must have grown in and I wondered how they looked. I was almost certain more of her milk teeth had fallen out considering how many toffee sweets she could gobble down in a matter of minutes.
"Reed, you're late. Again!" Malik chastised as he quirked an eyebrow in my direction.
"I know, Malik. It's been a hectic morning," a defeated sigh escaped my lips.
Malik patted my back in understanding, "We all have those days. Now get to work!"
With a curt nod, I stood behind the counter to man the till of the now busy coffee shop. The morning rush made me more exhausted than I already was and that dream made me uneasy.
The only way I would be able to concentrate was if I went to see her. I had to see the kid to make sure that she was okay. She had no one else after all. I protected her and she kept me somewhat sane in the insane world I lived in. After all this time apart from her I still felt a strange connection to her. I knew what foster homes where like and I witnessed so many girls being damaged all for the sake of money. I vowed to protect her but I let her down. She probably hated me for not even keeping one simple promise.
After my shift ended at the coffee shop, I got a cab to college. I made it just in time for my last class which I was grateful for. Most of the students still lingered the hallways, chattering away. I spotted the team busy flirting with a bunch of girls near the gym.
What's new there?
That was their daily routine and generally, I would have been along side them because believe it or not, most girls were so easy that it didn't take me five seconds to get them to drop their panties for me in a restroom stall.
"Bro, did you make it on time today?" Conner yelled when he spotted me stalking toward them.
"No, was late again!"
"Sorry, bro. I tried to get you up but you sleep like you're dead," Conner's laugh was drowned out by the sound of a wailing siren, signaling the start of a new class.
All the students disbursed in their own directions. I turned on my heels and headed straight to my class. Not that I actually paid much attention. I hid behind a... Healthy... guy who blocked my entire figure from the view of the lecturer.
The entire time, I tried my utmost best to get a hold of the social worker on Rose's case but I got nowhere with that. It just left me even more uneasy with a dash of frustration. They were getting so fed up with me calling and pestering them that they began ignoring my phone calls altogether. They couldn't understand why I cared so much for the little girl but their first thought drifted to me having ill intentions toward her, which was the furthest from the truth.
Although I knew this, it never stopped me from trying to find her, and I would find her. Somehow, I just knew I would!
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"Get your head in the game!" Mike, the captain of the basketball team, yelled as he passed the ball to me and he was right.
I had to concentrate at least now since I needed this scholarship. Being one of the best players on the team meant that everyone, especially coach relied on me. If my attention kept drifting off into space, I would be letting everyone down, including myself.
The whistle sounded signifying the end of practice. Some of the guys chilled on the sidelines flexing and smiling at any gullible female who would make an easy lay. The bleachers were always filled with hormonal girls watching the team practice. They would distract so many players that coach would have to chase the giggling bunch of girls away.
Usually, I would have joined my teammates but today I wasn't feeling it. Today I just wanted to sit at home, drink a nice, cold beer, and maybe catch some sleep. That was if I could actually get to sleep without waking up every hour because of a nightmare. Sometimes I couldn't help but think avoiding sleep altogether would be better than suffering from my recurring night terrors.
"Bro, you need a ride home?" Conner beamed while wrapping an arm around the waist of a blonde.
He looked like he was in for a fun night and I wasn't about to ruin it for him so I shook my head.
I was perfectly fine with walking home. I didn't have enough money saved up to buy a car just yet but a few more shifts at the coffee shop and I'd have enough to take Conner's GTO off his hands. Anyway, it was still bright and California wasn't the deadliest place to be. There were places that were sketchy like the alleyways but this was no 'Hell's Kitchen'.
Conner and I had an agreement that we would never bring any girls to the apartment because that was our place and we didn't need any 'clingy bitches' –according to him –hanging around us so I was certain he wasn't coming home tonight.
I took my time, strolling, taking in the fresh air, and leaving my mind completely blank. I was tired of thinking. I needed to stop.
Deciding to cut through the park on the way to the apartment for the scenic view wasn't the most ideal thing to do because that's when I saw something that practically made my blood boil. I had a short temper which was already difficult to control. People said I needed help to get rid of my so called anger problems but I liked the fact that people stayed away from me. If I became a friendly person then people would take advantage of me.
