It was the day of our appointment with the fertility specialist. I was a nervous wreck as I made breakfast for us. I was already dressed and ready, feeling less enthusiastic for the day. However, I noticed Kenny seemed to be in a good mood. He took off from work so he could be there with me. A part of me was happy he took off for my sake, but another bummed I couldn't lie about being there when I didn't go. I thought of a thousand ways to get out of this appointment, but none of them stuck. I had to put on a brave face and bear the weight of today.Along with the breaded appointment, Wren's words still rang in my ears. She was correct that I had to choose. But the thought of leaving Kenny made me feel nauseous. I was afraid to leave him and face what's out there in the world. I didn't want to be alone like I was at the age of eighteen. Left to fend myself in a world I was unacquainted with. The fact that I was entertaining the idea itself hardly sat right.How could I leave the man wh
All I could focus on was the ceiling over me and the light in the room. My eyes were beginning to strain from looking at the light for too long. However, it was better than focusing on what was happening in between my legs. My hospital gown was dunched on my hips, leaving my bottom open for prying eyes. My thighs were spread wide with my feet in stirrups while a Q-Tip to collect my cells.Kenny was sitting in the exact spot from earlier, and I could feel his gaze on me. I knew it was normal for women to do this, but it was so awkward. Although I didn't like appointments such as these, I knew it was important to get checked. Luckily my doctor was an older and kind woman. The minutes she came to the room earlier, she greeted me warmly, before telling me what was going to take place.I heard the squeak of her chair as she rolled away. I brought my gaze down to see her reach for the medical desk. She placed the Q-TIP that was on me into a tube. She then grabbed a metal object that had me
The sound of an alarm blaring roused me from my sleep. I heard the shuffling of blankets and the creaking of our bed as Kenny got up. He turned off the alarm a second later. Turning around to Kenny's side, I sought him in the room. He was across the room, looking down at his phone. I couldn't see the expression on his face of how dark it was. Only streams of the early morning rays slipped through our window blinds. The room was salient as I secretly gazed at the man across from me.My husband.Am sorry my voice broke the silence in the quiet room. I saw his head lift up and face me. He placed his phone down on the dresser, not saying a word. I saw his head tilt towards the ceiling as he let out an inaudible sigh. Please don't be mad at me," I begged.After a bit of salience, I heard Kenny's footsteps near. He stopped at the edge of the bed and then spoke. "Take off your clothes.""Kenny, I want us to talk about-""I don't want to talk, Rose," he bit out. Ending any protect I had. Not
"I'm guessing that he took the news well since you're not dead." Wren said as soon a s I answered the phone. I rolled my eyes, continued to wash the dishes as I placed the phone on the counter. Leaving it on a speaker so I could hear her. Kenny was at work, so I wasn't worried about him hearing anything. And if he was, he'd be far away from me. Seeing as he's been avoiding me for the past few weeks."Yes, I am very much alive," I chuckled. "Washing dishes, might I add?" "Oh, how exciting," I heard shuffling on her end. "But I have something far more appealing in mind.Uh oh. Wren was using a devious tone that reeked of trouble! "I'm afraid to ask, she cackled." Clubbing," she said, and Immediately replied no. "Come on Rose! We haven't gone out in forever."Wren, I'm nearing my thirties. What do I look like spending time at a club? "A housewife with an asshat for a husband," she replied flatly, causing me to sigh. "Ugh, please! I want to spend time with my best friend in the whol
I could hear music from outside the club. The words were not penetrating through the building, but the bass was. Despite the night air, it wasn't cold outside as Wren and I walked in our heels. Towards the doors that have a line and guards posted outside. Soon we reached the post, wren grabbed my hand and had us skipping the line to one of the guards. She spoke to them while the surrounding strangers complained. Some things I forget wren was an outgoing person who knew people. The guard let us in with a nod and we grinned at each other.Instantly, I felt warm air and the strobe lights brightened the dark room. It seemed to be more than a few dozen in the club night, and plenty more that I couldn't count. The place was big with an upstairs area that was for VIPs, lounges on both sides that were closed off unless you paid for them, and a large bar that we were heading to. My heels clacked along the floor as I followed wren. Moving past people who were either drinking or dancing.Once th
Sean.I've encountered many women throughout my years as an adult. Some of them were more attractive than the woman I recently met. They had bigger asses, slimmer waist and bigger breasts. But somehow, someway, they don't stand out to me as much as she has. The woman whose name I didn't know, but I wish I did. Just so I could find her and fuck her.She was beautiful with skin just as mine but more smooth. Compared to my rugged self. Her long legs shone as she danced in the tight-ass dress that hugged her body. Sticking to her like a second skin, her breasts heaving with every exhaled. She was fucking sexy.I wanted her but had no way of finding the woman. When she ran off with her friend, I tried to keep up. Pushing my way through the crowd, but when I made it out of the club doors, she disappeared. It was as if she was a ghost. I was a damn military man. How the fuck could I not catch her up?" She was on heels, for Christ sake! And if I did what will I say?"Hey, I followed you outsi
