MAX'S POV
So I booked my flight to Vancouver, Canada. Because I don't want to bother Vesna especially since she's still being distant towards me. It was a complicated decision because I just arrived here yet I had to leave again. Arriving in Canada might have no difference to New York but I'll take the risk otherwise. I mentioned this decision to Liam right now during dinner though he seemed doubtful.
"You know, if you think that the front desk woman is telling you the truth then I think you shouldn't just barge in there showing up in Amaya's university and asking her to step down." At first, his suggestion didn't matter to me but it pissed me off that he said the same thing as Vesna.
"Liam, I have a lot on my mind right now and what you're saying is nonsense. So if you disagree with what I want then you can go back home with Vesna. I had enough of this sort of advice." I said as I took my luggage bag and started packing again.
"Okay then. But I'm gonna ask you one more thing, Will you be at ease when you get home? Or will you still be thinking about this competition? Because that's your personality problem. You'll be carrying it inside your head until you think it's done but guess what? It is a never-ending cycle." For now, I still can't find a way to understand his words but it'll sure stick around.
"Anyway, it'd be weird if you're just gonna go there and announce her to stop. I suggest you get enrolled there. Change your name and your other details so that you won't cause a crowd. You'll pretend to be someone else. A transferred student. You'll get to have friends there that will keep you distracted while waiting for her as well." Liam's idea made me turn my head in his direction and he just smiled.
"Friends? Are you serious? That would take advantage of my money?! I can't let that happen." I said while I impatiently took off my shirts from the closet and placed them in my bag.
"Max, not everyone is like that." He tried to reason with me again but I don't think I even have the time.
"Liam! I am already an adult! I'm a man! And there are a bunch of stupid people who don't even know what life is like. They're lazy and loud, messy and weird. These kinds of people take advantage of everything! May it be kindness or money?!" I exclaimed looking at Liam from time to time.
"Just like what you did to Vesna recently?" His words caught me off guard and made me stop everything I was doing. I sat on the side of the bed while Liam remained standing looking down at me. I don't know why but I feel like I keep on missing a lot of things yet I just can't get a hold of them. I tend to assume that everyone is always against me and I couldn't understand why.
"What I am trying to say is that- You need that kind of environment. Relax sometimes. I'll work on your enrollment forms. I'll see you tomorrow, Marco Holland."
Marco, what now? Did he just make up my fake name for me?
AMAYA'S POV
"What name would you like for your new school Amaya? You decide. Cause tomorrow I am gonna work on your enrollment form which I hope will be able to pass on time because you've been too distracted and you won't answer me properly anymore." I can hear Diego from the back of the car while kissing Flynn. I'm so happy that Diego has so much patience with me. If it were Noah, he might have dropped me out of the car already.
So I stopped and replied to him. This time in the right manner.
"Amy Wills, It's good, right? I still have my initials with me. Amaya Wescott as Amy Wills." I joked and Diego just raised his shoulders with a smile. Looks like I am not that bad with names.
"How about you Flynn?" Diego asked him looking from the rear mirror so I turned to him as well.
"I haven't thought about it though. I think I'll just go on with my real name. I am not that famous anyway. And I am planning to apply to work at some hospitals here so my real name is quite useful, especially with the IDs and licenses." Flynn formally replied to Diego like he always does while I have been casual all the time yet for some reason I felt bad for doing so after seeing Flynn like this. Should I start doing the same then?
"That's true. Alright then, it's settled and I am gonna pass this three days from now since I have to let Malia confirm this for you and they'll be able to send you a fake identification card or anything that matters here, Okay?" Diego continued being in charge of this trip while I enjoyed the moment not being the boss for once.
Finally, the car stopped and we looked at the building in front of us with the name, Holiday Inn & Suites. We then looked for a parking area so we could start getting settled and I wondered what the rooms could look like.
"Can't we check in to our partnered hotels?" I asked, unsure of the one in front of us. Is Malia trying to teach me how to budget money too?
"Malia says to lay low so we have to stay in a less expensive residence so that if ever your classmates or friends need to come to your house then there's nothing to worry about hiding your identity. Besides, our things are in there already. We can't back out now." Diego continued as he stepped out of the car and so did Flynn. I was about to follow them but before I did. I took my glasses and wore them just in case people would recognize me.
