LIATwo days later, I finally find a way forward with the project. After pulling extra hours to refine my ideas, making it much better than before, I’m fairly confident about it. All that’s left is to re-pitch it to the chairperson, Isabella Fontaine. The plan’s in motion, but first, I have a little side task to handle.Currently, Nikolai just pulls up to the sidewalk outside of the department store and throws me a puzzled glance.“Shopping?” he asks, a brow raised.I only smile, not giving him an answer as I slip out of the car. If only he knew we were here to find him a suit.“You haven’t answered my question yet,” he steps out to follow me, his long strides marching mine effortlessly.“You will see.” I reply with a grin, refusing to give him the satisfaction of an answer.He tilts his head in my direction with a suspicious look on his face. “I have a bad feeling abou
LIAI’d almost forgotten about it due to the excitement of picking out suits for Nikolai. Now that’s it’s over, the nerves had returned, crashing over me like icy wave.Nikolai knows what this is all about too. He also worked side by side with me and Kate to make everything go as planned.Sensing my shift in mood, he doesn’t say another word, though I really wish he will tell me I’ll do a good job or something. They say a level of confidence comes with putting efforts into a work, but that can’t be said about me. I may be work hard and still fail. I may put in the efforts and still not get what I direly wanted—needed.A hand suddenly yanks me back, snapping me back to reality. I gasp when I realize I nearly walk into a pole. Nikolai’s hand on my forehead is the reason I don’t have a swollen head.“You good?” Nikolai steps in front of me as he scans me for any injury.&ld
NIKOLAIIt’s been twenty minutes and fifty seconds since Lia disappeared into that room. I know this because I’ve been counting. My thumb presses the stopwatch on my watch periodically, though I’d rather not admit how invested I am in this. The air feels too thick to breathe, and I find myself pacing internally even if my body remains anchored to this spot.Lia has worked for this moment, harder than anyone knows, and I need her to win. She deserves this more than anything. If the chairperson says no, I’ve already decided to take matters into my own hands and go through unconventional means to make sure she gets the approval she needs.My eyes keep darting to the door while in the background, Sally’s voice drones on like static. I’ve perfected the art of tuning her out, but every now and then, her voice grates on me, like a mosquito that won’t quit buzzing around your ear. When Lia speaks, it’s music. When Sally speaks...well, I try not to listen.I grit my teeth, trying to focus, but
NIKOLAIThroughout the ride home, I’m struggling to make sense of the temporary malfunction of my heart earlier, but each time I glance at Lia and see the big fucking smile on her face, my thought comes to an abrupt halt, and I’m wrapped in an unfamiliar warmth, it’s unsettling. Fuck, what the hell is wrong with me? Am I dying?I’ve heard people experience weird things when they’re about to kick the bucket… like euphoric or something. That has got to be it because this isn’t normal. Damn it, am I actually dying?“What’s on your mind?” Lia asks from the passenger seat. Her head is tilted out the window, eyes closed, soaking in the soft breeze as we speed down the road.I press my lips together, resisting the urge to grin like an idiot just because she’s smiling. Since when did her smile become contagious?“Nothing,” I say.Through the side mirror, I catch her squinting at me suspiciously. “You seem lost in thoughts.”“I’m thinking about you.” My voice is lower than I intended as I stea
NIKOLAILia’s face brightens, competing with the fucking sun itself. She flops onto the nearest couch, patting the spot beside her with a playful wave. Her gaze follows me as I stride towards her and stop just at her feet. A smirk forms on my lips as she looks up at me with the eyes burning with an undeniable hunger. I mean this in the humblest way, there isn’t a woman who wouldn’t find me appealing, and Lia isn’t an exception. But knowing Lia wants me to fuck her sends a thrilling jolt through my veins.“Getting bold, huh?” I tease as I cross my arms over each other.I know she’s fucking drunk when she leans into the challenge, unabashed. “Do you want me?”Want her? No, I don’t just want her. I need her. One touch, one kiss, one damn taste, and I’ll be done for. Completely ruined by her. My restraint is hanging by a thread, and hell, I know if I start this, I won’t be able to stop. She’ll be like a drug in my system, and tomorrow, while she’ll wake up drowning in regret, I’ll be sta
NIKOLAII can admit I’m attracted to Lia, but having feelings for her? That’s pushing it. Sure, Lia is stunning—anyone with eyes could see that. But I’m not wired that way. Never have been, never will be. I’ve known this for a long time. It’s tied to the way my brain works, but let’s not delve into my uneventful childhood—unironically.Whatever theory Xander is spinning isn’t true. It can’t be. This is just a temporary blip in my heart. If this keeps up, maybe I’ll need a cardiologist or something. That’s more reasonable than buying into Xander’s nonsense.Feelings? I scoff. Xander should try his hand at fiction. He’d be better at it than law. Hell, he’d be better at anything than law, but I doubt he’s ready to face that reality. My mind drifts a little too far, and it’s Lia’s voice that brings me crashing back to earth.“That’s probably going to spill.”“Shit,” I snap out of it to find my very green, very disgusting protein shake—as Lia would call it—spilling over the rim of the cup
NIKOLAI“What’s it?” I say with a raised brow.“Did… I do something wrong?” Her voice is quiet, her fingers fidgeting at her side.“No.”She swallows hard and her throat bobs.“Then why?”“Why what?”“Why have you been acting strange?” each word drops slowly, almost as if she’s afraid of what my answer might be. “Like I did something to piss you off.”I almost scoff. Lia couldn’t piss me off even if she tried, but I’m not about to say that to her face.“You didn’t piss me off,” I say simply, folding my arms.Her gaze drops for a moment before she meets my eyes again, her expression tinged with worry. “I... I know I did some embarrassing things yesterday. One thing in particular that’s probably pissed you off.”My brow furrows. I can’t think of anything Lia could have done to irritate me when she was drunk, but now that she mentioned it, I’m curious. “Which is?"She draws in a shaky breath and squeezes her eyes shut briefly as the words tumble out. “I’m sorry for... for asking you to h