I found a tree to hide behind and listened to the altercation that was taking place until I couldn't remain silent anymore.
LACY "It's over, Brian," I gritted through clenched teeth, trying to use an inside voice.I had asked him to meet me here, in the park, because I didn't want us to blow out into a full blown argument about this. I figured a public place would prevent him from acting like a fully fledged psychopath."The fuck it is, Lacy," he yelled so loud that I jumped back in shock. My back collided with the hard, scaly bark of a tree, "This is over when I say it's over!"I swallowed the bile rising in my throat and mustered every bit of self confidence that I had before I said, "Oh, so I'm supposed to marry you even though you're out here being a male tramp!" My posture straightened as a sudden boost of courage and adrenaline coursed through my veins. I might be a woman but that didn't make me weak.Hell no!I stared Brian down until, to me, he seemed like a little
LACYI scanned the small room. A double bed sat in the middle of the room with an oak headboard and pedestals. The bed was dressed neatly with a black and gold duvet but no throw pillows. He had floor to ceiling built in cupboards and even those were black with gold trimming. Dark black curtains hung over the windows stopping the harsh rays of the sun from protruding in. The floor boards were shinned till it could show someone's reflection but even those too were black.Was everything in this dark stranger's life black? He had a picture frame on the left hand side pedestal. I propped myself up on my elbows and analysed the picture.It was him, in his black attire, with a girl. A small girl around the age of five or six. He was carrying her on his back. The girl missed two front teeth which made her smile the most angelic thing I had ever seen, paired with the deep dimples on her
DYLANI rubbed my eyes furiously with one hand. My other hand seemed to be weighted down by something or maybe that part of my body hadn't woken up yet.I opened my eyes and took in my surroundings. White curtains hung from ceiling to floor draping over an extremely long window. The ceiling above the bed was black with silver stars decorating it, giving it the appearance of a cloudless night's sky. The comforter I was under was white with purple butterflies and pink flowers.And then I looked to the side and saw what weighted my hand down.There slept a beautiful, crimson haired beauty with her voluptuous breasts pressing against my body.I must have fucked her last night. Why else would I be naked in her bed? But I did't remember jack shit about what happened.Ever since she left the apartment she was all I could think about.
LACY"Hopeless! This is hopeless!" I whined, attempting to fit into one of the many dresses Macy owned. I hadn't been home since the day I called the engagement off. I've been trying to ignore my mother's phone calls and messages but she made it so difficult."Squeeze your fat ass into something!" Macy demanded as she fought the zipper of the dress, struggling to close it, "Who asked you to be so curvy? Damn you, woman!"Macy was as thin as a stick. If the wind blew strong enough I could have probably tied a string to her and flown her as a kite. However, her beauty made her fit to be a supermodel. She never thought she would meet the grade, her self confidence lacked in that way but I could see what she couldn't. I could see the beautiful, strong woman she had become over the years. "You think anyone in church would notice if I only zipped the dress halfway up?" She backed awa
LACYLucifer's eyes raked my body, taking in my ghastly appearance. I caught a glimpse of myself in the reflection of the shop's windows earlier. My mascara was smudged in black lines running down my face and my eye-shadow smudged into one big black ring around my eyes. My short hair that never seemed to be in a disarray somehow decided it would be appealing to stand on its ends. The dress I wore still looked presentable while my bare feet looked far from it.His eyes stopped at my bare feet and an arrogant smirk played on the rigid features of his face. He held his hand out holding a rectangular box wrapped in gift wrap.Unless he was stalking me, there was no way of him to know that my birthday was only a few days from now. I skeptically took the box from his hands and inspected it. The wrapping was neatly done with only a few pieces of tape used and Lucifer didn't look like the patient type to sit and w
LACYI stood at the main entrance of the huge ballroom that was located in the left wing of the massive house owned by my parents. My date was cutely dressed in a navy blue suit, with a white dress shirt. He accompanied it with a red bow tie and pocket square to match and white chucks. I smiled looking down and the combination. It might have sounded off but it looked very, very dashing in my eyes.Sean, my eight year old brother, took my hand in his and showed off his pearly whites with the most adorable, innocent smile.Dean, Sean's twin, stood with Macy. From the moment my twin brothers could walk, Macy and I always made them accompany us as our dates to our so called 'birthday parties'. They, being the spawn of satan himself, always did it for a price.I did say that they were con artists!Dean wore a full black tux with a classic white dress shirt and