When Diego saw me. He suggested that I take off my glasses and believed in him that no one would know me. So I tried and as we arrived at the front desk, they just looked at me and greeted me like a normal person. No standing up and bowing nor acting hyped up to entertain us and bring us to our room or any other special treatments. Yet, I'm the one who got excited. As we were on our way to our rooms riding an elevator there were other people inside with us. Even a staff member came in with a trolley that gave us a tight space. And the other residents are cool with it. No complaints at all. I am astonished by how normal people do in their daily lives. My first time was on that public-seat plane. I can hear everyone talking and talking non-stop until they fall asleep. It was also odd when others were able to sleep with the noise around. I am so ignorant of how a usual life should be and I'm happy to feel bits of it.
Our rooms are just beside each other so that if ever we have any kind of emergency then it'll be easier to knock on the other person's door. Especially copulating emergencies. Each of us took the time that was left for the day to rest. This time, no disturbances. No matter what my dream is, I won't knock on Flynn's door.
Instead, I end up just watching N*****x on my laptop since I can't sleep in a place that I am not familiar with or without alcohol to make me drowsy, other than sleeping with a man beside me of course. I can't just keep stating how addicted I am to sexual intercourse. Since I started living normally now, I should think like a normal person too. Starting with my movie choice.
Three days later, I ended up not having proper sleep at all because of watching a N*****x Series till I fell asleep at dawn. It was an unhealthy way to be welcomed by Canada though at least I was able to sleep this time just not in a normal way. Since Diego and Flynn found out what I am doing. They are now starting to sleep in my room since there is a spare bed and a long sofa that someone can sleep on. By doing that, I was able to sleep early because I was comfortable with the people around me.
"It's good to see you sleeping properly now." As I woke up with Flynn beside me.
"Thanks." He kissed my forehead and smiled at me.
"Today's gonna be a great day for Amy Wills. So let's get you ready okay? Diego went to Capilano University first so, I'll be driving you there today." Flynn said staying beside me on my bed for a moment and just enjoying watching his face that was close to mine.
"Oohh my first day of school with the one and only Flynn Harris." I teased then sat on the bed.
"Hahaha Stop goofing around and go take a bath." He then stood up from the bed and moved to the closet to look for my clothes.
"Aren't you taking me inside?" I teased him again while I was holding my laugh waiting for his reaction.
"Amayaaaa.."
I then laughed as I went inside the bathroom. Bathing was not that hard for me until today. It took me a while to stay there thinking about my old college life. People avoid me either because of my status or my mom. They feel like hanging out with me is a threat to their lives. My mom doesn't want anything to distract me. When a guy came near me, offered his body to satisfy me, and just paid him in return. That was the first time someone talked to me and disrespected me. So I accepted his offer. Yes, the moment that my virginity was taken was with some stranger in college that I even haven't gotten the name of. Because after he received the one hundred thousand dollars? He left New York and who knows where now. Thinking about it made me cry in the shower curling down on the wall. Suddenly, I heard heavy knocks on my bathroom door. I couldn't open it. My legs just won't stand up and my tears just keep on falling. Later on, the door opened and Flynn's anxious face greeted me. He turned off the shower and placed a robe on me. I can see that he was concerned about me. But am I wrong to feel doubts sometimes?
MAX'S POV
I have already been here at this university for a week, dealing with two people named Miles Taylor and Kade Lee while waiting for Amaya Wescott. Yet, my real purpose here has finally been issued to arrive today and has been the talk of the whole school. Classes haven't started yet so I just kept waiting at the entrance door for her. I was hoping to meet her first before the rest of these people.
"Hey, Marco? Aren't you coming to the classroom yet?" Miles finally asked as he's been standing beside me the whole time since he arrived. I don't exactly know what's his deal but I just let him be, it's not like he's making trouble. Though unlike me, whenever other university students pass through him he happens to know a lot of them which makes them greet him while I remained invisible.
"I'll be waiting for the new student here," I said without thinking of how they might translate it inside their minds as Kade just arrived with a burger in his hand.
"Oh, that won't work. Trust me, I've tried that plenty of times with the newly transferred female students here but they won't even budge. Girls are as hard as a shit man! I suggest you avoid them instead." Kade said before taking a bite of his burger.
