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Losing It
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2025-03-03 03:58:21
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Rook POVMercer is still standing in front of me, covered in blood that isn’t his, shaking with something I can’t fix, something I can’t take back.“I didn’t know,” I say, and my own voice sounds too rough, too strained. “Kade, I swear to fucking god, I didn’t know he was going to—”He laughs. Loud, sharp, bitter, like I just told the funniest fucking joke in the world.“Didn’t know?” His eyes blaze as he takes a step forward, and I don’t move. “Didn’t fucking know? You’re Rook. The golden son. The one who gets away with every fucking thing he does because Daddy has his back. And you expect me to believe you didn’t know?”“I had no clue he was gonna do this,” I repeat, but Mercer isn’t hearing me.“You didn’t know,” he mutters, running a hand through his hair before letting out another laugh, low and humorless, shaking his head. “Then explain something to me, Rook. If you didn’t know, then why the fuck did he tell me I had to prove myself to be with you?”My stomach twists, a slow, si
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Kade POVI wait until I hear the door click shut before I move. Giving it a minute, just in case Rook decides to double back, I force myself up, ignoring the dull throb of pain spreading through my body. My ribs ache, my muscles scream, but I push through it. I have to.I grab the first clothes I can find, pulling them on quickly before making my way to the window. Sliding it open, I glance down, jaw clenching. Dropping straight down will hurt like a bitch with my injuries. But the drainpipe, it’s sturdy enough to hold me.I don’t give myself time to hesitate.Swinging a leg over, I grip the pipe tightly, muscles straining as I lower myself down, moving slow and controlled to avoid making too much noise. The second my feet hit the ground, a sharp pain shoots up my legs, but I swallow the groan that threatens to slip out. No time for that.I stay low, scanning my surroundings, waiting for movement, but there's nothing. Good. I keep my body close to the shadows, moving fast toward the o
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Kade POVThe team finishes their drinks, calling it early because they’re responsible, because they know better than to push it before a game. Tyler watches me for a second before clapping a hand on my shoulder. “You staying?”I don’t know anymore, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, what I should be doing. I feel like I’m floating, weightless and untethered, completely fucking lost.“Yeah,” I mutter. “I'm not tired yet.”They don’t push, don’t ask questions, just leave with a few parting comments about not getting into more fights. Then I’m alone, and it’s worse.It hits the second they’re gone, that feeling that’s been coiling tighter and tighter inside me finally snapping loose. I feel like my skin is too tight, like something inside me is clawing to get out, like if I don’t do something, I might actually fucking shatter.I need to move, to hurt, to do something that makes me feel.The music is loud, bodies pressed together in the dim lighting, and before I even think about it, I
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Rook POVDo I know I come first? If I do, surely he will leave Mercer alone? “Then let him go. Stop making him throw games,” I say, watching him carefully, waiting for the usual excuses, the same cold justifications he always gives.He stares at me for a long moment before finally speaking. “You prove to me this is serious, and I will.”I laugh, sharp and humorless. “So it’s serious enough to make him fight for his fucking life, to make him kill men, but not enough for you to stop using him?”“There’s a difference between attachment and a real relationship, Rook. You’re obsessed, and that’s dangerous. But if you ever figure out how to build something real, ask me again.” He turns, walking back to his desk, his focus already shifting. “Until then, sit. You can help me with the next issue.”I don’t move at first, still thinking, still turning over his words, still wondering what fucked-up test he’ll put Mercer through next just to prove a point. Would Mercer agree if he knew it would g
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Rook POVKade’s place is empty, not a single sign that he’s even been back. The frustration is building, tightening in my chest because he’s not supposed to be out there alone, not after everything. I already know where I’m going next to Tyler. His team has to know where he is.I pull up outside his place and knock. No answer. Grinding my teeth, I knock again, harder this time. I hear movement inside, a muffled curse, then the door swings open, and Tyler stands there, looking like he’s seconds from slamming it shut again.“The fuck do you want?” His glare is sharp, his stance rigid, and I almost laugh at the audacity of it.“Looking for Kade. Where is he?”His shoulders tense, and I can already see it, that fucking lie forming, the hesitation in his expression.“Don’t fucking lie to me, Taylor,” I snap, my patience gone. His jaw tightens, and then he exhales, rubbing the back of his neck before finally nodding.“What happened to him?” His voice drops, his suspicion evident. “He claims
