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Racing Desires 94. Security
Dean's POV:*****8 days later*****The last eight days have nearly all been the same procedure, as soon as the pain was getting too bad, she was being sedated again. In the last two days, they've been taking the dose down a lot, and I slowly have the feeling she's coming around and catching on to the things I tell her. Her heart rate goes up when either I or Sean come into the room.I was a bit more relieved when the security arrived on the second day. They all had to register personally with me and sign a confidentiality agreement to never let anyone know about Kiara. I keep a close eye on them, so no one can just sneak into that team. No one is allowed to enter this room without being controlled and approved of. I even tried to reduce the amount of nurses and doctors allowed in here if there isn't an emergency. There's no risking anything anymore.Watching her in so much pain has been killing me every time. I think next to seeing her nearly die, this was the worst part. But she's al
Racing Desires 95. Trust
Kiara's POV:*****4 Days later*****Dean has been trying his hardest to convince me of his love the last four days. At the moment, I'm not quite sure what to believe. My heart wants to believe him so badly, but my trust in people has been shredded to pieces in the last couple of months. Brad, Nora, my parents, Dean, they have all shredded it.There's no doubt I miss and love him so much. We're going to be parents. But can I look past what happened with Nadine? He keeps on telling me there's a reason for all of this, and I'm to trust him. Then again, he doesn't give me a single clue on what's going on. Or what exactly happened between him and Nadine.My mind is going in circles, going between what my heart wants and the toxic things that have happened, which I definitely don't want. Apparently, it's too early to tell me anything about the whole thing going on. What does it mean when he says it was all fake? Did he still have sex with her? What did they do together? These and many more
Racing Desires 96. Missed calls
Dean's POV:Am I really driving her insane? Or was it just an excuse for her to make me go for lunch without rushing back to her. Damn, I know she thinks I'm totally over the top. Perhaps she does need to know the full story to fully understand.On the other hand, I don't want to freak her out even more in this situation. At first, I thought I'd tell her directly, and Tyler has been pestering me about it a lot, too. But then I went back to my original plan, sorting it all out before telling her. She can be calmer if she knows there's nothing to fear anymore. Right now, she's quite fearless even after having that crash. But once she knows the full extent of this, she'll realize why I'm freaking out.The last thing she needs right now is to freak out. It would be dangerous for her health and the babies.Poking my favourite pasta, I can't help but think about the time I took Kiara here. Something I need to do far more often in the future. That's if she can forgive me. Every day, I'm bat
Racing Desires 97. Playing roles
Dean's POV:We've been driving around for hours, but there's no hint what so ever of her. Tyler checked all the possibilities, and to a certain extent, he was able to follow the ambulance but then lost track of it. All eyes from her racing gang are out here looking for her, too. Brad went nearly insane when the news reached him. Even if he's done so wrong, I know he does care for her, which doesn't mean I like it, but I can understand it.The police are trying, but honestly, they're doing shit. In the meantime, we've got a crew of thirty security guards out there looking for her, too. Tyler is trying to find out if he can find any file documenting a property they might have taken her, anything bought or rented. Probably more likely on the outskirts, something run down perhaps where no one would check. A secluded area. The problem is that they probably won't be that stupid to use their own name. So he's also trying to check out if he can find any way of checking any buildings matching
Racing Desires 98. Story of my life
Dean's POV:The moment Kiara got the message about me being at Tyler's when Tyler was with her, it was actually a coincidence for him to be there with her. In reality, I was simply stuck drinking my brains away, not being able to bear the distance I had to put between us. I knew I had to break up with her anyway to keep her safe until my master plan would have worked, but yet it was unbearable. Every thought was spiralling at the time and still is.Nadine was right when she said it had to happen. But I didn't want Kiara to really believe I was cheating on her. Because that is something I would have never done to her. I would have done anything to prevent her from hurting that bad. And yet Nadine set up her masterplan with that photo and the interview. She knew I was too in love to really break it up myself.So Nadine made sure we would break up with that fucking magazine idea. It was killing me so much, that I couldn't even bear to go into Kiara's bed that night, knowing how broken s
Racing Desires 99. Craziness
Kiara's POV:Mother in law? I only know Gale, who's his father's girlfriend. Could this be Dean's real mother? He never talked about her, and I've never seen a picture of her anywhere before. Somehow, I always presumed she might be dead, and it's something touchy for him. But obviously, she isn't. At least it explains why she seems so familiar to me.My eyes start clearing up more and more, which is also bringing back the pain even stronger."Please, I need something against the pain." I plead, trying to keep my tears back as I don't want to show too much weakness. Which obviously is ridiculous thinking about the state I'm in, not being able to move an inch by myself. So much for showing weakness."Oh, but where is the fun in that? I'm sorry, my dear, but the only way to make my son suffer is to make you suffer. This is the sole reason you're here. Do you have any idea how many years I've waited to see him suffer, the way he made me suffer?" Her voice is ever so soft, sweet, and overl