NIKOLAII don’t how I managed to ride my bike from the apartment to the hospital, but I did. In a blur of speeding through intersections, narrowly missing cars, and racing against dread. But somehow, I’m here, breathless and disheveled as I burst through the sliding doors of the hospital. The sterile smell of antiseptics stings my nostrils, but I barely register it, the frantic drumming in my chest drowning everything.A flash of someone in scrubs brushing past me jolts me back into the moment, and I nearly collide with him. "Watch it!” I snap, already halfway down the corridor, not waiting to hear his indignant mutter behind me.The air grows thick as I approach Hannah’s room, every step heavier than the last. My heart is pounding, and as I reach for the door handle, the simple act of pushing it open feels like an eternity.Nausea rolls over me when I’m greeted with eerie emptiness and no sign of Hannah. No. No. This can’t be happening. This can’t fucking be real. Hannah can’t be—n
NIKOLAIThe phone trembles in my hand, and I clench it so hard my knuckles ache as I fight the urge to hurl it across the room. My pulse drums loud and fast in my ears, each beat stoking the frustration, the doubt, and the guilt.Yes, I’m going to tell Lia I’m quitting. But not tonight. Not after everything that has happened. And not because I care about her more than Hannah.Screw Xander for even saying that. Screw him for daring to throw that accusation in my face. As if everything I’ve done, and every decision I’ve made haven’t been for my sister. Every damn sacrifice, how I live my life has been for my sister’s sake. Every time I think of doing something, the first thing that crosses my mind is how it’ll impact her.Everything has been heavily influenced by my sister—.Right. That isn’t entirely true. I have made a decision solely for me before. Just once I made a decision, and I didn’t think about my sister, but my selfish self. Accepting the job from Lia was the only time I wasn
NIKOLAISigning the contract with Lia was a selfish decision. I knew from the start that the pay wouldn’t cover my sister’s hospital bills, but I still went for the job. Now I’m paying the price for that decision.For the past one week, I’ve taken on some of the most dangerous jobs I’ve ever accepted. The kind of jobs that put me inches away from death. Jobs that used to give me a thrill and make me feel alive in some twisted way. But now, I can’t say the same anymore. Because the thrill no longer fuels me, rather it unsettles me. Every time I’m on the edge of life and death, I find myself hesitating. The adrenaline I used to love now feels more like a sick twist in my gut and it makes me want to turn and run, to protect myself.My sister makes me feel fearless. For her I’m ready to face anything, come hell, or high water. But it’s different when it comes to Lia. She makes me want to back down and avoid risks. Because every time I think about facing something that could end me, there’s
LIAPanic kicks in, pressing me forward until I burst into the kitchen. Relief washes over me as I see him, right there.Nikolai’s changed out of his soaked clothes, though his hair still glistens with drops of water, the dark strands occasionally sending a bead sliding down his neck. He's wearing those low-rise pants that hug his hips, and a fitted tee stretched over his frame, showing just enough… no. I shake my head and dart my eyes away. This isn’t the time to be ogling him; I’m here to confront him.When I shift my gaze back towards him, he’s looking at me over his shoulder, and the tiniest smile pulls at his lips before he looks away, or not… I’m just imagining things. Nikolai isn’t smiling at me.“Feel better?” His voice pulls me back to the moment as he turns fully, his eyes skimming over me with that subtle, unreadable appraisal.“Yes,” I answer and sneezes immediately, disproving my answer.“Clearly not.” He stops right in front of me, holding out a steaming cup. The space
LIAThe words I’ve kept buried seem to boil up inside of me. Words of hurt, longing, heartache that has twisted itself deep, when even I can barely reach it. I want to scream at him. I want to demand answers, force him to tell me why he disappeared, why he left me here to be mad with worry, clawing through days that stretched endlessly without him.But as he stands there, with softened face and eyes weighed with something unsaid, looking at me like he hasn’t shattered my world, like he hasn’t been gone for a week without a trace, like I wasn’t shell of myself because of his absence, like I haven’t been teetering on the edge, the words slip away. Every line I rehearsed in the mirror all vanish. My voice fades under the weight of his gaze and his silence.Tears spill over before I can stop them, mingling with the rain that lashes down, soaking me to the bone. The chill seeps into my skin, but the burn of his stare holds me still, locked in place.The world feels muffled, just the sound
LIAGetting ready for work doesn’t take long, and in no time, I’m pulling into the parking lot of ROQ.Kate is already at the entrance with her attention laser-focused on the tablet in her hand until she spots me. She and I have met in the middle ground and have agreed that she won’t jump in step beside and scare the living daylights out of me, she stays in my line of sight.As I approach, her eyes shift past me, darting through the lot. She doesn’t have to tell me who she’s looking for. I feel the same, though I doubt it runs deep for herFinally, her gaze snaps back to me, and with a quiet nod, she says, “Good morning, ma’am.”I nod in acknowledgment, too weighed down to respond.“Have you been able to reach him?” she asks. I shake my head, trying to hide how much I’m affected by Nikolai’s absence. But Kate’s eyes narrow, noticing more than I wish she would.“I wonder where Grumpy is.”I halt abruptly in my steps, making Kate tilt her head slightly toward me. “Is something wrong?”
