Chapter 02

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"I don't want either of us to ever forget this night, my dear Camille".

I heard his voice more audibly, his voice... I know his voice!

"It can't be"...

I feel my heart pounding faster, the same voice belongs to the one that has always been with Camille, the one that had always made her heart flutter, the same one that had proposed to her and put the shiny ring on her finger.

"No, it can't possibly be, my heart leaps into my mouth, Camille's "Boyfriend"!.

"It's not him, I did not go into the wrong room, I would never possibly make that mistake, I would... Words leaving my lips, all that's replaced is nothing but fear. The cruel fear is back, making my naked body shiver under the blanket.

He calls "Camille" over and over again, gently shaking my body, the more he calls out, the more I feel like dying.

"It's can't be him, no" My head keeps spinning, and my mouth shivered, refusing to speak, refusing to reply to his calls. Suddenly he stops calling Camille's name over again, making me more frightened, his hand leaves my waist alone.

I squeeze my eyes, and made out his silhouette. The silhouette reaching to the stand, it dawned on me he wanted to turn the light back on.

Realizing what he was about to do, my heart beat faster and I do the first thing that comes into my mind: I grab my phone and jumped out of the bed.

My shaking legs barely able to keep my balance, all I wanted to do is to run far away from him, the bathroom was my only option.

Running inside with only one person on my brain, I try to call Camille, but the more I try calling, the more her phone is unreachable, my hand shivered in fear, making the phone fall on the cold tiles.

Footsteps growing closer, he push the door open and stopped my heart.

"Camille, what's wrong?"

Taking the first step inside, our eyes met. The horror is true, he is the same one, he is Camille's boyfriend and not a complete stranger, he's not suppose to be the one that I was meant to sleep with, what have I done!

"Iris!"

His face shocked, unreadable, his eyes moved down and stared at my naked body, finally realizing exactly what had happened. He just had sex with his girlfriend's friend, he just slept with me, but I swear I didn't know he was the one, I swear I didn't, I ...

"How dare you"

The shocked expression immediately replaced with rage, his eyes stared at me mercilessly, I find my shivering legs staggering back, but the more my shaking legs kept on moving back, the more he kept coming closer to me. I feel like suffocating.

"How could you" One more step closer, my bare back kissed the cold tiled wall. His eyes boiling, his hands grabs my shoulder aggressively, making me twitch in pain. He's not himself and I am not safe anymore.

"Tell me, how could you fucking do this!" He slams his right hand on the wall loudly, my eyes closing in fear, I open it again, as he held my shoulders more aggressively.

"I would never have knew you could be so disgusting, that you could stab your own friend in the back" He yelled out, looking at me with nothing but disgust in his eyes.

I tried controlling myself from tearing up, as I looked straight into his blue eyes.

"Xavier, l d...didn't know, believe me I swear, it.." I tried justifying myself, but the more I try to speak, the more I see flames in his eyes.

"It was not suppose to be you, it was supposed to be someone else, Camille told me to sleep with...

"You dare call her name after all you have done" he yelled, grabbing my chin forcefully. I looked into his eyes, as I could feel teardrops falling off my green ones. His hand eased and he let go of my face, pushing me violently to the side.

"Get out of here, before I do something to you" Turning his face away from me, his voice yelled out.

"I... I tried to explain myself, but my lips grew dead, I could say nothing. More tears fell off.

"I said get the fucking hell out before I end your damn life" He turns around, throwing a glass vase on the floor, before looking at me straight in the eyes.

"Out!, Now!" His voice in a deadly silent whisper. Forcefully dragging me out of the bathroom, he throws my clothes to my face.

"You must have done all this for money right?" He stares at my teary eyes, he fucking don't care. Teardrop after teardrop, I watch him with blurry vision reach to the drawer and bring out some little papers.

Taking a pen from the drawer, he wrote on the paper, before tossing it to my face.

"Leave right now!". He boils.

The humiliation my soul felt would end me, I have never been this disgraced ever before, my heart's bleeding tears, yet I managed to put my cloth on.

Putting my cloth on, I turned around to leave.

"Slut!" He whispered and I found my legs stopping, it turned back, I turned back, unable to bare the humiliation any longer. My eyes exploding with tears, I look at him straight in the eyes.

"You are right, am a slut and I did it all for money" I wiped my tears away and took a few steps, moving closer to him.

"You know nothing, Mr. Billionaire Xavier. You know nothing I have been through, only to find myself in another shit"

"You. know. nothing!" I yelled out, trying to hold the pain in.

"But I promise you one thing, I would never show my face to you ever again, as long as I live, neither would you ever have any fucking problem nor complications ever again".

I stomped out of the room, running out of the damn hotel, unable to hold my tears any longer.

How could I have made this grave mistake and slept with Camille's man, I rained curses on myself, as the tears kept on flowing.

But still, the curses I swore to myself, would never be able to compare to how my heart was bleeding right now.