DYLANI placed her onto the bed. I didn't want to pull away from her but I had to. I had to lock my bedroom door. Conner and I agreed that we wouldn't bring any women back here but I brought her here twice now. To me, she was worth breaking every rule in the book for.I couldn't describe the feeling I got when I was near her. Just a simple touch of her soft, delicate skin sent waves of electricity through my body.The moment I closed and locked the door, I turned around and took in the sight of her on my bed. She looked so fucking fuckable in that dress she wore. She showed so much of her bare, tantalizing skin. I wanted to kiss her everywhere, to worship her entire body.I walked over to her, her gaze glued to mine. Hovering over her, I let my eyes slowly travel her body. I wanted to rip that dress right off her and God knows I could.Instead, I just buried
LACY"You're a piece of shit, you know that?" Macy said as she straddled me on the bed, pinning me down. She was thin but she was also strong. She didn't have a black belt in karate for no reason. Her hands and feet could literally be classified as lethal weapons."Could you get off me?""No! Not until you tell me about mister tall, dark and mysterious.""There's nothing to tell Mace," I groaned, trying to wiggle out of her hold."Sure there isn't. You stayed the night there and didn't tell anyone.""Because I didn't have a phone.""That's no excuse, Lacy Black! Anyway, tell me what you both did! PLEASE!" she prolonged the please and fluttered her puppy dog eyes at me."Nothing special. We slept," I began, "But I took the bed and he took the floor.""I don't believe you.""Well, that's wha
LACYMy phone buzzing woke me up from my midday nap. Macy's name flashed across the screen causing me to jump out of bed and run to the door of the apartment, nearly slipping on the hardwood floors and falling flat on my face. I steadied myself and waited for my breathing and heart rate to go back to their normal pace before opening the door. She probably tried knocking but I was so fast asleep that I hadn't heard.My cousin stood there wearing her formal work attire, a white blouse paired with a red pencil skirt and white heels. In her hand, she carried a thick stack of papers. Her face wore a gleeful smile as I stared at her in anticipation. I had been expecting her for a while, the agitation getting to me."Well, is it good news or bad?" I nervously asked, ushering her into the apartment.It had been nearly two months since the day Lucifer had kidnapped me. I had been staying at his apa
DYLANI paced back and forth outside my room door. By the time I brought her to my apartment she had fallen into a deep slumber. Her forehead creased with worry and her lips remained in a permanent frown as she purred away in her sleep. Now and then she would whisper some incoherent words in her unconscious state, words that were probably meant to cuss me out for what I had done to her.My plan worked though. She wasn't going to marry the asshole and she could be with me. I didn't care how psychotic or mentally unstable I sounded, I just needed her to be with me, to be mine and only mine.It was strange that she didn't taste the bitterness of the two sleeping pills that I had mixed into her water. She chugged the liquid down so fast that she probably didn't even taste the horrible tablets. I was relieved for that and even more relieved when they worked faster than I had expected. Too bad they never worked
LACYThere were too many unnecessary people cluttering me as I got myself ready for my wedding. We were all stuffed into one of the small rooms that the church had allowed us to use as a dressing room. There was a girl situated behind me that focused solely on my hair while another stood in front of me and focused on my makeup. I had a white, silk gown wrapped around me so that when everyone was done messing with my face I could just slip into my gorgeous wedding dress.The door to the tiny room creaked open and Macy came rushing in with her dress in hand. Her hair had been curled and pinned to one side. She wore minimal makeup which made me cringe due to the dark, raccoon-like circles around her eyes. When she tried to speak nothing but a massive yawn came out making her look like some kind of thin hippopotamus. She ended up just waving at me before slouching into a chair next to me with a grim expression plastered on her
