Amelia Forbes
I couldn't help but feel really jumpy at school today. I ducked at the sight of every six feet male figure, feeling incredibly foolish when I realized it wasn't Jason.Okay. It wasn't my fault. He had literally threatened me last night so. . .I checked my timetable. We only had once class together today.Not that it would prevent the threats from happening. But it'd be nice to not have to see him till later.A tall, sandy haired figure came into view and I let out a small yelp and attempted to hide my head in my locker.After a few uneventful moments, I carefully inched my head out just in time to see the sandy haired guy-who was definitely shorter than Jason and had a pair of glasses on-give me a strange wondering look as he walked past.I restrained from slapping my forehead as that would only make me look worse, and confirm the fact that I had gone nuts.Instead, I grabbed my books and fled to find an empty space to hide.Jason DavenportMy eyes narrowed as I saw Amelia emerge from the stairs leading to the back of the school. What the fuck?She looked. . . happy. I hadn't seen her all day and I was starting to think that she was avoiding me because she was scared-which was good, of course.But here she was. The bitch was smiling like she just won the fucking lottery. Seeing her look so calm and relaxed pierced at something in my chest, rage beginning to bubble through me.What right did this bitch have to happy? It's her fault that mom isn't with me today. So what right did she have to look so happy. She was destined to be lonely and miserable for the rest of her fucking pathetic life. And I was going to make sure of that.Jason DavenportMy hands formed a fist in pocket as I leaned against a desk in the library. I checked my watch. I'd been here for 15 minutes? This bitch was making me wait for her. Again. Didn't she lear
Jason DavenportAssorted bottles of alcohol lined up in the center of Adrian's huge living room as the gang sat in an uneven circle, exchanging the latest juicy gossip and snickering heartily. We had all agreed to hang out at Adrian's today as I'd told them I wouldn't be available to do so for a while as I was helping my dad on an important project he was working on.No way was I telling them I was grounded.That was embarrassing.The only person who knew was Adrian of course, although I didn't tell him why.As Greg plunged into a story of the best blowjob he'd ever received- everyone laughing and chipping in at intervals-I noticed that the only odd ones out were Kimberly and Adrian. Kimberly sat in the center of a large sofa-Malia and Aneeka on either side of her-joining in the conversation once in a while, but mostly staring daggers at me everytime our eyes met.We hadn't talked since the shit that went down at my house. I pretended not to
Amelia ForbesMy hands shook as I struggled with the lock.Nana wasn't home yet so I had to let myself in with my key.Tears brimmed in my eyes, blurring my vision.Trying to wipe them away only made me cry even harder.Honestly speaking, I felt stupid for crying.How could I be so dumb? Why did for one second believe that today was going so well. That nothing would wreck the tiny confidence and happiness I had felt after talking with Ben.Jason was right. There really was something wrong with me.Finally managing to get the door open, I fled up the stairs and into my room. As I plopped down, the small, rickety bed groaned in disapproval. I gave a bitter laugh, "Of course, everything in my life is against me." I said aloud, covering my head with a pillow. Realizing now that I was completely exhausted, I felt my eyes begin to droop.Just a few minutes of rest, I decided. A few minutes, I reminded myself, already feeling m
Jason DavenportI shaded my eyes with my hands as the sunlight peeked through the huge, open window right across my bed.Squinting, I tried to adjust my eyes to the bright light. The wall clock opposite my bed showed that it was 6:50am. I scowled.I had come in late last night and I hadn't even gotten enough rest. Now I have to go to school.Fuck school.After stalling for a few minutes, I stalked to the bathroom where a servant had already prepared my bath, as per usual. Still feeling sleepy, I relaxed and let the hot water soothe and relax my muscles. As a thought crossed my mind I said out loud, "I hope that midget remembers that the Chemistry homework is due today." She better not. Or she'd get it. It took me approximately forty five minutes to get ready. With one final look in the mirror, I grabbed my backpack and headed for the living room, propelled by the delicious scent of bacon and fried eggs. I frowned as
Amelia ForbesI tried to stay quiet as Jason dragged me up the stairs. I had to jump, sometimes two steps at a time, to avoid getting injured. He obviously wouldn't slow down to let me adjust. I hadn't been here for over ten minutes and he'd already tried to choke me to death. A tear escaped my eyes and I quickly wiped it off with my free hand. He'd ordered me to stop crying, and disobeying him would just attract more punishment. Just 178 days left. You're doing great, Mel. I reminded myself, repeating my mantra in my head. Just don't try to be brave. Focus on the project and get it done. You'll be okay. Succeeding in steadying my breathing, I decided to stick to my resolution. Desperate to distract myself, my eyes scanned the mansion. I had thought it was beautiful the night of the party. But this right here was. . . magnificent. It was even more exquisite in the day, even. My eyes scanned the chandeliers, the marble