"Kade, Marco's not like you. You are a nerd and no one likes to listen about science stuff or whatever things you like. And you have anger issues so let's just leave Marco alone. Good luck man!" While Miles put his arm around Kade's shoulder as they left. I don't know what's gotten into me but I am somehow learning to get comfortable around these guys.
"Hey, Kade! Another thing why girls won't like you is that you are not attractive." I chuckled teasing Kade who tried his best to turn his head in my direction while Miles was holding him so tight.
"I know," Kade replied with a disappointed face. As they continued walking, I could still hear Miles talking to Kade about his appearance.
"See? Even Marco agrees with me. It's time to burst out those muscles man! Join my team!"
"Are you serious? I can't even catch a ball! Much worse shooting it."
I appreciated these two's presence at this University with me. Because every time I get too serious thinking about what's going on back in California, Miles would suddenly come up to me and let me hear his stupid jokes. Later on, it suddenly got funny. It's funny because it's awkward. Kade, on the other hand, is usually daydreaming about Freya Hayes. We tease him a lot and yet, he doesn't care because we still hang out with him. Is this how normal people handle harsh comments though? With a laugh or a rebond insult? But not getting physical? How is this place so bully-free? If I want to stand out, then should I become the bully here?
The bell rang yet there were still no signs of Amaya. Or maybe she meant to be late so people won't recognize her. I had no choice but to go back to my class. I can't risk getting punished by a college professor who doesn't know that I earn a hundred times more than they do. But suddenly, the discussion was disturbed when the professor looked at the back to where the exit door was. So everyone turned their heads as well.
"Yes? Can I help you with something?" The professor asked.
"Umm... The headmistress said this is going to be my class?"
It was her. Amaya Wescott.
The professor waved his hand to let her come in front of the class which she did. Such an obedient woman for someone being punished for her reckless behavior.
"Introduce yourself." The professor said and stood aside.
"Hi, Umm... I'm Am- Amy Wills and I am gonna be with this class from now on."
For a businesswoman, she's too tense being in front of college students or was she acting?
"You're so pretty!" Kade suddenly shouted as I bowed my head in embarrassment and fear that Amaya might recognize me because Kade sat after Miles who sat beside me. Everyone laughed at Kade.
"Thank you," Amaya politely answered.
Freya Hayes then raised her hand to let Amaya notice her and offered the seat beside her.
"Well, would you look at that? Two angels sitting beside each other. It is indeed a good way to start the second year of college." Miles has his way of complimenting the girls too.
But I was not flabbergasted by the looks of Amaya. I despise every smile she makes. When suddenly, she looked in my direction smiling, and waved. I was confused and looked disgusted by how friendly she acted. She murmured something in her mouth. Which made me look at my seatmate.
"Thank you," Miles replied, trying to hold back his excited voice. Then he knocked Kade's elbow on the desk expressing his excitement and informing Kade about it.
"You heard that man? She said 'We'll talk later' That means we're gonna introduce each other formally." His whispers were so bad that I got a feeling that the professor could hear him.
Until...
"Mr. Taylor, why don't you answer my question to impress our new student here." The professor did notice. Yet, here we go again. Three days straight for this week.
"Umm... About that-" Miles stood up with his hand behind his head looking nervously at the professor.
I looked back to Amaya trying to understand what was written on the board.
And I thought to myself... Glad to finally see you, Amaya Wescott, or should I say Amy Wills.
AMAYA'S POV
Please be kind to me, Capilano University. I just had my second chance to enjoy college.