The sun was shining today through the windows, lighting up the place I called my home. Despite the brightness, it felt dark; gloomy. A few weeks past as the summer began, the weather became hotter each day. It was the perfect time to go outside and enjoy the summer air. Most days I could hear the children outside my window, playing with the sprinklers. Their giggles reached my ears, making me smile.And as their laughter continued until the late afternoon when they were called home, I couldn't help my thoughts. Wondering if I had had a child, would they have as much fun? And when the dreary thought came to my mind, I pushed it away. That was the past. But why couldn't I let it go?It didn't help that, along with my solemn thoughts, Kenny has continued to avoid me. He's even taking extra measures to pretend I didn't exist. And when we lay in bed, he would turn the other way. I tried not to show how hot I was, but often I did find myself leaving the room to go into the bathroom and cry
I think Nick could sense something was off with me today. He has constantly been asking me if I was feeling ok, causing me to lie through my teeth and say yes. I knew I should've canceled, and called him earlier to do so. But he begged to see me and there was no way I could say no. And when I arrived at our park meeting, he surprised me with a picnic set up for us. He packed a blanket, pillows, and mini electric fans, along with food and plenty of water.How could a man be so thoughtful and sweet?"So when I saw the sweet gesture, I stuffed down my depression. Smiling and joking with him trying to be light-hearted. Yet, finding myself failing miserably. I wanted to listen to him speak as he talked of his family and homeland. But it was almost as if my brain was rejecting the idea. I would accidentally tune him out, his voice fading from my ears. While I stared into space thinking about my husband and becoming sad. His words from the other night ringing in my ear.You don't deserve to
The smell of chemicals wafted through the air as I dipped my paint brush into the pallet. Collecting the acrylic color blue and lifting it to the canvas in front of me. I was fulfilling my promise to Nicolaus and painting in his ultra- lager apartment. Or what rich folks refers to as a penthouse suite. To say I was shocked when I arrived was an understatement.While we drove to his apartment which I've never seen before, he kept saying it was a regular space. But as I looked out the window and saw the buildings go from poor to middle class and finally the rich, I knew he was lying. Then when we arrived it took everything in me not to gape like a fish. His home was enormous for a "simple" apartment. I thought he was living in a mini, but not so mini house. It had everything. Such as his own gym, a large kitchen, a game room, and more. It was its own very bachelorette pad. However it made sense when he told me he was living with his best friend. Who conveniently was out of town.So we
I think Nick could sense something was off with me today. He has constantly been asking me if I was feeling ok, causing me to lie through my teeth and say yes. I knew I should've canceled, and called him earlier to do so. But he begged to see me and there was no way I could say no. And when I arrived at our park meeting, he surprised me with a picnic set up for us. He packed a blanket, pillows, and mini electric fans, along with food and plenty of water.How could a man be so thoughtful and sweet?"So when I saw the sweet gesture, I stuffed down my depression. Smiling and joking with him trying to be light-hearted. Yet, finding myself failing miserably. I wanted to listen to him speak as he talked of his family and homeland. But it was almost as if my brain was rejecting the idea. I would accidentally tune him out, his voice fading from my ears. While I stared into space thinking about my husband and becoming sad. His words from the other night ringing in my ear.You don't deserve to
The sun was shining today through the windows, lighting up the place I called my home. Despite the brightness, it felt dark; gloomy. A few weeks past as the summer began, the weather became hotter each day. It was the perfect time to go outside and enjoy the summer air. Most days I could hear the children outside my window, playing with the sprinklers. Their giggles reached my ears, making me smile.And as their laughter continued until the late afternoon when they were called home, I couldn't help my thoughts. Wondering if I had had a child, would they have as much fun? And when the dreary thought came to my mind, I pushed it away. That was the past. But why couldn't I let it go?It didn't help that, along with my solemn thoughts, Kenny has continued to avoid me. He's even taking extra measures to pretend I didn't exist. And when we lay in bed, he would turn the other way. I tried not to show how hot I was, but often I did find myself leaving the room to go into the bathroom and cry
