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39. Frustration
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2024-10-29 19:42:56He wrote and he wrote until there was nothing left to say. His hands hurt and his mind was getting fuzzy as sleep was trying to take hold of him.
Just as he dosed off, Detective Drake walked into the hallway and found his room. When he saw Finn sleeping he decided just to sit down for a moment and within seconds he too was sound asleep.
Around 6 am Elle walked in the room to check in Finn and she was shocked to see a stranger sleeping in his room. What was going on?
Elle walked over the the stranger and shook his shoulder and asked with concern in her voice, "Excuse me sir, but why are you in here? How do you know Finn?"
Drake just stared at the nurse as his brain cleared from his dreamworld to reality. He mumbled, "Detective from Philly. Here to see Finn."
"Well, I have about had it with you detectives and your handcuffs and your rules with our patients. They are here to heal and not be trea
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