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Pucking Forbidden Claim Going Home
Kade POVRook helps me up despite my protests, and soon, we’re in the car, the quiet hum of the engine filling the space as we pull away from the runway.Rook glances at me, eyebrows raised. “So, we're heading straight home and through the back.”I shake my head. “Not yet.”He frowns. “What do you mean, not yet? You just got drugged into sleep, and you still look like shit.”I lean in slightly, lowering my voice so only he hears. “I want to go somewhere. Just us.”His brows knit together. “Where?”I let a slow smirk tug at my lips. “We never got the final moments of our holiday together.”Something flickers in his gaze, surprise, then understanding. He exhales, running a hand through his hair before shaking his head with a small, exasperated smile.“You really are a stubborn asshole,” he mutters.I shrug. “So, we going
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Kade POVPain drags me from sleep, and I move slightly, opening my eyes to see we’re on the plane. I can’t remember anything after Rook getting me. I turn, and he’s sitting beside me.He looks wrecked, he’s worried. Smirking, I nudge him, and he turns to face me. “Sorry I was late home.”Groaning, he punches my arm, and I grunt. “Shit, sorry,” he mutters.“It’s fine, that was the only part of my body that didn’t hurt. Now it feels included,” I mock, and he groans.“Like I care that you were home late. Fucked-up thinking, Kade.”I shrug slightly. “Shame, if you were angry, the sex to punish me would have been fucking epic.”“You’re totally fine, clear. Go back to sleep, nob.”Smirking, I lean my head against his shoulder and hold in the groan. At least now he’s smiling and not so worried about me. “Where&
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Kade POVPain drags me from sleep, and I move slightly, opening my eyes to see we’re on the plane. I can’t remember anything after Rook getting me. I turn, and he’s sitting beside me.He looks wrecked, he’s worried. Smirking, I nudge him, and he turns to face me. “Sorry I was late home.”Groaning, he punches my arm, and I grunt. “Shit, sorry,” he mutters.“It’s fine, that was the only part of my body that didn’t hurt. Now it feels included,” I mock, and he groans.“Like I care that you were home late. Fucked-up thinking, Kade.”I shrug slightly. “Shame, if you were angry, the sex to punish me would have been fucking epic.”“You’re totally fine, clear. Go back to sleep, nob.”Smirking, I lean my head against his shoulder and hold in the groan. At least now he’s smiling and not so worried about me. “Where&
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Rook POVI tilt my head, watching him writhe. “You’re holding out for them, huh? You think they’re watching? That they’re waiting to see if you can handle a little pain before they decide you’re worth saving?”He chokes on his breath, his fingers twitching against the blood-slick table.I grip his chin, forcing him to look at me. “They don’t give a fuck about you. Every second you sit here thinking you’re being loyal, you’re just another second closer to dying for people who don’t even know your fucking name.”He sucks in a broken breath, but his lips stay pressed together.“Fine.” I grab his pinky, and before he can even brace for it, I snap it back. A sickening crack echoes through the room, his strangled scream tearing from his throat as he thrashes.I let him writhe, let the pain settle deep into his bones before I lean in close. “You've got a few fingers left. You ready to waste them all for people who wouldn’t piss on you if you were o
Pucking Forbidden Claim Forcing Him
Rook POVI yank the knife out and slam my fist into his ribs. He chokes on a breath, curling in on himself, but I don’t give him time to recover before I drive my knee into his stomach. He crumples to the floor, coughing, blood dripping from his mouth.“You’re making this worse for yourself,” I warn, crouching in front of him. “You think you’re gonna hold out? You think you’ll last?”“I don’t—” His voice cuts off in a strangled cry as I grab his fingers, wrenching one back until it snaps.His scream rips through the room, raw and desperate.I grip his hair, forcing his head up to meet my eyes. “You’ve got nine more before I move onto something worse. Now tell me. Where. Is. He?”Tears spill down his face, his chest rising and falling rapidly. His lips tremble, but he still doesn’t fucking answer.“Stubborn,” I mutter before grabbing another finger and snapping it just as easily as the first. His body jolts, another scream tearing from