LIAI haven’t heard from Nikolai in a week, and it feels like my world’s been stuck on pause. Scratch that—life hasn’t just paused. It’s slowed to a dull, gray crawl.The day he disappeared, I sensed something was wrong. I tried to get through to him every way I knew how. I called him more times than I can count, sent message after message. Eventually, his line stopped going through, so I left voicemails, each one more desperate than the last. But I got nothing. Not a single reply.Even though my project has been moving faster, and my week has been busier than ever, Nikolai is still there, at the back of my mind. He’s everywhere I look, his presence in every corner of my apartment.I water his flowers religiously, telling myself he’ll be back. After all, our contract still has four months left. Nikolai is responsible—he’d never just leave without finishing what he started. Yet, with each day that passes, I’ve been forced to make up new excuses for why he hasn’t called, why he hasn’t c
NIKOLAI“I don’t repeat myself,” I groan out.She lowers the can and wipe her mouth with the back of her hand, her expression unbothered. “I’m waiting until Hannah wakes up. I want to see her.”“You won’t be seeing her when she wakes up. Leave.” My voice is flat, final. But Blake, as always, presses on.“And why’s that?” She tosses the empty can into a nearby bin with a loud clatter and crosses her arms.“Because I said so.”She coughs out a rough scoff. “It’s been ages since I saw her. I miss her. So, I’m seeing her whether you like it or not.” “And then leave again?” My voice comes out as a bitter hiss, laced with disdain. I shake my head slowly. “I’m not putting Hannah that emotional stress again.” The thought of watching her disappointment is unbearable; having to explain, once more, why one of her favorite people is walking away with no real reason. There’s a reason it’s only me and Xander in her life now.Blake’s jaw clenches. “Don’t act like I left by choice. I had no other op
NIKOLAII don’t how I managed to ride my bike from the apartment to the hospital, but I did. In a blur of speeding through intersections, narrowly missing cars, and racing against dread. But somehow, I’m here, breathless and disheveled as I burst through the sliding doors of the hospital. The sterile smell of antiseptics stings my nostrils, but I barely register it, the frantic drumming in my chest drowning everything.A flash of someone in scrubs brushing past me jolts me back into the moment, and I nearly collide with him. "Watch it!” I snap, already halfway down the corridor, not waiting to hear his indignant mutter behind me.The air grows thick as I approach Hannah’s room, every step heavier than the last. My heart is pounding, and as I reach for the door handle, the simple act of pushing it open feels like an eternity.Nausea rolls over me when I’m greeted with eerie emptiness and no sign of Hannah. No. No. This can’t be happening. This can’t fucking be real. Hannah can’t be—n
NIKOLAI“What’s it?” I say with a raised brow.“Did… I do something wrong?” Her voice is quiet, her fingers fidgeting at her side.“No.”She swallows hard and her throat bobs.“Then why?”“Why what?”“Why have you been acting strange?” each word drops slowly, almost as if she’s afraid of what my answer might be. “Like I did something to piss you off.”I almost scoff. Lia couldn’t piss me off even if she tried, but I’m not about to say that to her face.“You didn’t piss me off,” I say simply, folding my arms.Her gaze drops for a moment before she meets my eyes again, her expression tinged with worry. “I... I know I did some embarrassing things yesterday. One thing in particular that’s probably pissed you off.”My brow furrows. I can’t think of anything Lia could have done to irritate me when she was drunk, but now that she mentioned it, I’m curious. “Which is?"She draws in a shaky breath and squeezes her eyes shut briefly as the words tumble out. “I’m sorry for... for asking you to h