Racing Desires 100. Pain
Kiara's POV:"Logan, why are you going along with all of this? I thought you liked me? I thought we were kinda friends?" This is the thing which shocks me the most, I guess. The second I recognized his voice earlier, I was shocked to the core."You chose the wrong brother, I'd say." I gasp at the word brother. "If you had been mine like I wanted, then none of this would have happened to you. You know I really liked you. You are different from all the other girls. But no, my little brother gets everything as usual. He had Nadine, ok I managed to take that away from him. He has all the money, the fame, the girls, the company and he's even my fucking boss. Taking you on top after all what he did to our mother was simply enough."For a moment I'm speechless and that's a new for me. "You're brother?" I ask in disbelief. Why did Dean never mention anything of this to me? It's not just because of Nadine cheating on him, he wanted me away from Logan. There was way more to it than I could have
Racing Desires 101. Freaking out
Dean's POV:It's been three fucking days since Kiara has been abducted, without any kind of trace of her. Mr Cole apparently has been on a business trip for four days already. There's no trace of my fuck up of brother or my mother whatsoever.All along, I knew I couldn't trust Logan. My dad tried to take some sort of care fairly early of him as he felt bad for Logan. Yes, Logan's father was a loser, and we had a fucked-up mother, but the older we grew, the more Logan's hate towards me grew. My dad tried to give him everything, and yet he always envied what I had. He never saw how hard I worked for things. For him, I was just a lucky child who had everything and was someone who took his mother away.I knew he was involved in this somehow, I just didn't know to what extent. That's why I wanted Kiara to stay away from him even more, besides him wanting her anyway. And I knew someone was passing on information to Mr Cole, which I was quite sure to be him. Fuck, if I had done something aga
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Racing Desires Epilogue part 3 THE END
****12 years later****Dean's POV:"Dad, why the fuck am I not allowed to go to the party?" Phoebe whines and there's no doubt where she's got her language from."Because I said no. You're seventeen. You're not going to some party where the guys are just waiting to get you drunk and do things with you." "Damn dad, I'm seventeen and a half, so in half a year, I'm legal and can do whatever I want. Besides, you know exactly I can't do shit. You'll know exactly what I'm doing anyway.""Yes, the last time I had to see you kiss some guy as newest tweet from some stupid tabloid. And I'm sure not having that again." For years, I hated the media showing so much interest in our kids. Now, for the first time, I can see the perks of it as our kids can't do shit without us not knowing. Or them at least being afraid of getting caught."Damn, it was just a kiss. I didn't fuck him or anything. He didn't even touch me.""If he had, he'd be a dead man by now." I grit out, not even wanting to think abou
Racing Desires Epilogue part 2
**** 3,5 years later****Kiara's POV:From my shaded place at the pool, I take a glance over to my husband. The way his muscles flex along his broad worked out shoulders is ever so delicious. God, how can someone look so incredibly good and mouth-watering? He turns around, and his toned chest and abs are right on view for me. The way his wet shorts cling to his body showing every well-built leg muscle, too. It definitely has my heat rising.His hands run through his wet hair while he clears his throat once he's standing in front of me. Damn, the way the water is drizzling down every perfect shaped and toned muscle on his body. And those wet, full, soft lips which are now twisting into a crooked smirk."Honey, if you keep on looking at me like that, I'll never finish preparing for Wyatt's birthday party in two hours. Jeez, just the look on your face turns me on like hell.""It's not my fault you had to jump into the pool and look so incredible delicious," I defend myself."Sorry, I nee
Racing Desires Epilogue part 1
Kiara's POV: ****nearly 1,5 years later****My dreamy eyes linger on my two toddlers in front of the Christmas tree, while Dean is trying to convince them to play with the toys he so proudly chose but now aren't of interest to any of them. Instead, they are having hell of a fun playing with the wrapping paper. "Why the hell did I spend so much money on toys if all they want is some stupid wrapping paper?" Dean complains while walking up to me. Dean is such an adorable dad, and my heart swells every time I see my three loved ones playing together."I told you they don't need all of this fancy stuff and the amount of toys you bought. You went a little crazy again, didn't you?""I just want them to be happy and have everything they wish for." The expression on his face is a little sulky while looking across the floor to Phoebe and Leo. Phoebe, in the meantime, finds it awfully funny to put the sticky ends on to her brother and hiding his face under the wrapping paper."They're not even
Racing Desires Thank you