Amelia ForbesI could feel my legs about to give way any second as I tried to balance four Harry Potter sized books on my leg. Jason had made it clear that everything I touched automatically became filthy. So he didn't want filth in his house.I wasn't even allowed to touch the armrest of the chair. Trying to take my mind off my leg, I focused on the project. So far, I'd gone considerably far in my work.The fact that I'd started beforehand really helped. At this rate I might even finish before the week runs out. I'd calculated that I'd be done in a week but at the rate I was going it'd probably be done in 4 to 5 days.I screamed in joy. In my head, of course. Lest Jason find another reason to torment me. A few minutes later, I was at the last page of the first chapter I'd been studying-which brought day one of my work to a close. I rounded up quickly and began to fill the pages of Jason's project manual. I'd do mine when
Amelia ForbesHe's not worth it. Jason Davenport is not worth it. He's not worth it. I refuse to react. I refuse to give him another reason to pick on me. I repeated this in my head as I walked through the gates and out of his mansion. Two hours.Two hours working on OUR project. All on my own. And he didn't even offer me a single drop of water.I knew he was an asshole. But this. . . it was inhumane. I didn't expect him to be nice to me or anything. But this was something else.And I was famished, I felt like I would drop anytime soon. Just 4 days and it'll all be over, I reminded myself. I just need to finish on time.I checked my phone. 4pm. Nana would be worried.With that thought spurring me on, I walked faster.As I got to a street sign-from there a 15 minute walk to my house-I heard someone call out my name. Huh? That's weird. I don't really know anyone around here.I'm probably just hearing things, I concl
Amelia ForbesIt seemed like my bad luck was on a roll today because, I soon as I walked out of the classroom door-wiping the remaining tears on my face and still massaging my neck-Kimberly and three of her minions waylaid me. They backed me into a corner and forcefully led me into the girls' bathroom. As we got in, Aneeka secured the door and took her position directly behind Kimberly.Kimberly looked at me, one hand on her waist and her right hip protruding in her favorite pose. "What the fuck is going on between you and Adrian?" She spat, shooting me a glare. I swallowed. "What do you mean?" I asked, trying to buy time. Malia rolled her eyes saying, "Bitch, don't act dumb.""I don't know what you're talking about," I repeated, crossing my hands in front of my chest.Kimberly walked up to me. Out of nowhere she grabbed a fistful of my hair and dragged on it. I let out a sharp yelp, shoving her backwards with all the strength
Amelia ForbesThe day had gone by so fast and it was already about time for our dinner date. Dani came over to help me get dressed. She and Adrian were open about their relationship status now and they looked so good together I thought I would cry.She did my makeup too. I didn't look perfect because I still had a little bit of my tummy showing after the delivery, but Jason didn't care. Dani enveloped me in a tight hug as she saw me off to the limo."You look amazing, Ammie," She whispered. "Off you go. Be a good girl now."I whipped around, eyes widening in embarrassment. But she only winked at me and stalked off.God, I loved to hate her.I didn't know where we were going, and no matter how many times I'd asked, Jason wouldn't tell.Finally we arrived. He had set something up at one of the spots on the hill. There were lights and food, and even someone to play the violin.Again, how would he know I loved the violin?Benson.After about an hour of
Amelia ForbesIt had been a while since I'd had the baby now. Two months precisely.I had so many dreams I had wanted to realize after high school, so much I wanted to do. But all that was gone now. At least for a while. In the beginning it had saddened me deeply. But now, all I wanted was to make sure my baby got everything she deserved, and then some more.Being a mother changes a lot. Everything, in fact. And I really love my baby, but in she's always crying, and it's even worse at night now. We finally went to the doctor a week ago and realized it was colic. Thank God.I said a silent prayer. If I'm being honest, I don't think I could've handled it alone. Especially with Nana gone. The thought of her brought tears to my eyes. She had passed away peacefully at the elderly home. And I missed her a lot. Every day I would imagine all the beautiful words she would've used if she could talk.I thought of those times when she really was the only thing that kept me go
Amelia Forbes I deliberately sipped my hot cocoa slowly, as I watched Dani say hi to Adrian briefly and walk into the kitchen toward me. She pulled up a chair and lowered herself onto it, watching me with hawk eyes."What's going on?" Her tone was crisp."What do you mean?" I cocked an eyebrow.She rolled her eyes. "So pretty boy gets into an accident and all of a sudden you move in with him?"The anger that flashed within me knew no bounds as I raised her eyes to meet hers. "It was an attempted suicide," I said quietly.Her hand froze halfway to her lips. "What?" She managed to croak. "I...I had no idea that-""No you didn't," I snapped. She hung her head but didn't say anything more."And if Nana was still home, I probably wouldn't be living here now. So please don't play that card.""I'm sorry," She managed.I shrugged, eyeing her curiously. "And what about you?" I asked innocently. "Is there anything you wanna tell me?"She threw