LACY"Uncle Ray?" I quirked an eyebrow at the suspicious way he and my father stared at me. I knew I interrupted something and that something probably concerned me or else their faces would not have paled so drastically.It was nothing but weird being in their presence. I called Ray my uncle when he was my father and I called Jackson my father when he was my uncle. Could my life get any more messed up?"Lacy, it has been a while," my father's younger brother finally responded with a curt nod before taking a swig of champagne to probably calm his nerves."That it has," I calmly agreed, trying to reduce some of the growing tension, "Can we talk in private?" I smiled sweetly as I gestured to my father standing next to him with my eyes.He offered me a tight smile, "Sure."I led him out of the ballroom since the conversation we were about to have was meant to
LACYEveryone rushed around in a haste to get the massive ballroom at my parents' house ready for the rehearsal dinner that would take place in a few hours. I walked around the mansion of a house trying to recall pleasant memories but only a hand full came to mind, however, none of those memories included my so-called father.A memory vividly flashed through my mind as I strolled past the library. I use to be an avid reader growing up. That was basically how I began writing as well. With all the reading I did, my imagination never seemed to stop working. Matter of fact, my imagination worked overtime and writing became a breeze but sometimes I couldn't help but wish the world we lived in be similar to the world I read and wrote about.Every day, every God-forsaken day, I use to wake up and wished that I had the love of both my parents. I would have traded all the wealth they had for their love but at the s
DYLANI don't know why I didn't just knock before entering or just ask her if she wanted something to eat or drink through the door but I didn't regret walking in to find her in only a matching pair of red lace bra and panties. The lingerie paired with the black heels she wore woke every part of me, especially my dick which twitched excessively in my pants.When she willingly sat on the bed and allowed those dirty, seductive words to fall from her lips all hell broke loose inside of me. I knew I was being rough when I grabbed her by her thighs and pulled her to the edge of the bed but I didn't care. The moan that escaped her proved that she didn't seem to mind either. She was desperate for me the way I was desperate for her but I needed to know that she wasn't going to regret this later on."Are you sure you're okay with this?" I asked softly, so softly that I internally hoped that she didn't hear me so sh
LACYHe leaned in, placing his rough, calloused hand on the burning hot skin of my cheek. This was what I had been waiting for the entire night. I needed to feel his soft, delicious lips on my own to cool the burning desire that simmered inside of me. We were parked outside Macy's house. We had been parked here for about five minutes just getting lost in each other's eyes, both of us deliberating who would make the first move. It was always so easy for us but this was different. Neither one of us wanted to foil this night because it held a special kind of importance.I leaned into his touch, the warmth drawing me in. This needed to be perfect. It didn't matter if it wasn't our first kiss but it would be the perfect end to an amazing first date. I watched as his pink tongue darted out of the corner of his mouth and swiped across his bottom
LACYI was grateful that Lucifer agreed to leave that suffocating place before we even entered. I also felt on top of the world knowing that I was the first and only girl he had ever taken out on a date. He radiated nervousness but he tried to put up a calm exterior. I wanted to reassure him that this date would go just fine but how could I reassure him of this if I wasn't certain myself."So, where are you taking me?" I couldn't help the curiosity that crept in. I did tell him that I would prefer a burger and fries but seeing the extent of his stress showing on his face, I figured he might just forget.He spared me a side glance before training his eyes back onto the road ahead, "Not somewhere as fancy as before but I think you might like it." A small smile overtook his face to which I found myself swooning over. It seemed as if he smiled unconsciously since he stared at the road, deep in thought.
LACYThe week sped by. I didn't expect it to fly by as quick as it did because usually the week dragged on at a snail's pace but what they say proved to be true, time did fly when you were having fun. I just wished it hadn't meant only one more week of freedom for me. Only one more week before I probably made the biggest mistake of my entire existence.The past week consisted of Lucifer taking Rose to school every morning before heading to work and me picking her up after school. I made sure to get her to Malik's safely. I also made certain that she bathed, ate, and did her homework before sitting and watching all of her favorite movies.I was always relieved of my duties way too early when Lucifer's mother would come in to take care of her. I didn't trust her alone with Rose mainly because she was an ex-convict but Lucifer had told me to give her a chance. He had been working things out with the woman so