Secrets and Magic

Elena POV

"Time to train hoe!" Serenity said smacking my ass. I jumped from my bed rubbing my cheek. That girl had way too much energy.

"Why am I the hoe when you're the one that fucks every hot guy within 5 ft." I walked into my bathroom to wash my face.

"Girls! You need to stop acting like this. I don't care if you're in your bedroom or not." Helena scolded us. Shit! I didn't even see her there.

"Yes, Helena. I'm sorry." Serenity replied giving her puppy eyes. Helena rolled her eyes at how we both try to fane innocence all the time.

I peaked my head out with a mouth full of toothpaste "Not sorry Helena." I gave her a smile full of foam. She had already reprimanded me for apologizing the other day so I couldn't help but apologize by not apologizing.

The second my eyes left Helena's I jumped back thinking I saw a shadow grow out from my window, creeping it's way to my vanity. I shook my head and rinsed my mouth. What the hell was that?

'Are you messing with me Davina'

'Nope, I'm not sure if we are going crazy or if shadows now have souls either'

'Great! Even my wolf is as clueless as me.'

'You do know we are the same, right?'

'Well, then according to humans I am definitely crazy. Also known as multiple personality disorder'

'It's no longer politically correct to classify mental disorders as crazy'

'Argh, I hate myself'

"Elena come on we only have a few hours before breakfast. We need to get some training in since you skipped yesterday and the day before that." Serenity said bringing me out of my head.

She gave me a stern look and handed me my black leggings with a pink tank top. "Not my fault really. Plus, yesterday should count as political training. My date with Tyler turned into hours of listening to his parents go on and on about how the pack will be run after our wedding. He hasn't even propose to me yet and they have our whole life planned."

"Yeah, as if you would say no even if he is doesn't deserve you."

"Hey! He deserves me and of course I wouldn't say no. I love him. We are fated."

"Sure! Is that why you can't stop dreaming about the tall dark devil." Serenity teased me. I really needed to stop telling her everything.

"That is not true. Shut up." I blushed as my mind went straight to Ryker. I may have ranted over and over how he was now a guest on our territory but I thought it was about how much I disliked his smog ass.

"What are you two going on about and Serenity be mindful how you speak of your future King." Helena pointed at her in warning. Helena truly feared Serenity's mouth would one day get her head removed.

"Nothing Helena. You can ignore S." I pulled Serenity out the door before she got anymore verbal slaps.

"What? Deny it all you want but you know I'm right."

Serenity teased.

We always met either early morning or after school in the gardens to practice magic. We had to be discreet so no one discovered my secret. Serenity is able to get information and spells from a few rogue witches outside the kingdom then she teaches them to me.

The first spell she taught me was a protection spell, then a silencing, and finally a mirage. Since I wasn't a witch I needed earth elements to enhance my magic which Serenity secured for me too.

"Ok, get the wards up and let's get started. We have an hour and 45 mins to train." Serenity snapped at me to get moving.

I called earth and wind then sprinkled a few ingredients from my hidden pouch in my leggings to put up the protection spells. No one could see, smell, sense, or hear us.

"We left off with fire. Your water and air magic is almost mastered but your earth and fire are seriously lacking."

"Thanks. You sure know how to make a girl feel special." I was joking, but honestly felt like a failure.

It was something I had an issue with since I was a child. I was always being pushed down so I had to master everything I did. Become better than anyone, especially the other Alphas. I didn't want to overpower them, just prove I was strong enough too.

Serenity gave me a sigh to say I don't care about your daddy issues and continued with her lesson. "I want you to light these candles then lift the flame off the wick and into a ball. Since you can't create a fire ball maybe we can slowly work our way up to it."

"You seriously need to get over this obsession with me throwing fireballs. You watch way too much anime."

"That's impossible, now shut up and show me what you got. It would be so badass to throw a fireball at those Rogue bastards."

I rolled my eyes then concentrated on the first candle. I felt the heat in my blood and transferred the energy into the wick. At first it was just a few sputtered sparks, then it finally lit.

"Awesome, one candle lit. At this rate you'll have all 10 lit by your bday." Serenity gave me a disappointed glare and my smile turned to a frown.

"Geez, someone is in mood." I spat back.

I turned my attention back into myself feeling the heat rise back up. I thought how stupid it was that I couldn't light these candles? I had the power to do it but was to weak to figure how and that was not who I wanted to be. My body temperature rose and I forced the energy to all 10 candles. I wasn't focused properly though and knocked them over with flames.

"Ok, not what we were going for, but I would say definitely progress." I said bowing my head. I was trying to play it off as nothing but I was actually kicking myself for focusing on the candles and not the wick.

Serenity lined them back up and order me to try again but better this time. She was really in a mood today.

I focused the energy and lit each one separately except the last two I ended up lighting together. Drawing that much energy was warring on me, making it hard to concentrate. There was something completely different about fire I didn't understand.

Air was controlled by freeing my mind and water by calming my soul. Fire seemed to be controlled by anger, but it was never enough and drained me too fast. Earth I called from letting myself go and connecting with all the elements around me, but like fire it wasn't enough and made me feel weighed down. One time I could barely breath for hours until I finally felt like myself again.

"Let's now try lifting each flame off the wick and then bringing them together."

I sighed already feeling tired. I spent atleast a half hour trying to control all the flames at the same time but was not able to lift them together.