MAX'S POV After class, Miles immediately ran towards Amaya Wescott who's now Amy Wills to introduce himself. Yet, since we are a group I had to tag along wherever they go even though I don't want to. I don't wanna get recognized by her and at the same time blend in. "So.. Umm... Hey, I'm Miles Taylor. You can just call me Miles." He offered his hand and she gave hers for a handshake. "Hi, Miles. You're charming." Her smile disgusted me. I'm not sure if it is because I hate her or I just can't see that for now. But it seems that most of the students here are fond of her like Freya. "Thanks. These are my friends, Kade and Marco." He pointed to us. Which, I'm not interested in doing so. She had to earn the right to hold my hand. "Pleasure to meet you." Kade bowed to her as a greeting while she offered her hand to me. Of course, I didn't give her my hand. Why would I? Instead, I just stared at her. As she slowly took back her hand and placed it behind her she smi
AMAYA'S POV Being here at Capilano University is fun. Though not at the part where they want us to choose a specific sport to train with and participate in some games soon. It was not ideal for me since I am not physically sporty. I am more of a strategist. That's why I played chess instead. And somehow, someone managed to challenge me. His name is Conan Evans. He is not from my class and he's not the type of person I'd like to hang out with. He's so arrogant that I wanted to shove every chess piece in his mouth just to shut him up. "Hello, Newbie. You need more luck than just my pretty face in this game so be ready." As he gave out his hands in front of me before he sat. But damn, I am not feeling his vibes at all. Yeah, he is attractive alright but the rest of him is a total red flag. "You know? I've been playing this game since I was eleven. I know a lot of techniques that you don't know of." He said while cracking his knuckles. I rolled my eyes at him a
AMAYA’S POV As soon as Marco arrived our professor also dismissed us, making me feel relieved because the rest of the group couldn't think of any entrepreneur and just decided to talk about it the next day. But fate just keeps mocking us. Our dear professor visited our circle before he left and gave us a subject suggestion to report because he thinks that it is gonna be interesting, especially for our generation. “Have you thought of which entrepreneur you’re gonna report yet?” He asked.“No, we can’t think of someone interesting sir,” Freya replied.“How about you try the HOWARDS or GALIVIOSA? I heard that the owners of those companies are one of the best and they're around your age. It’s a very good example.” My eyes widened together with my mouth. We can’t have that topic. I can’t be revealed.“We’ll talk about it before leaving school. Thank you, professor.” Marco replied all of a sudden when he was not the type of person who would easily agree to someone’s suggestion
MAX'S POV After attending that messed up class and having an argument with Amaya I went straight home to attend a meeting with Vesna and the board members online. Which also reminded me of how much I made myself such a fool to Amaya's face. I can't believe I ruined my own company's reputation just for a class project. I sounded so stupid. Not to mention the slapping of Conan’s hand on Amaya’s. That part was worse, why am I even caring about her? I even made that foolish excuse that made me glad that she bought it. Yet the truth was I was just staring blankly at the board and just noticed Conan’s odd look at Amaya so I got alarmed. I even acted so dumb when she tried to thank me. Releasing my stress through eating. It was my first time doing that so I never thought I could stress out like some obese kid from grade school. Until that debate had to happen which did not end the way I anticipated it. She damn kissed me! The woman’s crazy! I got caught off guard and I was
AMAYA'S POV It happened when he asked why I hadn't left the car for about fifteen minutes already. I was just silent sitting in the front seat waiting for the right time. I don't want to leave like this. "Amy... I-" He looked at me as he was about to start talking, that movement alone was a go signal for me to kiss him. He was cut off from what he was about to say and moved his lips along mine. He cupped my face as I started to move closer to him, making myself sit on him. I could feel his hands drifting in my body like he was trying to figure out its shape. We kissed passionately. It felt similar to how Flynn and I do it. I took off my shirt and so did he, having ourselves half naked. The heat has finally released between us. It was extraordinary. Then he slowly lifted me as we moved to the back seat. He was in control of everything and I am loving it. Describing every bit of his body is just too perfect. I love the way he kisses all over my neck. All t
AMAYA'S POV My arrival in New York is not what I thought it would be because what I know is just Malia being hospitalized and I know nothing more than that. It gave me the awareness though when Vanique greeted us with a newspaper with Galiviosa as its headline. I read it all throughout our trip to the company. It was about some employees' complaints about how they were treated inside Galiviosa. It says there that I was an awful employer when I haven't even touched them or had bad comments about their performances. Yet I do scold the seniors but these here were just the staff. I doubt this article was even true. They have statements written but not a name of those employees. I can't believe that they were able to make this news get published without decent proof. "How long has it been since this was out?" I asked Vanique after I read a few parts of it. "Since last night." "How about our parents who are very speedy with dealing with media problems?" "They didn't do anything. They