Jason DavenportIt'd been five days since I was discharged from the hospital. My head still hurt, but I'd never felt better. Dad had convinced me to come back home and I'd agreed, on the condition that I'd keep working until I could afford to pay for college. And it'd been going great. My friendship with Adrian was still a bit shaky but we were working things out. We'd resumed our weekly hangout at my house to play either basketball or video games and it felt nice. Sometimes Amelia popped in to check on me but she never stayed for too long."Hey?" I shook Adrian as we both sat on my bed. He quickly tried to put his phone away and I eyed him suspiciously. "Who are you texting?" I asked. He blushed. "Um, no one?"I patted his back. "Tell me everything, my friend."An hour later, Adrian had narrated the love story that had sprung between himself and Dani Daniels and I stared at him in shock."Dani?!" I stage whispered, putting a hand to my mouth. "Holy sh
Jason DavenportI still wasn't sure what miracle had occured while I was unconscious.At first when I woke up, my first feeling was that of disappointment. I was disappointed that I had survived. Once again I'd proved that I'd always be a failure.But when Amelia had barged into my ward, a crying mess, and enveloped me in a hug, I thought I was dreaming. I still couldn't wrap it around my head but I was glad for it. Whatever had happened, I prayed that it would stay that way. As I relaxed my pounding head onto the pillow, my door swung open and I swallowed as I saw Adrian walk in.He stumbled awkwardly and took a seat beside me on the bed. "Hey.""Hey."For a while we sat there, not uttering a word to each other. "Why'd you do it?" Adrian finally whispered.I didn't need to ask to know what he was talking about. I took my time to gather myself. "I guess... I guess I was just tired of being such a failure..." I trailed off.Saying it brough
Amelia ForbesI sat fidgeting in the waiting room. It'd been three hours since we arrived at the hospital and everyone was seated, quietly. The truck driver had given a clear description of what had transpired. No one said a word.Tears flowed down my cheeks. He has attempted suicide.The thought broke me down more than I thought it could. I felt sad, guilty. I blamed myself for pushing him out in the rain and saying such hard words to him.I guessed those few weeks had put him into some deep state of depression. He was in such a state that he had seen suicide as the only option. It was then that I realized that he'd been honest the whole time.He'd been sincere. All the effort he'd been putting. I stifled a sob.What if something happened to him?My heart pounded in my chest. What would I do? I couldn't take care of a child alone. I couldn't...And he was so good with her. He'd be such a good dad. I couldn't... I couldn't lose him.I burie
Jason DavenportAs Amelia pushed me out into the blasting rain, I realized something. I was exhausted.I was tired.I was tired of the crying, tired of the begging. I knew I deserved everything that was happening right now and then some more, but I was tired. This was what I'd also be. The rapist. The criminal. No matter how hard I tried. No one would ever see the good in me.And it was all my fault. I showed the good in me too late. Way too late. So late that everyone would stand waiting for me to draw the curtains and prove to them that it was all an act. I'd always be the asshole. The monster. The beast.I looked up at the sky and sobbed. "Are you disappointed in me too, mom? This is what your boy turned out to be. A useless piece of shit."I slumped to the floor, my chest feeling like it was about to explode. "I'm a criminal, mom. I lost every-every thing. My friends, my family, my dignity. This is what I've become.""Nobody wants me m-mo
Amelia Forbes"I got in."Dani walked into my room beaming, a white envelope in hand.And although I knew what she held-a college acceptance letter, I asked, "Into what?"She rolled her eyes at me and laughed. "Bloustone College?" "Oh," I finally managed to mutter after a while. Dani stared at me in disbelief. "Really? That's all you're gonna say? I've been working my ass off for this and that's all you're gonna say?" She was right. I did sound kind of selfish."I'm sorry, Dani. I didn't mean it like that," I pleaded. "Of course I'm happy for you. It just.. it took me by surprise, that's all. You know how hard I've been rooting for you."She gave me a small smile and wrapped her arms on my shoulder. "It's okay, Ammie. I'll miss you too."My throat tightened. I was going to miss her. Even more than she thought. She was one of my best friends. She'd been there for me when no one else had. She'd practically forced her way into my life.I giggled
Amelia ForbesI woke up to the soft cry of my baby girl. We'd moved her from Nana's room to the room that used to belong to my parents.Careful not to wake anyone up, I tiptoed to the room and received a startle when I saw Jason cradling her in his arms.My first thought was to go in and snatch her away from him. If he hurt her, I swear. But I waited. And I watched.I watched her stop crying as soon as he picked her up. I watched him coo her, kiss her cheek and began to hum a tune. Was he singing? I wondered, my mouth agape.What had happened to the Jason Davenport from high school? And who was this softie? Was this all an act? To gain my forgiveness?But he knew everyone was asleep. So why would he act when there wasn't an audience. I don't know how long I stood there for. But i watched them, a wide smile permanently plastered on my face. He knew just how to hold her. How to rock her back and forth so she would fall asleep.How?What changed?