After I failed countless times Serenity finally called it a day. I quickly ran to my room to shower and got ready for breakfast. I had a little bit of time before I needed to be downstairs so I decided to stop by the library for a new book when someone grabbed me from behind.

"Tyler! Why are you here?" I asked nervously looking around. Lately, I found myself uneasy around him. Many teen wolves came to the library to make out or more. We use to have a few of our own heavy make out sessions here but it became too hard for Tyler to stop after he turned 18.

I always got uncomfortable at too much physical contact. I thought it was because I wanted to wait until our wedding. Now, I was second guessing if I was even attracted to him. It definitely wasn't the same way I was attracted to Ryker. More often than not I seemed to have to convince myself that I did in fact want to marry Tyler and I didn't like the doubt in my head, mostly coming from my wolf.

"We need to speak about your father but more importantly your attitude. I'm tired of getting punished because you can't hold your tongue." He said backing me up against a wall.

"I'm sorry Ty. I didn't mean to cause you any issues. My mind has been all over the place." Before I could finish he interrupted me.

"I don't care about your excuses El. Everything you ask of me I comply with. The one thing I ask of you, you can't do. I need your father on our side. If he thinks I can't control you then he won't let us be together." He said softening his words at the end.

Sometimes I felt Tyler was just manipulating me into submission but then he would turn so sweet. His knuckle brushed my check as he looked at me so adoringly. My eyes went straight to my feet not feeling even the slightest desire from his touch.

"I know Ty. I really didn't mean to have such an outburst at breakfast the other day. I was just shocked that Ryker was here. I really thought I was thinking it, not saying it. It's getting harder to keep my emotions under control. Please don't be mad at me." I pouted, but kept my gaze to the floor.

I didn't like how his body was creeping closer to mine. How his hands snaked around my waist. Without looking I knew his eyes where fixated on my lips and I didn't want his kiss.

'Davina help please. What is wrong with me? I love Tyler. Why do I not want his touch? Is it just nerves?'

'I think you know the answer princess. The closer we get to our birthday the more we are feeling that he is not our fated mate after all.'

'That can't be true. Don't say that!'

"It's ok baby. I could never be truly mad at my mate." He replied lifting my chin so my eyes met his.

Looking up to his face I felt like a weight had been lifted. I had felt so guilty and confused about everything. Hearing his words and seeing the loving way he looked at me, I couldn't help but melt into him.

I wasn't sure of anything but I knew I could trust Tyler and we would make a good life together. He loved me, even despite the horrors my father put me through. Tyler knew some of my darkest parts and still loved me. A smile grew on my face as I stared into his eyes.

"Now, if you need some help with controlling those emotions maybe it would be better to just let them go with me." He said lifting me onto a table then placed his body between my legs.

His lips brushed mine softly at first then as I opened my mouth to allow access for his tongue he quicken the pace. His hands gripped my waist pulling me closer then one hand slid up my shirt.

At first I felt a comfort in his touch. A familiar touch from a man I loved, but it wasn't passionate. There was no need to have him right now and be damned with the consequences.

"Come on baby, lose control with me" he pleaded squeezing my breast as his hard on pressed against my thigh.

I gasped at the sudden sensations. I pushed his hand down as I tried to break his kiss, but he wasn't giving up so easy.

"Stop teasing me! You are mine." He stated bringing his hand to the back of my head preventing me from moving away.

"Tyler! Stop!" I said between rough kisses he was placing on my lips. His other hand grabbed my breast again and I lost my temper. I knew it was hard for him to control his wolf now that he was 18, but I wasn't going to be forced into anything.

I closed my eyes to hid my wolf coming forward then grabbed his hand. My mouth kissed him back rough so I could get my teeth on his lips. Tyler moaned at my return of desire but then he felt pain surge through him. I bit his lip then twisted his wrist that laid on my breast.

"You ever do that again Tyler I will hurt you a lot worse than this. Is that understood? Get control of your wolf and I'll see you at breakfast." I spat at him then walked out.

"Fucking bitch." Tyler whispered watching me walk out. He cradled his arm taking a deep breath before snapping his wrist back in place. Although the injuries seemed severe he would heal quickly.

By the time I reached the dining room I began feeling bad for losing my temper. I told myself if it was anyone else I would had castrated the man for touching me so inappropriately, especially after I said to stop, but this was Tyler.

The rest of the morning I spent being the proper princess obeying every rule my parents expected of me while trying to please my boyfriend. Ryker gave me disapproving glares that made me uncomfortable. I wasn't sure what had happened but I could see a shift in his attitude towards me. His stares were cold and unattached. His responses short and dismissive. He acted like he couldn't stand being in my presence or listen to my voice.

I tried telling myself the last thing I needed was to try and win his approval too. I couldn't help but feel upset that he no longer looked at me the way he did the first night we met. I craved for that feeling again and I didn't know how to make it stop.

Tyler was giving me a bit of the cold shoulder, my mother treated me as if I was a lowly servant, and my father regarded me as a pretty pawn to use for power. I wanted everything to just be fine again, but nothing was ever really fine.

Tyler lightly touched my shoulder signaling for me to get up. I looked at him confused then realized we had to get to school. Only a month left and high school was over.

I was not allowed to go to regular university after high school. I would begin my true torture as I was taught and molded into the Queen my father wanted me to be. The pressure was building inside me again. All I wanted to do was run far from everything that laid before me. This could not be my future. Not like this.