AMAYA'S POV Before I could open the folder. My phone rang and it was Marco. It was weird for me that I suddenly got excited about it. So of course, I answered the call. "Hey? How did you get my number?" I answered with a series of questions. "How did you know it was me?" Well, for that. "I think Miles gave everyone each other's numbers 'just incase', he said." I was caught off guard for a second so I had to be honest. "Well, It was a good one. I have to give him that." "Haha..yeah. Anyway, what's up?" I asked as I leaned back in my chair. Am I not too obvious that it made my break worth it? "Can I say I missed you?" The sound of messing up with me was behind the phone and I didn't expect him to say things like this. Well, there's always a first time for everything right? "Shut up, Marco." "Just kidding. How was the emergency you said?" "Worst. That's one word I could describe it. I don't think it's gonna get better after three days." "You need help?" Help? What does he kno
AMAYA'S POV After four days here in New York City, I am finally going back to Canada to make Mr. Howard's purpose there worth it. It could have been mischief for him that I had to leave after getting close to me. Flynn flew to Canada first to settle all our things in a hotel or place where he thinks that Max won't be able to find us. At least now, leaving is not that hard anymore. Vanique's recovering and is taking care of Noah now. Diego finally became conscious after two days at least while Malia is in a coma and so far, being in the ICU makes her vitals get monitored all the time. I hired private nurses to take care of them. That's the least I can do for them while I'm away. As I stepped out of the car Freya ran to greet me as everyone else followed. Flynn hasn't left yet so I let him get out of the car to meet everyone. "Amy! I'm glad you're back!" Freya hugged me so tight that I was not glad at all. Max was right, she suddenly changed. She then jumped back to Max's arm grabb
THIRD PERSON’S POV On their upcoming day of exchanging vows, Amaya’s wishes were supported by Max. He helped with everything as much as he can. He looked for willing volunteers especially those from Brooklyn. He also contacted their friends from Canada and Malia sent off twelve people as well. Noah and his family offered their assistance too. Yet this charity had to last a week than it was anticipated because of an additional team building activity and physical check-up. Kenzo on the other hand worked hard with them. They even had a surprising guest who came after he found out about the major event the Galiviosa was holding. “Xihizoo!!!! It’s you! It’s really you!!” Amaya was so happy upon the real Xihizo’s arrival that she jump straight into his arms. Xihizo was surprised by this new behavior Amaya showed but he was glad that she was doing fine. His gaze was then caught by a familiar face in Amaya’s office, he separated himself from her and walked closely to the stranger. By the t
AMAYA’S POVI decided not to continue with the case anymore and open him a new opportunity instead. We returned his things back to his safe and left a note on his bedside table. Please see me in my office tomorrow, Kenzo. -AmayaNoah drove Ace and me back to my office and while on the road, I can’t help but think about those people who are desperate as him. Even though I missed certain events in my life I can still keep up with it now that I am the boss yet not them. Because once they stop they won’t even have enough to feed the mouths in their family. It’s sad but that’s reality. The car stopped when the traffic light turned red and I saw a homeless man sitting beside a restaurant while most people just walks past him. It breaks my heart just by looking at him. Then an idea popped up in my head. When arrived at the Galiviosa, I talked with Noah and Ace about what was going to happen next. “I suggest we keep the recordings just in case he makes another reckless decision. I don’t do
AMAYA’S POV My suggestion hyped Xihizo so much that he even led the way back to his room. He ordered so much food and drinks. He was feeling abundant that he also invited Noah to eat with us. When we were still at the bar earlier I saw Ace pass by so I excused myself to the bathroom. There Ace added a micro mic behind the button of my shirt and a camera on my necklace. “He has a very low alcohol tolerance so you can start asking him anything you want once he gets drunk. Act curious about what he remembers about your childhood and as I estimated he will last for at least an hour drunk talking so be sure to ask as fast and as much as you can. I’ll be watching you from the other room. Don’t worry if he tries to make a move on you because his room is surrounded by cameras. Once he’s down, I’ll get inside with you to open the safe where he hid all his documents.” I felt relieved that Ace is here. I may have planted that idea in Xihizo’s head but it still doesn’t change the fact that I