My heels kept on running far away, until my legs gave up, unable to take anymore. Falling down to the ground in absolutely nowhere, my shivering palms found it way up to my face, trying to wipe away the uncontrollable tears.

"I feel so foolish.

Vibrating on my body was my phone, a message pops in...

"Hope you enjoyed the night sweetie~Camille". My heart arched harder, I felt like just dying. Clearly, she have no idea what I have done, she doesn't know yet that I have done the abominable and slept with her lover.

Guilt drowning inside me, it's killing every remaining life I have. I can't bare this guilt any more, there's no way I would be able to survive with it.

Camille texting me, meant that she was back from the photoshoot. My legs back up, it's time to face to consequences of my sin, it's time to meet Camille.

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"Lavender Grand hall", West dawn street...

Loud cheerful voices, it was a whole new universe.

This is the address Camille asked me to meet her. Her heart would be crushed into pieces by me once I tell her, but am ready to face it, am ready to face her wrath.

I walk in the Grand party hall, filled with top class fellows, rich fellows wearing exquisite dresses and tuxedos. They are all here, because of their one and only diva, Camille.

She gonna star in another movie and I guess it called for a huge party, a celebration, right?. I don't belong here, I would never belong.

I am going to tell her the truth when she's having a blast, celebrating her success. Some shitty friend I am, I cursed myself once again. I hate myself.

Walking around the big hall, someone grabs my hand, immediately pulling me to the side... It was her, the diva!.

"What's with the gloomy face" Camille beams, as I watch her stare at all of my facial features. Looking at her reminds me of my sin, reminds me of what I have done.

"I ..." I open my mouth, but could barely form any sentence. She gives me an awkward look before coming closer.

"Don't tell me you didn't enjoy your first night with a man" She whispered to my ears, making my spine shiver. Her words sounded like venom, I don't want to ever remember it.

I feel sick and reminding me of that, makes me feel more guilty than I already am. I don't deserve to be her friend, I don't deserve anything good.

"I am selfish, wicked and very foolish". My eyes barely able to bare anymore, it explodes, blurring my vision.

I don't care if Camille feels disgusted by my tears, I can't hide this any longer.

"I..." I wipe my tears away.

"I am ready to bare the consequences" I wipe my eyes again, before staring deeply into hers.

"What on earth Iris, are you saying". She arched her eyebrows, but I can't keep going like this.

"I made a mistake, I might have confused the room numbers, I... didn't mean to, I promise, I ... Xavier...

"Slept with him, you slept with my boyfriend".

My heartbeat increasing rapidly, I look at her straight in the eyes.

"How did you...

"What do you mean, Gosh Iris, you're so childish" She cuts me off, letting out a hearty laugh, making me more lost than I already am.

"I sent you to him, it was no mistake".

As if pieces of glasses were piercing through my heart, it felt like an a cruel joke. My eyeballs widening, she shrugged!. Camille shrugged, taking a glass of whiskey.

"Stop making a fuss, Xavier loves me and would marry me either way". She spat out, drinking her whiskey. My voice returns, bumbling inside me was nothing but rage and disgust.

"How could you do this" I spat out, throwing the glass away from her hand, only to realize it the minute after, but still, even though I did that, I don't fucking care.

Not only did she used me, she also played with Xavier, her so called lover's feelings as well. Shitty!

"What the hell Iris!" Her face squeezed with annoyance.

"You are a monster!" My lips spat out, unable to hold my rage in.

"How could you fucking do this" I repeated yelling, unable to keep my emotions together.

"What do you mean, you got your money, you should be grateful, but no, you just had to come and make a scene as always" She spat.

"No wonder you are not famous, no wonder you are a nobody, no wonder you're just pathetic and helpless, always meeting me for every little darn thing and when I help, you turn into a fucking fool"

Toxic!, she stared at me with daggers in her eyes, she is not Camille, she is nothing but a bitch, that just crushed me into pieces. People gathering around us, my eyes cloud with tears again.

I bit my lips to stop myself from tearing up. My hand reaches for her face, I slapped her, but that's all I can do, am weak and I can't break her with words.

Not my friend, was never my friend, I should have realized it earlier. I did, but I chose to ignore it, but not anymore.

Wiping the last teardrop from my eyes, I decided to keep my dignity.

Looking at her straight in the eye, I curved my lips into a weak, yet deadly smile...

"Yes, I enjoyed fucking your boyfriend and I would love to do it over and over again" I spat those words out to her face.

"Goodbye Camille Grant, thanks for nothing!" Piercing my eyes into hers one last time, I watch her open her mouth, only to close it again. She's powerless. Good!.

I turn back away from her and walk out of the damn party hall.. She's powerless, but my heart is in pieces. I guess my life was never meant to be filled with roses.

"You try to break me, I'll break you as well as myself into pieces, no one wins!".

"You break my shell, you'll face the consequences". I whispered, bitting my lips in order to prevent my tears from spilling.