Sean.I've encountered many women throughout my years as an adult. Some of them were more attractive than the woman I recently met. They had bigger asses, slimmer waist and bigger breasts. But somehow, someway, they don't stand out to me as much as she has. The woman whose name I didn't know, but I wish I did. Just so I could find her and fuck her.She was beautiful with skin just as mine but more smooth. Compared to my rugged self. Her long legs shone as she danced in the tight-ass dress that hugged her body. Sticking to her like a second skin, her breasts heaving with every exhaled. She was fucking sexy.I wanted her but had no way of finding the woman. When she ran off with her friend, I tried to keep up. Pushing my way through the crowd, but when I made it out of the club doors, she disappeared. It was as if she was a ghost. I was a damn military man. How the fuck could I not catch her up?" She was on heels, for Christ sake! And if I did what will I say?"Hey, I followed you outsi
I could hear music from outside the club. The words were not penetrating through the building, but the bass was. Despite the night air, it wasn't cold outside as Wren and I walked in our heels. Towards the doors that have a line and guards posted outside. Soon we reached the post, wren grabbed my hand and had us skipping the line to one of the guards. She spoke to them while the surrounding strangers complained. Some things I forget wren was an outgoing person who knew people. The guard let us in with a nod and we grinned at each other.Instantly, I felt warm air and the strobe lights brightened the dark room. It seemed to be more than a few dozen in the club night, and plenty more that I couldn't count. The place was big with an upstairs area that was for VIPs, lounges on both sides that were closed off unless you paid for them, and a large bar that we were heading to. My heels clacked along the floor as I followed wren. Moving past people who were either drinking or dancing.Once th
"I'm guessing that he took the news well since you're not dead." Wren said as soon a s I answered the phone. I rolled my eyes, continued to wash the dishes as I placed the phone on the counter. Leaving it on a speaker so I could hear her. Kenny was at work, so I wasn't worried about him hearing anything. And if he was, he'd be far away from me. Seeing as he's been avoiding me for the past few weeks."Yes, I am very much alive," I chuckled. "Washing dishes, might I add?" "Oh, how exciting," I heard shuffling on her end. "But I have something far more appealing in mind.Uh oh. Wren was using a devious tone that reeked of trouble! "I'm afraid to ask, she cackled." Clubbing," she said, and Immediately replied no. "Come on Rose! We haven't gone out in forever."Wren, I'm nearing my thirties. What do I look like spending time at a club? "A housewife with an asshat for a husband," she replied flatly, causing me to sigh. "Ugh, please! I want to spend time with my best friend in the whol
The sound of an alarm blaring roused me from my sleep. I heard the shuffling of blankets and the creaking of our bed as Kenny got up. He turned off the alarm a second later. Turning around to Kenny's side, I sought him in the room. He was across the room, looking down at his phone. I couldn't see the expression on his face of how dark it was. Only streams of the early morning rays slipped through our window blinds. The room was salient as I secretly gazed at the man across from me.My husband.Am sorry my voice broke the silence in the quiet room. I saw his head lift up and face me. He placed his phone down on the dresser, not saying a word. I saw his head tilt towards the ceiling as he let out an inaudible sigh. Please don't be mad at me," I begged.After a bit of salience, I heard Kenny's footsteps near. He stopped at the edge of the bed and then spoke. "Take off your clothes.""Kenny, I want us to talk about-""I don't want to talk, Rose," he bit out. Ending any protect I had. Not
All I could focus on was the ceiling over me and the light in the room. My eyes were beginning to strain from looking at the light for too long. However, it was better than focusing on what was happening in between my legs. My hospital gown was dunched on my hips, leaving my bottom open for prying eyes. My thighs were spread wide with my feet in stirrups while a Q-Tip to collect my cells.Kenny was sitting in the exact spot from earlier, and I could feel his gaze on me. I knew it was normal for women to do this, but it was so awkward. Although I didn't like appointments such as these, I knew it was important to get checked. Luckily my doctor was an older and kind woman. The minutes she came to the room earlier, she greeted me warmly, before telling me what was going to take place.I heard the squeak of her chair as she rolled away. I brought my gaze down to see her reach for the medical desk. She placed the Q-TIP that was on me into a tube. She then grabbed a metal object that had me
It was the day of our appointment with the fertility specialist. I was a nervous wreck as I made breakfast for us. I was already dressed and ready, feeling less enthusiastic for the day. However, I noticed Kenny seemed to be in a good mood. He took off from work so he could be there with me. A part of me was happy he took off for my sake, but another bummed I couldn't lie about being there when I didn't go. I thought of a thousand ways to get out of this appointment, but none of them stuck. I had to put on a brave face and bear the weight of today.Along with the breaded appointment, Wren's words still rang in my ears. She was correct that I had to choose. But the thought of leaving Kenny made me feel nauseous. I was afraid to leave him and face what's out there in the world. I didn't want to be alone like I was at the age of eighteen. Left to fend myself in a world I was unacquainted with. The fact that I was entertaining the idea itself hardly sat right.How could I leave the man wh