AMAYA’S POV Since that Scrooge got what he wanted he doesn’t bother us that much anymore. He’s like a spoiled brat right now just because he’s been pampered with all the cash and services. I didn’t want this to last for a week but it seems that Ace couldn’t make time. I’m really sorry Amaya, there is a ceremony coming up this Saturday which means the following days are going to be busy and need extra hands. You know I badly wanted to work with you, It’s just that right now isn’t the best time. I promise I’ll be there as soon as the ceremony is over. And while I’m at it, I’ll assemble all the instruments. Now I felt bad for Ace too. I only wish I had the same knowledge as Ace with the technologies. Then I wouldn’t have to bother them about this. And about Max, I was able to turn the table by acting that Ace was really asking how I was doing while he continues to explain himself. After that, I distracted him with a kiss and it continues to something else. Being entrapped by this cha
AMAYA’S POVI would be owing a lot to Noah. Though I can only wish there was something I can do to help with their relationship. Vanique was still on a break that I gave her to take some time to reflect on everything that has been happening in her life while Mom was trying her best to accompany her. My head right now is a mess that I couldn’t even try to review Max’s preparation for the wedding. I had too many expenses coming especially with an additional Scrooge-like someone.“Hey babe, You still haven’t been able to see the coordinator's idea. We really need your utmost opinion about it. You are the bride after all.” Max’s determination about this wedding remained the same. I love his enthusiasm though and I hope that he will continue to remain occupied. I was trying to clear my mind on the couch while he tries to make use of the time to get my perspective on the wedding. “I’d like the church to be at the St. Peter Cathedral. The theme would be just fine if it's all white so it wo
AMAYA’S POVWhen he raised his voice my body started trembling. He’s making me anxious. I don’t understand what he is so upset about. I kept on stuttering while I tried to calm him down. It went silent between us for a few seconds and I couldn’t help myself to hold my breath. It’s like I was waiting for him to do something aggressive. In his state, it wasn’t impossible to happen. But I was lucky when he suddenly left the conference room doing nothing. As I heard the door close, my legs gave up, and I fell to the floor, losing all my strength. Then I didn’t even notice that I was already crying. My chest felt so heavy that I am trying to keep up with my breath. I wanted to wail though I couldn’t. The room feels so cold. I didn’t want to get up. I stayed inside there for as long as I can remember when Max shows up. I looked at him blankly because I couldn’t really tell if I should be happy or not. But despite my anxiousness, I was able to notice a bruise beside his lips and right eye.
MAX’S POVThe presentations went well and I was able to make a decision on the spot. Though still, I felt bad someone had to leave so I made a different offer instead.“Anyway, I don’t want you guys to leave disappointed so I’m gonna offer you a different job. It is not going to be a wedding though but you’ll have to organize an event for my company. Since we launched our branch here, we haven’t really made a decent event to celebrate so that’ll be coming maybe a month from now. While the other team will organize a gala, I’ll let my assistant contact you. As for the chosen team, hopefully, my fiance will be ready by next week so kindly keep your presentation. I’ll contact you for the schedule as soon as possible. Thank you.”Now, I needed to get back to Amaya’s office and I am expecting the guy to be gone. I would probably take three days' leave from my work so I can do this without my time being divided. That’s the least I can do. Now, I am done with the organizers, should I let them
AMAYA’S POVBefore Max returned to us in the office, Xihizo was left on the couch watching TV while I went back to sit at my table to sign and review some papers that had just arrived. I remembered we haven’t continued our wedding preparations since the incident. I reached out to one of my drawers and found the list I made and the samples of the invitation format. There was also a folder filled with different color schemes which I haven’t decided yet. I felt the same excitement I used to feel when I started this. I took all of it out and placed it all on my table. When Xihizo noticed it he walked towards me and asked about it.“These were my part of the preparations. I can’t believe I didn’t make that much progress.” I said to him with a soft tone trying to control myself not to cry. The thought of marriage made me happy and more to that I am going to be with the man I love. I couldn’t stop imagining walking down the aisle while he waits there at the altar. I want that to happen as s
MAX’S POVIt has been a while since I had a nice sleep like this, especially with Amaya beside me. She became one of my comfort zones after I realized I was already in love with her. But as I turned my head on the other side of the bed, she was gone and I also noticed that I may have been asleep for a while now. I tried to peek from the curtains to know if it was still night time but the sun almost blinded me with its brightness. It was morning already so I proceeded in opening the rest of the curtains so it may give more warmth to Amaya’s bed. Not that last night was not enough but also since sun rays may also have their benefits. And since I am already naked, I think it would be best to just go to the bathroom straight. After taking a bath I went straight to the other floor where the kitchen was yet I didn’t see Amaya there. She did leave a note though saying that my breakfast is on the table so I went to the dining room where a plate is covered with a silver cloche and looked under