Hi dear reader, if you have come this far, I want to thank you from the bottom of my soul for reading and supporting me with this book. As a new writer, it means the world to me.I do know that I have put you on hell of a roller coaster with this book. Due to my brain tumour, I also know there are still errors in grammar and spelling. But I hope you can look past them and enjoy the story.If you've enjoyed the book (including hating it at times), it would mean an awful lot to me if you could vote for this book. And of course, every gem you give is like a gem to my heart.At this point, it's only the epilogue left to come. As it's turned out freaky long (nearly 6,5k words), it will be divided into 3 parts.THANK YOU!!!!I hope to see you on future books perhaps, too.Lots of love Jackie♥️♥️
Racing Desires 128. Fairytale
Kiara's POV:Once I've made sure to show my appearance nearly everywhere once, I take my time to fully take in everything here. This place is a huge mansion, and the garden is amazing. I've never seen anything like it. It's like a huge sculptured park with all kinds of flowers everywhere. The air is filled with a sweet scent of the roses and lavender. I love lavender. There are secret hideouts, fountains, a lake, and huge old trees, giving this place a romantic look as if it were from another century. Nancy obviously went all out on the decorations, too. I can see fairy lights everywhere, which are probably meant to light up the garden in the evening. Flower bouquets are spread throughout the area, torches put up for the night, huge ribbons, and other kinds of decorations wherever you look. We're so lucky with the summer weather, making it perfect. It's warm, but the many old trees give us enough space for people being able to stand and sit in the shade.This looks like a fairy tale
Racing Desires 127. From now until forever
Kiara's POV:,"You're so god damn beautiful, Mrs Arlington." Dean whispers full of awe against my lips before drawing fully back. I love the way that sounds.People around us start laughing and cheering even more at Dean's eager kiss. Neither of us wanted to break out of it. He noticed right away when my legs had reached their limit, and now I'm in his amazing, strong arms. Arms, which make me feel treasured and protected in every single way.Sean was the only one who knew about me wanting to walk down the aisle. He rushes down the other end, where I have left my wheelchair behind, and he gets it for me. Tyler uses his chance to squeeze us first, and I literally mean squeeze because what he's doing right now isn't hugging. He's squeezing the living shit out of us."Air, Tyler. I need air." I manage to get out totally breathless while being squashed between Dean and him. "We're not a hamburger, and I'm not the piece of meat in between.""Oh, beautiful, but I wouldn't mind you being the
Racing Desires 126. Breathtaking
Dean's POV:And then she appears with Sean at her side. My heart stops for a second, as I don't just see my absolutely stunning bride, but also see how she gets up out of her wheelchair. Oh my god, she starts walking towards me, secured by Sean's arm. Step by step, she comes closer.Everyone around us is gasping at her sight."Holy fuck!" Tyler exclaims.I feel the urge to rush up to her and carry her the rest of the way here. I can clearly see she is struggling, but also how determined she is to walk her way up to me. She must have trained more than I knew. I had no idea she was able to walk again at all. Tears start rolling down my cheeks at my incredible bride.She's so strong, and seeing her walk totally knocks the breath out of me. Besides, she is absolutely stunning. Beautiful, sexy all in all beyond imagination. The dress she is wearing is beautiful too. As soon as she's in front of me, I can't hold back and wrap my arms around her and cry. I don't care what the people think,
Racing Desires 125. Will she come?
Dean's POV:The last couple of hours have been torture. No scratch that ever since she left the house yesterday at lunchtime has been a torture. Damn, it's only been a little over 24 hours, and I'm missing her like hell. At least I had Phoebe and Leo during the daytime yesterday, while Gale took Kiara for a spa. But since Gale picked up my babies last night, I missed them all so incredible much.Tyler and Chris wanted to go for a strip club. No way was I up for that. I don't want to see any other woman naked in front of me, other than my own girl. To my surprise, Tyler even wasn't too pushy about it and quickly understood. Of course, he had a remark about it."Honestly, man, if I had Kiara at home, I wouldn't want to see any other chick naked again either. She's the jackpot, and no sexy stripper could keep up to that. Fuck, I'd never let her out of the bed again and fuck her until she couldn't walk and keep it going." Yes, he did get a smack for that from me.The thing with Tyler is,
Racing Desires 124. Excitement
Kiara's POV:Only minutes later, I hear the knock at the door Nancy and Gale have arrived. Apparently, Nancy has already been to our location where we're marrying, making sure everything is being prepared as it should be. She scares the shit out of me when she yells through the phone because the wedding cake hasn't been delivered yet. And there was me thinking I could be a badass and impatient.Gale gives me a huge smile and hug. "How are you feeling, darling?""Excited and nervous," I lower my voice for only her to hear. "And a little scarred of Nancy, to be honest." Gale looks across to Nancy, who is still yelling orders through the phone and laughs."You should have heard her ramble away beforehand. She was beyond pissed because the table clothes apparently now are an off-white instead of an eggshell white like she had ordered. Honestly, I couldn't tell the difference, but for her, it was a huge disaster, and she's saying the whole colour scheme has been messed up through it. She's
