Forty Six

Nathalie's POV

The mourning season would be over by the next day, and The mating ceremony was in two days. It was not like the kitchen was short on staff but I didn't know why I was sent to work with them.

The day before I went to work with the kitchen staff for two days was going to be the last meeting with Lucas because either he finds his mate that day and he'd feel like he has succeeded in breaking me, not knowing I have been broken when they killed my father, my backbone. Moreover, they would not even see me after searching for a long while because I would be gone by the time they realized, I would have gone too far for them to run after me.

We were supposed to meet in his quarters but I was afraid that if I met him there, I might not be able to control myself and do something to harm him and myself so I told him we should meet outdoors like we used to that it had a special meaning to me. I almost vomited when I sent the message.

On a normal day whenever we met, I always place